Bald is the New Blonde!

Wow what an inspiring and emotional weekend i have had in melbourne. I have so much to say but don't want to overload so i will keep in short and sweet

I have never notice so many bald men in my life, and my god how many hot guys there where!! But besides that meeting Dr. John Demartini would have to be up there in my highlights! what an amazing guy and so full of knowledge.

My question i asked him was what his favourite quote was and i knew he would come out with "I am a genious and i apply my wisdom." which he did but then he looked me straight in the eyes and said "no matter you have done or what you have not done you are worthy of love" he nearly made me cry and coming from him was just a priviledge.

Sooo i also heard Lisa Curry Kenny speak and what an awesome and amazing women she is!! i so want her six pack and i am aiming for that six pack i can tell you :)

We heard many chiropractic people from america who have been very successful in their time! it was worth while!

I have been feeling great and have been exercising heaps. running is going well except for my knees hurting a llittle, but that will go away!

My eating has been great, and my confidence is growing.

Adam and I are great which makes life so much easier. I am loving every minute that i have been spending with him lately and also sebastyn. The "family" time is great!! I have a wonderful. amazing little boy who is just beautiful and has such a great memory!!! I can't get over how good his memory is!

I have so much i have to say and i will have to do a few post about my weekends and go over my notes because i have some really inspiring stuff. I have been had such an emotional weekend, and how wonderful it is to see the chiropractic world unite and been so loving!!

I learnt alot about myself and where and what i want to do and what i am worth in this world! I am so proud of who i am and the achievements that i made and the many more that are going to come.

I hope that everyone is well and safe and had good weekends!!

Quick Update

Hey everything going awesome..

Just wanted to let you all know that i am going to melbs this weekend for a seminar with work! But the awesome news is that i am going to meet John Demartini. For you who know who i am talking about or don't know he is on "The Secret". my work does alot of business with him, and we are having a hour consultation with him, and i have to think of one question to ask him that will help benefit our clients/ or to do with work!! I have to get thinking about that

I am so excited!!!

See ya of to PT now :)

Values!

Everyone has values and everyones are different! I first did my values when i started at work and have done them a couple of times since and they really haven't changed that much!

Something in my head snapped this week which was really interesting and a big turning point for me!
I have been stewing over a few family members and looking at what should be important to them because these things are my top values and have not been considering what their top values are. And I finally understand and realised and accepted that our values are different. I could actually see it!! I finally saw it! And do know what, i feel great about it now, i don't have any issues about it!! Because where i am not getting what i want from them i am getting it from somewhere else!!!

Hope that make sense to you all!! Just needed to vent that information.

Well my little buns are getting tighter :) hehehehe i have been into the gym every day this week.. i feel great!!! I have been really good with my eating, and starting to feel the change in my fitness already!!!! its amazing!!

I feel that everyone is kinda over blogging at the moment and not motivated about it! Which is sad in a way because i enjoy catching up on what everyone has been doing! Suppose it goes back to peoples values and whats important in our lives! I hope that everyone is ok and safe and well!!!

Butterfly Program - Week 2

I had my first weight and body fat results program! I have decided that i am not going to post them as they are not my main focus for doing this, but a major player in the whole picture, but i don't want to get down on myself if i don't lose weight or my body fat goes up, because somewhere in my week i would have achieved something else, and i want to stick to talking about my positives not the negatives :)

Soooo i took my awesome red box into the gym and we went over it and talked a little but why i put certain things on it etc etc, and then i got my homework for week 2. This week i have put things in my box that will help me along the way and also things that i would like to have in my life. Soooo for example i am going to QLD in January for a holiday so i might put pictures of QLD in their and a bikini..... everyday i am to look in the box to help inspire and motivate me...

Also i have to write a diary about all the food that i eat, when i wake up and go to sleep and if i feel tired when i wake up, how many hours sleep i have, if i wake during the nite, how much caffenince, alcohol or nicotine i have and my feelings.... Then we will talk about it at my next session

Sooo i decided that i will be right with the alcohol and nicotine part as i am not having any alcohol during this 12 weeks and Im nearly one month of quitting smoking :)

I have been great, i have got up early every morning this week and have gone into the gym. This morning i did combat!!! Don't know if i will do it again!!! its very high impact which i liked but my back didn't like it very much!!!

Sooo this morning i don't have my little man as i have to go into work for a work meeting Yippie, but I will have all afternoon with him!! Hopefully he will be in a nice mood for me today!

Got my PT Session tonite, and then a massage which i think my body needs with all this exercising i am doing!

I hope you enjoyed my story on sleep! i was allowed to take the book home yesterday from the gym, there is some other interesting facts in their that i will have to update you on in the near future.

Take care everyone!!

Nemo On Ice

Oh my god! did anyone go and see nemo on ice?? It was bloody awesome! Sebastyn had a ball he kept yelling out "hello nemo, hello marlin hello dori it was funny and cute all at the same time! He sat on my brothers knee the whole time clapping and laughing and go ohhh wow!!! Next Disney on ice is high school musical think i might give that one a miss and wait and see what they bring out next!!! if any gets a chance to go and see a disney on ice go for it!! they are very cleaver :)

Had the best nite sleep in a very long time last nite which was awesome, i even woke up this morning before my alarm went off. Was in at the gym bright and early this morning! I am starting to run which im enjoying. i get on the tred mill and set it so i do a few minutes walking a few minutes running, ween myself into it!!!

I feeling good and more energy which is good!! but we will see how long that lasts, as one of the ladies at work has gone on holidays which means i am working every shift for the next 2 weeks!! See how my energy levels are after that!!

Well better be off and get myself ready for work this afternoon.

Take care ya all!!

Obesity and Sleep

I was reading a book at the gym this week which i wasn't allowed to take, about obesity and sleep, which i found really interesting! I did some research on the web today about it and this was basically what the book was telling me! I found this really interesting, I hope you guys do too!

Obesity and Sleep

A recent study reveals that the number of hours slept has an influence on the risk of obesity. The less we sleep, the more at risk we are. This fact could explain why people who suffer from sleep apnea, a known thief of sleep, tend to gain weight at an above normal rate.

It's a known fact that obesity is a major factor in sleep apnea, and is often listed as one of the main causes. But that appears to be a two-way street. Once a person becomes a victim of sleep apnea, without very strict dietary control, even more pounds pile on.
Sleep apnea causes sleep deprivation, and, of course, the more sleep deprived a person becomes, the less active he or she is. Less exercise causes weight gain, but is that the only reason we gain weight?

The study, conducted by researchers at Columbia University's Mailman School of Public Health and the Obesity Research Center, suggests a link between the risk of being obese and the number of hours of sleep each night.

-Statistics show that people who sleep 7-8 hours a night are far less likely to be obese than those who sleep 4-5 hours a night. Sleep deprivation causes an increase in body levels of the hormone grehlin and a decrease in body levels of the hormone leptin. Grehlin increases appetite while leptin decreases appetite. So, those who sleep less are likely to have a stronger appetite and consequently eat much more.
-Sleeping less can cause poor food choices. We may feel too tired to cook a wholesome meal or lack the motivation to stick to a healthy eating plan. When we are tired it is easy to reach for quick and comforting foods, which are likely to be full of fat and sugar.

