Eleanor Roosevelt:

The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experiences.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Quick Update

Hey everybody

so for the absentees of late but my life has been consumed with school and work and child and being sick, and i really have not really felt like updating.

I have to say that things have been going well with my weight loss and the challenge. Like Ms Ails there has been a few hicuups on the on way.. but all in all its great!! My brother who does most of the cooking for us both has even been buying wholemeal pasta and eating it. He is such a gem.

I am on holidays from school now for two weeks but i tell you i have got some much i need to do.. I have an assignment due when i get back and also need to catch up on the work that i have missed out on while i was sick. But i will get their.. next week when i don't have any interuptions of a child going mum mum mum..

I have my first wikidz party with beks on Friday nite which i am looking forward to it will be great.

I just have to do some last minute shopping and all will be fine.

The lack of tennis lately has been a sucker.... i am missing it, but its hard when im working of nite time and now that daylight savings has nearly come to an end it gets dark quicker. We just have to go and play more in doors hey ails??

Not much really else to report on. I have dropped a couple of kilos over the last couple of weeks.. Mainly probably not being able to eat properly while sick but all in all i am feeling good.

I am looking foward to finishing up work which hopefully will be soon.. just need to get someone to fill in my spot. i don't mind at the moment because the money is handy.

Wel nite all and see u real soon.

Linda i will be in contact i will be in Melbs sometime in the next couple of weeks with my lil darling if your not busy mite be nice to catch up for a coffee and joshy and sebbie can have a play.

Hope everyone is well and i promise to catch up on everyones blogs real soon

My bed is calling me.. My insomnia must stop soon

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Weigh in This Week

Im not doing weigh in this week due to ails scales being broken but also the fact that i am unwell and have not been to toilet in the past 3 days...... yes yes its an excuse but i would prefer to be accurate with my weigh in results than not!

Sooo i had today off work as i am not 100% well. didn't really do much caught up on some school work, sat on the couch and felt sorry for myself as you do when your sick

Thanks to everyone who voted on our ails and Ness challenge. Im really not looking forward to it but anyways!! it will be interesting to see how we both go!!

The next challenge im picking!!! You got that ails!! :) hehehehehehhe, i better getting thinking.. if anyone has any ideas let me know.....

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

GroinNess

Mmm ok how do i write this blog without giving to much information away?? LOL

Played netball last nite which was the game that we had to win to make into the grandfinal and play the maldon moles! But we lost by one bloody goal... anyways in the process of going for a ball i did some serious damage to the right hand side of my groin!! My god!! I thought giving birth was painful but right now this is seriously painful..

But bloody stupid Blonde me, dedicated friend and dedicated addicted tennis player that i am played tennis tonite with ails!! Yeah stupid me!!! so right now i am struggling with walking, changing the gears in my car, and well probably won't be able to spread those legs!! Opppss was that too much information ??? LOL!!! I don't do that these days anyways!!

It doesn't help when im not 100% healthy at the moment. Seb has not been well for the last couple of days, and i have not been enjoying wiping the green snot from his nose.. and as you are all aware i don't like sniffers and he is good at doing that!! trying to teach him to blow but he decides to sniff instead!! my stomach can not handle it!! sooo i have a sore throat and the start of the cough! But anyways i will get through it... Ohh and i nearly forgot the 3 day headache!! As ails would say why don't you take a panadol! im not much of a big medicine person.. probably because of where i work but also because i was such a sick child and lived on medicine i feel that my body would come immune to things and someday i may really need it and my body won't accept it!!

anyways im off to have a shower now and to bed, i really need a good nite sleep!!!

Friday, March 07, 2008

Exercise Ness

So im going to do a bit of boasting and say how bloody good i have been this week. Sinc Sunday ails and I have played four games of tennis (obssessiveness ) and i have been to the gym twice.
I got my first compliment today from a chick in the gym who has not seen me for a couple of weeks and she said "Vanessa have you lost weight?" and i proudly said back Yes but still got a long way to go!!!

Im pretty bloody proud of myself i tell you!

Im starting to notice it i suppos especially with my work clothes, my boobs don't feel like they are going to pop out my top anymore and also i feel like its not clinging to my donut! awwww watch out boys when im at goal :) LOL shouldn't matter about looks anyways

I hope that everyone has an awesome weekend this weekend and enjoys the extra day off and that you use it wisely!! Me im doing some cleaning up around the house, sitting in a hot tub, and visiting a friend and no doubt will be painting at her house!!

