Fit Ness 2008

Remember Me!

2008-05-28T09:12:00.000-07:00

Wow april was my last post.. how sad... really..... wot the hell has happened... *bitch slaps self*

Well im writing this post at 2am on wednesday morning. Insomnia is a great thing to have.. :)) Few nites of good sleep and then 100 bad ones :)) how life is bliss :)) and we all know that i need my beauty sleep.

So im still alive, i am no longer working at the chiropractors, and i have started at the office of a liquer company here in Bgo two nites a week.. Yeah great place to work wen u look over a whole warehouse full of grog :)) Thinking Mmmmm i could so drink all of this, minus the red wine and the jeam beam and anything else that tastes like crap :) sowwi all u drinkers of that out there :)

So school is school flat out like a lizard drinking with assignments after assignments... that keeps 50% of my time occupied.. My clothes parties are plodding along, my social life has deminished... My child is growing and is now toilet trained... which is great..... except he wants to do everything on his own :) Mr Independent .... just like is Mummy :)

eating and exercise has gone to shit... oh u wouldn't have guessed....... :) But i have still managed to lose some weight... i just need to go on a big shopping spree now :)...... with all my millions that i have LMAO...

Mmmmm what else........ My brother is moving out at the end of june so that will be sad to see him go....... i will miss his cooking and his lil antics...... and the rent money of course LOL.. but will be nice at the same time to have some me and seb time..... but that lil boy will miss his uncle that is for sure...

Off to melbs this weekend.. which will be nice... got a hot date with Bri Bri and ails on friday nite and then the food and wine festival on the saturday.. woot woot that will be fun.. im gunna do lots of wine tasting :))

Well i suppose i should really try and get some sleep if my brain will let me-.

Take care everyone

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Relay for life

2008-04-17T20:23:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone..

Im off to do relay for life tonite.. i am really exccited... im going to see if i can 100 laps :) i think that should be pretty easy!!!

still working still at school have been sick which has been shitfull got this chest thing happening..

all is good in the world of ness at the moment....

take care all

Dear Blog

2008-04-09T17:09:00.000-07:00

Dear Blog

I am very sorry for abandoning you of late. My life has been very hectic of late and i seem to have no time for writing at the present.

I am hoping to be finished work in a few weeks which will create more time for me and i shall get back on track to the things that are important to me. Especially my health! :) The lack of gym time the lack of eating properly and hopefully even might get a sleep routine back. Insomnia has kicked in for the past 6 weeks or so and the lack of sleep is taking its toll on my old body!

Alot of emotional baggage is hanging on my shoulders at the moment, and i also need to sit down and take the time to work out where i am in life. I thought i had come to the straight road but for some reason a cross road has been plonked in the middle and now i have to decide on my direction...

My darling boy turned 3 last week, my assignment for school has been handed in thank god, and my social life has come to a stand still of late.

I have started my wikidz parties and i have loved the ones i have done. It wasn't as daunting as what i thought it would be.

This weekend brings me a trip to the werribee zoo which i am looking forward to (weather permitted).

Next weekend brings me relay for life and a sleep over which i am looking forward to.. Lots of walking lots of talking and lots of fun for a good cause. We had a very successful trivia nite last saturday, and my god did i get drunk :) hehehehe...

I also vow to update on everyones blogs and catch up on everyones lives of late. Wow i will put aside a few hours to catch up because no doubt there will be lots of news.

I have found some really good quotes that i wanted to share with you blog so i will leave you on that note.

I hope you enjoy them and take something from them.

Beauty lies in the specific looks of a person, rather than the object, because different people feel beauty in differnt things.

Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart.

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walk out.

Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.

To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.

Most people live and die with their music still unplayed. They never dare to try.

Every individual has a place to fill in the world, and is important, in some respect, whether he chooses to be so or not.

Go as far as you can see, and when you get there you will see farther.

Everyday is a gift, thats why they call it the present

Find something you love to do and you’ll never have to work a day in your life.

There are three words I like to repeat to myself: glass half full. Just to remind myself to be grateful for everything I have.

Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes…just be an illusion.

The definition of a beautiful woman is one who loves me.

Love is like the sun coming out of the clouds and warming your soul.

Quick Update

2008-03-26T07:33:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody

so for the absentees of late but my life has been consumed with school and work and child and being sick, and i really have not really felt like updating.

I have to say that things have been going well with my weight loss and the challenge. Like Ms Ails there has been a few hicuups on the on way.. but all in all its great!! My brother who does most of the cooking for us both has even been buying wholemeal pasta and eating it. He is such a gem.

I am on holidays from school now for two weeks but i tell you i have got some much i need to do.. I have an assignment due when i get back and also need to catch up on the work that i have missed out on while i was sick. But i will get their.. next week when i don't have any interuptions of a child going mum mum mum..

I have my first wikidz party with beks on Friday nite which i am looking forward to it will be great.

I just have to do some last minute shopping and all will be fine.

The lack of tennis lately has been a sucker.... i am missing it, but its hard when im working of nite time and now that daylight savings has nearly come to an end it gets dark quicker. We just have to go and play more in doors hey ails??

Not much really else to report on. I have dropped a couple of kilos over the last couple of weeks.. Mainly probably not being able to eat properly while sick but all in all i am feeling good.

I am looking foward to finishing up work which hopefully will be soon.. just need to get someone to fill in my spot. i don't mind at the moment because the money is handy.

Wel nite all and see u real soon.

Linda i will be in contact i will be in Melbs sometime in the next couple of weeks with my lil darling if your not busy mite be nice to catch up for a coffee and joshy and sebbie can have a play.

Hope everyone is well and i promise to catch up on everyones blogs real soon

My bed is calling me.. My insomnia must stop soon

Weigh in This Week

2008-03-13T02:29:00.000-07:00

Im not doing weigh in this week due to ails scales being broken but also the fact that i am unwell and have not been to toilet in the past 3 days...... yes yes its an excuse but i would prefer to be accurate with my weigh in results than not!

Sooo i had today off work as i am not 100% well. didn't really do much caught up on some school work, sat on the couch and felt sorry for myself as you do when your sick

Thanks to everyone who voted on our ails and Ness challenge. Im really not looking forward to it but anyways!! it will be interesting to see how we both go!!

The next challenge im picking!!! You got that ails!! :) hehehehehehhe, i better getting thinking.. if anyone has any ideas let me know.....

GroinNess

2008-03-12T03:10:00.000-07:00

Mmm ok how do i write this blog without giving to much information away?? LOL

Played netball last nite which was the game that we had to win to make into the grandfinal and play the maldon moles! But we lost by one bloody goal... anyways in the process of going for a ball i did some serious damage to the right hand side of my groin!! My god!! I thought giving birth was painful but right now this is seriously painful..

But bloody stupid Blonde me, dedicated friend and dedicated addicted tennis player that i am played tennis tonite with ails!! Yeah stupid me!!! so right now i am struggling with walking, changing the gears in my car, and well probably won't be able to spread those legs!! Opppss was that too much information ??? LOL!!! I don't do that these days anyways!!

It doesn't help when im not 100% healthy at the moment. Seb has not been well for the last couple of days, and i have not been enjoying wiping the green snot from his nose.. and as you are all aware i don't like sniffers and he is good at doing that!! trying to teach him to blow but he decides to sniff instead!! my stomach can not handle it!! sooo i have a sore throat and the start of the cough! But anyways i will get through it... Ohh and i nearly forgot the 3 day headache!! As ails would say why don't you take a panadol! im not much of a big medicine person.. probably because of where i work but also because i was such a sick child and lived on medicine i feel that my body would come immune to things and someday i may really need it and my body won't accept it!!

anyways im off to have a shower now and to bed, i really need a good nite sleep!!!

Exercise Ness

2008-03-07T02:03:00.000-08:00

So im going to do a bit of boasting and say how bloody good i have been this week. Sinc Sunday ails and I have played four games of tennis (obssessiveness ) and i have been to the gym twice.
I got my first compliment today from a chick in the gym who has not seen me for a couple of weeks and she said "Vanessa have you lost weight?" and i proudly said back Yes but still got a long way to go!!!

Im pretty bloody proud of myself i tell you!

Im starting to notice it i suppos especially with my work clothes, my boobs don't feel like they are going to pop out my top anymore and also i feel like its not clinging to my donut! awwww watch out boys when im at goal :) LOL shouldn't matter about looks anyways

I hope that everyone has an awesome weekend this weekend and enjoys the extra day off and that you use it wisely!! Me im doing some cleaning up around the house, sitting in a hot tub, and visiting a friend and no doubt will be painting at her house!!

Everyone take care if your travelling on the roads

So Close Ness

2008-03-05T01:19:00.000-08:00

Wow! i have been blown away i lost 1.2 kgs this week! yes yes you have read correctly, which means i am now 200 grams off losing my first 5 kgs!! Wow that is huge for me! Do you know how proud i am?? I have to start looking at the positives of what i have achieved....

Im not sure what i have done differently this week! And the fact that i ate two small blocks of chocolate. maybe i will pay the price next week!!

I have decided that this weekend is going to be a weekend of stay home and de clutter some more!!!! not that the house will stay clean for very long with sebastyn..... My god he is soo messy today he decided to take all the boards off his bed!! yeah i know!!!

Im going to try and get some structure in my house hold and get on top of things! im sick of chasing my tail at the moment.

My emotions have been a little bit better this week, but for some reason some things are getting to me. My chiropractor does NET which is neuro emotional technique, so we find out what is bothering me and release it from my system! which was good because after she done it i was sweating..... as she said to me its the way your body is realsing the emotion.

I slept a little bit better last nite, but still didn't go to sleep until late!! I think i need to stop with turning the TV on and just get into bed and hit my head on the pillow..

Well everybody have a good rest of the week and will keep you updated with my de clutter weekend

ObsessiveNess

2008-03-03T04:16:00.000-08:00

OCD! Thats me, i now know where seb gets it from! I have hit my first big hurdle!!!! Mmmm its called self confidence! I have an obsession with my Donut belly! thats its new name "donut". would Anyone like to donate me some money so i can got and get donut liposucked :) Please im begging you! I know things take time and that i need patients.. PATIENTS!! WHAT THE??? that word is not in my dictionary! But i have now got to a point where im hating myself because of my donut!! Yes it has shrunk but not to my liking!

There is alot of weight on my shoulders at the moment and maybe because of that im having some self hatred and not looking at the positives. Maybe i need to sit down and think what have i achieved in the last 2 months since i started this weight loss where am i noticing the changes? But right now my head space and my donut keep bringing forth the negatives!

Its hard to have that control 24/7. I keep saying to myself i really should do this i really should do that but do i get off my arse and do it?? NO BLOODY WAY!! WHY?? because im obviously not 100% committed...

After another bash of tennis tonite, i was telling ails that i just want to stay in my room for a weekend watch TV, play FRAC on my computer and have no contact with the outside world! Thats how i am feeling at the moment. Im feeling smoothered! Has anyone felt like doing that before? How good would it be just to sit in your PJ's all day and not having to worry about anything and not do anything??

My motivation has gone out the window a bit, my lack of sleep is not helping that is for sure! Please give me some tips on how to shut down ones brain before going to bed? sleeping pills would be fantastic!! Maybe i could take a few and sleep a few days straight! Awwwww that would be so nice!! I went to the VIC markets a few weeks back now and brought some pure lavender for seb maybe i need to try it on me!!!

Im not feeling confident with my weigh in this week! I wouldn't be surprised if i put some more weight on this week with it being the end of TTOM, and eating two little blocks of chocolate, ohh don't you love emotional eating???? Ones self control has not been that controlled when it comes to food of late i can tell you that. And yes there is only one person to blame for that and that is me, and yes i take full responsibility for all the shite i have been eating. What good is it going to do to me? NONE i know that, but sometimes you need a bad day, you need to realise that you are only human and everyone slips up every now and then!! i recall reading somewhere that its a 70/30 rule. 70% healthy food and 30% bad food!!! I would say that i have been averaging that, otherwise i wouldnt be getting the results but over the weekend i would say i was more 70% bad food 30% good food. Time will tell what impact this has on my weight loss/gain this week, but really ill get over it!

It was nice to get into a bottle of booze over the weekend. Im glad the drought has ended... Not that i was really craving alcohol, some days after work i was i can tell you that! But knowing that i gave my liver a break makes me feel good!! Im not saying im going to be going out every weekend and getting myself smashed, i think those days have gone for me! I think im over that stage in life but every now and then would be ok, because it would be a cheap nite.... a few sips on the weekend did prove to me just how much your body changes and adapts to not having something!!