-The body needs sleep for muscle growth and repair to occur, as well as for recovery of muscles after a workout. Repair and growth occur during rest and rely on routine sleep patterns.

-Growth hormone is secreted in the greatest amounts during sleep. Growth hormone is not only beneficial for those who wish to increase their muscle mass, but for anyone concerned with their weight and body composition. Growth hormone plays a role in metabolizing protein, fats, and carbohydrates.

-A lack of sleep reduces the body's ability to process and store energy from the food we eat, including properly metabolizing carbohydrates.

-Sleep deprivation can increase blood levels of the hormone cortisol. Prolonged high levels of cortisol can lead to breakdown of muscle tissue, an increase in stored abdominal fat, weakened immune system, and can affect thyroid function.

-If you have not slept well you may be lacking in coordination. A lack of sleep can have similar affects on the body as alcohol in terms of coordination and reaction time. This could cause an increased risk of injury when working out.

-Lack of sleep over an extended period can cause increased blood glucose levels and may increase the risk of diabetes. Increased blood glucose levels can lead to overproduction of insulin, which can then cause the body to store more fat.

-Performance in sports may be hampered by inadequate sleep because of the body's inability to metabolize glucose for fuel and recover from previous workouts.

-If you are awake longer you are probably going to eat more. Burning more calories by being awake instead of asleep does not make up for the extra calories consumed in those extra hours.

The Butterfly Program

Im excited, and glad that i have this program to help me achiee my goals! As you all know my best buddy is getting married in November! well she also works at fernwood and she told me about this butterfly program. I was like sweet i would love to do it! The butterfly program is over 12 weeks and is about personal growth and development. Every week we have a topic and we also need to pick two goals, one healthy eating goal and one personal goal.

Week 1 - Where i want to be in 12 weeks time? I said to sheree that i would love to be 70kgs by your wedding, i want to decrease my body fat, i want to start running, i am not drinking any alcohol for 12 weeks and im not concentrating on my weight over the 12 weeks. Its about my body fat, my cms and my health and fitness.

My goals this week for health eating was to cut my portion sizes down and my personal goal was to go into the gym at least 3 times!

My motivation has been great i didn't have seb on wednesday nite and i went into the gym, me and him went for a walk into town on wednesday and my alarm was set for 5.45am Thursday morning and i went and did a work out before work!!! i am so bloody proud of myself!

So i had some homework to do this week! and that was to create a box of the life i want and who i am... I have been having fun doing it! im not finished with it yet and i have decided to leave the bottom of the box blank for when i have finished this program to add more stuff to see how things have changed!!! i also have to think of rewards for myself and how often i want these rewards, so if anyone has any ideas please let me go!!

Im really motivated and inspired right now and everything in my life is balanced! Im grateful for everything that i have and everything that i have achieved to this date! and things are only going to get better from here.

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend and catch you all soon

Beautiful Butterfly

Vanessa - (Greek) means beautiful butterfly

That is my goal is to feel like a beautiful butterfly - not only have i started my PT's again - oh i feel sore today, but i am also joining a 12 week program called the Butterfly program. I don't know much about the program at this stage, i will find out more this afternoon at my first session... But i do know that we set out goals, I do challenges every week and I do a vision box which i am looking forward to doing!!! Sooo i feel great that i am using all my resources to get myself back on track! Im sick of my weight yo yoing and im sick of feeling like shit!

My coughing has finally settled down, and i am so happy about that!! Now its time to get my fitness back on track and lose some weight, body fat and most of those some CM's.

More about the butterfly program later!!!

Welcome to July

Welcome to July. End of financial year and the start of the new one... Tax Time!! I LOVE!!!! and welcoming the rain!!! SOoo i have microsoft money on my computer and i have decided that this financial year i am going to see how much i spend and what on etc etc!! taking control of my finances :) About time i do that i think!! Im excited about do this because it will be interesting to see where i spend my money! i think sebastyn, but you just never know!

Lee and Taj just left and that was lovely too see them!! the boys always run a muck when they are together. I vaccumed and mopped the house yesterday! and ummmmm you can't tell :)

Well i hope that everyone has had a good weekend and relaxed and ready for another working week! I am going to be starting a new program at the gym ill fill you in more when i know all the details!! Help me to reach my goals!!

Cut My Head Off!! PLEASE

I want someone to cut my head off. I know our body only gives us enough pain that we can deal with but right now i am over this sore throat! i have had it for about a week now, well basically since i gave up the ciggas soo 2 weeks really!! and its frustrating me!!! i have now started garglling the salt to try and get rid of whatever infection i have there!!

My sister and nephew are coming to play with seb and i tomorrow and i am sooo looking forward to seeing them both since its been soooo long!!!!

Last nite Ails and I went out for tea at barzurk!! it was so yum!! anthony Munden was in town and we were going to go see him but an early nite called us both!!

then an 8am message from ails this morning that she forgot to send me last nite, woke me and i was out of bed and in at the gym by 8.30am!!! a hour cardio workout to start the day was awesome and then some shopping for the soul!!! brought two jumpers and a workout top for the gym!!!

And i just have to end this post with go BOMBERS~!!!!!

Have an awesome rest of the weekend everyone!

Body Change

My body is going through some huges changes right now, and god damn can i feel it!
As you all know i work at a chiropractor and in the last week I think i have had an adjustment nearly every day! Giving up the smoking, and getting rid of all these chemicals out of my body, is making it all scooo wifff!!!!

I am having some serious issues with my lower back and legs at the moment, so i have booked in for a massage today hoping that this will help eleviate some of the pain that i am feeling at the moment! I am wondering when this cough will go away also! i think if i cough anymore i am going to cough my lungs up!!! My sense of smell has come back... i can't believe it!! Its so funny when you smoke you don't smell smoke on someone, but adam came around the other nite, after being at a mates places and i was like grose you smell like smoke go away!!!

Soo yesterday was my first day at the gym!! And i did just take it easy as i need to get my back right and need to stop coughing before i go bullet a gate and work myself so hard i can't walk :) hehehe........ I felt really good about exercising, and i have missed it!!! I weighed myself, and i have put my current weight on the blog for you all to see. I am basically start from scratch again!!! but this time its going to be maintained..

Sooo today i am suppose to be going for a walk with Sebastyn, but the sky doesn't look very healthy right now, and i don't own a rain coat!!! I might sneak into the gym before my massage tonite!

The Power of Compliments!

Sooo i went through and did my weight and my measurements, and im pretty disguisted with myself! But i am now on the right path......

I was telling my bosses yesterday how i now have 4 months to get my arse into gear because im sick of feeling like shit and looking like a plump right now, and one of my bosses said to me i just wanted to tell you that i was looking at our website on the weekend(our work one) and how lovely we think you look in it. I didn't know what to say!!! i was like aww thanks. Then she went on to say we were going to sit down with you and tell you that its time you start looking after yourself... but after what i had told her about getting my arse into gear they didn't need to.

So i have now got a little book that i am taking to work with all my dates, goals, and plan for them to have for me, and make me accountable for doing my tasks!!! By having my goals and dates written down it makes it achievable for me.. by not putting a date down for having my goals achieved it could happen when ever.. but having the date I KNOW i have to do it!!

Anyway i just thought it was nice getting a compliment from my bosses who i didn't think would do something like that! Its nice to have someone out of the blue tell you that you look lovely!!! Its always from someone that never expect!!!

