Eleanor Roosevelt:

The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experiences.

Friday, August 31, 2007

Sleep Deprivation


This is how i look at the moment, my eyes popping outta ma head.can someone please give me some good sleeping pills that will put me to sleep for the next 48 hours and then i can wake up and my house has been moved and everything unpacked, and the old house cleaned... I would appreciate it and i would be very grateful!!
it is 9.47 at nite and im just eating tea!! yeah thats got t be good going to sleep on a full belly!!
have had no car the last couple of days so been walking everywhere, even walked to work yesterday morning.. LOL freezing cold!!!
Well might transfer my little man from his lightening couch to his bed for one last sleep in it in this house.. Can't wait for this to all be over.. By the way im car shopping too :)

Monday, August 27, 2007

Lazy Babe!



Just got onto becks blog and saw here audition for singing bee. You rock!

anyways i a feeling like this seal at the moment with my blogging. Been very lazy! not catching up on what people have been up to and most of all not writing anything!

I am moving house this weekend which will be exciting, i am looking forward to that something new and also something modern. im going to be in the house for the first week on my own which will be interesting, as Cj is going to qld for a mini holiday....

this weather has been awesome.. i am sooo looking forward to summer... i love the heat!!

I have been going to the gym heaps and running heaps too.. my weight has been up and down but i am getting back on track of it and have re evaluated my goals now and back on track

i have heaps to say but not enough time.. as im scoffing down my lunch now and have to have a shower and get ready for work

im still alive and still kicking it! well my lillte cherubs take care and i will be back in full swing soo

xxxxx

Saturday, August 25, 2007

Accident Prone

Up at the hospital again last nite with a child who may hae a broken nose, not much the doctors can do as long as he can breathe ok. all they said was it would heal in 5 - 7days and that they only we have to worry about is cosmetic look.. anyways he is like is father in that aspect. adam was verty clumsey as a child!!


On another note, my house looks like a bomb has hit it with all the packing that is going on. i have so much shit!! i didn't realise! im having a huge clean out that is for sure!


Well i will have a new email address soon also which will be nesr@bigpond.com as i am changing provider so i have have wifi at the new house :)


so only 5 more sleeps until i start moving i can't wait!!


Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Our New House

This is how i am feeling at the moment, like a cheeky happy monkey.... Got a house, feel great in myself, getting our holiday under control for January, i got a long weekend coming up soon, and i am staying humble otherwise something will come along and bring me back down to earth..





Chris and I got a new house.... its 3 years old and i can't wait to move in next weekend. Here are some pictures of it... My favourite part of this house is the oven,... and when you see the picture you will understand why.... I love to cook and so does my brother and its one huge oven.. and also a huge back yard!! lots of room for sebastyn and co to run around in and lots of room for us to do what we want to do!!
So this is our huge back yard :)

This morning i have killed my phone as i have been on it all morning making phone calls to arrange connections for everything and disconnections for this house.

My god moving house is a tendious process... i am looking forward to packing though as we have to down size, as it only has three bedrooms which means i get to do some spring cleaning :) i can't wait!! Ails has actaully inspired me as she has been cleaning and was telling me about christmas cards that she has kept from over the years, and i was like i keep them too and now it is time to get rid of them.

Well i think its about time that seb and I head into the shower and go and get some stuff from the supermarket.

My dad is coming up to see me tomorrow so that will be nice.

see ya

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

The Goat



To Start off i thought i would start with my star sign. The goat..

I thought i would do some research about my star sign and find out all about me and compare it with THE GOAT......






THE CAPRICORN

Capricorn Positive Traits
Practical and prudent Ambitious and disciplined Patient and careful Humorous and reserved
Capricorn Negative Traits
Pessimistic and fatalistic Miserly and grudging

The practical and prudent Capricorn sun sign will be the first to tell you if your new idea just does not make common sense. They are great refiners, taking people creative ideas and fine tuning them, adding direction and practical application.
These people are very ambitious and disciplined. They will climb the corporate ladder steadily, and with honor. You can count on them to get the job done and to go well above and beyond the call of duty.
The show extreme patience when dealing with short tempered people, they can listen to a long winded rant and still stay cool and calm.
They have a very good personality, and have a great sense of humor. Capricorn's humor is more a sarcastic, and dead pan type humor, but works very well because they have what it takes to pull it off.

