WHO LOVES A BARGAIN

Come on ladies and gentlemen everyone loves a bargain!

Check out the lingerie it must ALL GO!!!!! Its all selling cheap, so please please come and grab a bargain!

Oh What a night!

Why do i continue to punish myself? I went out for tea with Sheree last nite, and finished the night feeling like a beached whale as we ate that much!! Then i called my dad to see what they were up to as they were catching up with some family friends of ours. So they were still out and i went for a catch up chat!! Then there daughter and I decided to hit the town. I don't usually drink beer and last nite i drank beer. I didn't have many but i have a headache this morning! Im getting way to old for this i tell you! So i have been up for the last couple of hours, cleaning the unit and doing washing, and now waiting 4 dad to come for a coffee before they head back to Melbourne..... and try and convince him to drive me to go and get my car! Otherwise I might ride around..

Well Sheree asked me to do a food diary this week, so i am starting as of today! But i went to have my weetbix this morning and my brother drank all the milk :( Thanks CJ!!!! So now im waiting on dad also to bring me some milk :) So a good start to my eating diary :)

Well Rage sucks this morning so i might kick back on the couch and put desperate housewives on!!

Chow all!!!

Its Saturday

So the weekend is here! and we also have some rain.Which is great especially when im reading stories saying that if we don't get some decent rain this winter we could run out of water in a year! Oh great!!!!! So that means being smelly. :) No showers!!! So please please central victoria be water wise :)

I did Pump at the gym last nite, and have sore arms today! Silly silly me had 5kg weights on in the bicept track, and i looked up and saw Sheree with 5kg weights on her bar, and as soon as i saw that i thought i shit im in trouble! Awwwww its pelting down with rain and theres thunder!!! I love the smell of rain!! Wow wish you could of heard that big crack that just happened. anyway back to what i was saying.... so i pushed myself the whole track and had to stop a couple of times to make sure i still had arms. so next week I will know not to put 5kgs on my bar!!!! Im still building my strength up!!!

As of monday I have seb so won't be going into the gym as much, will be doing more work outside so that i can take him with me in his pusha. The whole reason I got a 3 wheeler was so that i could go running with him. So this is my chance to use the pusha for its purpose :)

I just want to thank everyone who has been supporting me, and for the comments that I have been getting. I love reading/receiving peoples posts/opinions and how they cope with lifes challenges. Even though i have a close knit of friends its always good to have someone from outside sharing their opinions!

Wow this rain is awesome im going to go and sit underneath the verandar and watch it!! Its been so long!!!!!!

Weigh in Week 4 - Plus Measurements

I am a happy beaver :) I have not been weighed for a couple of weeks and today i got weighed. I lost 1.7 kilos... i am so damn happy..... I just can't believe it. Also Sheree did my measurements today and i have had a loss everywhere except the top of my thighs where i had added 2cm. But I am so happy because I have lost 4 cms on my waist and 4cms on my bum :) So now knowing that i am on my way to my first short term goal of losing 10kilos by June, i have more motivation to keep going!!

I went for a run with my friend Rhonda this morning.. it was good she really pushed me, and made me run up hills :( so my poor precious legs are feeling it today.. but off to the gym tonite to do pump....

Ok well im off to do some job searching

xxxxxx Everyone out there losing weight, keep it up!!!! and you all have my support

Motivation

I was talking about motivation in my last post, and yesterday I had lots of energy. After going to the gym yesterday, I ended up going for a run/walk around the res last night. I actually did two laps.I felt really good! Just hope i can keep these energy levels up!

Its weigh in day tomorrow, I haven't been weighed in two weeks, so im not expecting anything really because i haven't really been doing anything!

I had an interview thing with a job agency today, im so over them i tell you, someone just give me a damn job. I have never had to go through the process of looking for work, as all my jobs that i have had have been handed to me, so im finding this really frustrating!!! As much as i don't want to go back to work, as I really want to get the lingerie business up and going, I need money right now, and i need to stand on my own two feet and have my own place and my own space. Im missing my own space right now.... I love living with my brother, but sometimes this little flat seems over crowded. I don't understand how single mums living on centrelink afford to live on their own without working.There is no way I could afford to live on my own on the payments that I am getting!!!

I will get there I suppose!

I caught up with my dad briefly last night he was in town for a meeting. I miss him very much even though he is only in Melbourne, and i was telling him, how im not handling the whole shared care with Seb. He said that it will get easier, but will it?? Right now it doesn't seem like it will get easier. I miss him terribly. My heart really aches for him at the moment!! He changes every time I see him, he is doing something new every time I see him!