Sooooo watch out blog world. Ness is on her way!!!

My Best Friends Wedding!

My Best Friends Wedding is coming up at the start of November which gives me 4 months basically to get my arse into gear!

I have been lazy and not motivated about getting the body i want! I have now quit smoking which is the first step for me to get my body healthy! Today is 7 days since i last had a smoke. It has been easy this time! i think my big test will be when i go out again! which won't be for a while because i am giving up the grog also!

My body has been going through detox the last week! I don't know how much more my lungs can cough up. I think i will be coughing my lungs up soon.

So my aim by the end for today is going to have all my measurements done, and I will weigh myself at work tomorrow, and to have a program worked out that i shall follow to help me get my arse back into the gym and get my body to where i want it to be!!

Its time to kick some arse, this has dragged on for way to long. My frame of mind is where it needs to be, i just need all my friends to keep me going and to support me. If i am being lazy kick my arse :)

So on that note ill leave you with this quote today;

"It is not how much you do, but how much love you put in the doing."

Deep & Meaningful

We have just done some new quotes for our walkbox at work and i was reading through them and there was one that just clicked with me and i had to share it.

Until today, you may have beeing waiting for someone to tell you something or give you something that would make you feel ok. Just for today give yourself permission to be ok with yourself. Accept that who you are and where you are is just right. Iyanta Vanzant

I read this quote and i cried. It really hit my heart with some issues that i have been trying to deal with. For so long i have been wanting a certain person in my life to tell me how proud they are of me, and that i have done a great job raising sebastyn and they are proud of my achievements and who i am today! and i read this quote and it hit me, I don't need there approval, because as long as i believe in my heart that i have done everything to the best of my ability thats all that should matter!

It would be nice to hear it from that person, but everything in life is balanced. Just because they don't tell me i hear it from other people, but i have not been acknowledging it because i have been thinking its not the same. Does that make sense.

So one quote has been a real eye opener for me and has put alot of things in perspective.

One that note i am going to leave you with this beautiful picture of Sebastyn doing cool dude. (wearing my beanie)

Mobile Phone

My darling son decided to drop my mobile phone in a cup of water so please could you email me your phone numbers to ness@aanet.com.au

Cheers Ness

Sweet Child of Mine!!! Not

Ok so today is my day off where i am suppose to relax and enjoy the day with sebastyn and do a little plodding around the house!! LOL!!! Well my dear child decided at 12am this morning that it wasn't time to sleep it was time to watch DVD's and scream and scream and scream some more! Soo about 4.30am he decided that it was time to finish watching dvds and go to sleep.. Finally well i thought ok you have not slept for 4 hours you will sleep in in the morning hahahahahaha fat chance of that happening at 8am he was wide awake bright as a button!!!

Im glad one of us was! Soo we went out in the cold and did some shopping then i had my review at work this afternoon and i asked De if she could please adjust him and my god you should of seen the leg length difference he had i am not joking it was about 3 CMS which is huge!! which also would be causing some discomfort for him! Sooo right now he is sleeping, while i update my blog and smell the lamb roast that i am cooking for tea which should be ready soon!

Off to seb's nans tonite where he will have a sleep over, and i will get a good night rest and be able to enjoy Prison Break in Peace. at about 3pm this afternoon i was about to put him on a plane to his fathers for the rest of the week! He is going through terrible 2's alright.

GYM
I was a little bit thrown aback today! i got a phone call from my gym to say i have not been in for a while.. well hello as if i didn't know that! I just thought are you desperate or something?? I will come in when im bloody ready too! Im finding it really hard to get motivated at the moment and I think thats because i got some issues i need to deal with, which im not ready to deal with which is why im holding back going to the gym! arggghhhh *sighs*

i think thats about it for now! stay safe everyone and ill leave you with this fact.

every 24 hours our body grows 34mm of hair

Tagged!

Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. You need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!

(1) At every sink in my house i have hand wash
(2) I am addicted to Jaga Bombs (hehehehe)
(3) My favourite colour is red
(4) My ultimate goal is to own a porsche
(5) I can't sit still
(6) I am missing my family
(7) I need a holiday!!

And I tag whoever :)

Rehab!

Okkkkk.. so i admit it!! i am a self proclaimed alcoholic right now :) If i stopped drinking i would probably lose 5 kgs! Im having a good time right now! i am enjoying going out and i am enjoying getting myself drunk and feeling shit the next day and waking up and wanting maccas or fish and chips as my hang over cure!! I am enjoying dancing and getting home at 6am in the morning! Is it right? probably not? am i hurting anyone? Yes.... myself so who has to live with that?? ME!!! I do!!!

I feel like i have gone off the rails! i admit that! i feel like i have got to a point in my life where i don't give a fuck anymore about anything..... I am feeling insecure about myself again, and who am I, and what i want out of life and where i want my life to go!! Its time for some soul searching again, where how and when i will do that, i don't know! My time is very limited right now, i find it hard to even have time to scratch my own arse.

I was saying to bekkie today!!! i am so tired and where has the me time gone??? LOL out the window!!!! My weeks with seb are my weeks with seb, my weeks without seb, i drink, go out catch up with my mates, and work, and i don't have my me time!!! am i making sense? I am missing my me time, but i don't like being alone right now!!! I don't want to be alone right now!! Maybe im scared because that soul searching will start when i am by myself, my brain will start thinking and i don't think i am ready for the answers just yet, because deep down i know what they are going to be and im not ready to face it!!

My head is so jumbled right now! My perspective on so many things is very fuzzy, I honestly thought that I was on track of things and knew the direction i wanted to take! Mmmmmm i have hit that fork in the road and don't know which way to go!!!

Something will happen and it will all become clear again i know, but until then, 1800 rehab/ show me the way......... is on the cards!! LOL!!!

Weekend

Wow what a weekend i have had!!

Where do i start??????? Mmmm maybe with Friday!!

Friday

Friday nite was awesome! I got to baby sit the wonderful behaved Bradman. Which was lots of fun but i was very tired. Ails came over for some catch up and some drinks, and filled me in on her precious baby (the cat)!!! Becks was here for a while before she hit the town to boggy!! For a well deserved nite out.

Sooo everything was going fine and lil bradman decided to wake up at 4am..... Sebbie heard his lil cry and came into my bed with me and bradman and was asking bradman if he was ok?? it was very cute!!! so the boys layed in bed and i tried to get some Zzzzz's but was a little scared to shut my eyes just incase the boys got up and ran a muck around the house!!! Lil Sebbie went back to sleep and bradman layed there will his eyes opened not making a boo!! So i thought ok i will see if he will go to sleep in sebs bed!! so off we went and he finally went to sleep.. only 5 minutes and he was awake again!! i finally got him back to sleep and then 5 mintes later he was awake again!! by this time it was about 6am, and both boys decided it was time to be wide awake............

Saturday

6am start. two boys in the mood for some early rising and some early fun!! straight to sebastyn rooms to pull out all the toys and see what they could play with!!! both giggling and next minute!! this one for you beck *i see a fire truck a big red shiny fire truck* started playing. Bradmans favourite toy!! its a ride on car.. that has music buttons that you press!!! Ohhhhh my poor tired eyes where not in the mood for it!! but i just let it go!!!! They were having a good time and thats all that matters!!

