Eleanor Roosevelt:

The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experiences.

Monday, November 05, 2007

Cute As a Button!!!


What an amazing weekend! Derby Day was one of the best days i have ever been to even if i didn't see the track that much! To all the girls who made the day an awesome day thank you!! My belly is still sore from laughin so hard, thanks to all the antics all day!!! I had a gamble and came out on top, I had plenty to drink, i got blisters, a rolled ankle, a burn mark, and sore arse from falling over, but most of all a few more years on my life for the fun that I had.





I met lindas "Cute as a Buttons" family and friends, and my god ladies you are all just tops we have to do it again... I met ails mum and dad and they are just wonderful people, and i slept in a bed that felt like it was going to fold in half on me :) hehehehehe!!!! It was just overall an awesome day and i felt great in a dress... I took my shoes off after being there for ummmmmm 1/2 an hour.... never again will i be wearing shoes that high again unless they have one thick Heel!!



Harry in my "so 2005" The Love Birds





Track side Clare and Me ( she is cute as a button)




Ness and Ails Sleeepppeeee ails



Me and Paul, me close to ails heart and our feet at the end of the day :)


















Thursday, November 01, 2007

Preparation for tomorrow




Sooo i have had my eyebrows even painted my nails... yeah i know and now my hair check it out


P.s using my new camera :)

2 more sleeps and exhausted

Yawnz! Im very emotional tired today, and thank god i don't have to go to work until about 9ish tomorrow morning! :) Soooo tomorrow im getting my eye brows waxed and my hair done.. im feeling like a shaggeeee dog at the moment!

Hey have i told you how excited i am about saturday? just in case im telling you again. im not looking forward to the weather and it being cold, but guess that just means im going to have to find some hunk of a spunk to cuddle up to ... hahahahaa yeah right as if thats going to happen.

hey i even painted my nails last nite.. Yeah i know.. how much of a girl am i turning into... im surprising myself i tell you..

I have packed my bags as much as i can and made sure i packed all my essentials... I just hope to god that i do get some sleep tomorrow nite.... and i got to remember to take my pillow..

I seriously have to get updates on everyones blog... lack of committment to blogging and lack of time has played huge part of it, so sorry guys..

well since im addicted to tetris im off to now play some more :)

Nite nite

Monday, October 29, 2007

Nothing about nothing

Yawns.... what a big boring day today! had a dress rehersal at ails tonite for the weekend. Will be getting out the sewing machine tomorrow...

Alot of emotions are running through my head tonite. Been hit with some bomb shells over the last couple of days but anyway will sort through them.

On a good note im still blown away.. i lost 3 kgs in the last couple of weeks.... interesting.... maybe because i have not been eating much.... due to my highly consumed consumption of alcohol last weekend...


I know i know everyone is over hearing how excited i am about this weekend... but bloody hell i am going to look hot !! LOL!!!! started putting the tan on the body tonite getting all ready... i knew deep down inside i could be a lady :) LOL!! plus the farts and berps..

well should get off to bed since i have a PT at the gym tomorrow morning.. Yawns.... not looking forward to it i tell you :) just think my arse will be that little bit more tighter for the weekend.

love ya and leave ya

Friday, October 26, 2007

Last Nite





While it was quite on ails front due to her having a headache and going home and vomiting it was a fun nite all in all... here are some pics to show what idiots we are
...... us being homies :) LOL



Its all good in the world

just sitting here or should i say ails is lying here while we are on our second bottle of wine..... seb is alseep in the loungeroom all is good in the world.... i have just experienced text sexing.. not on my behalf!!! interesting....

only 7 sleeps to go until derby day.. linda have we got a surprise install for u... stay tuned honey!!!

ill give u clue in may involve a tent :)

thats a big maybe!! dont hold ur breathe though...and dont hold me too my word except maybe..

im still working on my big blog..... time is of the essence i know but things are just too good in my world at the moment to post right now.....

stay tuned.... enjoy the nite of ails and me on the booze there will be more updates..

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Still Alive

Just letting you all know that i am still alive and that i am in the process of writing a big post but don't have enough time to do it all at once.

right now though i am shit scared of spiders and i have the hugest white tail on my wall at the moment and waiting for it to come down so i can kill it.. Yuck

Monday, October 15, 2007

High Heels, Booze, and Singing!


this is our thursday with Uncle Harry... this is on his balcony!! sebbie had an absolute ball.. in the first photo there is an air con thing and sebbie thought there was monkeys in there. it was sooo funny!!!! so harry blind folded him and took him to see the monkeys..... The imagination of my child!!! Harry cooked us Lamb shanks my god!! i can still taste it.. it was an awesome day until i had to drive to dads in the traffic.. i really am a country girl and have no patience... what should of taken my 40 minutes to get to dads took me 2 hours.... Bloody traffic i tell you!!

I had such a relaxing time in Melbourne.. i took sebbie on the train into the city on friday and my god that was an experience... he was soo excited!! got some bargain courtesy of Myer in the city.... i was looking for some shoes for sebbie for the wedding and i got him Ralph Lauren shoes.... 30% off which was awesome and a new suit.. well the people forgot to scan his suit so i only paid for the shoes!!! hahaha suffer in jocks i say!! they took the tags off and everything.. so because i had extra money i decided to treat myself and brought myself some new jeans.... size 14 :))))) i was so excited.. i didn't try them on and i ended up wearing them to the hens nite and they were a little bit big :)!! i was excited...

Now the hens nite, i didn't take my camera but hopefully will get some photos from some people.. it was such an awesome nite!! lots of games and lots and lots of singing!! and heaps of drinking.. it was sooo much fun!! i had such a good nite..

went to ails to play dress up last nite... and got my shoes.. well derby day is going to be interesting!! im going to walk like i hve been riding a horse for a week non stop as i can't walk in heels.. i have 3 weeks to practice.... so i tried everything on last nite, and really felt a million bucks.. a lady indeed...

sooo first back day back at work was interesting, full on and yeah back into the swing of things!!






Thursday, October 11, 2007

welcome from Melbourne

SOo i finally made it to melbourne and had an awesome lunch with my brother.. awww it was so yum he cooked lamb shanks... it was sensational.... i left his house which is over the westgate bridge to come to my dad who lives in the south eastern suburbs... i left at 4pm and got to my dads at 5.45pm.. Yeah tell me about it it was the most boring slowest drive i have ever done.. i don't know how you people can live in melbourne.. i was very inpatient.. i could not deal living in this place..

i only had about 4 hours sleep last nite as i had ails over until midnite and then sebbie decided that he wanted to be sick...aww it was foul..... but anyway he woke up this morning bright as a button.. i am looking forward to a great nite sleep tonite..

Well think i might go do some shopping in the city tomorrow ) need a new bloody phone :)

have a good weekend everyone... ill fill you in on the hens nite :)

Monday, October 08, 2007

Mmm Bop!!