Im going to leave you with this quote that i found and has gelled with me today!

There are two things to aim at in life; first to get what you want, and after that to enjoy it. Only the wisest of mankind has achieved the second.

Logan Pearsall Smith

News Ness!

2008-02-29T01:56:00.000-08:00

As my heart was pounding and my palms were sweating i knew it was the right decision. I walked into work yesterday at 1.30pm and sat down with the bosses and told them i was resigning! Handed over my letter that ails helped me wrote and told them that my priorities right now are with my schooling and my child!

Wow i did it! And i feel relieved but also sad because im leaving behind the clients that i love seeing every day and the babies that i have watched grow from concievement! Its going to be really hard but at the end of the day i know that i have made the right choice because now i can concentrate on sebastyn and my accounting course and my Party plan and get it all happening.

I am loving school and its really stimulating my mind, and making me think. I have now passed two parts of MYOB so i can do purchases and sales.!! fun stuff!!

Im looking forward to getting home at a decent time and having tea with sebastyn! Its going to be great!

Have an awesome weekend guys and be safe. tell the ones close to you that you love them!

Thank Ness

2008-02-27T03:21:00.000-08:00

There is a few personal issue happening in my life right now, a lot of changes will be happening and for the good may i add but one thing i have not done in a long time is thank all my friends and family for all there support and putting up with all my bull shit!

The last 6 months have been a real eye opener for me and certain things have been brought to my attention!! I am very grateful for the life i live and the people that are in my life right now. I have great support from many of you that read this blog and that put up with my text messages and phone calls! and my forearm shot on the tennis court!! Hehehehe!

All my friends are from different cirlces of life and have all taught me different values and how to stay true to myself! and for that i thank you. I wouldn't be the person that I am today if wasn't for all of you!

Sebastyn brings something out of me that i didn't even knew existed! The first time i heard him cry which felt like a bloody long time i knew then that my whole world would change. And it has, its brought me joy, sadness, frustration but most of all unconditional love no matter how much of a rat bag he has been! He has taught me lessons that no one else could teach me! He has taught me how to be strong, and be weak, but most of all appreciation, inspiration and determination to do what i want in life because i want him to grow up knowing that his mother worked her damn arse off to get where she is today and to provide for him and to show him the values in life.

My family is very supportive to me and probably put up with me the most. Living with my younger brother he probably gets the full brunt of me!! I don't think he really understands fully the appreciation that i have for him and how i look up to him in so many ways! He supports me with everything that i do, and he is such a doll with sebastyn! That kid just adores and treasure him like nothing else!! They are very cute when they are together. and seb is very lucky to have an uncle like chris.. He is such a patient person! NOT LIKE ME!!!!!
He is moving out in July which is fantastic for him as he heads in a new direction in his life, but he will be sadly missed in this house hold and im sure for many weeks on end i will get "where is uncle Cwissy"

So to everyone else thanks heaps and ill keep you all updated on my big news!!!

Ill end on my favourite quote in this universe

"DARE TO DREAM THE IMPOSSIBLE"

Tired Ness

2008-02-26T03:47:00.000-08:00

My body clock is all F&*^ed up at dot com at the moment!! Why?? Maybe because i have to much on my plate? Being back at school and working and having sebastyn isnt as easy as 123.. I thought it would be!! Well its proven me wrong!

I am physically and emotionally tired and it really hit me on sunday playing tennis with the girls!! i was exhausted that is why there is photos of me on the side lines!! It wasn't because i was getting my arse kicked LOL!!! by the way it was tops!!

So as i sit here writing this post at quarter to eleven on tuesday nite, im not tired and wondering why i am not fast asleep after school both mornings working yesterday after noon and playing netball tonite!! and entertaining seb this afternoon.. which isn't hard.... wiggles dvd was on and it was mum on the dance floor in the loungeroom acting like a monkey.. Yes it probably would of been a funny site... and ails i have not even had a sip of coke zero today!

It really hit me today i woke up in a head spin and all day i felt really light headed and like i was going to faint! it was not good!! had my massage this afternoon aidan asking have i drank enough water today "YES dad" had my adjustment my neck was out a little!! maybe that is why, but im putting it down to brain overload or should i say fried!!!

I have excercised pretty hard the past 4 days.... 3 games of tennis, two nites of walking, and a game of netball!! but i don't see that having anything to do with it really.. My feet are hurting from it!! i have Blisters! Yeah sore, i now know what tennis pros feel like when i see them gettting all taped up from blisters!!

This week weigh in is measurements and photos! im looking forward to comparing my results! I am feeling happy with how things are going with my body but getting inpatient that my tyre hasn't gone yet! I know it will happen but i have an obsession with it! Don't i Ails?????

Im doing relay for life this year im looking forward to it, im sleeping over this year! i can't wait.. also I think ails and I are doing run for the kids (but walking) i have to confirm that with her but im looking forward to that too if we do it!!! don't know how i will go with the distance but at the end of the day if i cross that finish line ill be proud!

Well i think that is enough rambling for now! ill be back shortly with a weigh in result!! which i don't think will be anything to get excited about this week as im feeling really bloated!!! Don't know why

Before i go i want to leave you with this. My sister sent it through to me and i really liked it

WORRY

Is there a magic cutoff period when offspring become accountable for their own actions?

Is there a wonderful moment when parents can become detached spectators in the lives of their children and shrug, "It's their life," and feel nothing?

When I was in my twenties, I stood in a hospital corridor waiting for doctors to put a few stitches in my daughter's head. I asked, "When do You stop worrying?" The nurse said,” When they get out of the accident stage." My Dad just smiled faintly and said nothing.

When I was in my thirties, I sat on a little chair in a classroom and heard how one of my children talked incessantly, disrupted the class, and was headed for a career making license plates. As if to read my mind, a teacher said, "Don't worry, they all go through this stage and then you can sit back, relax and enjoy them." My dad just smiled faintly and said nothing.

When I was in my forties, I spent a lifetime waiting for the phone to ring, the cars to come home, the front door to open. A friend said, "They're trying to find themselves. Don't worry, in a few years, you can stop worrying. They'll be adults." My dad just smiled faintly And said nothing.

By the time I was 50, I was sick & tired of being vulnerable. I was still worrying over my children, but there was a new wrinkle.... There was nothing I could do about it. I continued to anguish over their failures, be tormented by their frustrations and absorbed in their disappointments. My Dad just smiled faintly and said nothing.

My friends said that when my kids got married I could stop worrying and lead my own life. I wanted to believe that, but I was haunted by my dad's warm smile and his occasional, "You look pale. Are you all right? Call me the minute you get home. Are You depressed about something?"

Can it be that parents are sentenced to a lifetime of worry? Is concern for one another handed down like a torch to blaze the trail of human frailties and the fears of the unknown? Is concern a curse or is it a virtue that elevates us to the highest form of life?

One of my children became quite irritable recently, saying to me, "Where were you? I've been calling for 3 days, and no one answered I was worried."
I smiled a warm smile. The torch has been passed.

PASS IT ON TO OTHER WONDERFUL PARENTS(And also to your children. That's the fun part)

Wikidz

2008-02-21T03:40:00.000-08:00

Hey Guys.

Have you may have read on becks blog am i starting Wikidz party plan.

I got an email from them today with the new winter range.

Check it OUT HERE

If you are interested in having a party drop me a line... Also if you are out bush and can't have a party drop me a line with your address details or email details and i will send you a catalogue and you can order through me! I won't be able to start that until im up and going!

Less Ness

2008-02-20T03:09:00.000-08:00

Im surprised with my loss this week. Due to a lack of excercise and lots of cakes this week. One very delightful date with Miss Beck which ended with on delicious sticky date pudding with ice cream and Strawberries.. MMMm yummo!!!

School is going awesome and i love it so very much!! i said this year was going to be about me and its happening...

This weekend is going to be a full on weekend of tennis. Friday nite, saturday morning and sunday with the girlz!! i can't wait!!

Weight In

2008-02-14T00:20:00.000-08:00

Sooo another loss this week.. 600 grams which im pretty pleased with considering i didn't stuff all excercise...

soo down to 79.1kgs :) Yippie!! i set myself a target this week to see i can lose 1kg. If i don't do it i won't be disappointed.... Its just to see if i can or not!!

I am enjoying tennis heaps its awesome heaps of fun, school is heaps of fun im loving it and enjoying accounting..

Well i better get myself some tea and go get the lil man

A New Journey and I need Your Help

2008-02-12T02:15:00.000-08:00

Hey Guys

I have decided to start Party Plan.. I am going to be doing children clothing sizes Newborn to 8... And i Need your help :) If you are in the Bendigo and surrounding areas and are interested in hosting a party for me can you let me know :) To start with i need a certain amount of bookings within 6 weeks to get me started, soo please please if you are interested let me know.

This is the website so go check out the products www.wikidz.com.au
Cute clothes

Hear from ya soon

Back To School

2008-02-11T03:28:00.000-08:00

My head hurts after the weekend events! And the lack of sleep doesn't help really. I had my first day at school today and already i have homework! It was heaps fun its a class mostly of woman and the 3 men that are in the class are old!! They seem like a good bunch of people though! I was nervous about starting but i got over that!! i turned up with 5 minutes to go, and also got a parking fine since there is no where to park around there! But anyways!

have a good week guys

Who Needs Alcohol!!!!

2008-02-09T23:22:00.000-08:00

What an eventful weekend I have had, full on fun, excersise, lack of sleep, the law enforcement and even a bitch fight with the woman from Hell!!

It was a weekend with Ails and I where do I start?????

Dot point Blog coming your way....

Friday

Worked all day and finished about 6.45pm messaged ails to see if she was up for a game of tennis... Tennis it was!!! An hour of working those bicept muscles and also i have just noticed i now have a wankers muscle starting to happen :) LOL and not from wanking...
Decided about 11.30pm even though i was terribly tired to see what was happening in the world of Benders since we have not been out in ages... Went for a drive and guess where we ended up.... 50kms out of Benders and to a closed road.... which means we had to venture to eppalock to get home.
Lots of Frac that was being a complete mole!! Grrr that game is addictive but frustrating. for those who do not know what frac is it is 3D tetris....
Had a sleep over at ails as there was no way i could drive home, only to find myself waking up with a beautiful cat at my feet and my black pants covered in cat hair... i was coughing up fur balls i tell you.
Ails and Me being idiots outside... if you have ever looked at yourself in a car door you will notice that you are really short and fat... Its very funny!!!!

Saturday

Got my hair cut
Started to de clutter some old shit im sick of feeling like my draws are full of crap
Played another game of tennis and ails was whipping my arse with her serve.... but i got some good shots back :)
Ails cooked us a beautiful chicken honey mustard and rice dish for tea... awww it was bliss..
Put up with teenage girls playing shitful music next door.. so we thought to drown them out that we would put our music up loud. only to have The police knock on our door at 10.30pm to say that they had had complaints about the noise coming from the houses...... All was good.....
Another knock on the door from the barbie girls next door to ask if we could hear their music, please note that music was not on 10 minutes later it started again....
Moonlightening eposides where watched and then after the party died down next door and the spewing noises stopped i started to venture home.
As i was coming out the driveway of ails place the police where doing a drive by. so i stopped rang ails to let her know and knew that they would be waiting for me around the corner since there was party..
so im driving and about two minutes into my journey their lights were on and pulled me over. police "hello where are you heading" me "home" police "did you just come from the party that was around the corner" me "no i was the next door neightbour" police "have you been drinking tonite" me "no" police " promise" me "yes you can breathe test me if you like" police "no we just saw you drive out of the driveway and wondered where you were going that is all since there was party there tonite" "me "thanks have a good nite"

Today

after 4 hours of sleep kids birthday party at the fun factory was on order this morning.... picked up seb and went and listened to screaming kids for a couple of hours.
then went for a drive to see my beautiful darling friend rinda in maldon and sat at her house for 3 hours listening to the birds and looking at old photos and having a good old bloody catch up..
then my favourite point of the this whole weekend.... i won't mention what happened because certain people read this blog, but i had a big fight with adam's mother tonite.. It was fantastic, and to put it bluntly i am never ever going to speak to her again..... and she wonders why none of her children's parents/wives want to have anything to do with her, maybe if she kept her fucking big mouth closed ... anyways thats all i am going to say about that.

So my point is that i had an evenful weekend a fun weekend being crazy and not one drop of alcohol was consumed.

Sooo if anyways is up for a game of tennis go and check out ails blog ...

EDIT

My weekend has not finished.... seb and i have just been watching the end of Greys anatomy and while i was on the phone to ails, he just came up and pashed me full on eyes closed and all.. My god he is 3 years old!! LOL it was very cute and very funny!!