Sooooo for breakfast!! Mmmmmm coco pops :) hehehe what a treat :) bradman loved using his hands and putting the cocopops everywhere and watching seb how to use a spoon.. it was sooo much fun :) Becks turned up about 8.30am that morning after an awesome nite out. I so glad that you got the opportunity to go out and boggy for the nite girl... any time you want to do that just let me know :)

So the rest of the day was sleeping and attending to sebastyn and catching up on so doing nothing time..... Its good with seb out on lightening macqueen on finding nemo and i can have a shower and the hang the washing out and know that his eyes won't move from that tv..

Got some DVDs out with adam and we watched the pursuit to happyness and another one but i fell alseep in that movie :)

Sunday

Wow what an emotional day this was... CJ and I ventured to Kyabram for my sister Red Kite day and to see 19 people shave their heads. Two of the locals where younger people who had both losted sisters to cancer so they were getting their head shaved also in memory!!

It was a very emotional day!!!! Please find some photos below

So my sister got her head shaved for a good cause and has since told me she is very cold :)

ohh and one final thing ended up with seb in hospital with croup and a middle ear infection.. he is heaps better now...

Well thats the fill in from last weekend....

Two Weeks Gone

Heya everyone

I can't believe its been two weeks since my last post. How lazy am I. Its been a very very full on couple of weeks with my emotions been battered and bruised in lots of ways possible.

My sister and Her husband have decided to seperate after 4 years of marriage and a 3 year old son. as you all know i am very close to them so it has hit me like a tonne of bricks! Im here to support them all and that will never change. It made me re think my life and where im headed and what i want for my son and my life, and for Adam! Why is it that something like this always makes you think of your own relationships! Im not saying that tomorrow adam and I will be back together because that is far far from my mind, but it has opened my eyes to the way that i want to treat him and how i want to be treated and how I want Seb to know that his mum and dad love him very much no matter what happens and that we are both here from him! Family is so important to me and i want that normaility for sebastyn. Adam and I have been spending lots of time together with seb and with each other and it has been nice because, i am getting to know adam again on the friends level! Which we didn't really do when we first got together. I think our relationship has changed for the good!

Work has been crazy crazy crazy which is good. I was in sydney on the weekend for a seminar which was nice! I like sydney, its very different atmosphere to Melbourne and i found the air to be alot nicer and fresher than Melbs. sorry to all you melbs people :)

Im going to kyabram on the weekend as my sister is getting her hair shaved for red kite day. To raise money for families with children who have cancer! I am planning to get lots of before and after photos.

I have been hanging out with some new people here in Bendigo which has been great! Im getting out there and meeting people! which i should have done a bloody long time ago!

I am missing my friends though and you know who you are and I can't wait to catch up with you all soon.

Have a great week and weekend and I am so not waiting another couple of weeks to update you!

Take Care everyone and know that i am thinking of everyone.

PS Becks and Bradman it was so good to see you both on Monday! Beck your looking beautiful as ever and i must admit your looking healthy and relaxed :) Bradman is growing up so much and to hear him talking was great!! He is growing every day babes :) See you soon
xxx

Question - Update & a bit of that

ok the last couple of weeks














Spot Seb!!! hehehe was his birthday and i brought him a black board! he loves it. The following weekend adam and I took him to see Thomas and Friends, he loved going on all the different trains. It was a hot day and because it was so dry it was very dusty!! But it was a good to be able to show Seb that we can still do family things together :)


















I had the pleasure of looking after bradman a couple of weekends ago now for a few hours while Beck was at the hospital with Matty :) He is just a doll of a child and he had soooo much fun playing with all of sebs toys and exploring and having a good old laugh with my brother. I am glad to hear that Matt is recovering well. I am thinking of you Becks and missing you. Hope to see that beautiful smile of yours soon. The picture over is the house that we stayed in in Torque it is my sisters bosses house. It was awesome!!! it was such a nice weekend to spend with the family even though the weather was not the greatest for us until we decided to come home! We took the boys to the beach and seb was very scared... My dad got some funny photos so i will have to get them off him to load on here!!
















This was picture from upstairs!!!! further around to your right you could see the beach.....



It was so nice to have the family time together even though the boys were very cheeky and full on!!!!!! Seb hates being apart from Taj so night time was very aweful as seb would cry and cry and throw himself until he finally went to sleep.



What else is news!! its my last day of holidays tomorrow and then back to work!!! Its been nice to be able to spend a few days to myself, and i have enjoyed just being able to get up when i please and not have to worry about going to work and having seb ready by certain hour for creche!!!



Its pouring down rain here at the moment which is beautiful its funny how you miss what you don't have and then when you get it you wish it was a nice day :) does that make sense??



I am in the middle of budget planning at the moment as i want to buy a block of land but need more money that i thought to put the deposit on!! so give it another 12 months and i will own something of my own which i am very excited about !! then eventually maybe i will build my dream home :)



I have not step foot in the gym this week which i am both happy and sad about as it was the perfect opportunity for me to work my arse off for a week but on the other hand i have been on holidays so i just wanted to chill!!!



Well i think thats all for the moment!!!! Hope everyone else is doing well and i shall be catching up on your blogs over the next couple of day!!! I have beennnnn so slack




Ohhh and one last thing!!! i married my dream man :) Vin Diesel :) Mmmmmmmmm

Im Alive

Heya all

Sorry for the lack of post and comments lately, life has been very hectic at the moment. I have until Friday off work so i will endevour to update with some photos and stories over the last couple of weeks!

I have been in Torquay for the last 4 days and got home today, so now catchuing up on the house work and hundred loads of washing that comes from being away!

Well hope everyone is well!

Ness

Thoughts!

I could write about how i had a great weekend and that adam and i took seb to see Thomas and Friends in Maldon on the weekend (will have to post the pictures at a later date) but today i am really going to talk about my thoughts.

It is something I haven't done in a while and thought it was time to do!!!

I am 25 year old single mum with a 2 year old son with my whole life ahead of me and the whole world around me with so many opportunities that are out there for me, but for so long something has been holding me back.

I was in a relationship with a false me, a fake identity if you would like to say that, i was NOT being true to myself! I have my job, my friends and my family to thank for helping me find my way again. But really i should be thanking myself! I don't thank myself enough! Thanks Vanessa from bringing out the True you! I lost who i was for a very long time, i lost my friends my family and my happiness for someone I loved and who i thought was going to be my soul partner. I learnt a great lesson in life! Never ever lose yourself and your identity. People should love you for who you are and accept you for who you are, you should never change for someone.

I blamed so many people for where I am today and who I am today and why things happened in my life.. but really i have only one person to blame and that is me. I chose the destiny that i took, i choose my path that i want in live.... I have learnt a hell of lot in the last 2 years, i have learnt alot of lessons, people have come and gone from my life and have taught me something! I have learnt to grow up, to take care of myself and become a mother at a young age!! I have learnt to live a balanced life and be happy and have fun!

I was in self destruction mode after I had sebastyn, and I was not happy with myself at all. How can i find love or happiness if i am not inlove and happy with myself. How is someone suppose to accept and love me if i don't accept and love myself! I am writing this because before christmas i weighed 74 kilos and i weighed myself last week and i am now 80 kgs... that is only 4 kgs off my starting weight loss!!! yeah i know!! i only have myself to blame. I was lazy, eating shit, not exercising, but i was having fun going out, drinking spending time with people i have not spent time with in a long time!!! And it has only been in the last week especially from the help of a very special person and text messages every day that i realised I can do this.. I can have everything i want in life..... I can achieve my goals and dreams and live the life that i want to live.