Had an awesome friday nite playing sing star.. that game is so much fun! and you can let lose and it really doesn't matter if you can't sing just as long as it is in tune... I made Lead singer once, and out sung scott a few times. when i rocked up Bek was going for it at the top of her lungs :) was nice and relaxing...

on my last weekend of my holidays, have had a nice day with sebbie today! He has been very cuddly and in a really great mood... Makes me wonder why i went back to work.. but i don't think i could go back to not working... Maybe just work in the winter and have the summer off.. it was such a beautiful day today!

Mowed the lawns yesterday took me 2 and 1/2 hours.. my god i am never letting my lawns get that long again!! least it looks good now...

got Sherees hens nite this saturday and going to melbourne on thursday to see my dad for a couple of days and having lunch with my brother! which will be nice.

I have said that i would have xmas at our house this year... Think it will be great, and least i don't have to drive anywhere this year!

Hope everyone is well!

Thursday, October 04, 2007

I have a sore bottom

Firstly its not sore for that reason.. filthy minds!!
I went out with my dear friends binki and Row as binki is going to be a teacher in a small town near horsham...... so we were having some drinks before she went... what was going to be a early nite ended up being huge and lots of fun..
I was involved in a Jaga Train...... something different. they lined up all the jagas on the bar and one flick of the finger and they all fell into the glasses, it was awesome...
anways i consumed some alcohol which is soo not like me :) *grins* and was dancing on the podium at the nite club, jumped off and landed right on the corner of it on my arse... lucky it was a padded spot that i landed on..... i tell you i was breathless for a few moments and ouch!!!
Today i have looked at my poor bottom in the mirror and i have some bruising on it..... yeah yeah silly me thats what i get for having some fun..
So now i am watching A walk to remember on dvd and chilling out...... very tired after only a few hours sleep :)
Well everyone have an awesome weekend and my quote i leave you with today is

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Backyard Bliss

So i thought i would see how far this wifi works. im sittin in my bak yard!! now all i need is a can :) LOL

i just made carmek fudge!! yeah yeah thats going ti be really good for my weight loss LOL

went into the gym this morning and pushed myself so very hard to get my frustrations out.. i feel great i may add..

had a ball with seb yesterday we danced ti the wiggles and numerous time he had me in hyserics telling me to "cut it out" My singing he is talking about.. suppose i should never give up my daily job :)

so my first week of holidas are nearly over.. awwww how time flies when ur having fun.. LOL

my weekend is going ti consistant of being a good girl.. well at this stage anyways think im going to ails to have a dvd marathon and catch "crouching" its actaully called "coupling" we always put it on when we get homd from drunken nites out but i always seem to fall asleep... Mmm fancy that!! so i said to her since she is not a healthy cookie at the moment that we should watch it!
Few bottles of white!! hehehehe..

My head space today is everywhere.. I have alot of emotions running through it at the moment and its hard to pick a point where to start to work it all out! Maybe from the start would be good!Hey?? I know what i want to achieve and i know i can do it, but my ability for brain and body to work together is another story... Changing my thought patterns would probably be a good idea easier said than done though Vanessa.

I had some stuff said to me yesterday which caught me off guard and now i am pondering about it, not wanting to believe that it is true.. maybe its not true maybe i am reading far to much into it! Or maybe i should believe it.. work on it, get over it and then move on... but something is telling me that is not me... Be true to who i am... I am an out there person and i love being loud and i love being heard! thats me thats my personality?? Well is it?? im questioning myself?? Ill ponder a bit longer! and get back to you

Im Excited

to try and make myself feel happy right now, not that i want the attention but im getting really excited about the races! i now have a dress courtesy of Ails wardrobe..... its black and white and thats all i will say!!!!! i am going to be practicing walking in heels in the next couple of weeks so i look half decent... and don't make to much a foul of myself on the day..

I am really really excited about the weekends that are coming up!! i have my darling best buddy sherees hens weekends.. first on is on the 13th.. surprise location and can't wait and the following is a lovely weekend in dayleford.. bliss relax and drink in the huge spa that we have! I have organised both of them and very proud of myself.. so if there is any games that you can think of let me know.. we will be playing the peg game.. for those who have not heard of it you are given pegs and if somewhere swears and you here them you have to take a peg off them.... without using your hands.. the wnner the person with the most pegs.. so it won't be me as i always use the F word....

im enjoything this because i am watching Prison break and doing this at the same time!! awww bliss i tell you

well good nite everyone sweet dreams and ill be hitting it hard at the gym tomorrow let off some steam!!

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

Im Totally Addicted

Im totally addicted to face book. it is so much fun!! and addicted to my laptop at the moment and not having to sit at my desk :) its great fun..

I have my beautiful little man with me today! he has been so awesome today!! we went for a big walk into town which was good, just what the doctor ordered after a massive PT yesterday!! I signed on for another years worth of PT's at the gym today! im really excited about it because i like to be able to be pushed and know that i can push my body to those limits. every 6 weeks i get a new program so you see how you progress over the 6 weeks which is good..

I had my last slim weigh in yesterday! we won't go there i don't see why i do it seriously.. i so need to pull my head out of arse and start making some serious changes in my diet.. stop eating so mich shit!! and starting looking after myself more.... just because im exercising doesn't mean im going to loss weight also need to be careful what goes in my bloody mouth. but i know all this i just not being strict with myself.. i need to get my priorities right thats what i need to do!! but on the other hand you only live once :)

Quote of the Day

A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.
Herm Albright (1876 - 1944)

Monday, October 01, 2007

Time Gets Away

These two weeks holidays are going to go so fast. today has just gone so quickly.... I had an hour massage this morning and then went into the gym and had a work out! came home and my brother and I watched spider man 3.. took seb into the chiro today and then came home and have been doing nothing :) Tomorrow is another day and a beautiful one at that . 26 here in Bgo

I have a pt tomorrow morning and then my adjustment at work... what am i going to do for the rest of the day.. Ummmm im not sure yet!!

I can see myself getting really bored but i promised myself that i won't be eating out of bordem..

I so need to mow my lawns that is on my list to do otherwise i will be having unwanted friends in my back yard and i don't want that!!

leave you with this quote
"Its not how much you do its how much love you put in the doing"

Saturday, September 29, 2007

The Vanessa That Was

I have been doing a clean up of my computer and have been going through all my photos and thought that i would do a time line from where i have come from to where i am now... even though i still have alot of work to do its amazing to see the changes.. I can see them that is for sure...


These two photos are from Sept 2005 when adam and I were in China. Seb was 5 months old. the photo of me and adam is where i went ok i need to do something about my weight. i was 90kgs there...






This photo is March 2006. I was about 85 kgs here..... this nite bek and I hit the town for a deserved girls nite out!!





This is me on cup day November 2006 I think i can't remember off the top of my head but i was about 76 kgs something around there....




















Here is me from ummm two weeks ago.... im now 78 kgs I have come a long way that is for sure! My goal weight has always be 65 kgs!! If i can get to 70kgs i will be happy... the lowest weight i have got to was 72kgs and let myself slip again!!! so its time to get my shit together and really work my arse off instead of fluffing around and sayin ill do it one day, because one day it will be to late!

No Rules

So for the next two weeks im on holidays which means no rules. no getting up to an alarm and doing what i want when i want.. i shouldn't say no rules because these holidays im working my arse off in the gym and going to eat as healthy as i can..