I don't agree with being prudent!!! I am so not a prude!!!!! far from it!!!

THE MOUNTAIN GOAT

For the mountain goat is a loner. An edgy, introverted soul. who abhors crowds and puts is nimble legs to work in the great outdoors.

Mountain goats are not risk takers and need to feel solid ground beneath their feet before making any major decision.

The mountain goat's desire to find a mate can lure it from its solitary hideout, and it seeks partners with strong personalities that promise protection in an unfriendly world. However, when choosing a mate, it will quickly withdraws if it fails to get a commitment. This behavior is often interpreted as desperation and some relationships are doomed before they get off the ground.
A relationship with a mountain goat is an exercise in ups and downs. Even though its emotional fragility causes the premature death of many love affairs, provide its partner remains faithful, the mountain goat will honor it with commitment and fidelity. For mountain goats are unconditional with their love and try hard to make their relationships work.

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Interesting!! I can see many of these traits in me especially with the ups and downs in relationships because it was a rollercoaster with adam and I that is for sure!!

I am always putting people first in my life that is for sure before i think of myself! I think alot of people do that though! its in our nature i believe!

Patience is another thing i don't agree with because my patience level is very limited. I must admit it has got better with sebastyn being born as you need patience with a child, but my temper easily comes when patience level has bursted..

For those who know me i am determined person when i put my mind to it! I am easily side tracked also!!

TODAYS QUOTE

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful. -Joshua J. Marine

New Direction

Ok so im going to do something a bit different and fun with my blog ... my post are going to be based on animals!! Mmmmmmm are you intregued? Good stay tuned!!

I should never say Never

I should never say never but i am saying that i am never going out drinking again!! I remembered saturday morning ummm afternoon why i stopped drinking and going out!! having not being drinking in about 8 weeks and then hittin the 8% alcohol drinks i was trashed on friday nite!! hehehehe, maybe not as bad as beckie :) hehehehe thats the first time i think i have seen becks like that :) you are such a doll and i had so much fun!! I felt fine until my phone started bipping at me and ringing at me!! then my stomach was telling me it needed something to eat and drink!! yeah well the water i drank didn't last long!! back up it came!!

Besides being in Bed all day saturday and being a sook, adam and I took seb down to Melbourne on the train on sunday!! and to the zoo!! it was so much fun!! i think we need to organise a bloggers day at the zoo... pack our own lunches or something as there is a big grass area to sit or otherewise they have sleep overs.... hehehe dont you think that would be fun??

I have heaps of photos of our day which i will post up!!

Well ladies and gentleman I leave you with this quote

There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.
- William Shakespeare

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Humble

I have been trying to say humble but, this week!! well i have been in an awesome mood and great spirits even thought my exercise and eating has been crap and then too top it all off we get evicted from our house! Yeah i know! poor ness and chris, but guess what!! i don't care anymore im over the anger and i am really going to miss this house, but there is a reason for it!! Its time for cj and I to find somewhere else!!!

i suppose i am a little bit hurt because i feel like all i do is pack and move, i have a job that i am stable in and thought we had a house that we are stable in and then this! bammmmmmm!! hits ya!!! it reminds me as a kid!!! moving here to there been taking here to there, no stability!!! and now its happening all over again.. Why am i attracting this?? what is the universe trying to tell me!!! That i am suppose to be a gypsie??? LOL!!!! maybe thats it!!

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend.. i sure will be.. hitting the town tonite, after going to the gym and doing pump, and guess what i am going to run into the gym.. thats right!! RUN!! im loving running even though its kills me and my legs i love it!!