I have so many positive people in my life from my friends to my family to my work! who make me see things in all difference ways!

The secret has been the hot topic in alot of people blogs lately. I first watched the movie when i started my job at the chiropractors. I am only bringing this up because at our staff meeting today we watched a chapter called "the secret to health." For those of you who have seen it you will know what i am talking about! Everytime i see this bit of the secret i always cry. Not because i am sad because i am happy and i know our thoughts and minds and bodies are so powerful. They call him the miricle man.. He was in a plane crash and was told he would be a vegetable and never be able to walk again. The only thing he has was his mind, and he said that he would walk of that hospital on christmas. And he did!! Just off the track a bit!! well not really!!

There is another movie called "What the Bleep do we know" There is a part in this movie where they talk about water particles. My point here is that our bodies are made up of 90% of water. Masaru Emoto did some research on water particles. and this is in the video. I have some photos below to show you! but he shows normal water particles what it looks like then he does a pray on the water, and then he also puts wording on the bottle of water that says" You make me sick i will kill you" and "Thank - you"!! it is amazing how the water particles look. The point i am getting at, is if this is what words can do to a bottle of water imagine what our thoughts are doing to our bodies???

Fujiwara Dam, before offering a prayer

Fujiwara Dam, after offering a prayer

You Make Me Sick, I Will Kill You

Thank you

I hope you get something out of this because i sure did!

I have now realised that i was looking at exercise as a chore and not something i love to do! And from that i have now set times aside that i go into the gym and work out! Because my body needs to be healthy and Fit! I love going to the gym and i love working out. i had my first PT session last friday and got absolutely pumped.... even though i felt sick during and after it, in the long run I know i will benefit from it and I feel good! I can achieve what ever i put my mind to!!

anyways i think i have written enough for one night! expect more posts like this as i have so much i need to get out of my head!

Good nite everyone and have lovely weeks and hope to catch some of you on the weekend :)

John Mayer

Hey everyone

I had written this huge big post and lost it all on monday !! so i just wanted to let you all know that i had an awesome time at John Mayer and that there will be some photos coming.

Hope everyone had an awesome easter and gots of choccy of the easter bunny

ness

HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY TO MY BABY BOY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEBASTYN REGINALD ANDREA.

Here sebbie was just born... i can't believe how much he has changed and how grown up he has become over the last two years. Its very emotional for me actually!!!

Weekend

So i got through relay for life and had an awesome sleep last nite. Im still not feeling 100% but alot better than yesterday. I have a very sore back from coughing so much yesterday so i am definately up for an adjustment tomorrow!!! Lee (sis) and Taj decided to surprise me last nite and came over and stayed. not that i was very good company as i was not well but the boys had such fun!! when these two are together they just make each other laugh, cheeky, and copy each other.

Its sebs birthday on Tuesday so they came and gave him his presents :) He got a lightning maqueen fold out couch and a 3 set CD of zoo songs. which has all the old some like old mac donald, and baa baa black sheep and stuff.. so that was nice!!!

We also at the moment had a new addition to our household.... which i do hope goes away soon. A cat has decided for the last day to hang around!!! im not really a cat fan but all last nite it meowed at my window....

Here are some photos of the weekend

The Boys having a bath last nite.. taj loves tipping water over sebs head because seb thinks its funny

Taj giving seb a cuddle on his new lightening couch... Here they are playing on the swing set.. it looks like they are going really high in this pic but there notThis is my darling sister... She is my rock.. luv ya sis xx

Relay for Life - Update

Okkk so i made it.. i didn't do the whole 2 hours though, as being sick didn't help. I even ran a lap and a half thanks to sim :) but felt sick after it!!! had a nice pile of green snot at the fence :) hehehehehe... get that image in your heads :)

Good luck to everyone doing the fun run for kids this weekend :) enjoy yourselfs,

Just going out to buy seb birthday present. He is going to be two on tuesday :) My lil baby boy is growing up so fast....

I was always the person that was going to have a bus load of children. I love children.... After having sebastyn and everything that has happened with sperm donar, i couldn't see myself having that bus load anymore! Seb is im treasure and everything to me, trying to share my love would be sooo hard......

On that note i went to becks on wednesday for a catch up and so that boys could have a play and hurt themselves, which they did.... and it was so funny we were talking about Men and becks said to me "your so hot ness why don't you have a man in your life?" I said to her im not ready!!! I think alot of other factors come into it... having a son, i don't want to be bringing hundred of people into his life, i would just like to meet Mr Right and that be it!! it may never happen, but i think i could be happy being single for the rest of my life!! A few booty calls here and there and i think i could be one happy women :)

Relay For Life

SOoo here i have been thinking all week that i am walking tonite from 8pm - 10pm when really its 8am - 10am.. which doesn't bother me either way, i just thought awesome seb will be in the pram, its his bed time he will sleep the whole way.. hehehe !!! So i went out today and brought myself a beanie, as last weekend has caught up on me and i have a very blocked/sniffling nose and didn't want my cold to get worse tonite for the walk. But now that i am walking in the morning, least i get another nite sleep to actually try and get over this cold!!!! As long as i am better for next weekend as i have the John Mayer concert.. which i am looking forward to!!

I weighed myself at Becks on wednesday on her cool scales.... I was very devasted at seeing my weight!! Sooooo now i really do have to get myself motivated and get out of this F&*%$ing rut that i am in..... All my motivation has gone out the window.... I am not motivated or inspired to get off my arse and combat this challenge of getting rid of my fat/babyfat etc etc..... How do i go about doing that!! Mmmmmmm i have no idea.. Maybe i need a challenge or something i don't know!!!

Any suggestions anyone??

Well better go and start on my washing, as i have not really done any this week with this weather that we have been having.

Any feedback would be appreciated!! :)
xxxx

Weekend Part Two - Memory Lane

Saturday morning my brother Krys and I decided to go back to our old home town Kerang. He had not been back since we moved to Bendigo and it had been a few years for me also. So this was our journey.

First stop was Durham Ox. We decided to go via Boort back to our First Home Lake Meran.

This is lake Meran... Without the water. It was actually vey sad to see as every summer and most weekends we would go here to ski and play. We would ride our bikes after school and get dad to come pick us up once he had finished work. This is where we learnt to swim. Most of our lives we grew up around water, going back here reminded me how much i really do miss the country and how much i hate having neighbours, and not being about to just ride/drive down the road for a dip...

This is the Jumping tower, minus a few pieces of equipment. There use to be a huge metal tower on top of this that we use to jump off. It actually looked really small and CJ and I were both like "we use to jump off this?" CJ is holding a sign that says Shallow Water... heheh what water??? This tree was CJ favourite Tree. He use to hide in the hole in the tree. Hehehe it was so funny because the hole is so small now.... The play ground... it was still the same.... i hated that wizzy dizzy thing... it made me sick so i never went on it!!!