I have 4 weeks until Darby day and 5 weeks until the wedding.. and i need to get my arse into serious action.

I still have a child that is for sale also!! soo please anyone takers??

Well this rain is awesome but so need so much more!! take care all and hope you all have awesome weekends

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

--Blank--


I didn't know what to call this post so i called it blank.... Im feeling a little down today which is the first time in a long time. I got a thinking about life, and where i want to go, and i suppose what really got me thinking was that aidan and de went to a conference on the weekend to the man who appears in the movie what the bleep, and where talking about the brain and how it works and how our thinking works.. it was very interesting.. anyway the think that go me thinking was that by about 35 years old our brain has experienced everything.. so for our brain to experience new things and make new path ways in our brain we need to get out of our comfort zone.....our brain plays very safe and our body likes to play out of its comfort zone!! example.. if your crossing a river and the river gets deeper as you go along your brain would like to play it safe and turn back around, where as the body would like to keep going... because we know where we have just come from and we know that the river in the direction that we come from is safe we want to turn around.. anyway i hope you are following if not well im sorry..
the point i am getting at is that we do this in our lives.. Me i am like that with men.. i have not slept or kissed another person in the last 4 years except adam.. Im to scared to step out of my comfort zone.. I know adam and i know what i am going to experiencing and expect.... Im scared of getting hurt and scared of experiencing that hurt i suppose... anyway i just thought that was very interesting, because i had my chance to take the pick on 72 hot men hehehe this weekend and didn't go there... My brain was playing safe...
I have my two weeks holidays coming up next week and i cant wait, im gong to be working my arse off in the gym, relaxing, do the things i want to do in the first week as i don't have sebastyn.. in the second week im going to spend a few days with my dad in melbs which will be nice, he will be at work during the day but that doesn't matter cause seb and I will keep ourselves entertained.
Well better be off as my eyes are getting tired... Mmmm i s feel like ice cream right now..

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Pssstttt!!


So im sitting in my loungeroom right now writing this post! my wireless is finally working! after ringing bigpond again and them telling me that they will have to send someone out to see why it is not working but i bloody fixed the problem myself. Good tech help they are :)


Awwww i am feeling it today! ails and i watched the sun rise this morning :) LOL what a blast of a weekend. make sure you go to her blog to check out the photos.... lots and lots of boys and footy trips!!! Ohhh and what a tart ails has been this weekend...... I did score!!! LOL!! a stubby holder!! hahahha.... as good as its gets for me!!
Well its time to get my act into gear and start behaving as i have some massive weekends coming up with hens nites, the races, wedding and work seminars!! I feel like i am booked out until xmas!! my god thats not far away either!


attention all FLashers


Hehe how hot are these pictures :)

What an awesome nite last nite.... been drinking since 12pm today heeheheheh ails and i are hitting the town again to go boggy.. love her work!!!


Ohhhh so the whole point of my blog title is that i forgot to tell you about my weekend last weekend. last weekend i was bogging on the dance floor here and a chick decided to lift her dress up and i saw her pink bits.. oh was not nice at all...... and then..... last nite when we were out a guy decided to show me his testicle!! ohhhh the things i am attract..... sooo.. yeah what next??

have a good weekend and tg the cats !!!! love you linda xxx

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

More Male or Female

I did some searching and did this test :)

You Are 60% Feminine, 40% Masculine
You are in touch with both your feminine and masculine sides.You're sensitive at the right times, but you don't let your emotions overwhelm you.You're not a eunuch, just the best of both genders.

Its Raining Is Pouring!


I wish it was pouring!!! Just dropped my brothers car off to get fixed after our little accident! and seb and I walked home.. It was pleasant for him as he was snugg as a bug in his pusher under cover while poor mummy didn't have a jacket and got a little wet.. It was nice though. took me about 45 minutes to walk home...

Going to set Ratatouille today with Ails which will be fun.. we are taking sebbie too.. i am looking foward to seeing it.

Tonite we are going to see Little Birdie play which will be fun too!! Concert concerts its great. im loving going to see bands live..

Got our tickets for darby day.. i am so excited.. I have been told that we won't even see a horse.. Ohhhhh and i got a hat.. LOL!!! wait until you see it!!!! Linda you will be very impressed.. Oh and guess what!! as those of you who know me well and im not a girlie girl i will be wearing a dress and high heels and make up.... Yeah im sure im going to be dressed to impress :)

Had my weigh in at the gym yesterday. for the past 3 weeks my weight has stayed the same which i am happy about because of all the drinking i have been doing :) But my body fat has gone down. which is good :)

I am doing boot camp at the gym for 8 weeks which will start in the first week of october :) Its called Millitary miss and you have 2 sessions a week!! i cant wait. Its going to be awesome :)

Well better go check on the little man as he is watchin IROBOTs his favourite movie at the moment!!! least its better than wiggles and elmo in grouch land..... think if i have to watch them one more time im going to turn into elmo or a wiggle :)

Take care everyone enjoy the rain and be good :) LOL!!!!

Sunday, September 16, 2007

WeekEnd Rapt

Ok where does one start... lets first by saying i have never been to something as awesome as the silverchair and powderfinger concert last nite! It was unbelievable and there were thousands and thousands of people! and they sang a song together. right at the end and that was pretty special!! I didn't even get anywhere near close to the stage but had pretty good view from where we were! $6 for a VB which is Firetrucking stupid! but anyways!! went out afterwards, danced my little arse off and lined up in the taxi rank for an hour which was delightful! NOT!!

Ohhh i went shopping yesterday and brought myself a weight set with bench... yeah pretty awesome. I am starting a 6 week challenge thing which i will eventually put on here as it is easy as pie!! and thought well if i can't get into the gym at least i can come home and work out and now i have no excuses :) I have a busy few months ahead of me and i really want to be looking my best so today is my last day of piss farting around and actually getting my arse into this. I have been pondering and making excuses for too long and my finger has now been pulled out..

So i have the fit ball the skipping rope and the weights, plus my gym membership i should be kicking some fat and toning some muscles in no time, with a balanced diet of course..


What else.. ohhh today i went for a drive to Rochester as that is where my grand parents live and caught up with my sister and Taj my grand parents and my aunty and uncle... My dad was also there as he drove over.. But i got to drive his BMW on the way home.. i felt so cool.. *LOL* They are really nice to drive actually.. such a sterotypical type i am..*LMAO* driving behind that wheel in my $5 sunglasses and tracksuit pants and jumper.. I said to my brother Ohh now all i need is the bling :) anyway if i never own one least i can say i have driven one :)


and finally today my darling little precious boy who is up for sale by the so anyway i will take all offers... and just so you can see how adourable he is this was taken about 20 minutes...

Friday, September 14, 2007

Silverchair and PowderFinger


Yes ladies and gentleman i am going to be dancing my sexy booty licious arse off tomorrow nite with some hot men!!! Yes thats right Silverchair and Powder Finger! Two of my favourite bands! My dad and his wife are coming up to look after the terror while my brother, his friend Jackie and I hit the showgrounds for one awesome nite! I cant wait! i have been looking forward to this for ummmm since the day i found out they were coming to Bgo....