Take care all love you all and be good.. and by the way i will be catching up on blogs this weekend sorry everyone who i read :)

Ness

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Naughty and Nice

Naughty i feel like being and nice, well i am :) hehehe
Thanks for the comments guys!!! i just needed to vent and Becks no you have not made me feel that way so get that outta ya head!!
Hope you don't mind me writing this mum :)
My mum reads my blog and keeps updated about sebastyn not that i have done alot of updating about him lately so that is coming!! but here title in her email back was
smile.. it makes the darkest of days bright!!! I really liked that so thank you!!! There is alot of history between us and alot of things that will never be forgiven but you get to a point in your life where enoughs enoughs move on, things happen!!! I had not spoken to my mum in many years and i found out i was pregnant and one of the first things that went through my head was, oh my god what happened if mum died tomorrow and never got to see her grandson!! I would have had so much regret and anger about it.....I stewed over this for ages but i really wanted to let her know that i was pregnant and that she was going to be a grannie again!! I suppose the point i am getting at here is that life is so short!! we all do things for a reason, and so many people REGRET so many things... but you should never regret anything you do you should learn from everything you do!! we all make bad choices in life but we make our choices for a reason..
anyways i have been feeling a little better about the whole "back burner" situation and i have come to a point now where i am like so be it move on, get on with life! no point dwelling about it there is nothing you can do you just be there for who ever needs you... and then i was like hang on am minute what about me!! i seem to always bloody put everyone else first!! what about bloody me!!! Soooo one of the exercises i had to do for butterfly program was write down how much time i have to myself and the things i do for me.. Well that was a very interesting exercise for the whole week i did about 5 things for me which took me about 3 hours!! out of a whole week.. kinda shows nessy needs some more pampering..
Well this is a really long post so i might get to the picture part then.. there is some pictures from our xmas in july party and my darling lil man and family
enjoy
love your boobies brooke :) i had such an awesome time!! and i was really silly just ask the girls i love being about to be silly and really let my hair down.. and that is what i did!!

This was our bloggers party!! was sooo yummmm.... ,my favourite photo is coming right up!!
This is ails at koko black.. she helped me break my cherry.. we got all of that for $20 it was awesome who needs men for orgasms when your got koko black!!!









This is my darling brother and seb giving him a kiss.. He loves Uncle Krys!!! they could play and play for hours these too..








This is I and terror!!!!! i like this photo because our eyes are both so wide open..... we look crazy!!



and last but not least our new lounge suite.. its bliss its leather its awesome.. it smells awesome, and we put our old lounge suite out the front, for the summer to come!! i can't wait!!




Sunday, August 05, 2007

Pushed to the back burner

Its not a nice feeling but im feeling very distant from some people very close to me as of late! family and friends....

I have tried to say that it is ok we go through these patterns and that everything will work out, and that there is a reason for this but it just not gelling with me!

Yes i have become a non smoker, and a non drinker and i have not been out in ages which means i have not really socialised with my friends alot, so that would explain why i have not really had anything to do with them at the moment, but when it comes to family i don't know!! I just feel like i have been pushed to the back burner!! my job is done and im not needed anymore! I don't like that feeling, that feeling of not being wanted.. Its really eating at me, and i don't really want to push the issue either....

anyways on a good note i had my monthly measurements at the gym this week! and i want to share with you all my results. In a month i have lost 2% body fat, 2kgs and 8cm!! i was bloody rapted with that i tell you! so I just have to keep up the good work and i will get my achievements!!

So im in the middle of cooking tea and just wanted a vent!!

Nite all hope your weekends were peaceful!!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

How sad is this!!

Soo i have had a really shit day today but anyways you know how we all eat something unhealthy when we are down.. well the only thing i could find in my house was a bloody banana or an apple so i had a banana.. that is just soooo sad..

well going out to tea tonite with becks and ails as it is ails birthday on friday but she won't be around!! just looked at the time.. suppose i should get ready!