On a good note, the lingerie has been selling. So please please please get on and have a look!! All of it must go!! and im willing to bargain with you :)

SO Hope to hear from you soon!!

The Gym was my Friend this morning

Im feeling a lot better today!!!!

It was my best mates birthday on Monday Sheree, she is also my Slimplicy coach and my Personal Trainer, and so when I went into the gym this morning i gave her,her present, and the funny thing was that she hadn't given me my birthday present yet (my bday was in Jan) and she had it on her today, so we exchanged gifts :) But the most funniest thing is that she gave me alot of stuff for a bath, and i don't have a bath :( So im going to have to borrow someones bath so i can use these bath salts that she gave me, which are White Chocolate scent which is my favourite chocolate.... ...

Its so funny I get my chocolate cravings off my dad.. he is such a chocolate nut, and his favourite chocolate is also white chocolate, and I always remember when he use to do the shopping he would buy the chocolate and try to hide it.... but my nose use to smell it from a mile away!!!

Anyway today i was in the gym for two hours... Yes two hours... the first half an hour was talking to Sheree, but then i got my butt into gear!!! I did 2x weights, trying really hard to get rid of the nanna arms :)) sorry nanna xxx, and then i did 45 minutes of cardio. I did 15 minutes on the bike, 15 minutes of walking/running on the tredmill, and 15 minutes of this other machine which i don't know the name of, but its like your running in the air.....Ill find out the name!!! Then i did 30 situps, thats all my poor stomach could handle,but I do little crunch things and they really hurt!!

Ohhh has anyone seen pictures of Janet Jackson lately??? What has happened to her???? The poor darling has put on so much weight!! and now her record company is telling her lose your weight or suffer the consequences..... Im probably about to start a debate now, but i think its really sickening that all celebraties have to be stick thin to get anyone in life. What is this teaching the younger generation??? No wonder so many young people have eating disorders.

Im really proud of Debra Messing actually ( she from will & grace) of those of you who know her she use to be so stick thin before she got pregnant and now she is happy with her new body and likes her curves and doesn't want to get rid of them!! I think thats great!!!


Ok on that note, my washing machine has finished.... time to do some housework

They say not to regret anything!

They say not to regret anything!! Well i regret this...... i have not been very well the last couple of days i have had a snotty nose and weezzeeyyy chest, so i thought that i would go for a walk/run around the res again tonite, hoping that i could sweat this out of my system!!! Well i think i should of given it a miss, because right now my chest ain't feeling that good!!!! Ill get over it though, but im just so determined to get myself motivated again!! maybe i should of just walked....
I really didn't know how unfit I was until I started back at the gym again and started excercising!!!!

i haven't been weighed for a couple of weeks but i have an appointment on Friday so yeah.. i don't know how i feel about it really, because i have been so slack with eating and excercising the last couple of weeks... Please tell me how to motivate myself!!! I really need that!! I really need encouragement!! Its hard, I don't feel like I have it!!

Anyways biggest loser is on!!! must be off

xxxx

More Lingerie for sale

Ok

So check out the more lingerie i have for sale. Click Here

Happy lingerie looking!

Exercise

So i started my excerise tonite like i said i would :) I went for a walk/run for 45 minutes around kennington Res. I tell you im feeling it already!!! so I been stretching and stretching to help ease my sore legs:) I am so bloody unfit!! Its terrible.... I hate being so unfit!! But i will get there

Tomorrow morning ill be dropping Seb off to creche and saying good bye to him for the week, and straight into the gym :) Think I might do some weights!! Its been a while. I thought i would concentrate on weights in gym and cardio outside of gym.

So on that note i need a good nite sleep. Sleep tight everyone xxxx

LINGERIE FOR SALE -

Hey Guys

I have made a blog for some lingerie that I am trying to sell. I will be updating it over the next couple of days to add some more photos.

Check it out here!Pass it on to anyone that you may know, thats interested in some lingerie.

Cheers
Vanessa

Over Shared Care

Im having a hissy fit today! I have decided im over shared care.It really sucks! I really don't like Bendigo actually i F******n hate it, but having shared care I can't really leave the town!
It just so hard on me and its so hard to let Seb go for a whole week! Especially now that he is nearly walking, knowing my luck he will take his first three steps while he is with his father!! It just makes it that much harder because he is growning up so fast and doing something new every day and there is going to be things that i am going to miss out on and i don't want to miss out on anything :( He is my baby boy! I hate it i feel i have no control of this situation.