Sooo if you hear on the news that a woman has been arrested for breaking security fences well it will be me :)

Have a top weekend everyone be safe and dont forget to tell your loved ones how much you love them!

Hey by the way........ put your thinking caps on and tell me some awesome hens nite games :)

Cioa

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Howdy Partner

Howdy everyone!!

Its so good to have my communication back with the world.. i don't know how much longer i could of put up with telephone banking i tell you!!!

So there you go hope you enjoy my new snack picture, courtesy of ails :)

My stomach is hurting at the moment not only from my PT that i had yesterday but also from reading and looking at ails blog today! even though i had seen the photos before the little comments and stuff just tip it all off.. BUT ails you left the best bit out!! the video!!! you will have to put that on :)

Hehehehehehehehehe hahahahahaha

I finally got my internet in the mail today! wi fi to only have the modem that we got have a faulty wi fi in it!! sooo now i have to wait another forking 4 days for them to send me a new modem so that i can use wi fi.. but least i got the net. and my god i had broadband before but i got a new faster speed and its zippy zippy!!

i have been baking my arse off today!! Banana cake and lemon sour cake.. Mmmm my house smells so yum!!

Settled into the new house, after everything that happened... and yeah! got silverchair and powderfinger this weekend.. My god am i excited.. and umm by the way ladies..

I am a really big vin diesel fan and he is coming to Bendigo!! yes ladies...... but he is staying with me so don't bother!! :) LOL

well might ice me cake before the terror wakes up from his sleep!

ill be back for a indepth post shortly!!

Friday, September 07, 2007

Quick Update

hey still not got internet at my new house will be this week had a sleep over at ails last nite as we got totally smashed last nite and thought that while i was here i would do a quick update


so where do i start.. the move maybe LOL!!! well moving went ok until an old man decided to pull out in front of me and i hit him in my brothers car!! yeah was not nice.. then i forgot to put the Fuc&^%ing hose in the sink in the laundry and flooded it in the new house all in one day.. so ummm yeah was great..

what else!! nothing really just been busy unpacking and being lazy and working my arse off..

take care all

By the way make sure you read ails blog shortly!!!! :) The "Forking Lasse" is back .. LOL

Friday, August 31, 2007

Sleep Deprivation


This is how i look at the moment, my eyes popping outta ma head.can someone please give me some good sleeping pills that will put me to sleep for the next 48 hours and then i can wake up and my house has been moved and everything unpacked, and the old house cleaned... I would appreciate it and i would be very grateful!!
it is 9.47 at nite and im just eating tea!! yeah thats got t be good going to sleep on a full belly!!
have had no car the last couple of days so been walking everywhere, even walked to work yesterday morning.. LOL freezing cold!!!
Well might transfer my little man from his lightening couch to his bed for one last sleep in it in this house.. Can't wait for this to all be over.. By the way im car shopping too :)

Monday, August 27, 2007

Lazy Babe!



Just got onto becks blog and saw here audition for singing bee. You rock!

anyways i a feeling like this seal at the moment with my blogging. Been very lazy! not catching up on what people have been up to and most of all not writing anything!

I am moving house this weekend which will be exciting, i am looking forward to that something new and also something modern. im going to be in the house for the first week on my own which will be interesting, as Cj is going to qld for a mini holiday....

this weather has been awesome.. i am sooo looking forward to summer... i love the heat!!

I have been going to the gym heaps and running heaps too.. my weight has been up and down but i am getting back on track of it and have re evaluated my goals now and back on track

i have heaps to say but not enough time.. as im scoffing down my lunch now and have to have a shower and get ready for work

im still alive and still kicking it! well my lillte cherubs take care and i will be back in full swing soo

xxxxx

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Accident Prone

Up at the hospital again last nite with a child who may hae a broken nose, not much the doctors can do as long as he can breathe ok. all they said was it would heal in 5 - 7days and that they only we have to worry about is cosmetic look.. anyways he is like is father in that aspect. adam was verty clumsey as a child!!


On another note, my house looks like a bomb has hit it with all the packing that is going on. i have so much shit!! i didn't realise! im having a huge clean out that is for sure!


Well i will have a new email address soon also which will be nesr@bigpond.com as i am changing provider so i have have wifi at the new house :)


so only 5 more sleeps until i start moving i can't wait!!


Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Our New House

This is how i am feeling at the moment, like a cheeky happy monkey.... Got a house, feel great in myself, getting our holiday under control for January, i got a long weekend coming up soon, and i am staying humble otherwise something will come along and bring me back down to earth..





Chris and I got a new house.... its 3 years old and i can't wait to move in next weekend. Here are some pictures of it... My favourite part of this house is the oven,... and when you see the picture you will understand why.... I love to cook and so does my brother and its one huge oven.. and also a huge back yard!! lots of room for sebastyn and co to run around in and lots of room for us to do what we want to do!!
So this is our huge back yard :)

This morning i have killed my phone as i have been on it all morning making phone calls to arrange connections for everything and disconnections for this house.

My god moving house is a tendious process... i am looking forward to packing though as we have to down size, as it only has three bedrooms which means i get to do some spring cleaning :) i can't wait!! Ails has actaully inspired me as she has been cleaning and was telling me about christmas cards that she has kept from over the years, and i was like i keep them too and now it is time to get rid of them.

Well i think its about time that seb and I head into the shower and go and get some stuff from the supermarket.

My dad is coming up to see me tomorrow so that will be nice.

see ya

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

The Goat



To Start off i thought i would start with my star sign. The goat..

I thought i would do some research about my star sign and find out all about me and compare it with THE GOAT......






THE CAPRICORN

Capricorn Positive Traits
Practical and prudent Ambitious and disciplined Patient and careful Humorous and reserved
Capricorn Negative Traits
Pessimistic and fatalistic Miserly and grudging

The practical and prudent Capricorn sun sign will be the first to tell you if your new idea just does not make common sense. They are great refiners, taking people creative ideas and fine tuning them, adding direction and practical application.
These people are very ambitious and disciplined. They will climb the corporate ladder steadily, and with honor. You can count on them to get the job done and to go well above and beyond the call of duty.
The show extreme patience when dealing with short tempered people, they can listen to a long winded rant and still stay cool and calm.
They have a very good personality, and have a great sense of humor. Capricorn's humor is more a sarcastic, and dead pan type humor, but works very well because they have what it takes to pull it off.

I don't agree with being prudent!!! I am so not a prude!!!!! far from it!!!

THE MOUNTAIN GOAT

For the mountain goat is a loner. An edgy, introverted soul. who abhors crowds and puts is nimble legs to work in the great outdoors.

Mountain goats are not risk takers and need to feel solid ground beneath their feet before making any major decision.

The mountain goat's desire to find a mate can lure it from its solitary hideout, and it seeks partners with strong personalities that promise protection in an unfriendly world. However, when choosing a mate, it will quickly withdraws if it fails to get a commitment. This behavior is often interpreted as desperation and some relationships are doomed before they get off the ground.
A relationship with a mountain goat is an exercise in ups and downs. Even though its emotional fragility causes the premature death of many love affairs, provide its partner remains faithful, the mountain goat will honor it with commitment and fidelity. For mountain goats are unconditional with their love and try hard to make their relationships work.