No Reprimand

2008-02-06T02:21:00.000-08:00

Sooo after such a shit week last week i am back on track this week. Weigh in with a 400gram loss. If i had put on anything from half a kilo i was going to get reprimanded by ails, but i think i have done that with myself with all the shit that i ate last week. Im back on track again. and thanks to everyone who commented. I would have never done it!! no way!! i know its wrong it was just something that was going through my head! crazy shit i know.

Sorry i have not read or commented on anyones blogs of late, i have been working full time so its been a bit hard to do anything lately.

well take care all and see ya all soon, or should i say read ya all soon

hahahah

Don't know what to call this title

2008-02-01T02:26:00.000-08:00

I really don't know what to call this title and i really don't feel comfortable writing this post but ails told me to post this so im posting it because i know that deep down it will make me feel better.

Im going to start with that i have maintained my weight this week, i weighed in 100 grams heavier woopeee doooo darrrr.... i also didn't my measurement this week and in 4 weeks i have lost a total of 27.6 cm all over my body which i am pretty impressed with!!

i have had a terrible today.. with my eating.... and the consequence of that no doubt one huge weight gain next week unless and i burn lots of calories... But from this my brain has gone into sick mode!! Crazy loopy mode! I have felt like making myself sick all day today! I message ails today after work saying i feel like making myself sick!! My brain is thinking crazy thoughts? Why am i thinking like this? i know its not going to make anything better by doing it! but i seriously feel like sticking my fingers down the throat and vomiting.. i had to promise ails i wouldnt do it!

my emotions are running wild at the moment so im going to put it down to that!!

anyways i don't really feel like talking about it at the moment. my energy levels are depleting very fast tonite... suppose it is nearly 10pm and i have had a nite of none sleep thanks to a child i really want to sell.. hehehe!

Have a good weekend everyone. Im going to melbs to look after my dads dog mya.. she is soo cute and take sebastyn to see the sand sculputures so that will be good..

hope everyone has a good weekend

Another Loss This week

2008-01-23T12:12:00.000-08:00

My heart is still in a state of shock over Heath Ledger!! My god i can't stop thinking about his family and daughter!

anyways just letting you know that another .5kg loss this week.. Yippie :) Im proud of how i am doing..

anyways just getting ready to go to work... see ya all soon

Total Shock

2008-01-22T15:35:00.000-08:00

I am in total shock right now that Heath Ledger is dead.. My god i love that man!! anyways just had to let you know!!!! a life gone and waisted and his daugther left behind!!

anyways update soon about another loss!!!

Tennis is my worst enemy

2008-01-19T01:52:00.000-08:00

I am a tennis fan and a big andy roddick fan..... Sooo for me last nite staying up until 2.30am not only has made me tired today but has also seen andy being knocked out the aussie open!! I would so love to meet him!! He is just such a wonderful sports person!!!

Last nite i dreamt that i was married but in reality was thinking of all the things i want to do before i pass away! Yeah i know one extreme to another!!! But i thought i would love to go to all the major tennis tournaments!! It would be awesome!!!

Sooo as i sit here getting ready to watch the big game with hewitt i know i am going to be in for another big nite of cheering with myself!

Another Classic From Sebastyn

2008-01-18T16:43:00.001-08:00

I have had seb all this week, and it has been awesome, spending lots of time with him reading and playing. While we were away i started to right down words and got him to read them. He was very good and he remember i don't know if thats because he remember or if he could actually read them..

Anyways this morning he was playing with his wiggles things there is a stop sign and a give way sign and they are colours green and red.... Anyways he thinks they are teenage mutan ninja turtles... but anyways he calls one of them ninjanardo instead of leonardo... It has my belly hurting with laughter when he says it!!

anyways off to a lunch thing with work!! yippie

Hungry After exercise?

2008-01-17T21:11:00.000-08:00

Some of you may be like me and get hungry after you exercise..... Well if your like me i feel like eating a truck load of food.. anyways i have just been for a two hour walk and got home and again feeling hungry so i thought i would do some research. i found a website called ask the Dietitian and got this little bit of information from it which could explain why i am feeling hungry after i excercise and also you... Hope this helps

Moderate exercise by itself does not increase your appetite unless you have exercised too hard or are on a quick weight loss diet and your glycogen stores are depleted. Glycogen is the stored form of glucose in your muscles and liver. You only have about 1500 to 1800 calories of stored glycogen. When glycogen is depleted, your body has to turn to protein in muscles and organs to supply glucose. Depending on the time of your last meal before exercising, your blood sugar may be low. In which case, your body is telling you to eat.Moderate exercise helps in suppressing appetite and increasing your metabolic rate for up to 15 hours after exercise. A gland in your brain called the hypothalamus is responsible for secreting a hormone, which inhibits hunger. Exercise helps stimulate this gland to produce more of this hormone. Moderate exercise that would produce this beneficial effect would be 60 minutes of exercise, three to five times per week. Possibly, by the time you complete your exercising the suppression of your appetite has started. I thought this was very interesting.

Also on another note...

I have very tight muscles and it doesn't matter how much stretching i do if you i do more weights as weights helps loosen muscles my muscles are still tight!! Well while i was away in QLD i went and had a massage as my calf muscles were killing me because i had done so much walking and running.. anyways the lady said to me usually when your muscles are tight you are lacking magnesium!! sooo i went and brought some tables and have taken them after my excercise and have found that it is relaxing my muscles. I also did some research into why you can lack magnesium and was very interesting..... One of the things i found was that if you drink alcohol you are at high risk for magnesium deficiency because alcohol increases urinary excretion of magnesium.. I was drinking nearly every day so it might explain a few things.. Anyways i should be getting the magnesium in the food im eating, but just incase im not im taking a supplement anyways!! Soo there you go i hope that i have educated you a little bit!

I love that donkey

2008-01-17T02:18:00.000-08:00

The words that come out of your children's mouth is incredible! Sebastyn is talking heaps now.... i put him into bed tonite and i brought him a shrek and donkey doona cover... anyways he turned his pillow over so that donkey could be sleeping next to him, and he said "mummy i love that donkey.... he keeps me warm" it was very adorable!!

And the winning weight loss is???

2008-01-16T04:31:00.000-08:00

After two weeks i have lost 1.5 kgs!! Yes yes you have read right!! ails came around with the scales and i am now 80.5 kgs!! How awesome is that! Now it begins!! seeing that number go down down down!! Im happy!!!

Im feeling great after a game of netball last nite waking up with sore abs and then having a pt tonite.. im feeling on top of the world! im pushing myself to my limits.. Its great

Nite
xxx

My Year

2008-01-14T22:20:00.000-08:00

I know i have to update you all about my holiday but it an't be done until i have the pictures!!! Ails is my photo guru at the moment while i don't have the cord so when i catch up with her i will be updating you.

I have come back refreshed, energised, feeling great and tanned also :)

This year is about me and getting me healthy and doing things i want to do! :) So as ails and I go down the road of looking more beautiful than we already are it was time to make some changes in my work life. So today i signed up to do my Diploma in Accounting :) I start on Feb 11th and i can't wait. i will be doing it part time so i can balance work and also still have my time with sebastyn..

I had my tarot cards read and she told me it was about time that i start doing things for me so that is what i am doing.

Ails and I are on a high and we both looking forward to this challenge and i love having someone push me and support me through this!!!! Im not blaming ails for me weight gain because i only have one person to blame and that is me, but we did bring out the worst in each other, and we really are bad influences on each other, and on the other hand we are both good influences on each other!!!

Im proud that i am doing this for me and getting myself right!!! its time to stop the excuses and stop the blame game and just get my arse into gear!!

I can't wait to see the finshed me :) Its only going to get better and i can't wait.

Sooo tonite im playint netball!! yippie!!! just filling in!! its tooo hot!

Soo to everyone out there life is to short and follow your dreams and do what you truely want to do because some day you might regret it!!

xxx

Quick Update

2008-01-12T17:58:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone.. I made it back safely from qld to land in Melbourne and have realised that it was cold. My body has climatised to QLD weather humid weather!! so was not use to the cold nite last nite!

I have so much to say and so many photos that i want to show you all about our trip which i must admit i didn't want to come back from because the beach was right there the weather was nice, and it was good to get up every morning and go for a walk and not have to worry what time i have to go to work.

I have another week off work so this week is going to be cleaning out clothes week, setting my goals, and spending time with sebastyn and maybe even going to the tennis :)

I am looking forward to getting weighed on tuesday as i have not done so in 2 weeks so that wil be interesting to see how i have done over the last two weeks.

I will be back real soon to tell you all about my holiday!!! until then i assure everyone who i read that i will be updating on all your news :)

xx

Hello from QLD

2008-01-08T13:01:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone

this is just going to be really quick. Just wanted to let you all know that the weather is beautiful and that we are having a great time.

We are hiring a car today and going to go do a day trip to the rain forests today which i am looking forward to! we have been to dream world and have done heaps of shopping.

My birthday was a good day!! :) thanks to everyone who messaged me and rang me... it didn't really feel like my birthday cause i had no cards or presents to open... But my cherubs got me diamond earrings :) Yeah i know spoilt hey??? maybe they making up for being sooks... Seb is getting tired really quickly and not sleeping and well adam, be done his ankle on monday nite :) so its been fun fun.

Well im just about to go for my morning walk its only 7am here..... its hot already and I love it!!

Missing you all
xx

Good Bye Victoria Hello Gold Coast

2008-01-03T18:51:00.000-08:00

Just a really quick note, i am into day 3 of the new me and im feeling ok i suppose really tired and looking forward to my holiday. We fly out tomorrow morning as in saturday so i won't be blogging for a bit!!! so just think of me enjoying the sunny gold coast enjoying myself and getting a tan.. hehehe and swimming in the beach, having a massage, and enjoying my morning and evening walks!!

Take care everyone

GoodBye 2007 and Hello 2008

2007-12-30T23:29:00.001-08:00

Tonite is my last nite of enjoying everything that i love eating& drinking, and my god am i going to indulge! I feel like its going to be my last supper :) LOL!!!

I got my tooth pulled out today but they had to leave some tooth in there because my gum is infected and it wasvery painful so my dentist said he would leave it until it healed!!

This is the end of yo yo dieting and drinking constantly and to a new life style change and a new beginning for me!

I hope that everyone has a safe nite tonite and a happy and safe Year in 2008! 2008 is going to be an awesome year to a new fit and healthy me, to new beginnings, to doing things i want to be , to being surrigant aunty, to travelling, to enjoying life, to sharing time with my son, and most of all being HAPPY!!

Happy New Years everyone, and thanks to everyone who has supported me

xxxx

Drink lots xx

Pain

2007-12-27T02:28:00.000-08:00

I thought giving birth was painful.. having a tooth hanging by a root bets that by far! Dentists suck and should not go on holidays!! i rang the hospital yesterday who gave me the number of the emergency dentist number and well i rang to late as the dentist was finished by mid day and well umm they would call me if one was available today! guess what?? There was no FUC&^*ing phone call was there..

I am about ready to try the whole tie some string around it and shutting the door, or even putting some whisky on it (even though i hate it) and deadening it and pulling it out!!

On another painful note this will be my last weekend of drinking and smoking for a while as i start me new phase of Fit Ness.... i am really excited about it as i know that this is it! this will be change in my life that will make me healthy and fit... This is MY Life style change...

This is a very exciting time for me in my life, and i am going to be so proud of me at the end of it!! and the reward at the end will be worth it!! A Holiday and a new Body, a few more years of life!!!!!

Christmas

2007-12-26T01:44:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone i know its a day late but better late than never!!! I am a bit annoyed at the moment as i can't find my cord to attach my camera to the computer so i can't upload any photos.. It was a very big day and a very long day and i have now done my job having xmas at my house :)

Seb was very spoilt from everyone which was nice but everything he got was practical and can use it all!!

My day started off with only 3 hours sleep as i had a big nite.. I was then tasting the lamb that i was cooking and i split my teeth in half and so i am in lots of pain and can't get into a dentist cause they are all on holidays and the emergency dentist finished today at mid day so wouldn't see me!! :( Anyways i have to work tomorrow morning so will see if i can get something done in the morning!! even though when i get a tooth pulled out i always feel like shit... work will just have to deal with me!!

anyways just in case i don't get back on before new years i hope that everyone has safe holidays with their families and enjoys themselves..

I love you all

Ness

Whats up with this weather?

