Eleanor Roosevelt:
The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experiences.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Im Alive
Sorry for the lack of post and comments lately, life has been very hectic at the moment. I have until Friday off work so i will endevour to update with some photos and stories over the last couple of weeks!
I have been in Torquay for the last 4 days and got home today, so now catchuing up on the house work and hundred loads of washing that comes from being away!
Well hope everyone is well!
Ness
Monday, April 16, 2007
Thoughts!

Fujiwara Dam, before offering a prayer
Fujiwara Dam, after offering a prayer
You Make Me Sick, I Will Kill You
Thank you
I hope you get something out of this because i sure did!
I have now realised that i was looking at exercise as a chore and not something i love to do! And from that i have now set times aside that i go into the gym and work out! Because my body needs to be healthy and Fit! I love going to the gym and i love working out. i had my first PT session last friday and got absolutely pumped.... even though i felt sick during and after it, in the long run I know i will benefit from it and I feel good! I can achieve what ever i put my mind to!!
anyways i think i have written enough for one night! expect more posts like this as i have so much i need to get out of my head!
Good nite everyone and have lovely weeks and hope to catch some of you on the weekend :)
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
John Mayer
I had written this huge big post and lost it all on monday !! so i just wanted to let you all know that i had an awesome time at John Mayer and that there will be some photos coming.
Hope everyone had an awesome easter and gots of choccy of the easter bunny
ness
Monday, April 02, 2007
HAPPY 2ND BIRTHDAY TO MY BABY BOY
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Weekend
The Boys having a bath last nite.. taj loves tipping water over sebs head because seb thinks its funny

Taj giving seb a cuddle on his new lightening couch...
Here they are playing on the swing set.. it looks like they are going really high in this pic but there not
This is my darling sister... She is my rock.. luv ya sis xx
Friday, March 30, 2007
Relay for Life - Update
Good luck to everyone doing the fun run for kids this weekend :) enjoy yourselfs,
Just going out to buy seb birthday present. He is going to be two on tuesday :) My lil baby boy is growing up so fast....
I was always the person that was going to have a bus load of children. I love children.... After having sebastyn and everything that has happened with sperm donar, i couldn't see myself having that bus load anymore! Seb is im treasure and everything to me, trying to share my love would be sooo hard......
On that note i went to becks on wednesday for a catch up and so that boys could have a play and hurt themselves, which they did.... and it was so funny we were talking about Men and becks said to me "your so hot ness why don't you have a man in your life?" I said to her im not ready!!! I think alot of other factors come into it... having a son, i don't want to be bringing hundred of people into his life, i would just like to meet Mr Right and that be it!! it may never happen, but i think i could be happy being single for the rest of my life!! A few booty calls here and there and i think i could be one happy women :)
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Relay For Life
I weighed myself at Becks on wednesday on her cool scales.... I was very devasted at seeing my weight!! Sooooo now i really do have to get myself motivated and get out of this F&*%$ing rut that i am in..... All my motivation has gone out the window.... I am not motivated or inspired to get off my arse and combat this challenge of getting rid of my fat/babyfat etc etc..... How do i go about doing that!! Mmmmmmm i have no idea.. Maybe i need a challenge or something i don't know!!!
Any suggestions anyone??
Well better go and start on my washing, as i have not really done any this week with this weather that we have been having.
Any feedback would be appreciated!! :)
xxxx
Monday, March 26, 2007
Weekend Part Two - Memory Lane
First stop was Durham Ox. We decided to go via Boort back to our First Home Lake Meran.
This is lake Meran... Without the water. It was actually vey sad to see as every summer and most weekends we would go here to ski and play. We would ride our bikes after school and get dad to come pick us up once he had finished work. This is where we learnt to swim. Most of our lives we grew up around water, going back here reminded me how much i really do miss the country and how much i hate having neighbours, and not being about to just ride/drive down the road for a dip...


This tree was CJ favourite Tree. He use to hide in the hole in the tree. Hehehe it was so funny because the hole is so small now....
The play ground... it was still the same.... i hated that wizzy dizzy thing... it made me sick so i never went on it!!! 