This was our HOUSE at lake meran...... it was really sad to see it, as the paddocks now have sheds in it, which is where we would drive the car and motor bike around. We had a channel that ran through t he paddock and both CJ and I had a look to see if the plank of wood was still there that went from one side to the other that we would cross to get to the damn and also that would jump off to go swimming.. It had gone. Its funny because i keep saying that i don't remember alot about my child hood but going back there really opened up our minds and we were saying :oh remember the tree that you got stuck up and remember the tree that you fell out of, and dad, your vegetable garden.. hehehee i will never forget that. Dad loved his veggie garden it was his pride and joy until one day he came home and the cows and gotten into it.. heheheThis was really awesome to see our first primary school Dingwall!!! There was about 10 children that went to this school it was awesome. The toilets where outside under some trees where the magpies lived. CJ said to me remember when we use to put buckets and pans on our heads to go to the toilets so that magpies wouldn't get us.. hehehehe..... This was our play wall at the back of the school. I remember on our last day at school we all got plates and cups and smashed them on the wall to say goodbye..... We even had a pet cow at our school....

This is my highschool well the sign anyways. CJ and I went to different highschools so i gave him a tour. It was funny i remember where all the rooms where.... where we use to hang out at school and hide from the teachers to have a fag.. heheheh those where the days. Everything has changed alot... but the atmosphere was still the same..We then headed to our Primary School St. Joesphs.... WOW this school has had one huge make over since we been there. I remember that we did pavers and wrote our names on them. but i couldn't remember if we did one or not, so for about 20 minutes CJ and I were walking around looking at the names laughing and remembering people and then he came across ours...... 1993 was a long time ago..... trying to remember if i still had the bowl haircut then :) This is St Joe's from the front.. it didn't look like this back in my day :) And to get from the school to our hall you use to have to go outside.. well now it is all covered in!!!!

Westblade Ave: Has this house had a make over or what!! A huge one.... The garden was different, there was a pergola out the back, and the garden at the front has changed.. There use to be a tree in the front yard.. which has now gone.. We had a little look out the back as the lady who lived at this house drove off just as we pulled up, and CJ could see the tree that he planted was still there.. :) There was some fond memories at this house i remember... Hehehehe i won't say to much dad :) hehehe Next was off to the egg park, as we called it.. This is the egg below. I never went in this either as it made me sick.. we played here on the equipment for a bit.. was heaps of fun....... The water tower which is at the egg park also... It doesn't look as big as it did when we were little... The it was down the main street. This is the clock tower....

We went into safeway to buy some goodies but also to see if we could see anyone we knew... both our hearts where racing, but to our disappointment we didn't know one person who was walking around or even working there :) Then it was back on the road to Bendigo.

Thanks for coming CJ it felt really good to go back to our old homes and see them and to know that those fond memories are still there, and to see the changes that have occured whilst we have been gone.

For another 10 years Kerang. Its good bye!!!

Cool!!!

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Weekend Part 1 - The Party

Ok!! thanks girls for an awesome weekend, i had such a blast. It was great to finally meet Linda and Ails and Brooke as i have heard and read soooo much about you all!! :)

Im not really going to say much as im sure ails and everyone else will have there stories to tell but all i want to say is that Im glad that I got to make Ails and Linda NON Virgins of Yaga Bombs.... ( my favourite drinks ) How yummy are those drinks girls :)

Tea was yum, the dancing was fun both nites and i finally went to Goldies.. what an awesome place to listen to old and new music!!! I had sooo much fun there that nite...... and to see how many mullets we could spot that was a great game!!

Well cant wait to do it all again and to Phil and Bec it was great to see you both again!! Phil you sound so excited about your trip and hope you have a blast if i dont see you before then, and Becks my godddd your looking hot and you can really notice the changes babe.

Ok Part 2 to my weekend coming up when i have another spare 10 minutes

Thanks again girls!

Going Insane

Ok so im having a blonde moment... im sitting outside drinking some diet coke thinking i have floates in my drink trying to get them out and then i realised its the bloody bubbles how stupid can one be...

So i have a confession to make also i went to days without a smoke... and broke the drought!!! i really want to quit but im not putting my mind to it! i thought i might try the patches, as i don't know how i will go cold turkey!!!

I have been at a work meeting most of today and got seb back about an hour ago.. He is passed out on my couch after not having a sleep today, so hopefully he will sleep tonite, i hope he sleeps tonite. at 5.30 this morning i hear "mummy mummy mummy" and i went in and he was awake saying "other bed other bed" as in my bed.... so into my bed he gets, but he is a really touchy lil man and im not a really touchy person, so when he hops into bed with me he always has to be touching me, so i never really get anysleep... i snuggle with him thinking that he is asleep and then move away and he moves closer.... lil bugger he is!!!!!

Last nite was really awesome my brother and I had a couple of drinks and played cards.... it was so much fun.. then it was getting a lil cold outside so i said ohh lets go watch eurotrip you will love it!!! it is a funny movie if you have not seen it watch it!!!

well i hope everyone is having a good weekend and saving themselves for a big one nextweek with the sleep over. I am really looking forward to it as i have not met many of you so i can't wait.... it will be such a fun nite.....

Take care all and hope to see you next weekend

1.41AM ....... What The?

1.41AM and i am up. Just been in with a sooking lil man!! he is restless tonite, and me well im just not sleeping. Why Ummmmmm not sure... Its nearly been 32 hours without a smoke and i tell you i really needed one after work tonite. You know when you just have one of those days and you need something to destress well i bloody needed a smoke. I picked up seb from sperm donar and he just irritates me to the maximum, i f&^%ing hate seeing him everyday when i have seb, how are you suppose to move on with your life when your seeing your ex everyday?? and i needed a smoke.. so instead i walked in the front door blerted to my brother and that was that, and had a can instead :) hehehe!!! Just one!!!! which i drank over an hour and a half :)

And now im awake for what ever reason not feeling tired and having to get up and getting ready to go to work this morning at 6.30am thank god i have this afternoon off :) I am looking forward to that.. Im going to go into the gym and have a work out and then pick my lil man up from creche and if the weather is nice, we might go for a walk arond the lake, and he can go on his bike :) that should keep him entertained for a bit!!

Well i might put my ipod in my ears and listen to some music and see if that helps. If not im in the middle of Schapelle Corby's book so might read a few pages of that.

Nite all. actually i should say morning hehehe!!!

The Start of A Healthier Life Style - DAY 1

I was talking to bec last week about quitting soft drink as i am a huge fan of it and really need to cut down, but i also started up smoking again when adam and I broke up, after not smoking for 2 years.... So anyways today is DAY 1 of not having a cigga.... I had my last one about 6pm last nite, and i usually have one after i eat tea, but i couldn't last nite. I was a little bit edgy about it but quickly got over it. Last time i quit i quit cold turkey which is what i am doing again. This time may be a little bit harder as most of my friends smoke where as adam didn't smoke and that made it easier.

I am feeling good about it and really looking forward to getting my fitness back and being able to do things without getting puffed. This is one step forward to a healthier me...... Will be interesting to see how my moods are :) hehehee

One step at a time.....

I feel sorry for myself

Im feeling very sorry for myself at this point in them. its nearyl ten after about 6 hours sleep and mixing drinks, im not feeling to healthy!!! i think im going to have a day of lazing on the couch and having a bath and doing jack shit!! i had a pretty awesome nite last nite, went out with some friends then went to my friends brooke house who had been up 30 hours straight so wasn't really up for going out!! so we had some drinks at her house and then i convinced her to come out with me for an hour after two drinks i wasn't really in the mood and she looked buggered so we went home!! But im feeling the effects this morning of having beer , udl beer udl... and i am suppose to do this all again tonite!! Will be interesting..