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Interesting!! I can see many of these traits in me especially with the ups and downs in relationships because it was a rollercoaster with adam and I that is for sure!!

I am always putting people first in my life that is for sure before i think of myself! I think alot of people do that though! its in our nature i believe!

Patience is another thing i don't agree with because my patience level is very limited. I must admit it has got better with sebastyn being born as you need patience with a child, but my temper easily comes when patience level has bursted..

For those who know me i am determined person when i put my mind to it! I am easily side tracked also!!

TODAYS QUOTE

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful. -Joshua J. Marine

New Direction

Ok so im going to do something a bit different and fun with my blog ... my post are going to be based on animals!! Mmmmmmm are you intregued? Good stay tuned!!

I should never say Never

I should never say never but i am saying that i am never going out drinking again!! I remembered saturday morning ummm afternoon why i stopped drinking and going out!! having not being drinking in about 8 weeks and then hittin the 8% alcohol drinks i was trashed on friday nite!! hehehehe, maybe not as bad as beckie :) hehehehe thats the first time i think i have seen becks like that :) you are such a doll and i had so much fun!! I felt fine until my phone started bipping at me and ringing at me!! then my stomach was telling me it needed something to eat and drink!! yeah well the water i drank didn't last long!! back up it came!!

Besides being in Bed all day saturday and being a sook, adam and I took seb down to Melbourne on the train on sunday!! and to the zoo!! it was so much fun!! i think we need to organise a bloggers day at the zoo... pack our own lunches or something as there is a big grass area to sit or otherewise they have sleep overs.... hehehe dont you think that would be fun??

I have heaps of photos of our day which i will post up!!

Well ladies and gentleman I leave you with this quote

There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.
- William Shakespeare

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Humble

I have been trying to say humble but, this week!! well i have been in an awesome mood and great spirits even thought my exercise and eating has been crap and then too top it all off we get evicted from our house! Yeah i know! poor ness and chris, but guess what!! i don't care anymore im over the anger and i am really going to miss this house, but there is a reason for it!! Its time for cj and I to find somewhere else!!!

i suppose i am a little bit hurt because i feel like all i do is pack and move, i have a job that i am stable in and thought we had a house that we are stable in and then this! bammmmmmm!! hits ya!!! it reminds me as a kid!!! moving here to there been taking here to there, no stability!!! and now its happening all over again.. Why am i attracting this?? what is the universe trying to tell me!!! That i am suppose to be a gypsie??? LOL!!!! maybe thats it!!

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend.. i sure will be.. hitting the town tonite, after going to the gym and doing pump, and guess what i am going to run into the gym.. thats right!! RUN!! im loving running even though its kills me and my legs i love it!!

Take care all love you all and be good.. and by the way i will be catching up on blogs this weekend sorry everyone who i read :)

Ness

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Naughty and Nice

Naughty i feel like being and nice, well i am :) hehehe
Thanks for the comments guys!!! i just needed to vent and Becks no you have not made me feel that way so get that outta ya head!!
Hope you don't mind me writing this mum :)
My mum reads my blog and keeps updated about sebastyn not that i have done alot of updating about him lately so that is coming!! but here title in her email back was
smile.. it makes the darkest of days bright!!! I really liked that so thank you!!! There is alot of history between us and alot of things that will never be forgiven but you get to a point in your life where enoughs enoughs move on, things happen!!! I had not spoken to my mum in many years and i found out i was pregnant and one of the first things that went through my head was, oh my god what happened if mum died tomorrow and never got to see her grandson!! I would have had so much regret and anger about it.....I stewed over this for ages but i really wanted to let her know that i was pregnant and that she was going to be a grannie again!! I suppose the point i am getting at here is that life is so short!! we all do things for a reason, and so many people REGRET so many things... but you should never regret anything you do you should learn from everything you do!! we all make bad choices in life but we make our choices for a reason..
anyways i have been feeling a little better about the whole "back burner" situation and i have come to a point now where i am like so be it move on, get on with life! no point dwelling about it there is nothing you can do you just be there for who ever needs you... and then i was like hang on am minute what about me!! i seem to always bloody put everyone else first!! what about bloody me!!! Soooo one of the exercises i had to do for butterfly program was write down how much time i have to myself and the things i do for me.. Well that was a very interesting exercise for the whole week i did about 5 things for me which took me about 3 hours!! out of a whole week.. kinda shows nessy needs some more pampering..
Well this is a really long post so i might get to the picture part then.. there is some pictures from our xmas in july party and my darling lil man and family
enjoy
love your boobies brooke :) i had such an awesome time!! and i was really silly just ask the girls i love being about to be silly and really let my hair down.. and that is what i did!!

This was our bloggers party!! was sooo yummmm.... ,my favourite photo is coming right up!!
This is ails at koko black.. she helped me break my cherry.. we got all of that for $20 it was awesome who needs men for orgasms when your got koko black!!!









This is my darling brother and seb giving him a kiss.. He loves Uncle Krys!!! they could play and play for hours these too..








This is I and terror!!!!! i like this photo because our eyes are both so wide open..... we look crazy!!



and last but not least our new lounge suite.. its bliss its leather its awesome.. it smells awesome, and we put our old lounge suite out the front, for the summer to come!! i can't wait!!




Sunday, August 05, 2007

Pushed to the back burner

Its not a nice feeling but im feeling very distant from some people very close to me as of late! family and friends....

I have tried to say that it is ok we go through these patterns and that everything will work out, and that there is a reason for this but it just not gelling with me!

Yes i have become a non smoker, and a non drinker and i have not been out in ages which means i have not really socialised with my friends alot, so that would explain why i have not really had anything to do with them at the moment, but when it comes to family i don't know!! I just feel like i have been pushed to the back burner!! my job is done and im not needed anymore! I don't like that feeling, that feeling of not being wanted.. Its really eating at me, and i don't really want to push the issue either....

anyways on a good note i had my monthly measurements at the gym this week! and i want to share with you all my results. In a month i have lost 2% body fat, 2kgs and 8cm!! i was bloody rapted with that i tell you! so I just have to keep up the good work and i will get my achievements!!

So im in the middle of cooking tea and just wanted a vent!!

Nite all hope your weekends were peaceful!!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

How sad is this!!

Soo i have had a really shit day today but anyways you know how we all eat something unhealthy when we are down.. well the only thing i could find in my house was a bloody banana or an apple so i had a banana.. that is just soooo sad..

well going out to tea tonite with becks and ails as it is ails birthday on friday but she won't be around!! just looked at the time.. suppose i should get ready!

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Body Balance

Im very sore today!!! i did body balance for the first time yesterday! i didnt think holding positions for a few minutes would make you sweat but also make you sore! i really enjoyed the class and i think my muscles enjoyed it also!!! I also did pump on friday nite the first time in ages!!! Im really trying to incorporate some classes into my weekly gym work outs just for some variety!!