This was really awesome to see our first primary school Dingwall!!! There was about 10 children that went to this school it was awesome. The toilets where outside under some trees where the magpies lived. CJ said to me remember when we use to put buckets and pans on our heads to go to the toilets so that magpies wouldn't get us.. hehehehe.....
This was our play wall at the back of the school. I remember on our last day at school we all got plates and cups and smashed them on the wall to say goodbye..... We even had a pet cow at our school.... 
We then headed to our Primary School St. Joesphs.... WOW this school has had one huge make over since we been there. I remember that we did pavers and wrote our names on them. but i couldn't remember if we did one or not, so for about 20 minutes CJ and I were walking around looking at the names laughing and remembering people and then he came across ours...... 1993 was a long time ago..... trying to remember if i still had the bowl haircut then :)
This is St Joe's from the front.. it didn't look like this back in my day :) And to get from the school to our hall you use to have to go outside.. well now it is all covered in!!!! 
Westblade Ave: Has this house had a make over or what!! A huge one.... The garden was different, there was a pergola out the back, and the garden at the front has changed.. There use to be a tree in the front yard.. which has now gone.. We had a little look out the back as the lady who lived at this house drove off just as we pulled up, and CJ could see the tree that he planted was still there.. :) There was some fond memories at this house i remember... Hehehehe i won't say to much dad :) hehehe
Next was off to the egg park, as we called it.. This is the egg below. I never went in this either as it made me sick.. we played here on the equipment for a bit.. was heaps of fun.......
The water tower which is at the egg park also... It doesn't look as big as it did when we were little...
The it was down the main street. This is the clock tower.... 
We went into safeway to buy some goodies but also to see if we could see anyone we knew... both our hearts where racing, but to our disappointment we didn't know one person who was walking around or even working there :) Then it was back on the road to Bendigo.
Thanks for coming CJ it felt really good to go back to our old homes and see them and to know that those fond memories are still there, and to see the changes that have occured whilst we have been gone.
For another 10 years Kerang. Its good bye!!!
Weekend Part 1 - The Party
Im not really going to say much as im sure ails and everyone else will have there stories to tell but all i want to say is that Im glad that I got to make Ails and Linda NON Virgins of Yaga Bombs.... ( my favourite drinks ) How yummy are those drinks girls :)
Tea was yum, the dancing was fun both nites and i finally went to Goldies.. what an awesome place to listen to old and new music!!! I had sooo much fun there that nite...... and to see how many mullets we could spot that was a great game!!
Well cant wait to do it all again and to Phil and Bec it was great to see you both again!! Phil you sound so excited about your trip and hope you have a blast if i dont see you before then, and Becks my godddd your looking hot and you can really notice the changes babe.
Ok Part 2 to my weekend coming up when i have another spare 10 minutes
Thanks again girls!
Friday, March 16, 2007
Going Insane
So i have a confession to make also i went to days without a smoke... and broke the drought!!! i really want to quit but im not putting my mind to it! i thought i might try the patches, as i don't know how i will go cold turkey!!!
I have been at a work meeting most of today and got seb back about an hour ago.. He is passed out on my couch after not having a sleep today, so hopefully he will sleep tonite, i hope he sleeps tonite. at 5.30 this morning i hear "mummy mummy mummy" and i went in and he was awake saying "other bed other bed" as in my bed.... so into my bed he gets, but he is a really touchy lil man and im not a really touchy person, so when he hops into bed with me he always has to be touching me, so i never really get anysleep... i snuggle with him thinking that he is asleep and then move away and he moves closer.... lil bugger he is!!!!!
Last nite was really awesome my brother and I had a couple of drinks and played cards.... it was so much fun.. then it was getting a lil cold outside so i said ohh lets go watch eurotrip you will love it!!! it is a funny movie if you have not seen it watch it!!!
well i hope everyone is having a good weekend and saving themselves for a big one nextweek with the sleep over. I am really looking forward to it as i have not met many of you so i can't wait.... it will be such a fun nite.....
Take care all and hope to see you next weekend
Thursday, March 15, 2007
1.41AM ....... What The?
And now im awake for what ever reason not feeling tired and having to get up and getting ready to go to work this morning at 6.30am thank god i have this afternoon off :) I am looking forward to that.. Im going to go into the gym and have a work out and then pick my lil man up from creche and if the weather is nice, we might go for a walk arond the lake, and he can go on his bike :) that should keep him entertained for a bit!!
Well i might put my ipod in my ears and listen to some music and see if that helps. If not im in the middle of Schapelle Corby's book so might read a few pages of that.
Nite all. actually i should say morning hehehe!!!
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
The Start of A Healthier Life Style - DAY 1
I am feeling good about it and really looking forward to getting my fitness back and being able to do things without getting puffed. This is one step forward to a healthier me...... Will be interesting to see how my moods are :) hehehee
One step at a time.....
Friday, March 09, 2007
I feel sorry for myself
Ummmm things aren't too good on the home front at the moment. My bro is having some problems with his girlfriend who is suppose to be moving in here, so because they not talking he is being all dark and shit on me which i don't really like, but at this point in time i have not had a chance to talk to him and tell him to fucking stop his shit with me!! I hate when he is like this with me, because he my lil bro and i love him heaps and i hate that he can't talk to me... He will when he is ready but i wanted him to talk to me about it last nite and he told me to go away :(
Anyways just finishing my milo that is slowly going down. Think i might go and lay back on the couch and be a bludge. ohh i have to go out at some stage, i brought this cute top yesterday at target buttt ummmm its one of those puffy ones, and i need a belt for it because without a belt it makes me look 9 months pregnant!!!! i will try and get a photo of me in it tonite and post it!!
Have a gooooddd long weekend everyone!!! take care on the roads as already this morning about 3 abos and fire truck have gone past my house.
xxxx
Monday, March 05, 2007
A Bit of everything


here is my brother and sebastyn having a dance on friday nite. seb is a lil groover he is so funny. we were teaching him the bum dance.. it was soooo cute...Saturday, March 03, 2007
Look what i got today