2007-12-21T22:27:00.000-08:00

Wow!! i am so amazed that it is summer and Bendigo is in the biggest drought ever, but for some weather we have been hit with massive storms,... constant rain, strong winds, hail stones the size of golf balls... flash flooding... Sebastyn creche was flooded yesterday and have shut down due to damage and need to clean it up. a local pub in town was flooded and much more... Here are some photos that i took around town last nite... i have not seen the creek like this since i have been here....

December 2007

2007-12-15T23:21:00.000-08:00

I can't believe how fast this year has gone and what little progress i really have made in my health over the past 12 months.

Sooo as of January 2008 its going to be the year of Health, fitness, and achievements and goals.

Ails has given me a book to read about eating and fitness, as i really believe i need to follow a plan to help with my weight loss..

So here comes a fantastic year of change, weight loss, weight loss blogging and getting my arse into gear finally.

I am proud to announce

2007-12-08T04:27:00.000-08:00

I am proud to announce that my christmas shopping is finished... Now i just have to wrap everything :(

Catch Up

2007-12-06T02:04:00.001-08:00

I have been so slack on this thing!! really just can't be bothered..

Had an awesome weekend with lots of photos to come and me being my usual self.. will have to wait for ails to upload so you can see what im talking abou. But was nice to see Linda, and Brooke and Clare and Katy and have a boogie and a few drinks and share some good times with the girls.. Thanks for a tops weekendm and putting up with my usual antics :) Hahahaha..

By the way ails i have had a few 50% erss in at work this week :) LOL!!

I am taking sebastyn to the wiggles concert next week.. can you believe it! Im going to the wiggles... Do you know i have been waiting all my life to go??? Yeah i know!!! adam was suppose to be taking him but he now has to do a training day at work! :( i was really looking forward to having a day to myself and wrapping the xmas presents and doing that sort of stuff well thats all gone out the window.. but anyways i will have fun and just to see how happy sebbie will be that will make it all the worth more while..

I have been working flat out full time and long hours and its hitting me pretty hard.. im glad that i have a lil one who decided he wanted to have a sleep in too on wednesday so we didn't get out of bed until 9am :) which was really nice!!

Im nearly all organised for xmas! just want the day to be here and over and done with...

anyways have a lovely rest of the week and weekend and i shall in endevour to put my photos up of the weekend on the weekend

xxx

Magical

2007-11-24T23:48:00.000-08:00

Last nite i said to adam lets be spontanous and go down to melbourne and go see the fire balls at crown casino! he was like ok... so we left bendigo about 7.00pm and we were going through malmsbury and said lets stop and get some tea... we went to this wine bar and had open wood fire pizza. It was yummmo!!!!! seb made friends with some other boys that were there and played which was good cause they tired him out!!!! we were nearly in Melbourne and i said adam have you ever watched the planes come in and he said no so i said oh lets going to the viewin area and see the planes come in!!! we didn't end up at crown.. so we were sitting on the bonnet of my car and wrapped up in our blankets!! it was cold, and it was over cast.. seb was so excited...

we were just sitting there and im pissed that i didn't have my camera, but out of no where there is that light in the sky that looks like a ufo ship like you see in the movies coming towards to you!! its unreal!! if you have never done it do it!! all of a sudden it gets closer and closer and lower and lower and bang its straight over the top you.. they are so loud!! seb has his fingers in his ears!! it was so magical!! i have never seen anything like it!!! it was so amazing it was like you could stand up and touch them!!! next time i be spontanous i will make sure i have my camera!!

hope everyone had a good weekend!

Quote

2007-11-23T07:15:00.000-08:00

I was just on facebook and found this quote and i really liked it so i had to share it with you

To the world you may be one person but to one person you may be the world.

Devo!

2007-11-20T02:30:00.000-08:00

Im shattered.. i had a very relaxing saturday in daylesford shopping and relaxing down at the lake. while i was sitting there i wrote this huge post on a piece of paper.. Ummm do you think i can find it now.. Nope! im sooo devo!!

anyways i got some of my xmas shopping done and have blown my budget right out the water.

This year seb is not getting much off me!! as he gets spoilt from everyone else, so i decided that santa was only going to bring him a little bit this year....

I have most of my family presents organised and some of my friends!! so hopefully next weekend when im in melbs with ails and co i will get some more shopping done then :)

Im at a little ruff patch at the moment lots going on!! but as for exercise i must admit that i have been pretty good!! i have gone to they gym twice this week and have walked sunday nite and monday nite also! was going to walk tonite but the fact that it is hot and also raining off and on i thought not!!!

Hope everyone is well!!

Another one bites the dust

2007-11-15T03:01:00.000-08:00

im writing from ails house on a bloody pink back ground and a bloody pink laptop!! how much more girlie can one get?? !!! I have become a permanant fixture of this house.. and even Barney her cat is loving me!!! even though me and cats don't mix i must admit her cats a precious!

ails is lying on her bed looking at a white tail spider telling it its days are up!!!! i sleep in this room!! arrrghhhhh i hate spiders... won't be sleeping here for a while :)

Im looking forward to a busy morning at work tomorrow NOT!!! my boss is away at a seminar but there is always something to do!! so i will be a busy beaver tomorrow morning.

Im looking forward to a weekend of nothing really!! well it will be busy but will be on my own terms..

Im off to daylesford on saturday to do some christmas shopping and also going to take a book and go sit at the lake and chill and have some me time!!! who knows i might meet prince charming!! LOL!!!! im putting the vibes out there..

also my house is getting a spring clean this weekend.... it has not been cleaned for a while and it looks like a bomb has hit it!! so its time to have a clean up! not that it will last long when you have a two and half year old who destroys it anyways!

I am loving the warmer weather just not loving the outfits that the chicks wear around this town.. i tell you some of them don't look in the mirror in the morning :)

have a good weekend everyone!

P.S ails is saying thats clothes at the moment are just horrible.. and is just about to suck up the spider with her vaccuum cleaner.. its all happening down in the igloo :)

Numerology Number

2007-11-13T04:44:00.000-08:00

THis is my number

Your Life Path Number is 11

Your Life Path Number represents the path you should take through life and the talents and skills you have to make your journey a rewarding one.
Having the Master Number 11 as your Life Path makes you an inspiration to others. Your high energy and enthusiasm is both contagious and magnetic. You are on a journey of spiritual exploration and those around you await the answers you find.

Positive Traits: Intuitive, Sensitive, Bright, Visionary, Spiritual, Uplifting, Creative, Inspirational, Optimistic

Weigh In

2007-11-12T17:42:00.000-08:00

Soo i finally found some motivation to go and get my back side kicked this morning at the gym... I have been weighin myself at ails house and thought ill weigh myself at the gym... Sooo i jumped on the scales and i was surprised... 76.2 kgs :) I was very happy! its slowly coming off!! I just need to get a little bit more motivated!! and i know that i can get to my goal weight...

I am looking at this little by little and not thinking of the big picture my goal weight is... I now know that i am 4kgs off being back to the lowest that i was last year!! If i can get there i will be happy and then i can set myself a new goal until finally i am goal weight..

Motivation is the hardest thing at the moment!! And i know i can do it i just need some kicking!!

I am noticing the difference in my body since i have been having my Pt's i have bicepts and my leg muscles are getting more defined but the biggest thing i suppose is that my work clothes are starting to fit better so i know that i am doing something....

Soooo i am going to put my arse into gear and start doing some more excercise because i know that is where i am lacking!! Im going to start going for more walks at nite when i have seb and when i finish work and get into the gym a little bit more!

I can do this!!!

Bag Party

2007-11-12T05:00:00.001-08:00

Im having a bag party on the 28th of November. Yeah invites on there way!! 20 d0llars to 100 dollar bags!!!

Wedding

2007-11-11T16:38:00.000-08:00

Wow what an awesome day. very exhausting and lots of happy tears.. My beautiful dear friend sheree got married on saturday... Have a look how beautiful she was and also have a look at my little cherub!! It was such a beautiful wedding....

Brains!

2007-11-09T01:05:00.001-08:00

I don't understand some people really!!! we are in the biggest drought of our lives, and bendigo decided a few weeks ago because we had a little bit of rain and this new super pipe to lift our water ban back a level.. i was walking the other nite trying to put the terror to bed and soo many people were watering. and today, this lady was watering in the middle of the day.. Hello the sun is shining.!!! use your brains..

Just needed to vent.....

some people who have emailed me for access you didn't give me your email address Gem you are one of them.. so please email me your address that would be great, as when i went to get your address it came up with no reply.

Cheers

have a great weekend everyone. i have the wedding of the year tomorrow and im very excited and trying not to be emotional.... trying that is!!

Ness UnCensored

2007-11-06T18:48:00.000-08:00

Hey Blog Readers... I have decided to make a blog that is uncensored and for invited readers only. If you are interested in reading it please let me know and i will hook you up.

This blog will still be here!!

Ness

Cute As a Button!!!

2007-11-05T01:57:00.000-08:00

What an amazing weekend! Derby Day was one of the best days i have ever been to even if i didn't see the track that much! To all the girls who made the day an awesome day thank you!! My belly is still sore from laughin so hard, thanks to all the antics all day!!! I had a gamble and came out on top, I had plenty to drink, i got blisters, a rolled ankle, a burn mark, and sore arse from falling over, but most of all a few more years on my life for the fun that I had.

I met lindas "Cute as a Buttons" family and friends, and my god ladies you are all just tops we have to do it again... I met ails mum and dad and they are just wonderful people, and i slept in a bed that felt like it was going to fold in half on me :) hehehehehe!!!! It was just overall an awesome day and i felt great in a dress... I took my shoes off after being there for ummmmmm 1/2 an hour.... never again will i be wearing shoes that high again unless they have one thick Heel!!

Harry in my "so 2005" The Love Birds

Track side Clare and Me ( she is cute as a button)

Ness and Ails Sleeepppeeee ails

Me and Paul, me close to ails heart and our feet at the end of the day :)

Preparation for tomorrow

2007-11-01T21:50:00.003-07:00

Sooo i have had my eyebrows even painted my nails... yeah i know and now my hair check it out

P.s using my new camera :)

2 more sleeps and exhausted

2007-11-01T03:44:00.000-07:00

Yawnz! Im very emotional tired today, and thank god i don't have to go to work until about 9ish tomorrow morning! :) Soooo tomorrow im getting my eye brows waxed and my hair done.. im feeling like a shaggeeee dog at the moment!

Hey have i told you how excited i am about saturday? just in case im telling you again. im not looking forward to the weather and it being cold, but guess that just means im going to have to find some hunk of a spunk to cuddle up to ... hahahahaa yeah right as if thats going to happen.

hey i even painted my nails last nite.. Yeah i know.. how much of a girl am i turning into... im surprising myself i tell you..

I have packed my bags as much as i can and made sure i packed all my essentials... I just hope to god that i do get some sleep tomorrow nite.... and i got to remember to take my pillow..

I seriously have to get updates on everyones blog... lack of committment to blogging and lack of time has played huge part of it, so sorry guys..

well since im addicted to tetris im off to now play some more :)

Nite nite

Nothing about nothing

2007-10-29T06:50:00.000-07:00

Yawns.... what a big boring day today! had a dress rehersal at ails tonite for the weekend. Will be getting out the sewing machine tomorrow...

Alot of emotions are running through my head tonite. Been hit with some bomb shells over the last couple of days but anyway will sort through them.

On a good note im still blown away.. i lost 3 kgs in the last couple of weeks.... interesting.... maybe because i have not been eating much.... due to my highly consumed consumption of alcohol last weekend...

I know i know everyone is over hearing how excited i am about this weekend... but bloody hell i am going to look hot !! LOL!!!! started putting the tan on the body tonite getting all ready... i knew deep down inside i could be a lady :) LOL!! plus the farts and berps..

well should get off to bed since i have a PT at the gym tomorrow morning.. Yawns.... not looking forward to it i tell you :) just think my arse will be that little bit more tighter for the weekend.

love ya and leave ya

Last Nite

2007-10-26T19:18:00.001-07:00

While it was quite on ails front due to her having a headache and going home and vomiting it was a fun nite all in all... here are some pics to show what idiots we are

...... us being homies :) LOL

Its all good in the world

2007-10-26T04:48:00.000-07:00

just sitting here or should i say ails is lying here while we are on our second bottle of wine..... seb is alseep in the loungeroom all is good in the world.... i have just experienced text sexing.. not on my behalf!!! interesting....

only 7 sleeps to go until derby day.. linda have we got a surprise install for u... stay tuned honey!!!

ill give u clue in may involve a tent :)

thats a big maybe!! dont hold ur breathe though...and dont hold me too my word except maybe..

im still working on my big blog..... time is of the essence i know but things are just too good in my world at the moment to post right now.....

stay tuned.... enjoy the nite of ails and me on the booze there will be more updates..