A very good friend of mine had a baby boy this week Bryce James he is so little, i forget how little they are and another friend of mine had a baby girl a couple of weeks ago!!!! Im getting cluckey :0) with all the people bringing their babies into work and my friends having babies its making me think!!! Will i ever have more childiren? or is sebaystn it?? I always said that i would have a bus load!! I know there wont be children in the next 5 years thats for sure! Im still very young and i am enjoying my job and what layes ahead of me with my career and work...

still organising my trip to qld!! deciding where to stay! accomodation is the most expensive thing i tell you!! there is a few children friendly places in surfers paradise that would be good, but im not real keen on staying right in surfers!!! just doesn't appeal to me at all!

well while my little man is having a sleep i shall get some stuff done!!

Take care all and be in touch soon

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Bald is the New Blonde!

Wow what an inspiring and emotional weekend i have had in melbourne. I have so much to say but don't want to overload so i will keep in short and sweet

I have never notice so many bald men in my life, and my god how many hot guys there where!! But besides that meeting Dr. John Demartini would have to be up there in my highlights! what an amazing guy and so full of knowledge.

My question i asked him was what his favourite quote was and i knew he would come out with "I am a genious and i apply my wisdom." which he did but then he looked me straight in the eyes and said "no matter you have done or what you have not done you are worthy of love" he nearly made me cry and coming from him was just a priviledge.

Sooo i also heard Lisa Curry Kenny speak and what an awesome and amazing women she is!! i so want her six pack and i am aiming for that six pack i can tell you :)

We heard many chiropractic people from america who have been very successful in their time! it was worth while!

I have been feeling great and have been exercising heaps. running is going well except for my knees hurting a llittle, but that will go away!

My eating has been great, and my confidence is growing.

Adam and I are great which makes life so much easier. I am loving every minute that i have been spending with him lately and also sebastyn. The "family" time is great!! I have a wonderful. amazing little boy who is just beautiful and has such a great memory!!! I can't get over how good his memory is!

I have so much i have to say and i will have to do a few post about my weekends and go over my notes because i have some really inspiring stuff. I have been had such an emotional weekend, and how wonderful it is to see the chiropractic world unite and been so loving!!

I learnt alot about myself and where and what i want to do and what i am worth in this world! I am so proud of who i am and the achievements that i made and the many more that are going to come.

I hope that everyone is well and safe and had good weekends!!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Quick Update

Hey everything going awesome..

Just wanted to let you all know that i am going to melbs this weekend for a seminar with work! But the awesome news is that i am going to meet John Demartini. For you who know who i am talking about or don't know he is on "The Secret". my work does alot of business with him, and we are having a hour consultation with him, and i have to think of one question to ask him that will help benefit our clients/ or to do with work!! I have to get thinking about that

I am so excited!!!

See ya of to PT now :)

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Values!

Everyone has values and everyones are different! I first did my values when i started at work and have done them a couple of times since and they really haven't changed that much!

Something in my head snapped this week which was really interesting and a big turning point for me!
I have been stewing over a few family members and looking at what should be important to them because these things are my top values and have not been considering what their top values are. And I finally understand and realised and accepted that our values are different. I could actually see it!! I finally saw it! And do know what, i feel great about it now, i don't have any issues about it!! Because where i am not getting what i want from them i am getting it from somewhere else!!!

Hope that make sense to you all!! Just needed to vent that information.

Well my little buns are getting tighter :) hehehehe i have been into the gym every day this week.. i feel great!!! I have been really good with my eating, and starting to feel the change in my fitness already!!!! its amazing!!

I feel that everyone is kinda over blogging at the moment and not motivated about it! Which is sad in a way because i enjoy catching up on what everyone has been doing! Suppose it goes back to peoples values and whats important in our lives! I hope that everyone is ok and safe and well!!!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Butterfly Program - Week 2


I had my first weight and body fat results program! I have decided that i am not going to post them as they are not my main focus for doing this, but a major player in the whole picture, but i don't want to get down on myself if i don't lose weight or my body fat goes up, because somewhere in my week i would have achieved something else, and i want to stick to talking about my positives not the negatives :)

Soooo i took my awesome red box into the gym and we went over it and talked a little but why i put certain things on it etc etc, and then i got my homework for week 2. This week i have put things in my box that will help me along the way and also things that i would like to have in my life. Soooo for example i am going to QLD in January for a holiday so i might put pictures of QLD in their and a bikini..... everyday i am to look in the box to help inspire and motivate me...

Also i have to write a diary about all the food that i eat, when i wake up and go to sleep and if i feel tired when i wake up, how many hours sleep i have, if i wake during the nite, how much caffenince, alcohol or nicotine i have and my feelings.... Then we will talk about it at my next session

Sooo i decided that i will be right with the alcohol and nicotine part as i am not having any alcohol during this 12 weeks and Im nearly one month of quitting smoking :)

I have been great, i have got up early every morning this week and have gone into the gym. This morning i did combat!!! Don't know if i will do it again!!! its very high impact which i liked but my back didn't like it very much!!!

Sooo this morning i don't have my little man as i have to go into work for a work meeting Yippie, but I will have all afternoon with him!! Hopefully he will be in a nice mood for me today!

Got my PT Session tonite, and then a massage which i think my body needs with all this exercising i am doing!

I hope you enjoyed my story on sleep! i was allowed to take the book home yesterday from the gym, there is some other interesting facts in their that i will have to update you on in the near future.

Take care everyone!!

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Nemo On Ice

Oh my god! did anyone go and see nemo on ice?? It was bloody awesome! Sebastyn had a ball he kept yelling out "hello nemo, hello marlin hello dori it was funny and cute all at the same time! He sat on my brothers knee the whole time clapping and laughing and go ohhh wow!!! Next Disney on ice is high school musical think i might give that one a miss and wait and see what they bring out next!!! if any gets a chance to go and see a disney on ice go for it!! they are very cleaver :)

Had the best nite sleep in a very long time last nite which was awesome, i even woke up this morning before my alarm went off. Was in at the gym bright and early this morning! I am starting to run which im enjoying. i get on the tred mill and set it so i do a few minutes walking a few minutes running, ween myself into it!!!

I feeling good and more energy which is good!! but we will see how long that lasts, as one of the ladies at work has gone on holidays which means i am working every shift for the next 2 weeks!! See how my energy levels are after that!!

Well better be off and get myself ready for work this afternoon.

Take care ya all!!

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Obesity and Sleep

I was reading a book at the gym this week which i wasn't allowed to take, about obesity and sleep, which i found really interesting! I did some research on the web today about it and this was basically what the book was telling me! I found this really interesting, I hope you guys do too!

Obesity and Sleep

A recent study reveals that the number of hours slept has an influence on the risk of obesity. The less we sleep, the more at risk we are. This fact could explain why people who suffer from sleep apnea, a known thief of sleep, tend to gain weight at an above normal rate.

It's a known fact that obesity is a major factor in sleep apnea, and is often listed as one of the main causes. But that appears to be a two-way street. Once a person becomes a victim of sleep apnea, without very strict dietary control, even more pounds pile on.
Sleep apnea causes sleep deprivation, and, of course, the more sleep deprived a person becomes, the less active he or she is. Less exercise causes weight gain, but is that the only reason we gain weight?