Beck i must say thanks for all your comments your the only one that comments. Your probably my only reader :) LOL hahahahahahaha....

My brother is suppose to be going to Geelong today, but he went out last nite so im sure if he is still going or not. I really would like to go with him, but when you go to geelong you have to have money so you can shopping in Torque at the factories! Its been ages since i have been to Geelong i really like geelong i love the beach! I could live at the beach any day.

So today is sunday which is the start of the week which means im starting my grueling week of hard exercise. Since i can't go to the gym today as i still have Seb we are going to go for a huge walk tonite!! I have a really lovely walking track near my house. You can hear the frogs, and all the birds its just really lovely!!! But since its a bush track i make sure to be careful just in case i come across a snake!

My Best friend Rinda brought me these two awesome red stools for my birthday! anyway seb is obssessed with one of them. I put it in his play pen so he could use it to help him stand, but instead he turns it upside down so the legs are in the air and pushes it around, eats the end, and holds the legs. And i think god he is going to trip and hurt himself so i turn it back over so its on its legs and he just pushes it straight over again! So i can't win really :)

Well im going to check out ebay and see whats going on!

My Boy Took his first Step

Im so excited. Seb took his first step on Wednesday. It is so very exciting. He has got alot more stable on his feet and has become quiet cocky, standing by himself thinking he is so good! :)

Im going out to my friends place Rinda today! She is having a gardening day and a bbq tea so that will be nice. Her mum died in December and its her birthday today, and ruth loved her garden, so we fixing it up :) Im looking forward to having a relaxing day :)

I have been very slack in the excercise department, but this week im going to get my butt into gear and head into the gym and work my arse off!!

Its so funny I have been watching Biggest Loser and im like if they can do it so can I, but yet still my arse hasn't moved off the couch :) Im such a slack arse! I need to get motivated and shift this excess weight that I have!!

Seb is having a morning sleep this morning, after fighting with me for the last half an hour jumping up and down in his cot not wanting to go to sleep. He has been getting up at quarter to 7 every morning this week. awww it has been draining! I just turn on the tv and let him play and i try to have a bit of a power nap. But this morning my brother had to start work early so he played with him so I could sleep which was really nice!

Well while he sleeping im going to have a nap too :)

Teeth and More Teeth

Wow in the last 2 weeks seb has got three teeth... He now has his two front top teeth and a tooth on his left hand side!!!! hopefully now he will be able to chew a bit more!! This week with him has gone so fast...... Im not liking the thought of taking him to creche monday morning and saying good bye for another week :( He has been a bit cuddly this week when going to sleep!!! I try not to rock him to sleep but a couple of times this week i have!!!

I was looking through photos of seb from his first two weeks of life. I can't believe how much he has grown and how his face has changed. This is one of my favourite photos. He is so little in this photo, but and now his little legs actually go over the front!!!!

Well im walking to swimming this morning, so better be off!

Me and Photos

Well by now you would notice that I love photos! Well dad just sent me a photo from Chirstmas! Its of my brother Krys and Seb!!

I have seb with me this week. and until now I didn't realise how much I hate the situation of having shared care!! Its so damn hard!

Well I really need to get my arse into gear and do some exercise after being sick last week I have become slack! Its time to get into some serious excerising and eating well.

By the way happy valentines day!

My Boys

Seb and I visited my sister the other day.. anyway got some cute photos of the boys. Taj was being so cute with Seb. Pushing him in the swing, it was just gorgeous. I now can't wait for seb to be able to walk, because on many occasions taj would run around the yard and poor seb either couldn't follow or he would start crawling and it wasn't fast enough.

Hope you enjoy the pictures :)

Grrrr

Well its Wednesday and i have not excerise at all this week.Im feeling a bit better but still having a few cramps in my stomach. But my poor little man is still sick! I took him to the doctors today, and they checked him up and all his vitals are fine but he does have gastro.... very bad case so just have to keep a close eye on him and make sure he doesn't get worse and dehydrated as soon as that happens back to the doctor.

Well im still job searching and it sucks. i have a job interview on Friday for the toy company so fingers crossed.. i think it would be an awesome job..

Why Me :(

Ok so not a good start to my week of knuckling down. What ever Seb has had i have now got it. I have been vomiting and sitting on the toilet all day today:( Hopefully it will only last 24 hours as i don't think i could handle it any more!

AArrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Yes so im writing again for the 3rd time today! Im addicted.

Close your eyes and imagine seeing the old insane lady rocky backwards and forwards on the front porch.. Yep you got it!! WELL Thats going to be!!!!