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Body Balance

Im very sore today!!! i did body balance for the first time yesterday! i didnt think holding positions for a few minutes would make you sweat but also make you sore! i really enjoyed the class and i think my muscles enjoyed it also!!! I also did pump on friday nite the first time in ages!!! Im really trying to incorporate some classes into my weekly gym work outs just for some variety!!

A very good friend of mine had a baby boy this week Bryce James he is so little, i forget how little they are and another friend of mine had a baby girl a couple of weeks ago!!!! Im getting cluckey :0) with all the people bringing their babies into work and my friends having babies its making me think!!! Will i ever have more childiren? or is sebaystn it?? I always said that i would have a bus load!! I know there wont be children in the next 5 years thats for sure! Im still very young and i am enjoying my job and what layes ahead of me with my career and work...

still organising my trip to qld!! deciding where to stay! accomodation is the most expensive thing i tell you!! there is a few children friendly places in surfers paradise that would be good, but im not real keen on staying right in surfers!!! just doesn't appeal to me at all!

well while my little man is having a sleep i shall get some stuff done!!

Take care all and be in touch soon

Sunday, July 22, 2007

Bald is the New Blonde!

Wow what an inspiring and emotional weekend i have had in melbourne. I have so much to say but don't want to overload so i will keep in short and sweet

I have never notice so many bald men in my life, and my god how many hot guys there where!! But besides that meeting Dr. John Demartini would have to be up there in my highlights! what an amazing guy and so full of knowledge.

My question i asked him was what his favourite quote was and i knew he would come out with "I am a genious and i apply my wisdom." which he did but then he looked me straight in the eyes and said "no matter you have done or what you have not done you are worthy of love" he nearly made me cry and coming from him was just a priviledge.

Sooo i also heard Lisa Curry Kenny speak and what an awesome and amazing women she is!! i so want her six pack and i am aiming for that six pack i can tell you :)

We heard many chiropractic people from america who have been very successful in their time! it was worth while!

I have been feeling great and have been exercising heaps. running is going well except for my knees hurting a llittle, but that will go away!

My eating has been great, and my confidence is growing.

Adam and I are great which makes life so much easier. I am loving every minute that i have been spending with him lately and also sebastyn. The "family" time is great!! I have a wonderful. amazing little boy who is just beautiful and has such a great memory!!! I can't get over how good his memory is!

I have so much i have to say and i will have to do a few post about my weekends and go over my notes because i have some really inspiring stuff. I have been had such an emotional weekend, and how wonderful it is to see the chiropractic world unite and been so loving!!

I learnt alot about myself and where and what i want to do and what i am worth in this world! I am so proud of who i am and the achievements that i made and the many more that are going to come.

I hope that everyone is well and safe and had good weekends!!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Quick Update

Hey everything going awesome..

Just wanted to let you all know that i am going to melbs this weekend for a seminar with work! But the awesome news is that i am going to meet John Demartini. For you who know who i am talking about or don't know he is on "The Secret". my work does alot of business with him, and we are having a hour consultation with him, and i have to think of one question to ask him that will help benefit our clients/ or to do with work!! I have to get thinking about that

I am so excited!!!

See ya of to PT now :)

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Values!

Everyone has values and everyones are different! I first did my values when i started at work and have done them a couple of times since and they really haven't changed that much!

Something in my head snapped this week which was really interesting and a big turning point for me!
I have been stewing over a few family members and looking at what should be important to them because these things are my top values and have not been considering what their top values are. And I finally understand and realised and accepted that our values are different. I could actually see it!! I finally saw it! And do know what, i feel great about it now, i don't have any issues about it!! Because where i am not getting what i want from them i am getting it from somewhere else!!!

Hope that make sense to you all!! Just needed to vent that information.

Well my little buns are getting tighter :) hehehehe i have been into the gym every day this week.. i feel great!!! I have been really good with my eating, and starting to feel the change in my fitness already!!!! its amazing!!

