Eleanor Roosevelt:

The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experiences.

Friday, February 29, 2008

News Ness!

As my heart was pounding and my palms were sweating i knew it was the right decision. I walked into work yesterday at 1.30pm and sat down with the bosses and told them i was resigning! Handed over my letter that ails helped me wrote and told them that my priorities right now are with my schooling and my child!

Wow i did it! And i feel relieved but also sad because im leaving behind the clients that i love seeing every day and the babies that i have watched grow from concievement! Its going to be really hard but at the end of the day i know that i have made the right choice because now i can concentrate on sebastyn and my accounting course and my Party plan and get it all happening.

I am loving school and its really stimulating my mind, and making me think. I have now passed two parts of MYOB so i can do purchases and sales.!! fun stuff!!

Im looking forward to getting home at a decent time and having tea with sebastyn! Its going to be great!

Have an awesome weekend guys and be safe. tell the ones close to you that you love them!

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Thank Ness

There is a few personal issue happening in my life right now, a lot of changes will be happening and for the good may i add but one thing i have not done in a long time is thank all my friends and family for all there support and putting up with all my bull shit!

The last 6 months have been a real eye opener for me and certain things have been brought to my attention!! I am very grateful for the life i live and the people that are in my life right now. I have great support from many of you that read this blog and that put up with my text messages and phone calls! and my forearm shot on the tennis court!! Hehehehe!

All my friends are from different cirlces of life and have all taught me different values and how to stay true to myself! and for that i thank you. I wouldn't be the person that I am today if wasn't for all of you!

Sebastyn brings something out of me that i didn't even knew existed! The first time i heard him cry which felt like a bloody long time i knew then that my whole world would change. And it has, its brought me joy, sadness, frustration but most of all unconditional love no matter how much of a rat bag he has been! He has taught me lessons that no one else could teach me! He has taught me how to be strong, and be weak, but most of all appreciation, inspiration and determination to do what i want in life because i want him to grow up knowing that his mother worked her damn arse off to get where she is today and to provide for him and to show him the values in life.

My family is very supportive to me and probably put up with me the most. Living with my younger brother he probably gets the full brunt of me!! I don't think he really understands fully the appreciation that i have for him and how i look up to him in so many ways! He supports me with everything that i do, and he is such a doll with sebastyn! That kid just adores and treasure him like nothing else!! They are very cute when they are together. and seb is very lucky to have an uncle like chris.. He is such a patient person! NOT LIKE ME!!!!!
He is moving out in July which is fantastic for him as he heads in a new direction in his life, but he will be sadly missed in this house hold and im sure for many weeks on end i will get "where is uncle Cwissy"

So to everyone else thanks heaps and ill keep you all updated on my big news!!!

Ill end on my favourite quote in this universe

"DARE TO DREAM THE IMPOSSIBLE"

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Tired Ness

My body clock is all F&*^ed up at dot com at the moment!! Why?? Maybe because i have to much on my plate? Being back at school and working and having sebastyn isnt as easy as 123.. I thought it would be!! Well its proven me wrong!

I am physically and emotionally tired and it really hit me on sunday playing tennis with the girls!! i was exhausted that is why there is photos of me on the side lines!! It wasn't because i was getting my arse kicked LOL!!! by the way it was tops!!

So as i sit here writing this post at quarter to eleven on tuesday nite, im not tired and wondering why i am not fast asleep after school both mornings working yesterday after noon and playing netball tonite!! and entertaining seb this afternoon.. which isn't hard.... wiggles dvd was on and it was mum on the dance floor in the loungeroom acting like a monkey.. Yes it probably would of been a funny site... and ails i have not even had a sip of coke zero today!

It really hit me today i woke up in a head spin and all day i felt really light headed and like i was going to faint! it was not good!! had my massage this afternoon aidan asking have i drank enough water today "YES dad" had my adjustment my neck was out a little!! maybe that is why, but im putting it down to brain overload or should i say fried!!!

I have excercised pretty hard the past 4 days.... 3 games of tennis, two nites of walking, and a game of netball!! but i don't see that having anything to do with it really.. My feet are hurting from it!! i have Blisters! Yeah sore, i now know what tennis pros feel like when i see them gettting all taped up from blisters!!

This week weigh in is measurements and photos! im looking forward to comparing my results! I am feeling happy with how things are going with my body but getting inpatient that my tyre hasn't gone yet! I know it will happen but i have an obsession with it! Don't i Ails?????

Im doing relay for life this year im looking forward to it, im sleeping over this year! i can't wait.. also I think ails and I are doing run for the kids (but walking) i have to confirm that with her but im looking forward to that too if we do it!!! don't know how i will go with the distance but at the end of the day if i cross that finish line ill be proud!