Still Alive

2007-10-24T05:37:00.000-07:00

Just letting you all know that i am still alive and that i am in the process of writing a big post but don't have enough time to do it all at once.

right now though i am shit scared of spiders and i have the hugest white tail on my wall at the moment and waiting for it to come down so i can kill it.. Yuck

High Heels, Booze, and Singing!

2007-10-15T04:32:00.001-07:00

this is our thursday with Uncle Harry... this is on his balcony!! sebbie had an absolute ball.. in the first photo there is an air con thing and sebbie thought there was monkeys in there. it was sooo funny!!!! so harry blind folded him and took him to see the monkeys..... The imagination of my child!!! Harry cooked us Lamb shanks my god!! i can still taste it.. it was an awesome day until i had to drive to dads in the traffic.. i really am a country girl and have no patience... what should of taken my 40 minutes to get to dads took me 2 hours.... Bloody traffic i tell you!!

I had such a relaxing time in Melbourne.. i took sebbie on the train into the city on friday and my god that was an experience... he was soo excited!! got some bargain courtesy of Myer in the city.... i was looking for some shoes for sebbie for the wedding and i got him Ralph Lauren shoes.... 30% off which was awesome and a new suit.. well the people forgot to scan his suit so i only paid for the shoes!!! hahaha suffer in jocks i say!! they took the tags off and everything.. so because i had extra money i decided to treat myself and brought myself some new jeans.... size 14 :))))) i was so excited.. i didn't try them on and i ended up wearing them to the hens nite and they were a little bit big :)!! i was excited...

Now the hens nite, i didn't take my camera but hopefully will get some photos from some people.. it was such an awesome nite!! lots of games and lots and lots of singing!! and heaps of drinking.. it was sooo much fun!! i had such a good nite..

went to ails to play dress up last nite... and got my shoes.. well derby day is going to be interesting!! im going to walk like i hve been riding a horse for a week non stop as i can't walk in heels.. i have 3 weeks to practice.... so i tried everything on last nite, and really felt a million bucks.. a lady indeed...

sooo first back day back at work was interesting, full on and yeah back into the swing of things!!

welcome from Melbourne

2007-10-11T02:34:00.000-07:00

SOo i finally made it to melbourne and had an awesome lunch with my brother.. awww it was so yum he cooked lamb shanks... it was sensational.... i left his house which is over the westgate bridge to come to my dad who lives in the south eastern suburbs... i left at 4pm and got to my dads at 5.45pm.. Yeah tell me about it it was the most boring slowest drive i have ever done.. i don't know how you people can live in melbourne.. i was very inpatient.. i could not deal living in this place..

i only had about 4 hours sleep last nite as i had ails over until midnite and then sebbie decided that he wanted to be sick...aww it was foul..... but anyway he woke up this morning bright as a button.. i am looking forward to a great nite sleep tonite..

Well think i might go do some shopping in the city tomorrow ) need a new bloody phone :)

have a good weekend everyone... ill fill you in on the hens nite :)

Mmm Bop!!

2007-10-08T01:29:00.001-07:00

Had an awesome friday nite playing sing star.. that game is so much fun! and you can let lose and it really doesn't matter if you can't sing just as long as it is in tune... I made Lead singer once, and out sung scott a few times. when i rocked up Bek was going for it at the top of her lungs :) was nice and relaxing...

on my last weekend of my holidays, have had a nice day with sebbie today! He has been very cuddly and in a really great mood... Makes me wonder why i went back to work.. but i don't think i could go back to not working... Maybe just work in the winter and have the summer off.. it was such a beautiful day today!

Mowed the lawns yesterday took me 2 and 1/2 hours.. my god i am never letting my lawns get that long again!! least it looks good now...

got Sherees hens nite this saturday and going to melbourne on thursday to see my dad for a couple of days and having lunch with my brother! which will be nice.

I have said that i would have xmas at our house this year... Think it will be great, and least i don't have to drive anywhere this year!

Hope everyone is well!

I have a sore bottom

2007-10-04T22:08:00.000-07:00

Firstly its not sore for that reason.. filthy minds!!

I went out with my dear friends binki and Row as binki is going to be a teacher in a small town near horsham...... so we were having some drinks before she went... what was going to be a early nite ended up being huge and lots of fun..

I was involved in a Jaga Train...... something different. they lined up all the jagas on the bar and one flick of the finger and they all fell into the glasses, it was awesome...

anways i consumed some alcohol which is soo not like me :) *grins* and was dancing on the podium at the nite club, jumped off and landed right on the corner of it on my arse... lucky it was a padded spot that i landed on..... i tell you i was breathless for a few moments and ouch!!!

Today i have looked at my poor bottom in the mirror and i have some bruising on it..... yeah yeah silly me thats what i get for having some fun..

So now i am watching A walk to remember on dvd and chilling out...... very tired after only a few hours sleep :)

Well everyone have an awesome weekend and my quote i leave you with today is

Never let the future disturb you. You will meet it, if you have to, with the same weapons of reason which today arm you against the present.

Backyard Bliss

2007-10-03T20:51:00.000-07:00

So i thought i would see how far this wifi works. im sittin in my bak yard!! now all i need is a can :) LOL

i just made carmek fudge!! yeah yeah thats going ti be really good for my weight loss LOL

went into the gym this morning and pushed myself so very hard to get my frustrations out.. i feel great i may add..

had a ball with seb yesterday we danced ti the wiggles and numerous time he had me in hyserics telling me to "cut it out" My singing he is talking about.. suppose i should never give up my daily job :)

so my first week of holidas are nearly over.. awwww how time flies when ur having fun.. LOL

my weekend is going ti consistant of being a good girl.. well at this stage anyways think im going to ails to have a dvd marathon and catch "crouching" its actaully called "coupling" we always put it on when we get homd from drunken nites out but i always seem to fall asleep... Mmm fancy that!! so i said to her since she is not a healthy cookie at the moment that we should watch it!
Few bottles of white!! hehehehe..

My head space today is everywhere.. I have alot of emotions running through it at the moment and its hard to pick a point where to start to work it all out! Maybe from the start would be good!Hey?? I know what i want to achieve and i know i can do it, but my ability for brain and body to work together is another story... Changing my thought patterns would probably be a good idea easier said than done though Vanessa.

I had some stuff said to me yesterday which caught me off guard and now i am pondering about it, not wanting to believe that it is true.. maybe its not true maybe i am reading far to much into it! Or maybe i should believe it.. work on it, get over it and then move on... but something is telling me that is not me... Be true to who i am... I am an out there person and i love being loud and i love being heard! thats me thats my personality?? Well is it?? im questioning myself?? Ill ponder a bit longer! and get back to you

Im Excited

2007-10-03T05:04:00.000-07:00

to try and make myself feel happy right now, not that i want the attention but im getting really excited about the races! i now have a dress courtesy of Ails wardrobe..... its black and white and thats all i will say!!!!! i am going to be practicing walking in heels in the next couple of weeks so i look half decent... and don't make to much a foul of myself on the day..

I am really really excited about the weekends that are coming up!! i have my darling best buddy sherees hens weekends.. first on is on the 13th.. surprise location and can't wait and the following is a lovely weekend in dayleford.. bliss relax and drink in the huge spa that we have! I have organised both of them and very proud of myself.. so if there is any games that you can think of let me know.. we will be playing the peg game.. for those who have not heard of it you are given pegs and if somewhere swears and you here them you have to take a peg off them.... without using your hands.. the wnner the person with the most pegs.. so it won't be me as i always use the F word....

im enjoything this because i am watching Prison break and doing this at the same time!! awww bliss i tell you

well good nite everyone sweet dreams and ill be hitting it hard at the gym tomorrow let off some steam!!

Im Totally Addicted

2007-10-02T22:08:00.000-07:00

Im totally addicted to face book. it is so much fun!! and addicted to my laptop at the moment and not having to sit at my desk :) its great fun..

I have my beautiful little man with me today! he has been so awesome today!! we went for a big walk into town which was good, just what the doctor ordered after a massive PT yesterday!! I signed on for another years worth of PT's at the gym today! im really excited about it because i like to be able to be pushed and know that i can push my body to those limits. every 6 weeks i get a new program so you see how you progress over the 6 weeks which is good..

I had my last slim weigh in yesterday! we won't go there i don't see why i do it seriously.. i so need to pull my head out of arse and start making some serious changes in my diet.. stop eating so mich shit!! and starting looking after myself more.... just because im exercising doesn't mean im going to loss weight also need to be careful what goes in my bloody mouth. but i know all this i just not being strict with myself.. i need to get my priorities right thats what i need to do!! but on the other hand you only live once :)

Quote of the Day

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.
Herm Albright (1876 - 1944)

Time Gets Away

2007-10-01T04:42:00.000-07:00

These two weeks holidays are going to go so fast. today has just gone so quickly.... I had an hour massage this morning and then went into the gym and had a work out! came home and my brother and I watched spider man 3.. took seb into the chiro today and then came home and have been doing nothing :) Tomorrow is another day and a beautiful one at that . 26 here in Bgo

I have a pt tomorrow morning and then my adjustment at work... what am i going to do for the rest of the day.. Ummmm im not sure yet!!

I can see myself getting really bored but i promised myself that i won't be eating out of bordem..

I so need to mow my lawns that is on my list to do otherwise i will be having unwanted friends in my back yard and i don't want that!!

leave you with this quote
"Its not how much you do its how much love you put in the doing"

The Vanessa That Was

2007-09-29T17:45:00.001-07:00

I have been doing a clean up of my computer and have been going through all my photos and thought that i would do a time line from where i have come from to where i am now... even though i still have alot of work to do its amazing to see the changes.. I can see them that is for sure...

These two photos are from Sept 2005 when adam and I were in China. Seb was 5 months old. the photo of me and adam is where i went ok i need to do something about my weight. i was 90kgs there...

This photo is March 2006. I was about 85 kgs here..... this nite bek and I hit the town for a deserved girls nite out!!

This is me on cup day November 2006 I think i can't remember off the top of my head but i was about 76 kgs something around there....

Here is me from ummm two weeks ago.... im now 78 kgs I have come a long way that is for sure! My goal weight has always be 65 kgs!! If i can get to 70kgs i will be happy... the lowest weight i have got to was 72kgs and let myself slip again!!! so its time to get my shit together and really work my arse off instead of fluffing around and sayin ill do it one day, because one day it will be to late!

No Rules

2007-09-29T16:53:00.000-07:00

So for the next two weeks im on holidays which means no rules. no getting up to an alarm and doing what i want when i want.. i shouldn't say no rules because these holidays im working my arse off in the gym and going to eat as healthy as i can..

I have 4 weeks until Darby day and 5 weeks until the wedding.. and i need to get my arse into serious action.

I still have a child that is for sale also!! soo please anyone takers??

Well this rain is awesome but so need so much more!! take care all and hope you all have awesome weekends

--Blank--

2007-09-25T03:36:00.000-07:00

I didn't know what to call this post so i called it blank.... Im feeling a little down today which is the first time in a long time. I got a thinking about life, and where i want to go, and i suppose what really got me thinking was that aidan and de went to a conference on the weekend to the man who appears in the movie what the bleep, and where talking about the brain and how it works and how our thinking works.. it was very interesting.. anyway the think that go me thinking was that by about 35 years old our brain has experienced everything.. so for our brain to experience new things and make new path ways in our brain we need to get out of our comfort zone.....our brain plays very safe and our body likes to play out of its comfort zone!! example.. if your crossing a river and the river gets deeper as you go along your brain would like to play it safe and turn back around, where as the body would like to keep going... because we know where we have just come from and we know that the river in the direction that we come from is safe we want to turn around.. anyway i hope you are following if not well im sorry..

the point i am getting at is that we do this in our lives.. Me i am like that with men.. i have not slept or kissed another person in the last 4 years except adam.. Im to scared to step out of my comfort zone.. I know adam and i know what i am going to experiencing and expect.... Im scared of getting hurt and scared of experiencing that hurt i suppose... anyway i just thought that was very interesting, because i had my chance to take the pick on 72 hot men hehehe this weekend and didn't go there... My brain was playing safe...

I have my two weeks holidays coming up next week and i cant wait, im gong to be working my arse off in the gym, relaxing, do the things i want to do in the first week as i don't have sebastyn.. in the second week im going to spend a few days with my dad in melbs which will be nice, he will be at work during the day but that doesn't matter cause seb and I will keep ourselves entertained.