Women who are considering having kids, if you love your sleep, think again!!! im living on about 10 hours sleep in the last 3 days and i tell you, im running on thin ice!! Its been so hard and draining on me over the last couple of days while seb has been sick!! He has been so clingy and won't go to sleep without me. so i have just had a fight for the last hour trying to get Seb to go to sleep in his cot! He was screaming so loud I was waiting for the police to knock on my door and ask me if everything was ok. How do single mums cope with more than one child? I suppose they have to. I find it hard enough just having seb. Yes its ok I am coping, I have done if for 10 months now! At least with him going to creche, I hope that he comes a little bit independant, and it also gives me a break during the days when I have him to have some me time!!

My week without Seb this week is going to be full on. Im going to work my arse off this week. No more being slack. I have to fill out my food diary, I have to sweat, I have to push myself. I have measurements this week. Not that they will change much since I haven't lost a lot of weight or body fat. But I suppose I will find out on Friday!! I know that losing weight takes time, and patiences.. Yes patiences Vanessa (something i lack) But im sick of looking in the mirror and looking like a big fat blob!! If i had the money I would get it all sucked away! I suppose it doesn't help when half my wardrobe is clothes that are to small for me, and i pull them out going awwww wish i could wear my favourite jeans or wish I could that top!! (Probably wouldnt want to wear that top my boobs might fall out!!)

Well for all you Biggest Loser Fans out there, only a week to go until it starts!! Im excited... Oh talking about TV Shows did anyone watch Prison Break?? Ohhh my new favourite show along with OC and Desperate Housewives, which starts tomorrow night!! Ohhhh can't wait!!!

The Pharmacist said INSTANT!!

NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED

Well as you know seb has been sick. and for those of you who know me will be proud of me. I don't have a very strong stomach and Seb has been consipated 4 the last 24 hours and has been very restless and has been crying with the sound of HURT! But the only way to relieve him was with a suppository. Yes that meant i had to stick MY finger up his bum. i tell you it was hard for me, but it made seb feel better. The pharmacist said it will be instant results and thought yeah yeah but my god!! i have never seen a pooh like that before in my life. But i am very proud of myself because i crossed a boundary that i never thought i would.... But now i am trying to get him to drink this glucose drink as he is a little dehydrated and he doesn't like it!! but he has to drink it..

well im off to get something for tea!! Lucky i hadn't eaten yet!!

If your happy and you know it .....

Clap your hands!!!

Seh has just starting clapping his hands. and everytime i sing if your happy and you know it clap your hands he does it.. He is so cute!!!

I think he feeling a little bit better today! He actaully ate half a weetbix for breakfast this morning and some apple and had half a bottle so he might be getting his appitite back!

He wouldn't sleep last night unless he was with me.. so we both curled up on the couch and slept there the night! It was actually nice even though he tossed and turned, but i won't have him this week so to cuddle up to him was nice.

Im still finding it difficult to part from him for a whole week, and i know as time goes by it will get easier!

Ohhhhh complete change of subject.... i was going through the paper last nite and i found my dream job.... it aksed if you were a child at heart (YES) do you like working in customer service (YES) well this job is for you.. its working in a toy store!! so tomorrow morning im going to call and apply for it! I think it will be awesome!! Just think of all the toys i can play with :)
So we will just see what happens.

Well i was going to take seb to hanging rock today as i have never been there and thought it would nice, but i was just speaking to my sister and i thought i might go and visit her and stop in and see nan and parsie on the way.

So off to the supermarket now then hitting the road

Oh what a night

Firstly i had no change in my weight this week. :( Which means i have to work harder :)

Secondly I spent most of the night up with seb last night. He decided he didn't want to well and vomited and vomited and vomited some more! He has had a cold for the last week and i think he must have picked something else up from creche. Poor little darling. I just feel so helpless and everytime he gets hurt or there is something wrong with him i get all upset which probably doesnt help!! He is a little better today but he didn't eat his breakfast this morning. Maybe he is sick of weetbix :)

Make Note

Make Note....... 6pm weeknights hot guys running around res! Good motivation :)

Sore Arms, Sore Chest, Sore ........

Thanks Coach Sheree :) I have sore arms, sore chest, sore bum, sore legs, sore triceps!! :( I woke up this morning and couldn't get out of bed!! Poor seb was looking at me in his cot why I was lying in bed saying "come pick me up mum come pick me up"!! It was a damn struggle!!

Well it will all be worth it as weigh in, is here tomorrow!!! :) And my little precious has another full day at creche!!

OK off for a walk around the Res, hopefully might take some of this tension away!!