The study, conducted by researchers at Columbia University's Mailman School of Public Health and the Obesity Research Center, suggests a link between the risk of being obese and the number of hours of sleep each night.

-Statistics show that people who sleep 7-8 hours a night are far less likely to be obese than those who sleep 4-5 hours a night. Sleep deprivation causes an increase in body levels of the hormone grehlin and a decrease in body levels of the hormone leptin. Grehlin increases appetite while leptin decreases appetite. So, those who sleep less are likely to have a stronger appetite and consequently eat much more.
-Sleeping less can cause poor food choices. We may feel too tired to cook a wholesome meal or lack the motivation to stick to a healthy eating plan. When we are tired it is easy to reach for quick and comforting foods, which are likely to be full of fat and sugar.

-The body needs sleep for muscle growth and repair to occur, as well as for recovery of muscles after a workout. Repair and growth occur during rest and rely on routine sleep patterns.

-Growth hormone is secreted in the greatest amounts during sleep. Growth hormone is not only beneficial for those who wish to increase their muscle mass, but for anyone concerned with their weight and body composition. Growth hormone plays a role in metabolizing protein, fats, and carbohydrates.

-A lack of sleep reduces the body's ability to process and store energy from the food we eat, including properly metabolizing carbohydrates.

-Sleep deprivation can increase blood levels of the hormone cortisol. Prolonged high levels of cortisol can lead to breakdown of muscle tissue, an increase in stored abdominal fat, weakened immune system, and can affect thyroid function.

-If you have not slept well you may be lacking in coordination. A lack of sleep can have similar affects on the body as alcohol in terms of coordination and reaction time. This could cause an increased risk of injury when working out.

-Lack of sleep over an extended period can cause increased blood glucose levels and may increase the risk of diabetes. Increased blood glucose levels can lead to overproduction of insulin, which can then cause the body to store more fat.

-Performance in sports may be hampered by inadequate sleep because of the body's inability to metabolize glucose for fuel and recover from previous workouts.

-If you are awake longer you are probably going to eat more. Burning more calories by being awake instead of asleep does not make up for the extra calories consumed in those extra hours.

Thursday, July 05, 2007

The Butterfly Program

Im excited, and glad that i have this program to help me achiee my goals! As you all know my best buddy is getting married in November! well she also works at fernwood and she told me about this butterfly program. I was like sweet i would love to do it! The butterfly program is over 12 weeks and is about personal growth and development. Every week we have a topic and we also need to pick two goals, one healthy eating goal and one personal goal.

Week 1 - Where i want to be in 12 weeks time? I said to sheree that i would love to be 70kgs by your wedding, i want to decrease my body fat, i want to start running, i am not drinking any alcohol for 12 weeks and im not concentrating on my weight over the 12 weeks. Its about my body fat, my cms and my health and fitness.

My goals this week for health eating was to cut my portion sizes down and my personal goal was to go into the gym at least 3 times!

My motivation has been great i didn't have seb on wednesday nite and i went into the gym, me and him went for a walk into town on wednesday and my alarm was set for 5.45am Thursday morning and i went and did a work out before work!!! i am so bloody proud of myself!

So i had some homework to do this week! and that was to create a box of the life i want and who i am... I have been having fun doing it! im not finished with it yet and i have decided to leave the bottom of the box blank for when i have finished this program to add more stuff to see how things have changed!!! i also have to think of rewards for myself and how often i want these rewards, so if anyone has any ideas please let me go!!

Im really motivated and inspired right now and everything in my life is balanced! Im grateful for everything that i have and everything that i have achieved to this date! and things are only going to get better from here.

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend and catch you all soon

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Beautiful Butterfly

Vanessa - (Greek) means beautiful butterfly

That is my goal is to feel like a beautiful butterfly - not only have i started my PT's again - oh i feel sore today, but i am also joining a 12 week program called the Butterfly program. I don't know much about the program at this stage, i will find out more this afternoon at my first session... But i do know that we set out goals, I do challenges every week and I do a vision box which i am looking forward to doing!!! Sooo i feel great that i am using all my resources to get myself back on track! Im sick of my weight yo yoing and im sick of feeling like shit!

My coughing has finally settled down, and i am so happy about that!! Now its time to get my fitness back on track and lose some weight, body fat and most of those some CM's.

More about the butterfly program later!!!

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Welcome to July

Welcome to July. End of financial year and the start of the new one... Tax Time!! I LOVE!!!! and welcoming the rain!!! SOoo i have microsoft money on my computer and i have decided that this financial year i am going to see how much i spend and what on etc etc!! taking control of my finances :) About time i do that i think!! Im excited about do this because it will be interesting to see where i spend my money! i think sebastyn, but you just never know!

Lee and Taj just left and that was lovely too see them!! the boys always run a muck when they are together. I vaccumed and mopped the house yesterday! and ummmmm you can't tell :)

Well i hope that everyone has had a good weekend and relaxed and ready for another working week! I am going to be starting a new program at the gym ill fill you in more when i know all the details!! Help me to reach my goals!!

Cut My Head Off!! PLEASE

I want someone to cut my head off. I know our body only gives us enough pain that we can deal with but right now i am over this sore throat! i have had it for about a week now, well basically since i gave up the ciggas soo 2 weeks really!! and its frustrating me!!! i have now started garglling the salt to try and get rid of whatever infection i have there!!

My sister and nephew are coming to play with seb and i tomorrow and i am sooo looking forward to seeing them both since its been soooo long!!!!

Last nite Ails and I went out for tea at barzurk!! it was so yum!! anthony Munden was in town and we were going to go see him but an early nite called us both!!

then an 8am message from ails this morning that she forgot to send me last nite, woke me and i was out of bed and in at the gym by 8.30am!!! a hour cardio workout to start the day was awesome and then some shopping for the soul!!! brought two jumpers and a workout top for the gym!!!

And i just have to end this post with go BOMBERS~!!!!!

Have an awesome rest of the weekend everyone!

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Body Change

My body is going through some huges changes right now, and god damn can i feel it!
As you all know i work at a chiropractor and in the last week I think i have had an adjustment nearly every day! Giving up the smoking, and getting rid of all these chemicals out of my body, is making it all scooo wifff!!!!

I am having some serious issues with my lower back and legs at the moment, so i have booked in for a massage today hoping that this will help eleviate some of the pain that i am feeling at the moment! I am wondering when this cough will go away also! i think if i cough anymore i am going to cough my lungs up!!! My sense of smell has come back... i can't believe it!! Its so funny when you smoke you don't smell smoke on someone, but adam came around the other nite, after being at a mates places and i was like grose you smell like smoke go away!!!

Soo yesterday was my first day at the gym!! And i did just take it easy as i need to get my back right and need to stop coughing before i go bullet a gate and work myself so hard i can't walk :) hehehe........ I felt really good about exercising, and i have missed it!!! I weighed myself, and i have put my current weight on the blog for you all to see. I am basically start from scratch again!!! but this time its going to be maintained..