I feel that everyone is kinda over blogging at the moment and not motivated about it! Which is sad in a way because i enjoy catching up on what everyone has been doing! Suppose it goes back to peoples values and whats important in our lives! I hope that everyone is ok and safe and well!!!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Butterfly Program - Week 2


I had my first weight and body fat results program! I have decided that i am not going to post them as they are not my main focus for doing this, but a major player in the whole picture, but i don't want to get down on myself if i don't lose weight or my body fat goes up, because somewhere in my week i would have achieved something else, and i want to stick to talking about my positives not the negatives :)

Soooo i took my awesome red box into the gym and we went over it and talked a little but why i put certain things on it etc etc, and then i got my homework for week 2. This week i have put things in my box that will help me along the way and also things that i would like to have in my life. Soooo for example i am going to QLD in January for a holiday so i might put pictures of QLD in their and a bikini..... everyday i am to look in the box to help inspire and motivate me...

Also i have to write a diary about all the food that i eat, when i wake up and go to sleep and if i feel tired when i wake up, how many hours sleep i have, if i wake during the nite, how much caffenince, alcohol or nicotine i have and my feelings.... Then we will talk about it at my next session

Sooo i decided that i will be right with the alcohol and nicotine part as i am not having any alcohol during this 12 weeks and Im nearly one month of quitting smoking :)

I have been great, i have got up early every morning this week and have gone into the gym. This morning i did combat!!! Don't know if i will do it again!!! its very high impact which i liked but my back didn't like it very much!!!

Sooo this morning i don't have my little man as i have to go into work for a work meeting Yippie, but I will have all afternoon with him!! Hopefully he will be in a nice mood for me today!

Got my PT Session tonite, and then a massage which i think my body needs with all this exercising i am doing!

I hope you enjoyed my story on sleep! i was allowed to take the book home yesterday from the gym, there is some other interesting facts in their that i will have to update you on in the near future.

Take care everyone!!

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Nemo On Ice

Oh my god! did anyone go and see nemo on ice?? It was bloody awesome! Sebastyn had a ball he kept yelling out "hello nemo, hello marlin hello dori it was funny and cute all at the same time! He sat on my brothers knee the whole time clapping and laughing and go ohhh wow!!! Next Disney on ice is high school musical think i might give that one a miss and wait and see what they bring out next!!! if any gets a chance to go and see a disney on ice go for it!! they are very cleaver :)

Had the best nite sleep in a very long time last nite which was awesome, i even woke up this morning before my alarm went off. Was in at the gym bright and early this morning! I am starting to run which im enjoying. i get on the tred mill and set it so i do a few minutes walking a few minutes running, ween myself into it!!!

I feeling good and more energy which is good!! but we will see how long that lasts, as one of the ladies at work has gone on holidays which means i am working every shift for the next 2 weeks!! See how my energy levels are after that!!

Well better be off and get myself ready for work this afternoon.

Take care ya all!!

Saturday, July 07, 2007

Obesity and Sleep

I was reading a book at the gym this week which i wasn't allowed to take, about obesity and sleep, which i found really interesting! I did some research on the web today about it and this was basically what the book was telling me! I found this really interesting, I hope you guys do too!

Obesity and Sleep

A recent study reveals that the number of hours slept has an influence on the risk of obesity. The less we sleep, the more at risk we are. This fact could explain why people who suffer from sleep apnea, a known thief of sleep, tend to gain weight at an above normal rate.

It's a known fact that obesity is a major factor in sleep apnea, and is often listed as one of the main causes. But that appears to be a two-way street. Once a person becomes a victim of sleep apnea, without very strict dietary control, even more pounds pile on.
Sleep apnea causes sleep deprivation, and, of course, the more sleep deprived a person becomes, the less active he or she is. Less exercise causes weight gain, but is that the only reason we gain weight?

The study, conducted by researchers at Columbia University's Mailman School of Public Health and the Obesity Research Center, suggests a link between the risk of being obese and the number of hours of sleep each night.