Ummmm things aren't too good on the home front at the moment. My bro is having some problems with his girlfriend who is suppose to be moving in here, so because they not talking he is being all dark and shit on me which i don't really like, but at this point in time i have not had a chance to talk to him and tell him to fucking stop his shit with me!! I hate when he is like this with me, because he my lil bro and i love him heaps and i hate that he can't talk to me... He will when he is ready but i wanted him to talk to me about it last nite and he told me to go away :(

Anyways just finishing my milo that is slowly going down. Think i might go and lay back on the couch and be a bludge. ohh i have to go out at some stage, i brought this cute top yesterday at target buttt ummmm its one of those puffy ones, and i need a belt for it because without a belt it makes me look 9 months pregnant!!!! i will try and get a photo of me in it tonite and post it!!

Have a gooooddd long weekend everyone!!! take care on the roads as already this morning about 3 abos and fire truck have gone past my house.

xxxx

A Bit of everything

Here are some pics for starters

here is the beautiful Becks on her night out! YOU always take hot pics babe!!

here is my brother and sebastyn having a dance on friday nite. seb is a lil groover he is so funny. we were teaching him the bum dance.. it was soooo cute...

here is seb, cj and alli

So there you go a few pics for you to browse at... on another note i went to the gym this morning and talking to my darling friend Sheree, who is getting married in November!! its so exciting!! i promised myself i won't cry but will just have to wait and see :) which reminds me i need to find a date :) LOL im taking seb to the wedding, so i suppose he can be my date for that :)

anyways we catching up the weekend which will be nice i love our lil get togethers and our chats that we have :) we have such a funny relationship because we can go a week without talking to each other but we both know that if we need each other we are there, we don't have to live out of each others pockets which is good!!! Anyways i weighed myself while i was there, and i was disgusted with myself.. i weighed in at 79.7 and 45% body fat.. which means since i had my last weigh in at slim i was 74 kgs which means i have put 5 kgs... 5 fucking kilos.... i can't believe that i have let myself go after all the hard work that i put in!!! so i need some dicipline!!! it times like these i wish i was a super star so i had someone at my beck and call to motivate me and to push me.. i suppose i still have PTs at the gym but i need to be able to fit them into my work life and child life, and there are only 2 ppl at the gym that i would get to pt me so i would need to fit into them too!! Im pretty down about it because im mad at myself for not putting in the effort that i should be, for not eating correctly for drinking too much shit and eating so much shit!! for eating chocolate none stop!!! i don't want to get back to my orginal weight!!! i think if i did i would crawl into a hole and never come out of it!!

I had my exams at the chiro on thursday where they test you to see how your body is functioning and well im doing crap!!! i have not been helping myself outside my adjustments so my body is not functioning as well as it should be!! so i have been put back on intense which requires me to have 3 adjustments a week then 2 and then down to 1 and hopfeully by doing my exercises and stretches outside of work i will be functioning better. it might explain why i have been feeling like shit and tired and my bowels not functioning very well...... besides not eating properly..

Well i suppose i better go get myself some lunch and get ready to go to work this afternoon. i am liking my new working hours at the moment which is good but they will change once de and aidan get back from their holiday next week. but its been good to not work all day everyday...

Soo tomorrow i am not working and seb and I are going to go for a huge walk and i am going to make myself do some sort of exercise everyday. i am going to the gym thursday morning also as i don't have to work!! i have to start getting motivated and get out of this rutttttt that i am in.. and reach my goal weight... I can do it!!!!!!!

Look what i got today

I am so excited i have been wanting one of these for ages to help keep me motivated while exercising as i love my music!! so today i brought a IPOD shuffle it is so little and so cute and its bright orange. i couldn't find a pic of it on its own..

Anyways so at the moment i am downloading all my cds and putting them on there. 250 songs it can hold, im very excited.... thats 16 hours of music !! Woooohoooo

Well i will be posting some photos tomorrow becks came around before her big nite out and i got some hot ones :)

nite all

LOL The Sesame Street Quiz

You Are Bert

Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them! You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

LOL This is so not me :)

Proud as Punch

I am very proud at the moment of lots of things.

First i just want to give a huge big hugs and kisses to Becks!! I love ya to bits girl and i am so proud of you with your motivation and energy levels to finally have a plan and know that it is going to work for you to lose your weight that you need to lose. Keep going girl and if you ever feel down just think that its all going to be worth it in the end :)

Secondly i am proud of me!! I have been a non lazy person this week to a certain degree. I have been into the gym once this week and i walked into town this morning and back again. And i tell you there are some bloody big hills i walked up. i will have to get a photo and pushing a pram didn't help at all... I think ready everyone elses blogs and seeing how motivated everyone has been its made me think i better get of my arse and start doing some stuff..

Thirdly im proud of my lil boy seb!! He is just learning things every day! today a i have about 11 steps at the front of my house and i count to him each time we go up and down them he started doing it on his own. i would say 1 and he said 2 and i said 3 and he said 4 all the way up to six.. very cleaver of him.... its exciting that things are starting to stick in his head :)

Well i don't have to work until later tomorrow morning so going to have a sleep in since seb has not been sleeping.... i am looking forward to a non breaking sleep tonite!! its hard having broken sleep and then having to go to work i tell yas!!

Well have a good nite everyone and talk soon

Ness

The joys of being a woman

So im feeling flat at the moment with that time of the month and i tell ya! i so didn't miss it when i was pregnant :) I so preffered the buldging belly even though at times it was uncomfortable.

I am waiting for these thunder storms to happen..... if they happen!!! we had lightening and thunder last nite with a lil shower of rain but that was it!! It would be nice to have some rain here in Bendigo!! We surely need it!!

I had a date with beck and bradman yesterday and we went to kid city i wish i had the camera... but that place rocks... you take your kid they run free or like seb get out and go and play in the beach volley ball pit :) but it wears them out like nothing else.. even though seb still faught his sleep and wanted me to lay with him, he slept for 3 hours :) arrrgghhh 3 hours of bliss!!! i tried to have a sleep myself but ummm that didn't happen!!!!

i was going to go away this weekend and spend the weekend with my big bro in melbs but decided against it! i decided a weekend at home having a tidy up is on the hands... i have lots of paper work filed( well not filed) that i need to sort out and what a way to spend my weekend.. :) doing that!!! Get it over and done with and then i don't have to worry about it again :)

I have bursts of energy and go on a rampage and clean and clean i don't know where the energy comes from but it comes from somewhere and then all of a sudden you just hit a rock and its gone.. Like me and the gym i have a burst of energy i hit the gym and then Blaaahhhh i don't see the place for a month :) I am looking forward to having the next couple of weeks with less work hours even though i will miss the money but i will have some time to me... i will be able to go to the gym in the morning before i go to work in the afternoon or vice versa it will be nice and i will be able to pick my son up from creche which i can't even remember the last time i did that so i am looking forward to spending some precious time with my son!! He has been very clinging lately and i think he misses me.. i complained about adam not spending enough time with his son when we were together and look im doing the same thing, i hardly see him anymore because of work! so when i do see him he doesn't want to sleep in his own bed he wants to sleep with mum and has to make sure he is touching my face or one of his feet is touching me somewhere.. arrgghhh the joys of children :)

Well i dont' have to start work until a bit later tomorrow morning so i get a lil sleep in :)

Fluid Retention

Dr Milne is in the house...

i had a comment about fluid retention so i do a lil research and found the following. I hope you find it uselful

Fluid retention

Fluid regularly leaks into body tissues from the blood. The lymphatic system is a network of tubes throughout the body that drains this fluid (called lymph) from tissues and empties it back into the bloodstream.