Well i think that is enough rambling for now! ill be back shortly with a weigh in result!! which i don't think will be anything to get excited about this week as im feeling really bloated!!! Don't know why

Before i go i want to leave you with this. My sister sent it through to me and i really liked it


WORRY

Is there a magic cutoff period when offspring become accountable for their own actions?

Is there a wonderful moment when parents can become detached spectators in the lives of their children and shrug, "It's their life," and feel nothing?

When I was in my twenties, I stood in a hospital corridor waiting for doctors to put a few stitches in my daughter's head. I asked, "When do You stop worrying?" The nurse said,” When they get out of the accident stage." My Dad just smiled faintly and said nothing.


When I was in my thirties, I sat on a little chair in a classroom and heard how one of my children talked incessantly, disrupted the class, and was headed for a career making license plates. As if to read my mind, a teacher said, "Don't worry, they all go through this stage and then you can sit back, relax and enjoy them." My dad just smiled faintly and said nothing.


When I was in my forties, I spent a lifetime waiting for the phone to ring, the cars to come home, the front door to open. A friend said, "They're trying to find themselves. Don't worry, in a few years, you can stop worrying. They'll be adults." My dad just smiled faintly And said nothing.


By the time I was 50, I was sick & tired of being vulnerable. I was still worrying over my children, but there was a new wrinkle.... There was nothing I could do about it. I continued to anguish over their failures, be tormented by their frustrations and absorbed in their disappointments. My Dad just smiled faintly and said nothing.


My friends said that when my kids got married I could stop worrying and lead my own life. I wanted to believe that, but I was haunted by my dad's warm smile and his occasional, "You look pale. Are you all right? Call me the minute you get home. Are You depressed about something?"

Can it be that parents are sentenced to a lifetime of worry? Is concern for one another handed down like a torch to blaze the trail of human frailties and the fears of the unknown? Is concern a curse or is it a virtue that elevates us to the highest form of life?

One of my children became quite irritable recently, saying to me, "Where were you? I've been calling for 3 days, and no one answered I was worried."
I smiled a warm smile. The torch has been passed.


PASS IT ON TO OTHER WONDERFUL PARENTS(And also to your children. That's the fun part)

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Wikidz

Hey Guys.

Have you may have read on becks blog am i starting Wikidz party plan.

I got an email from them today with the new winter range.

Check it OUT HERE

If you are interested in having a party drop me a line... Also if you are out bush and can't have a party drop me a line with your address details or email details and i will send you a catalogue and you can order through me! I won't be able to start that until im up and going!

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Less Ness

Im surprised with my loss this week. Due to a lack of excercise and lots of cakes this week. One very delightful date with Miss Beck which ended with on delicious sticky date pudding with ice cream and Strawberries.. MMMm yummo!!!

School is going awesome and i love it so very much!! i said this year was going to be about me and its happening...

This weekend is going to be a full on weekend of tennis. Friday nite, saturday morning and sunday with the girlz!! i can't wait!!

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Weight In

Sooo another loss this week.. 600 grams which im pretty pleased with considering i didn't stuff all excercise...

soo down to 79.1kgs :) Yippie!! i set myself a target this week to see i can lose 1kg. If i don't do it i won't be disappointed.... Its just to see if i can or not!!

I am enjoying tennis heaps its awesome heaps of fun, school is heaps of fun im loving it and enjoying accounting..

Well i better get myself some tea and go get the lil man

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

A New Journey and I need Your Help

Hey Guys

I have decided to start Party Plan.. I am going to be doing children clothing sizes Newborn to 8... And i Need your help :) If you are in the Bendigo and surrounding areas and are interested in hosting a party for me can you let me know :) To start with i need a certain amount of bookings within 6 weeks to get me started, soo please please if you are interested let me know.

This is the website so go check out the products www.wikidz.com.au
Cute clothes

Hear from ya soon

Monday, February 11, 2008

Back To School

My head hurts after the weekend events! And the lack of sleep doesn't help really. I had my first day at school today and already i have homework! It was heaps fun its a class mostly of woman and the 3 men that are in the class are old!! They seem like a good bunch of people though! I was nervous about starting but i got over that!! i turned up with 5 minutes to go, and also got a parking fine since there is no where to park around there! But anyways!

have a good week guys

Saturday, February 09, 2008

Who Needs Alcohol!!!!

What an eventful weekend I have had, full on fun, excersise, lack of sleep, the law enforcement and even a bitch fight with the woman from Hell!!

It was a weekend with Ails and I where do I start?????

Dot point Blog coming your way....