Well better be off as my eyes are getting tired... Mmmm i s feel like ice cream right now..

Pssstttt!!

2007-09-22T22:53:00.000-07:00

So im sitting in my loungeroom right now writing this post! my wireless is finally working! after ringing bigpond again and them telling me that they will have to send someone out to see why it is not working but i bloody fixed the problem myself. Good tech help they are :)

Awwww i am feeling it today! ails and i watched the sun rise this morning :) LOL what a blast of a weekend. make sure you go to her blog to check out the photos.... lots and lots of boys and footy trips!!! Ohhh and what a tart ails has been this weekend...... I did score!!! LOL!! a stubby holder!! hahahha.... as good as its gets for me!!

Well its time to get my act into gear and start behaving as i have some massive weekends coming up with hens nites, the races, wedding and work seminars!! I feel like i am booked out until xmas!! my god thats not far away either!

attention all FLashers

2007-09-22T03:07:00.000-07:00

Hehe how hot are these pictures :)

What an awesome nite last nite.... been drinking since 12pm today heeheheheh ails and i are hitting the town again to go boggy.. love her work!!!

Ohhhh so the whole point of my blog title is that i forgot to tell you about my weekend last weekend. last weekend i was bogging on the dance floor here and a chick decided to lift her dress up and i saw her pink bits.. oh was not nice at all...... and then..... last nite when we were out a guy decided to show me his testicle!! ohhhh the things i am attract..... sooo.. yeah what next??

have a good weekend and tg the cats !!!! love you linda xxx

More Male or Female

2007-09-18T23:30:00.001-07:00

I did some searching and did this test :)

You Are 60% Feminine, 40% Masculine

You are in touch with both your feminine and masculine sides.You're sensitive at the right times, but you don't let your emotions overwhelm you.You're not a eunuch, just the best of both genders.

Its Raining Is Pouring!

2007-09-18T16:54:00.000-07:00

I wish it was pouring!!! Just dropped my brothers car off to get fixed after our little accident! and seb and I walked home.. It was pleasant for him as he was snugg as a bug in his pusher under cover while poor mummy didn't have a jacket and got a little wet.. It was nice though. took me about 45 minutes to walk home...

Going to set Ratatouille today with Ails which will be fun.. we are taking sebbie too.. i am looking foward to seeing it.

Tonite we are going to see Little Birdie play which will be fun too!! Concert concerts its great. im loving going to see bands live..

Got our tickets for darby day.. i am so excited.. I have been told that we won't even see a horse.. Ohhhhh and i got a hat.. LOL!!! wait until you see it!!!! Linda you will be very impressed.. Oh and guess what!! as those of you who know me well and im not a girlie girl i will be wearing a dress and high heels and make up.... Yeah im sure im going to be dressed to impress :)

Had my weigh in at the gym yesterday. for the past 3 weeks my weight has stayed the same which i am happy about because of all the drinking i have been doing :) But my body fat has gone down. which is good :)

I am doing boot camp at the gym for 8 weeks which will start in the first week of october :) Its called Millitary miss and you have 2 sessions a week!! i cant wait. Its going to be awesome :)

Well better go check on the little man as he is watchin IROBOTs his favourite movie at the moment!!! least its better than wiggles and elmo in grouch land..... think if i have to watch them one more time im going to turn into elmo or a wiggle :)

Take care everyone enjoy the rain and be good :) LOL!!!!

WeekEnd Rapt

2007-09-16T00:16:00.000-07:00

Ok where does one start... lets first by saying i have never been to something as awesome as the silverchair and powderfinger concert last nite! It was unbelievable and there were thousands and thousands of people! and they sang a song together. right at the end and that was pretty special!! I didn't even get anywhere near close to the stage but had pretty good view from where we were! $6 for a VB which is Firetrucking stupid! but anyways!! went out afterwards, danced my little arse off and lined up in the taxi rank for an hour which was delightful! NOT!!

Ohhh i went shopping yesterday and brought myself a weight set with bench... yeah pretty awesome. I am starting a 6 week challenge thing which i will eventually put on here as it is easy as pie!! and thought well if i can't get into the gym at least i can come home and work out and now i have no excuses :) I have a busy few months ahead of me and i really want to be looking my best so today is my last day of piss farting around and actually getting my arse into this. I have been pondering and making excuses for too long and my finger has now been pulled out..

So i have the fit ball the skipping rope and the weights, plus my gym membership i should be kicking some fat and toning some muscles in no time, with a balanced diet of course..

What else.. ohhh today i went for a drive to Rochester as that is where my grand parents live and caught up with my sister and Taj my grand parents and my aunty and uncle... My dad was also there as he drove over.. But i got to drive his BMW on the way home.. i felt so cool.. *LOL* They are really nice to drive actually.. such a sterotypical type i am..*LMAO* driving behind that wheel in my $5 sunglasses and tracksuit pants and jumper.. I said to my brother Ohh now all i need is the bling :) anyway if i never own one least i can say i have driven one :)

and finally today my darling little precious boy who is up for sale by the so anyway i will take all offers... and just so you can see how adourable he is this was taken about 20 minutes...

Silverchair and PowderFinger

2007-09-14T03:45:00.001-07:00

Yes ladies and gentleman i am going to be dancing my sexy booty licious arse off tomorrow nite with some hot men!!! Yes thats right Silverchair and Powder Finger! Two of my favourite bands! My dad and his wife are coming up to look after the terror while my brother, his friend Jackie and I hit the showgrounds for one awesome nite! I cant wait! i have been looking forward to this for ummmm since the day i found out they were coming to Bgo....

Sooo if you hear on the news that a woman has been arrested for breaking security fences well it will be me :)

Have a top weekend everyone be safe and dont forget to tell your loved ones how much you love them!

Hey by the way........ put your thinking caps on and tell me some awesome hens nite games :)

Cioa

Howdy Partner

2007-09-11T23:20:00.000-07:00

Howdy everyone!!

Its so good to have my communication back with the world.. i don't know how much longer i could of put up with telephone banking i tell you!!!

So there you go hope you enjoy my new snack picture, courtesy of ails :)

My stomach is hurting at the moment not only from my PT that i had yesterday but also from reading and looking at ails blog today! even though i had seen the photos before the little comments and stuff just tip it all off.. BUT ails you left the best bit out!! the video!!! you will have to put that on :)

Hehehehehehehehehe hahahahahaha

I finally got my internet in the mail today! wi fi to only have the modem that we got have a faulty wi fi in it!! sooo now i have to wait another forking 4 days for them to send me a new modem so that i can use wi fi.. but least i got the net. and my god i had broadband before but i got a new faster speed and its zippy zippy!!

i have been baking my arse off today!! Banana cake and lemon sour cake.. Mmmm my house smells so yum!!

Settled into the new house, after everything that happened... and yeah! got silverchair and powderfinger this weekend.. My god am i excited.. and umm by the way ladies..

I am a really big vin diesel fan and he is coming to Bendigo!! yes ladies...... but he is staying with me so don't bother!! :) LOL

well might ice me cake before the terror wakes up from his sleep!

ill be back for a indepth post shortly!!

Quick Update

2007-09-07T18:46:00.000-07:00

hey still not got internet at my new house will be this week had a sleep over at ails last nite as we got totally smashed last nite and thought that while i was here i would do a quick update

so where do i start.. the move maybe LOL!!! well moving went ok until an old man decided to pull out in front of me and i hit him in my brothers car!! yeah was not nice.. then i forgot to put the Fuc&^%ing hose in the sink in the laundry and flooded it in the new house all in one day.. so ummm yeah was great..

what else!! nothing really just been busy unpacking and being lazy and working my arse off..

take care all

By the way make sure you read ails blog shortly!!!! :) The "Forking Lasse" is back .. LOL

Sleep Deprivation

2007-08-31T04:45:00.000-07:00

This is how i look at the moment, my eyes popping outta ma head.can someone please give me some good sleeping pills that will put me to sleep for the next 48 hours and then i can wake up and my house has been moved and everything unpacked, and the old house cleaned... I would appreciate it and i would be very grateful!!

it is 9.47 at nite and im just eating tea!! yeah thats got t be good going to sleep on a full belly!!

have had no car the last couple of days so been walking everywhere, even walked to work yesterday morning.. LOL freezing cold!!!

Well might transfer my little man from his lightening couch to his bed for one last sleep in it in this house.. Can't wait for this to all be over.. By the way im car shopping too :)

Lazy Babe!

2007-08-27T19:08:00.000-07:00

Just got onto becks blog and saw here audition for singing bee. You rock!

anyways i a feeling like this seal at the moment with my blogging. Been very lazy! not catching up on what people have been up to and most of all not writing anything!

I am moving house this weekend which will be exciting, i am looking forward to that something new and also something modern. im going to be in the house for the first week on my own which will be interesting, as Cj is going to qld for a mini holiday....

this weather has been awesome.. i am sooo looking forward to summer... i love the heat!!

I have been going to the gym heaps and running heaps too.. my weight has been up and down but i am getting back on track of it and have re evaluated my goals now and back on track

i have heaps to say but not enough time.. as im scoffing down my lunch now and have to have a shower and get ready for work

im still alive and still kicking it! well my lillte cherubs take care and i will be back in full swing soo

xxxxx

Accident Prone

2007-08-25T17:14:00.000-07:00

Up at the hospital again last nite with a child who may hae a broken nose, not much the doctors can do as long as he can breathe ok. all they said was it would heal in 5 - 7days and that they only we have to worry about is cosmetic look.. anyways he is like is father in that aspect. adam was verty clumsey as a child!!

On another note, my house looks like a bomb has hit it with all the packing that is going on. i have so much shit!! i didn't realise! im having a huge clean out that is for sure!

Well i will have a new email address soon also which will be nesr@bigpond.com as i am changing provider so i have have wifi at the new house :)

so only 5 more sleeps until i start moving i can't wait!!

Our New House

2007-08-21T17:49:00.000-07:00

This is how i am feeling at the moment, like a cheeky happy monkey.... Got a house, feel great in myself, getting our holiday under control for January, i got a long weekend coming up soon, and i am staying humble otherwise something will come along and bring me back down to earth..

Chris and I got a new house.... its 3 years old and i can't wait to move in next weekend. Here are some pictures of it... My favourite part of this house is the oven,... and when you see the picture you will understand why.... I love to cook and so does my brother and its one huge oven.. and also a huge back yard!! lots of room for sebastyn and co to run around in and lots of room for us to do what we want to do!!

So this is our huge back yard :)

This morning i have killed my phone as i have been on it all morning making phone calls to arrange connections for everything and disconnections for this house.

My god moving house is a tendious process... i am looking forward to packing though as we have to down size, as it only has three bedrooms which means i get to do some spring cleaning :) i can't wait!! Ails has actaully inspired me as she has been cleaning and was telling me about christmas cards that she has kept from over the years, and i was like i keep them too and now it is time to get rid of them.

Well i think its about time that seb and I head into the shower and go and get some stuff from the supermarket.

My dad is coming up to see me tomorrow so that will be nice.

see ya

The Goat

2007-08-14T23:32:00.000-07:00

To Start off i thought i would start with my star sign. The goat..

I thought i would do some research about my star sign and find out all about me and compare it with THE GOAT......

THE CAPRICORN

Capricorn Positive Traits
Practical and prudent Ambitious and disciplined Patient and careful Humorous and reserved
Capricorn Negative Traits
Pessimistic and fatalistic Miserly and grudging

The practical and prudent Capricorn sun sign will be the first to tell you if your new idea just does not make common sense. They are great refiners, taking people creative ideas and fine tuning them, adding direction and practical application.
These people are very ambitious and disciplined. They will climb the corporate ladder steadily, and with honor. You can count on them to get the job done and to go well above and beyond the call of duty.
The show extreme patience when dealing with short tempered people, they can listen to a long winded rant and still stay cool and calm.
They have a very good personality, and have a great sense of humor. Capricorn's humor is more a sarcastic, and dead pan type humor, but works very well because they have what it takes to pull it off.

I don't agree with being prudent!!! I am so not a prude!!!!! far from it!!!

THE MOUNTAIN GOAT

For the mountain goat is a loner. An edgy, introverted soul. who abhors crowds and puts is nimble legs to work in the great outdoors.

Mountain goats are not risk takers and need to feel solid ground beneath their feet before making any major decision.

The mountain goat's desire to find a mate can lure it from its solitary hideout, and it seeks partners with strong personalities that promise protection in an unfriendly world. However, when choosing a mate, it will quickly withdraws if it fails to get a commitment. This behavior is often interpreted as desperation and some relationships are doomed before they get off the ground.
A relationship with a mountain goat is an exercise in ups and downs. Even though its emotional fragility causes the premature death of many love affairs, provide its partner remains faithful, the mountain goat will honor it with commitment and fidelity. For mountain goats are unconditional with their love and try hard to make their relationships work.