Fluid retention (oedema) occurs when the fluid isn’t removed from the tissues. The two broad categories of fluid retention include generalised oedema, when swelling occurs throughout the body, and localised oedema when particular parts of the body are affected. The wide range of causes includes the body’s reaction to hot weather, a high salt intake, and the hormones associated with the menstrual cycle.

However, it’s recommended that you see your doctor rather than self-treat, because oedema can be symptomatic of serious medical conditions such as heart, kidney or liver disease. SymptomsSymptoms of fluid retention can include:

Swelling of affected body parts
Feet, ankles and hands are commonly affected
The affected body parts may ache
The joints may feel stiff
Rapid weight gain over a few days or weeks
Unexplained weight fluctuations
When pressed, the skin may hold the indent for a few seconds (pitting oedema)
In other cases, the skin may not indent when pressed (non-pitting oedema).A wide range of common causes

A wide range of common causesSome of the many common causes of fluid retention include:
Gravity - standing up for long periods of time allows fluid to ‘pool’ in the tissues of the lower leg.
Hot weather - the body tends to be less efficient at removing fluid from tissues during the summer months.

Burns - including sunburn. The skin retains fluid and swells in response to burn injuries.
Menstrual cycle - some women experience oedema in the two weeks prior to menstruation.
Pregnancy - hormones encourage the body to hold onto excess fluid.
The Pill - oral contraceptives that include oestrogen can trigger fluid retention.
Dietary deficiency - such as insufficient protein or vitamin B1 (thiamine) in the diet.
Medications - certain drugs, including high blood pressure medication (antihypertensives), corticosteroids and nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs) are known to cause fluid retention.
Chronic venous insufficiency - weakened valves in the veins of the legs fail to efficiently return blood to the heart. The pooling of blood can result in varicose veins.

Treatment optionsDepending on the cause, treatment may include:

A low salt diet
Diuretics (water pills)
Treatment for the underlying medical condition: for example, hormone replacement (thyroxine) in the case of hypothyroidism
Lifestyle changes in response to the underlying medical condition: for example, avoidance of alcohol if liver disease is the cause
Changes to medication or dosage, if drugs are the cause
Dietary adjustments, if malnutrition is the cause
Ongoing medical supervision
Aids such as support stockings.

Self-care options

Mild fluid retention can be helped in the following ways:

Reduce the amount of salt in your diet; for instance, don’t add salt during the cooking process and stop salting your meals at the table. Avoid foods like potato chips and salted peanuts. Be wary of processed foods such as manufactured meats, which tend to contain ‘hidden’ salt.

Vitamin B6 (pyridoxine) is thought to help in cases of mild fluid retention. Good sources of vitamin B6 include brown rice and red meat.

Vitamin B5 (pantothenic acid), calcium and vitamin D help the body to excrete excess fluids.

Include fresh fruits and low fat dairy foods in your daily diet.

Supplements may help in the case of fluid retention caused by the menstrual cycle: for example calcium, magnesium, manganese, evening primrose oil and chaste tree.

Herbal diuretics include dandelion leaf, corn silk and horsetail.

Make sure to discuss the use of supplements with your doctor or health care professional, particularly if you are on any type of medication.

Drink plenty of water. It may sound contradictory, but a well-hydrated body is less likely to retain fluid.

Cut back on dehydrating drinks such as tea, coffee and alcohol.

Cranberry juice has a mild diuretic action.

Lie down with your legs higher than your head, when possible.

Exercise regularly.

Wear support stockings.

Soft Drink

The other day Beck and I were talking about coffee and soft drink, and why it is not good for us.

I had done some research and found this site which explains a little. But also from my knowledge since starting my job i learnt that every cup of coffee and tea that we have we dehydrate our body half a litre of water! to every 30kgs you are you should have 1 ltr of water...

Check this site out its vert interest
ttp://www.mindconnection.com/library/health/softdrinks.htm

Happy Valentine's Day EveryBody

Happy Valentines Day everybody. I hope everyone has had a fantastic day, and has been spoilt rotten by their partners.

As being a single, i have had a great day too! I spent a couple of hours with Beck and Bradman at her beautiul unit! I love the energy in that place and it suits Becks to a Tee :) Bradman and Seb had lots of fun making a mess with Lunch and also playing around the house.

Well its been bloody hot here and im off for a walk tonite when it gets a bit cooler :) Off to the gym tomorrow morning as i don't have to work! which is great :) well everyone enjoy the rest of your day and make the most of being spoilt :)

Ness

Im Proud

I just got back from the gym :) 45 minute cardio work out and I feel good! Can tick that off

I didn't have to work this morning which was great! Im looking forward to the new girl starting work as that means my hours will get cut back which means more time for me.

I now just have to endure my PT session on sunday but i am looking forward to that as my brother will be joining me.

I hope everyone has a good weekend and everyone keep up the good work!

Pump

Ok so i went into the gym tonite.. Yes Yes i did for the first time in about 4 weeks or maybe longer! :) And i got told to do pump umm yes so i did and well i think i will be paying for it.. not only has it been the first real work out i have done, i was doing really lite weights and no weights in the lung track as i hate lunges and i nearly threw up!! My god how unfit am I???? I had my massage afterwards and it killed me, but i am feeling sorry for myself right now.. im sore all over and i thought that massage mite of helped me :) ummm NOT!!!

I feel good though i got on the scales today at the gym and have gone back to 77 kgs so i am now determined more than ever to get rid of this weight and get my arse into the gym!!! i have to make time for it no matter what i have to make time to exercise!!! and get myself fit.. so my gym bag is packed and im going tomorrow lunch time also!! i hate doing things during my lunch break but for the sake of my body and my quiet time at home im going... im going, im going im going to force myself!

I have the house to myself tonite which has been nice, Prison Break has just finished and i should actually be going to bed for work tomorrow, but for some reason i am not tired at all... not one yawn not even itchy eyes :)

So my goal this week at work was to go the gym i have achieved that :)

Gym - 45 minutes of Body PUMP

I am going to set myself lil goals every sunday and im going to achieve them!

Im so proud of myself for going to the gym today its a start in the right direction i now have to stay focused!!

Motivation

Well, today was the first time i actually done any sort of exercise in ummmmm i can't remember! Alli and Seb and I went for a walk tonite, it was actually nice :) i felt good!!! Also on Sunday my brother and I are having a PT down at the lake which i am looking forward too! Its a few baby steps to help me get back on track! I am going to the gym tomorrow too which i am looking forward to as i have not been there for so long, and thought since i am getting a massage tomorrow i will go to gym first then get a rub down!! i shouldn't be so sore the next day. well i will wait and see :)

Well just a quick post OC on

Bye