Friday


  • Worked all day and finished about 6.45pm messaged ails to see if she was up for a game of tennis... Tennis it was!!! An hour of working those bicept muscles and also i have just noticed i now have a wankers muscle starting to happen :) LOL and not from wanking...
  • Decided about 11.30pm even though i was terribly tired to see what was happening in the world of Benders since we have not been out in ages... Went for a drive and guess where we ended up.... 50kms out of Benders and to a closed road.... which means we had to venture to eppalock to get home.
  • Lots of Frac that was being a complete mole!! Grrr that game is addictive but frustrating. for those who do not know what frac is it is 3D tetris....
  • Had a sleep over at ails as there was no way i could drive home, only to find myself waking up with a beautiful cat at my feet and my black pants covered in cat hair... i was coughing up fur balls i tell you.
  • Ails and Me being idiots outside... if you have ever looked at yourself in a car door you will notice that you are really short and fat... Its very funny!!!!

Saturday

  • Got my hair cut
  • Started to de clutter some old shit im sick of feeling like my draws are full of crap
  • Played another game of tennis and ails was whipping my arse with her serve.... but i got some good shots back :)
  • Ails cooked us a beautiful chicken honey mustard and rice dish for tea... awww it was bliss..
  • Put up with teenage girls playing shitful music next door.. so we thought to drown them out that we would put our music up loud. only to have The police knock on our door at 10.30pm to say that they had had complaints about the noise coming from the houses...... All was good.....
  • Another knock on the door from the barbie girls next door to ask if we could hear their music, please note that music was not on 10 minutes later it started again....
  • Moonlightening eposides where watched and then after the party died down next door and the spewing noises stopped i started to venture home.
  • As i was coming out the driveway of ails place the police where doing a drive by. so i stopped rang ails to let her know and knew that they would be waiting for me around the corner since there was party..
  • so im driving and about two minutes into my journey their lights were on and pulled me over. police "hello where are you heading" me "home" police "did you just come from the party that was around the corner" me "no i was the next door neightbour" police "have you been drinking tonite" me "no" police " promise" me "yes you can breathe test me if you like" police "no we just saw you drive out of the driveway and wondered where you were going that is all since there was party there tonite" "me "thanks have a good nite"

Today

  • after 4 hours of sleep kids birthday party at the fun factory was on order this morning.... picked up seb and went and listened to screaming kids for a couple of hours.
  • then went for a drive to see my beautiful darling friend rinda in maldon and sat at her house for 3 hours listening to the birds and looking at old photos and having a good old bloody catch up..
  • then my favourite point of the this whole weekend.... i won't mention what happened because certain people read this blog, but i had a big fight with adam's mother tonite.. It was fantastic, and to put it bluntly i am never ever going to speak to her again..... and she wonders why none of her children's parents/wives want to have anything to do with her, maybe if she kept her fucking big mouth closed ... anyways thats all i am going to say about that.

So my point is that i had an evenful weekend a fun weekend being crazy and not one drop of alcohol was consumed.

Sooo if anyways is up for a game of tennis go and check out ails blog ...

EDIT

My weekend has not finished.... seb and i have just been watching the end of Greys anatomy and while i was on the phone to ails, he just came up and pashed me full on eyes closed and all.. My god he is 3 years old!! LOL it was very cute and very funny!!

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

No Reprimand

Sooo after such a shit week last week i am back on track this week. Weigh in with a 400gram loss. If i had put on anything from half a kilo i was going to get reprimanded by ails, but i think i have done that with myself with all the shit that i ate last week. Im back on track again. and thanks to everyone who commented. I would have never done it!! no way!! i know its wrong it was just something that was going through my head! crazy shit i know.

Sorry i have not read or commented on anyones blogs of late, i have been working full time so its been a bit hard to do anything lately.

well take care all and see ya all soon, or should i say read ya all soon

hahahah

Friday, February 01, 2008

Don't know what to call this title

I really don't know what to call this title and i really don't feel comfortable writing this post but ails told me to post this so im posting it because i know that deep down it will make me feel better.

Im going to start with that i have maintained my weight this week, i weighed in 100 grams heavier woopeee doooo darrrr.... i also didn't my measurement this week and in 4 weeks i have lost a total of 27.6 cm all over my body which i am pretty impressed with!!

i have had a terrible today.. with my eating.... and the consequence of that no doubt one huge weight gain next week unless and i burn lots of calories... But from this my brain has gone into sick mode!! Crazy loopy mode! I have felt like making myself sick all day today! I message ails today after work saying i feel like making myself sick!! My brain is thinking crazy thoughts? Why am i thinking like this? i know its not going to make anything better by doing it! but i seriously feel like sticking my fingers down the throat and vomiting.. i had to promise ails i wouldnt do it!

my emotions are running wild at the moment so im going to put it down to that!!

anyways i don't really feel like talking about it at the moment. my energy levels are depleting very fast tonite... suppose it is nearly 10pm and i have had a nite of none sleep thanks to a child i really want to sell.. hehehe!

Have a good weekend everyone. Im going to melbs to look after my dads dog mya.. she is soo cute and take sebastyn to see the sand sculputures so that will be good..

hope everyone has a good weekend