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Interesting!! I can see many of these traits in me especially with the ups and downs in relationships because it was a rollercoaster with adam and I that is for sure!!

I am always putting people first in my life that is for sure before i think of myself! I think alot of people do that though! its in our nature i believe!

Patience is another thing i don't agree with because my patience level is very limited. I must admit it has got better with sebastyn being born as you need patience with a child, but my temper easily comes when patience level has bursted..

For those who know me i am determined person when i put my mind to it! I am easily side tracked also!!

TODAYS QUOTE

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful. -Joshua J. Marine

New Direction

2007-08-14T23:29:00.000-07:00

Ok so im going to do something a bit different and fun with my blog ... my post are going to be based on animals!! Mmmmmmm are you intregued? Good stay tuned!!

I should never say Never

2007-08-14T02:17:00.000-07:00

I should never say never but i am saying that i am never going out drinking again!! I remembered saturday morning ummm afternoon why i stopped drinking and going out!! having not being drinking in about 8 weeks and then hittin the 8% alcohol drinks i was trashed on friday nite!! hehehehe, maybe not as bad as beckie :) hehehehe thats the first time i think i have seen becks like that :) you are such a doll and i had so much fun!! I felt fine until my phone started bipping at me and ringing at me!! then my stomach was telling me it needed something to eat and drink!! yeah well the water i drank didn't last long!! back up it came!!

Besides being in Bed all day saturday and being a sook, adam and I took seb down to Melbourne on the train on sunday!! and to the zoo!! it was so much fun!! i think we need to organise a bloggers day at the zoo... pack our own lunches or something as there is a big grass area to sit or otherewise they have sleep overs.... hehehe dont you think that would be fun??

I have heaps of photos of our day which i will post up!!

Well ladies and gentleman I leave you with this quote

There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.
- William Shakespeare

Humble

2007-08-09T21:50:00.000-07:00

I have been trying to say humble but, this week!! well i have been in an awesome mood and great spirits even thought my exercise and eating has been crap and then too top it all off we get evicted from our house! Yeah i know! poor ness and chris, but guess what!! i don't care anymore im over the anger and i am really going to miss this house, but there is a reason for it!! Its time for cj and I to find somewhere else!!!

i suppose i am a little bit hurt because i feel like all i do is pack and move, i have a job that i am stable in and thought we had a house that we are stable in and then this! bammmmmmm!! hits ya!!! it reminds me as a kid!!! moving here to there been taking here to there, no stability!!! and now its happening all over again.. Why am i attracting this?? what is the universe trying to tell me!!! That i am suppose to be a gypsie??? LOL!!!! maybe thats it!!

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend.. i sure will be.. hitting the town tonite, after going to the gym and doing pump, and guess what i am going to run into the gym.. thats right!! RUN!! im loving running even though its kills me and my legs i love it!!

Take care all love you all and be good.. and by the way i will be catching up on blogs this weekend sorry everyone who i read :)

Ness

Naughty and Nice

2007-08-07T03:06:00.000-07:00

Naughty i feel like being and nice, well i am :) hehehe

Thanks for the comments guys!!! i just needed to vent and Becks no you have not made me feel that way so get that outta ya head!!

Hope you don't mind me writing this mum :)

My mum reads my blog and keeps updated about sebastyn not that i have done alot of updating about him lately so that is coming!! but here title in her email back was

smile.. it makes the darkest of days bright!!! I really liked that so thank you!!! There is alot of history between us and alot of things that will never be forgiven but you get to a point in your life where enoughs enoughs move on, things happen!!! I had not spoken to my mum in many years and i found out i was pregnant and one of the first things that went through my head was, oh my god what happened if mum died tomorrow and never got to see her grandson!! I would have had so much regret and anger about it.....I stewed over this for ages but i really wanted to let her know that i was pregnant and that she was going to be a grannie again!! I suppose the point i am getting at here is that life is so short!! we all do things for a reason, and so many people REGRET so many things... but you should never regret anything you do you should learn from everything you do!! we all make bad choices in life but we make our choices for a reason..

anyways i have been feeling a little better about the whole "back burner" situation and i have come to a point now where i am like so be it move on, get on with life! no point dwelling about it there is nothing you can do you just be there for who ever needs you... and then i was like hang on am minute what about me!! i seem to always bloody put everyone else first!! what about bloody me!!! Soooo one of the exercises i had to do for butterfly program was write down how much time i have to myself and the things i do for me.. Well that was a very interesting exercise for the whole week i did about 5 things for me which took me about 3 hours!! out of a whole week.. kinda shows nessy needs some more pampering..

Well this is a really long post so i might get to the picture part then.. there is some pictures from our xmas in july party and my darling lil man and family

enjoy

love your boobies brooke :) i had such an awesome time!! and i was really silly just ask the girls i love being about to be silly and really let my hair down.. and that is what i did!!

This was our bloggers party!! was sooo yummmm.... ,my favourite photo is coming right up!!

This is ails at koko black.. she helped me break my cherry.. we got all of that for $20 it was awesome who needs men for orgasms when your got koko black!!!

This is my darling brother and seb giving him a kiss.. He loves Uncle Krys!!! they could play and play for hours these too..

This is I and terror!!!!! i like this photo because our eyes are both so wide open..... we look crazy!!

and last but not least our new lounge suite.. its bliss its leather its awesome.. it smells awesome, and we put our old lounge suite out the front, for the summer to come!! i can't wait!!

Pushed to the back burner

2007-08-05T01:26:00.001-07:00

Its not a nice feeling but im feeling very distant from some people very close to me as of late! family and friends....

I have tried to say that it is ok we go through these patterns and that everything will work out, and that there is a reason for this but it just not gelling with me!

Yes i have become a non smoker, and a non drinker and i have not been out in ages which means i have not really socialised with my friends alot, so that would explain why i have not really had anything to do with them at the moment, but when it comes to family i don't know!! I just feel like i have been pushed to the back burner!! my job is done and im not needed anymore! I don't like that feeling, that feeling of not being wanted.. Its really eating at me, and i don't really want to push the issue either....

anyways on a good note i had my monthly measurements at the gym this week! and i want to share with you all my results. In a month i have lost 2% body fat, 2kgs and 8cm!! i was bloody rapted with that i tell you! so I just have to keep up the good work and i will get my achievements!!

So im in the middle of cooking tea and just wanted a vent!!

Nite all hope your weekends were peaceful!!

How sad is this!!

2007-08-01T01:50:00.000-07:00

Soo i have had a really shit day today but anyways you know how we all eat something unhealthy when we are down.. well the only thing i could find in my house was a bloody banana or an apple so i had a banana.. that is just soooo sad..

well going out to tea tonite with becks and ails as it is ails birthday on friday but she won't be around!! just looked at the time.. suppose i should get ready!

Body Balance

2007-07-26T21:52:00.001-07:00

Im very sore today!!! i did body balance for the first time yesterday! i didnt think holding positions for a few minutes would make you sweat but also make you sore! i really enjoyed the class and i think my muscles enjoyed it also!!! I also did pump on friday nite the first time in ages!!! Im really trying to incorporate some classes into my weekly gym work outs just for some variety!!

A very good friend of mine had a baby boy this week Bryce James he is so little, i forget how little they are and another friend of mine had a baby girl a couple of weeks ago!!!! Im getting cluckey :0) with all the people bringing their babies into work and my friends having babies its making me think!!! Will i ever have more childiren? or is sebaystn it?? I always said that i would have a bus load!! I know there wont be children in the next 5 years thats for sure! Im still very young and i am enjoying my job and what layes ahead of me with my career and work...

still organising my trip to qld!! deciding where to stay! accomodation is the most expensive thing i tell you!! there is a few children friendly places in surfers paradise that would be good, but im not real keen on staying right in surfers!!! just doesn't appeal to me at all!

well while my little man is having a sleep i shall get some stuff done!!

Take care all and be in touch soon

Bald is the New Blonde!

2007-07-22T00:13:00.000-07:00

Wow what an inspiring and emotional weekend i have had in melbourne. I have so much to say but don't want to overload so i will keep in short and sweet

I have never notice so many bald men in my life, and my god how many hot guys there where!! But besides that meeting Dr. John Demartini would have to be up there in my highlights! what an amazing guy and so full of knowledge.

My question i asked him was what his favourite quote was and i knew he would come out with "I am a genious and i apply my wisdom." which he did but then he looked me straight in the eyes and said "no matter you have done or what you have not done you are worthy of love" he nearly made me cry and coming from him was just a priviledge.

Sooo i also heard Lisa Curry Kenny speak and what an awesome and amazing women she is!! i so want her six pack and i am aiming for that six pack i can tell you :)

We heard many chiropractic people from america who have been very successful in their time! it was worth while!

I have been feeling great and have been exercising heaps. running is going well except for my knees hurting a llittle, but that will go away!

My eating has been great, and my confidence is growing.

Adam and I are great which makes life so much easier. I am loving every minute that i have been spending with him lately and also sebastyn. The "family" time is great!! I have a wonderful. amazing little boy who is just beautiful and has such a great memory!!! I can't get over how good his memory is!

I have so much i have to say and i will have to do a few post about my weekends and go over my notes because i have some really inspiring stuff. I have been had such an emotional weekend, and how wonderful it is to see the chiropractic world unite and been so loving!!

I learnt alot about myself and where and what i want to do and what i am worth in this world! I am so proud of who i am and the achievements that i made and the many more that are going to come.

I hope that everyone is well and safe and had good weekends!!

Quick Update

2007-07-18T00:09:00.000-07:00

Hey everything going awesome..

Just wanted to let you all know that i am going to melbs this weekend for a seminar with work! But the awesome news is that i am going to meet John Demartini. For you who know who i am talking about or don't know he is on "The Secret". my work does alot of business with him, and we are having a hour consultation with him, and i have to think of one question to ask him that will help benefit our clients/ or to do with work!! I have to get thinking about that

I am so excited!!!

See ya of to PT now :)

Values!

2007-07-14T00:25:00.000-07:00

Everyone has values and everyones are different! I first did my values when i started at work and have done them a couple of times since and they really haven't changed that much!

Something in my head snapped this week which was really interesting and a big turning point for me!
I have been stewing over a few family members and looking at what should be important to them because these things are my top values and have not been considering what their top values are. And I finally understand and realised and accepted that our values are different. I could actually see it!! I finally saw it! And do know what, i feel great about it now, i don't have any issues about it!! Because where i am not getting what i want from them i am getting it from somewhere else!!!

Hope that make sense to you all!! Just needed to vent that information.

Well my little buns are getting tighter :) hehehehe i have been into the gym every day this week.. i feel great!!! I have been really good with my eating, and starting to feel the change in my fitness already!!!! its amazing!!

I feel that everyone is kinda over blogging at the moment and not motivated about it! Which is sad in a way because i enjoy catching up on what everyone has been doing! Suppose it goes back to peoples values and whats important in our lives! I hope that everyone is ok and safe and well!!!

Butterfly Program - Week 2

2007-07-10T14:41:00.000-07:00

I had my first weight and body fat results program! I have decided that i am not going to post them as they are not my main focus for doing this, but a major player in the whole picture, but i don't want to get down on myself if i don't lose weight or my body fat goes up, because somewhere in my week i would have achieved something else, and i want to stick to talking about my positives not the negatives :)

Soooo i took my awesome red box into the gym and we went over it and talked a little but why i put certain things on it etc etc, and then i got my homework for week 2. This week i have put things in my box that will help me along the way and also things that i would like to have in my life. Soooo for example i am going to QLD in January for a holiday so i might put pictures of QLD in their and a bikini..... everyday i am to look in the box to help inspire and motivate me...

Also i have to write a diary about all the food that i eat, when i wake up and go to sleep and if i feel tired when i wake up, how many hours sleep i have, if i wake during the nite, how much caffenince, alcohol or nicotine i have and my feelings.... Then we will talk about it at my next session

Sooo i decided that i will be right with the alcohol and nicotine part as i am not having any alcohol during this 12 weeks and Im nearly one month of quitting smoking :)

I have been great, i have got up early every morning this week and have gone into the gym. This morning i did combat!!! Don't know if i will do it again!!! its very high impact which i liked but my back didn't like it very much!!!

Sooo this morning i don't have my little man as i have to go into work for a work meeting Yippie, but I will have all afternoon with him!! Hopefully he will be in a nice mood for me today!