Everyone take care if your travelling on the roads

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

So Close Ness

Wow! i have been blown away i lost 1.2 kgs this week! yes yes you have read correctly, which means i am now 200 grams off losing my first 5 kgs!! Wow that is huge for me! Do you know how proud i am?? I have to start looking at the positives of what i have achieved....

Im not sure what i have done differently this week! And the fact that i ate two small blocks of chocolate. maybe i will pay the price next week!!

I have decided that this weekend is going to be a weekend of stay home and de clutter some more!!!! not that the house will stay clean for very long with sebastyn..... My god he is soo messy today he decided to take all the boards off his bed!! yeah i know!!!

Im going to try and get some structure in my house hold and get on top of things! im sick of chasing my tail at the moment.

My emotions have been a little bit better this week, but for some reason some things are getting to me. My chiropractor does NET which is neuro emotional technique, so we find out what is bothering me and release it from my system! which was good because after she done it i was sweating..... as she said to me its the way your body is realsing the emotion.

I slept a little bit better last nite, but still didn't go to sleep until late!! I think i need to stop with turning the TV on and just get into bed and hit my head on the pillow..

Well everybody have a good rest of the week and will keep you updated with my de clutter weekend

Monday, March 03, 2008

ObsessiveNess

OCD! Thats me, i now know where seb gets it from! I have hit my first big hurdle!!!! Mmmm its called self confidence! I have an obsession with my Donut belly! thats its new name "donut". would Anyone like to donate me some money so i can got and get donut liposucked :) Please im begging you! I know things take time and that i need patients.. PATIENTS!! WHAT THE??? that word is not in my dictionary! But i have now got to a point where im hating myself because of my donut!! Yes it has shrunk but not to my liking!

There is alot of weight on my shoulders at the moment and maybe because of that im having some self hatred and not looking at the positives. Maybe i need to sit down and think what have i achieved in the last 2 months since i started this weight loss where am i noticing the changes? But right now my head space and my donut keep bringing forth the negatives!

Its hard to have that control 24/7. I keep saying to myself i really should do this i really should do that but do i get off my arse and do it?? NO BLOODY WAY!! WHY?? because im obviously not 100% committed...

After another bash of tennis tonite, i was telling ails that i just want to stay in my room for a weekend watch TV, play FRAC on my computer and have no contact with the outside world! Thats how i am feeling at the moment. Im feeling smoothered! Has anyone felt like doing that before? How good would it be just to sit in your PJ's all day and not having to worry about anything and not do anything??

My motivation has gone out the window a bit, my lack of sleep is not helping that is for sure! Please give me some tips on how to shut down ones brain before going to bed? sleeping pills would be fantastic!! Maybe i could take a few and sleep a few days straight! Awwwww that would be so nice!! I went to the VIC markets a few weeks back now and brought some pure lavender for seb maybe i need to try it on me!!!

Im not feeling confident with my weigh in this week! I wouldn't be surprised if i put some more weight on this week with it being the end of TTOM, and eating two little blocks of chocolate, ohh don't you love emotional eating???? Ones self control has not been that controlled when it comes to food of late i can tell you that. And yes there is only one person to blame for that and that is me, and yes i take full responsibility for all the shite i have been eating. What good is it going to do to me? NONE i know that, but sometimes you need a bad day, you need to realise that you are only human and everyone slips up every now and then!! i recall reading somewhere that its a 70/30 rule. 70% healthy food and 30% bad food!!! I would say that i have been averaging that, otherwise i wouldnt be getting the results but over the weekend i would say i was more 70% bad food 30% good food. Time will tell what impact this has on my weight loss/gain this week, but really ill get over it!

It was nice to get into a bottle of booze over the weekend. Im glad the drought has ended... Not that i was really craving alcohol, some days after work i was i can tell you that! But knowing that i gave my liver a break makes me feel good!! Im not saying im going to be going out every weekend and getting myself smashed, i think those days have gone for me! I think im over that stage in life but every now and then would be ok, because it would be a cheap nite.... a few sips on the weekend did prove to me just how much your body changes and adapts to not having something!!

Im going to leave you with this quote that i found and has gelled with me today!

There are two things to aim at in life; first to get what you want, and after that to enjoy it. Only the wisest of mankind has achieved the second.
Logan Pearsall Smith