Sooo today i am suppose to be going for a walk with Sebastyn, but the sky doesn't look very healthy right now, and i don't own a rain coat!!! I might sneak into the gym before my massage tonite!

Monday, June 25, 2007

The Power of Compliments!

Sooo i went through and did my weight and my measurements, and im pretty disguisted with myself! But i am now on the right path......

I was telling my bosses yesterday how i now have 4 months to get my arse into gear because im sick of feeling like shit and looking like a plump right now, and one of my bosses said to me i just wanted to tell you that i was looking at our website on the weekend(our work one) and how lovely we think you look in it. I didn't know what to say!!! i was like aww thanks. Then she went on to say we were going to sit down with you and tell you that its time you start looking after yourself... but after what i had told her about getting my arse into gear they didn't need to.

So i have now got a little book that i am taking to work with all my dates, goals, and plan for them to have for me, and make me accountable for doing my tasks!!! By having my goals and dates written down it makes it achievable for me.. by not putting a date down for having my goals achieved it could happen when ever.. but having the date I KNOW i have to do it!!

Anyway i just thought it was nice getting a compliment from my bosses who i didn't think would do something like that! Its nice to have someone out of the blue tell you that you look lovely!!! Its always from someone that never expect!!!

Sooooo watch out blog world. Ness is on her way!!!

Saturday, June 23, 2007

My Best Friends Wedding!

My Best Friends Wedding is coming up at the start of November which gives me 4 months basically to get my arse into gear!

I have been lazy and not motivated about getting the body i want! I have now quit smoking which is the first step for me to get my body healthy! Today is 7 days since i last had a smoke. It has been easy this time! i think my big test will be when i go out again! which won't be for a while because i am giving up the grog also!

My body has been going through detox the last week! I don't know how much more my lungs can cough up. I think i will be coughing my lungs up soon.

So my aim by the end for today is going to have all my measurements done, and I will weigh myself at work tomorrow, and to have a program worked out that i shall follow to help me get my arse back into the gym and get my body to where i want it to be!!

Its time to kick some arse, this has dragged on for way to long. My frame of mind is where it needs to be, i just need all my friends to keep me going and to support me. If i am being lazy kick my arse :)

So on that note ill leave you with this quote today;

"It is not how much you do, but how much love you put in the doing."

Friday, June 22, 2007

Deep & Meaningful

We have just done some new quotes for our walkbox at work and i was reading through them and there was one that just clicked with me and i had to share it.


Until today, you may have beeing waiting for someone to tell you something or give you something that would make you feel ok. Just for today give yourself permission to be ok with yourself. Accept that who you are and where you are is just right. Iyanta Vanzant


I read this quote and i cried. It really hit my heart with some issues that i have been trying to deal with. For so long i have been wanting a certain person in my life to tell me how proud they are of me, and that i have done a great job raising sebastyn and they are proud of my achievements and who i am today! and i read this quote and it hit me, I don't need there approval, because as long as i believe in my heart that i have done everything to the best of my ability thats all that should matter!


It would be nice to hear it from that person, but everything in life is balanced. Just because they don't tell me i hear it from other people, but i have not been acknowledging it because i have been thinking its not the same. Does that make sense.


So one quote has been a real eye opener for me and has put alot of things in perspective.


One that note i am going to leave you with this beautiful picture of Sebastyn doing cool dude. (wearing my beanie)

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Mobile Phone

My darling son decided to drop my mobile phone in a cup of water so please could you email me your phone numbers to ness@aanet.com.au

Cheers Ness

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Sweet Child of Mine!!! Not

Ok so today is my day off where i am suppose to relax and enjoy the day with sebastyn and do a little plodding around the house!! LOL!!! Well my dear child decided at 12am this morning that it wasn't time to sleep it was time to watch DVD's and scream and scream and scream some more! Soo about 4.30am he decided that it was time to finish watching dvds and go to sleep.. Finally well i thought ok you have not slept for 4 hours you will sleep in in the morning hahahahahaha fat chance of that happening at 8am he was wide awake bright as a button!!!

Im glad one of us was! Soo we went out in the cold and did some shopping then i had my review at work this afternoon and i asked De if she could please adjust him and my god you should of seen the leg length difference he had i am not joking it was about 3 CMS which is huge!! which also would be causing some discomfort for him! Sooo right now he is sleeping, while i update my blog and smell the lamb roast that i am cooking for tea which should be ready soon!

Off to seb's nans tonite where he will have a sleep over, and i will get a good night rest and be able to enjoy Prison Break in Peace. at about 3pm this afternoon i was about to put him on a plane to his fathers for the rest of the week! He is going through terrible 2's alright.

GYM
I was a little bit thrown aback today! i got a phone call from my gym to say i have not been in for a while.. well hello as if i didn't know that! I just thought are you desperate or something?? I will come in when im bloody ready too! Im finding it really hard to get motivated at the moment and I think thats because i got some issues i need to deal with, which im not ready to deal with which is why im holding back going to the gym! arggghhhh *sighs*

i think thats about it for now! stay safe everyone and ill leave you with this fact.

every 24 hours our body grows 34mm of hair

Monday, June 18, 2007

Tagged!

Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write on their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. You need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog!

(1) At every sink in my house i have hand wash
(2) I am addicted to Jaga Bombs (hehehehe)
(3) My favourite colour is red
(4) My ultimate goal is to own a porsche
(5) I can't sit still
(6) I am missing my family
(7) I need a holiday!!

And I tag whoever :)

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Rehab!

Okkkkk.. so i admit it!! i am a self proclaimed alcoholic right now :) If i stopped drinking i would probably lose 5 kgs! Im having a good time right now! i am enjoying going out and i am enjoying getting myself drunk and feeling shit the next day and waking up and wanting maccas or fish and chips as my hang over cure!! I am enjoying dancing and getting home at 6am in the morning! Is it right? probably not? am i hurting anyone? Yes.... myself so who has to live with that?? ME!!! I do!!!

I feel like i have gone off the rails! i admit that! i feel like i have got to a point in my life where i don't give a fuck anymore about anything..... I am feeling insecure about myself again, and who am I, and what i want out of life and where i want my life to go!! Its time for some soul searching again, where how and when i will do that, i don't know! My time is very limited right now, i find it hard to even have time to scratch my own arse.

I was saying to bekkie today!!! i am so tired and where has the me time gone??? LOL out the window!!!! My weeks with seb are my weeks with seb, my weeks without seb, i drink, go out catch up with my mates, and work, and i don't have my me time!!! am i making sense? I am missing my me time, but i don't like being alone right now!!! I don't want to be alone right now!! Maybe im scared because that soul searching will start when i am by myself, my brain will start thinking and i don't think i am ready for the answers just yet, because deep down i know what they are going to be and im not ready to face it!!

My head is so jumbled right now! My perspective on so many things is very fuzzy, I honestly thought that I was on track of things and knew the direction i wanted to take! Mmmmmm i have hit that fork in the road and don't know which way to go!!!

Something will happen and it will all become clear again i know, but until then, 1800 rehab/ show me the way......... is on the cards!! LOL!!!