-Statistics show that people who sleep 7-8 hours a night are far less likely to be obese than those who sleep 4-5 hours a night. Sleep deprivation causes an increase in body levels of the hormone grehlin and a decrease in body levels of the hormone leptin. Grehlin increases appetite while leptin decreases appetite. So, those who sleep less are likely to have a stronger appetite and consequently eat much more.
-Sleeping less can cause poor food choices. We may feel too tired to cook a wholesome meal or lack the motivation to stick to a healthy eating plan. When we are tired it is easy to reach for quick and comforting foods, which are likely to be full of fat and sugar.

-The body needs sleep for muscle growth and repair to occur, as well as for recovery of muscles after a workout. Repair and growth occur during rest and rely on routine sleep patterns.

-Growth hormone is secreted in the greatest amounts during sleep. Growth hormone is not only beneficial for those who wish to increase their muscle mass, but for anyone concerned with their weight and body composition. Growth hormone plays a role in metabolizing protein, fats, and carbohydrates.

-A lack of sleep reduces the body's ability to process and store energy from the food we eat, including properly metabolizing carbohydrates.

-Sleep deprivation can increase blood levels of the hormone cortisol. Prolonged high levels of cortisol can lead to breakdown of muscle tissue, an increase in stored abdominal fat, weakened immune system, and can affect thyroid function.

-If you have not slept well you may be lacking in coordination. A lack of sleep can have similar affects on the body as alcohol in terms of coordination and reaction time. This could cause an increased risk of injury when working out.

-Lack of sleep over an extended period can cause increased blood glucose levels and may increase the risk of diabetes. Increased blood glucose levels can lead to overproduction of insulin, which can then cause the body to store more fat.

-Performance in sports may be hampered by inadequate sleep because of the body's inability to metabolize glucose for fuel and recover from previous workouts.

-If you are awake longer you are probably going to eat more. Burning more calories by being awake instead of asleep does not make up for the extra calories consumed in those extra hours.

Thursday, July 05, 2007

The Butterfly Program

Im excited, and glad that i have this program to help me achiee my goals! As you all know my best buddy is getting married in November! well she also works at fernwood and she told me about this butterfly program. I was like sweet i would love to do it! The butterfly program is over 12 weeks and is about personal growth and development. Every week we have a topic and we also need to pick two goals, one healthy eating goal and one personal goal.

Week 1 - Where i want to be in 12 weeks time? I said to sheree that i would love to be 70kgs by your wedding, i want to decrease my body fat, i want to start running, i am not drinking any alcohol for 12 weeks and im not concentrating on my weight over the 12 weeks. Its about my body fat, my cms and my health and fitness.

My goals this week for health eating was to cut my portion sizes down and my personal goal was to go into the gym at least 3 times!

My motivation has been great i didn't have seb on wednesday nite and i went into the gym, me and him went for a walk into town on wednesday and my alarm was set for 5.45am Thursday morning and i went and did a work out before work!!! i am so bloody proud of myself!

So i had some homework to do this week! and that was to create a box of the life i want and who i am... I have been having fun doing it! im not finished with it yet and i have decided to leave the bottom of the box blank for when i have finished this program to add more stuff to see how things have changed!!! i also have to think of rewards for myself and how often i want these rewards, so if anyone has any ideas please let me go!!

Im really motivated and inspired right now and everything in my life is balanced! Im grateful for everything that i have and everything that i have achieved to this date! and things are only going to get better from here.

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend and catch you all soon

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Beautiful Butterfly

Vanessa - (Greek) means beautiful butterfly

That is my goal is to feel like a beautiful butterfly - not only have i started my PT's again - oh i feel sore today, but i am also joining a 12 week program called the Butterfly program. I don't know much about the program at this stage, i will find out more this afternoon at my first session... But i do know that we set out goals, I do challenges every week and I do a vision box which i am looking forward to doing!!! Sooo i feel great that i am using all my resources to get myself back on track! Im sick of my weight yo yoing and im sick of feeling like shit!

My coughing has finally settled down, and i am so happy about that!! Now its time to get my fitness back on track and lose some weight, body fat and most of those some CM's.

More about the butterfly program later!!!