Got my PT Session tonite, and then a massage which i think my body needs with all this exercising i am doing!

I hope you enjoyed my story on sleep! i was allowed to take the book home yesterday from the gym, there is some other interesting facts in their that i will have to update you on in the near future.

Take care everyone!!

Nemo On Ice

2007-07-08T16:08:00.000-07:00

Oh my god! did anyone go and see nemo on ice?? It was bloody awesome! Sebastyn had a ball he kept yelling out "hello nemo, hello marlin hello dori it was funny and cute all at the same time! He sat on my brothers knee the whole time clapping and laughing and go ohhh wow!!! Next Disney on ice is high school musical think i might give that one a miss and wait and see what they bring out next!!! if any gets a chance to go and see a disney on ice go for it!! they are very cleaver :)

Had the best nite sleep in a very long time last nite which was awesome, i even woke up this morning before my alarm went off. Was in at the gym bright and early this morning! I am starting to run which im enjoying. i get on the tred mill and set it so i do a few minutes walking a few minutes running, ween myself into it!!!

I feeling good and more energy which is good!! but we will see how long that lasts, as one of the ladies at work has gone on holidays which means i am working every shift for the next 2 weeks!! See how my energy levels are after that!!

Well better be off and get myself ready for work this afternoon.

Take care ya all!!

Obesity and Sleep

2007-07-07T04:47:00.000-07:00

I was reading a book at the gym this week which i wasn't allowed to take, about obesity and sleep, which i found really interesting! I did some research on the web today about it and this was basically what the book was telling me! I found this really interesting, I hope you guys do too!

Obesity and Sleep

A recent study reveals that the number of hours slept has an influence on the risk of obesity. The less we sleep, the more at risk we are. This fact could explain why people who suffer from sleep apnea, a known thief of sleep, tend to gain weight at an above normal rate.

It's a known fact that obesity is a major factor in sleep apnea, and is often listed as one of the main causes. But that appears to be a two-way street. Once a person becomes a victim of sleep apnea, without very strict dietary control, even more pounds pile on.
Sleep apnea causes sleep deprivation, and, of course, the more sleep deprived a person becomes, the less active he or she is. Less exercise causes weight gain, but is that the only reason we gain weight?

The study, conducted by researchers at Columbia University's Mailman School of Public Health and the Obesity Research Center, suggests a link between the risk of being obese and the number of hours of sleep each night.

-Statistics show that people who sleep 7-8 hours a night are far less likely to be obese than those who sleep 4-5 hours a night. Sleep deprivation causes an increase in body levels of the hormone grehlin and a decrease in body levels of the hormone leptin. Grehlin increases appetite while leptin decreases appetite. So, those who sleep less are likely to have a stronger appetite and consequently eat much more.
-Sleeping less can cause poor food choices. We may feel too tired to cook a wholesome meal or lack the motivation to stick to a healthy eating plan. When we are tired it is easy to reach for quick and comforting foods, which are likely to be full of fat and sugar.

-The body needs sleep for muscle growth and repair to occur, as well as for recovery of muscles after a workout. Repair and growth occur during rest and rely on routine sleep patterns.

-Growth hormone is secreted in the greatest amounts during sleep. Growth hormone is not only beneficial for those who wish to increase their muscle mass, but for anyone concerned with their weight and body composition. Growth hormone plays a role in metabolizing protein, fats, and carbohydrates.

-A lack of sleep reduces the body's ability to process and store energy from the food we eat, including properly metabolizing carbohydrates.

-Sleep deprivation can increase blood levels of the hormone cortisol. Prolonged high levels of cortisol can lead to breakdown of muscle tissue, an increase in stored abdominal fat, weakened immune system, and can affect thyroid function.

-If you have not slept well you may be lacking in coordination. A lack of sleep can have similar affects on the body as alcohol in terms of coordination and reaction time. This could cause an increased risk of injury when working out.

-Lack of sleep over an extended period can cause increased blood glucose levels and may increase the risk of diabetes. Increased blood glucose levels can lead to overproduction of insulin, which can then cause the body to store more fat.

-Performance in sports may be hampered by inadequate sleep because of the body's inability to metabolize glucose for fuel and recover from previous workouts.

-If you are awake longer you are probably going to eat more. Burning more calories by being awake instead of asleep does not make up for the extra calories consumed in those extra hours.

The Butterfly Program

2007-07-05T19:53:00.000-07:00

Im excited, and glad that i have this program to help me achiee my goals! As you all know my best buddy is getting married in November! well she also works at fernwood and she told me about this butterfly program. I was like sweet i would love to do it! The butterfly program is over 12 weeks and is about personal growth and development. Every week we have a topic and we also need to pick two goals, one healthy eating goal and one personal goal.

Week 1 - Where i want to be in 12 weeks time? I said to sheree that i would love to be 70kgs by your wedding, i want to decrease my body fat, i want to start running, i am not drinking any alcohol for 12 weeks and im not concentrating on my weight over the 12 weeks. Its about my body fat, my cms and my health and fitness.

My goals this week for health eating was to cut my portion sizes down and my personal goal was to go into the gym at least 3 times!

My motivation has been great i didn't have seb on wednesday nite and i went into the gym, me and him went for a walk into town on wednesday and my alarm was set for 5.45am Thursday morning and i went and did a work out before work!!! i am so bloody proud of myself!

So i had some homework to do this week! and that was to create a box of the life i want and who i am... I have been having fun doing it! im not finished with it yet and i have decided to leave the bottom of the box blank for when i have finished this program to add more stuff to see how things have changed!!! i also have to think of rewards for myself and how often i want these rewards, so if anyone has any ideas please let me go!!

Im really motivated and inspired right now and everything in my life is balanced! Im grateful for everything that i have and everything that i have achieved to this date! and things are only going to get better from here.

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend and catch you all soon

Beautiful Butterfly

2007-07-03T15:44:00.000-07:00

Vanessa - (Greek) means beautiful butterfly

That is my goal is to feel like a beautiful butterfly - not only have i started my PT's again - oh i feel sore today, but i am also joining a 12 week program called the Butterfly program. I don't know much about the program at this stage, i will find out more this afternoon at my first session... But i do know that we set out goals, I do challenges every week and I do a vision box which i am looking forward to doing!!! Sooo i feel great that i am using all my resources to get myself back on track! Im sick of my weight yo yoing and im sick of feeling like shit!

My coughing has finally settled down, and i am so happy about that!! Now its time to get my fitness back on track and lose some weight, body fat and most of those some CM's.

More about the butterfly program later!!!

Welcome to July

2007-06-30T23:34:00.000-07:00

Welcome to July. End of financial year and the start of the new one... Tax Time!! I LOVE!!!! and welcoming the rain!!! SOoo i have microsoft money on my computer and i have decided that this financial year i am going to see how much i spend and what on etc etc!! taking control of my finances :) About time i do that i think!! Im excited about do this because it will be interesting to see where i spend my money! i think sebastyn, but you just never know!

Lee and Taj just left and that was lovely too see them!! the boys always run a muck when they are together. I vaccumed and mopped the house yesterday! and ummmmm you can't tell :)

Well i hope that everyone has had a good weekend and relaxed and ready for another working week! I am going to be starting a new program at the gym ill fill you in more when i know all the details!! Help me to reach my goals!!

Cut My Head Off!! PLEASE

2007-06-30T02:40:00.000-07:00

I want someone to cut my head off. I know our body only gives us enough pain that we can deal with but right now i am over this sore throat! i have had it for about a week now, well basically since i gave up the ciggas soo 2 weeks really!! and its frustrating me!!! i have now started garglling the salt to try and get rid of whatever infection i have there!!

My sister and nephew are coming to play with seb and i tomorrow and i am sooo looking forward to seeing them both since its been soooo long!!!!

Last nite Ails and I went out for tea at barzurk!! it was so yum!! anthony Munden was in town and we were going to go see him but an early nite called us both!!

then an 8am message from ails this morning that she forgot to send me last nite, woke me and i was out of bed and in at the gym by 8.30am!!! a hour cardio workout to start the day was awesome and then some shopping for the soul!!! brought two jumpers and a workout top for the gym!!!

And i just have to end this post with go BOMBERS~!!!!!

Have an awesome rest of the weekend everyone!

Body Change

2007-06-26T15:52:00.000-07:00

My body is going through some huges changes right now, and god damn can i feel it!
As you all know i work at a chiropractor and in the last week I think i have had an adjustment nearly every day! Giving up the smoking, and getting rid of all these chemicals out of my body, is making it all scooo wifff!!!!

I am having some serious issues with my lower back and legs at the moment, so i have booked in for a massage today hoping that this will help eleviate some of the pain that i am feeling at the moment! I am wondering when this cough will go away also! i think if i cough anymore i am going to cough my lungs up!!! My sense of smell has come back... i can't believe it!! Its so funny when you smoke you don't smell smoke on someone, but adam came around the other nite, after being at a mates places and i was like grose you smell like smoke go away!!!

Soo yesterday was my first day at the gym!! And i did just take it easy as i need to get my back right and need to stop coughing before i go bullet a gate and work myself so hard i can't walk :) hehehe........ I felt really good about exercising, and i have missed it!!! I weighed myself, and i have put my current weight on the blog for you all to see. I am basically start from scratch again!!! but this time its going to be maintained..

Sooo today i am suppose to be going for a walk with Sebastyn, but the sky doesn't look very healthy right now, and i don't own a rain coat!!! I might sneak into the gym before my massage tonite!

The Power of Compliments!

2007-06-25T15:13:00.000-07:00

Sooo i went through and did my weight and my measurements, and im pretty disguisted with myself! But i am now on the right path......

I was telling my bosses yesterday how i now have 4 months to get my arse into gear because im sick of feeling like shit and looking like a plump right now, and one of my bosses said to me i just wanted to tell you that i was looking at our website on the weekend(our work one) and how lovely we think you look in it. I didn't know what to say!!! i was like aww thanks. Then she went on to say we were going to sit down with you and tell you that its time you start looking after yourself... but after what i had told her about getting my arse into gear they didn't need to.

So i have now got a little book that i am taking to work with all my dates, goals, and plan for them to have for me, and make me accountable for doing my tasks!!! By having my goals and dates written down it makes it achievable for me.. by not putting a date down for having my goals achieved it could happen when ever.. but having the date I KNOW i have to do it!!

Anyway i just thought it was nice getting a compliment from my bosses who i didn't think would do something like that! Its nice to have someone out of the blue tell you that you look lovely!!! Its always from someone that never expect!!!

Sooooo watch out blog world. Ness is on her way!!!

My Best Friends Wedding!

2007-06-23T16:05:00.000-07:00

My Best Friends Wedding is coming up at the start of November which gives me 4 months basically to get my arse into gear!

I have been lazy and not motivated about getting the body i want! I have now quit smoking which is the first step for me to get my body healthy! Today is 7 days since i last had a smoke. It has been easy this time! i think my big test will be when i go out again! which won't be for a while because i am giving up the grog also!

My body has been going through detox the last week! I don't know how much more my lungs can cough up. I think i will be coughing my lungs up soon.

So my aim by the end for today is going to have all my measurements done, and I will weigh myself at work tomorrow, and to have a program worked out that i shall follow to help me get my arse back into the gym and get my body to where i want it to be!!

Its time to kick some arse, this has dragged on for way to long. My frame of mind is where it needs to be, i just need all my friends to keep me going and to support me. If i am being lazy kick my arse :)

So on that note ill leave you with this quote today;

"It is not how much you do, but how much love you put in the doing."

Deep & Meaningful

2007-06-22T17:04:00.000-07:00

We have just done some new quotes for our walkbox at work and i was reading through them and there was one that just clicked with me and i had to share it.

Until today, you may have beeing waiting for someone to tell you something or give you something that would make you feel ok. Just for today give yourself permission to be ok with yourself. Accept that who you are and where you are is just right. Iyanta Vanzant

I read this quote and i cried. It really hit my heart with some issues that i have been trying to deal with. For so long i have been wanting a certain person in my life to tell me how proud they are of me, and that i have done a great job raising sebastyn and they are proud of my achievements and who i am today! and i read this quote and it hit me, I don't need there approval, because as long as i believe in my heart that i have done everything to the best of my ability thats all that should matter!

It would be nice to hear it from that person, but everything in life is balanced. Just because they don't tell me i hear it from other people, but i have not been acknowledging it because i have been thinking its not the same. Does that make sense.

So one quote has been a real eye opener for me and has put alot of things in perspective.

One that note i am going to leave you with this beautiful picture of Sebastyn doing cool dude. (wearing my beanie)