Wednesday, February 28, 2007
LOL The Sesame Street Quiz
| You Are Bert |
Extremely serious and a little eccentric, people find you loveable - even if you don't love them! You are usually feeling: Logical - you rarely let your emotions rule you You are famous for: Being smart, a total neat freak, and maybe just a little evil How you life your life: With passion, even if your odd passions (like bottle caps and pigeons) are baffling to others |
Proud as Punch
First i just want to give a huge big hugs and kisses to Becks!! I love ya to bits girl and i am so proud of you with your motivation and energy levels to finally have a plan and know that it is going to work for you to lose your weight that you need to lose. Keep going girl and if you ever feel down just think that its all going to be worth it in the end :)
Secondly i am proud of me!! I have been a non lazy person this week to a certain degree. I have been into the gym once this week and i walked into town this morning and back again. And i tell you there are some bloody big hills i walked up. i will have to get a photo and pushing a pram didn't help at all... I think ready everyone elses blogs and seeing how motivated everyone has been its made me think i better get of my arse and start doing some stuff..
Thirdly im proud of my lil boy seb!! He is just learning things every day! today a i have about 11 steps at the front of my house and i count to him each time we go up and down them he started doing it on his own. i would say 1 and he said 2 and i said 3 and he said 4 all the way up to six.. very cleaver of him.... its exciting that things are starting to stick in his head :)
Well i don't have to work until later tomorrow morning so going to have a sleep in since seb has not been sleeping.... i am looking forward to a non breaking sleep tonite!! its hard having broken sleep and then having to go to work i tell yas!!
Well have a good nite everyone and talk soon
Ness
Thursday, February 22, 2007
The joys of being a woman
I am waiting for these thunder storms to happen..... if they happen!!! we had lightening and thunder last nite with a lil shower of rain but that was it!! It would be nice to have some rain here in Bendigo!! We surely need it!!
I had a date with beck and bradman yesterday and we went to kid city i wish i had the camera... but that place rocks... you take your kid they run free or like seb get out and go and play in the beach volley ball pit :) but it wears them out like nothing else.. even though seb still faught his sleep and wanted me to lay with him, he slept for 3 hours :) arrrgghhh 3 hours of bliss!!! i tried to have a sleep myself but ummm that didn't happen!!!!
i was going to go away this weekend and spend the weekend with my big bro in melbs but decided against it! i decided a weekend at home having a tidy up is on the hands... i have lots of paper work filed( well not filed) that i need to sort out and what a way to spend my weekend.. :) doing that!!! Get it over and done with and then i don't have to worry about it again :)
I have bursts of energy and go on a rampage and clean and clean i don't know where the energy comes from but it comes from somewhere and then all of a sudden you just hit a rock and its gone.. Like me and the gym i have a burst of energy i hit the gym and then Blaaahhhh i don't see the place for a month :) I am looking forward to having the next couple of weeks with less work hours even though i will miss the money but i will have some time to me... i will be able to go to the gym in the morning before i go to work in the afternoon or vice versa it will be nice and i will be able to pick my son up from creche which i can't even remember the last time i did that so i am looking forward to spending some precious time with my son!! He has been very clinging lately and i think he misses me.. i complained about adam not spending enough time with his son when we were together and look im doing the same thing, i hardly see him anymore because of work! so when i do see him he doesn't want to sleep in his own bed he wants to sleep with mum and has to make sure he is touching my face or one of his feet is touching me somewhere.. arrgghhh the joys of children :)
Well i dont' have to start work until a bit later tomorrow morning so i get a lil sleep in :)
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Fluid Retention
i had a comment about fluid retention so i do a lil research and found the following. I hope you find it uselful
Fluid retention
Fluid regularly leaks into body tissues from the blood. The lymphatic system is a network of tubes throughout the body that drains this fluid (called lymph) from tissues and empties it back into the bloodstream.
Fluid retention (oedema) occurs when the fluid isn’t removed from the tissues. The two broad categories of fluid retention include generalised oedema, when swelling occurs throughout the body, and localised oedema when particular parts of the body are affected. The wide range of causes includes the body’s reaction to hot weather, a high salt intake, and the hormones associated with the menstrual cycle.
However, it’s recommended that you see your doctor rather than self-treat, because oedema can be symptomatic of serious medical conditions such as heart, kidney or liver disease. SymptomsSymptoms of fluid retention can include:
Swelling of affected body parts
Feet, ankles and hands are commonly affected
The affected body parts may ache
The joints may feel stiff
Rapid weight gain over a few days or weeks
Unexplained weight fluctuations
When pressed, the skin may hold the indent for a few seconds (pitting oedema)
In other cases, the skin may not indent when pressed (non-pitting oedema).A wide range of common causes
A wide range of common causesSome of the many common causes of fluid retention include:
Gravity - standing up for long periods of time allows fluid to ‘pool’ in the tissues of the lower leg.
Hot weather - the body tends to be less efficient at removing fluid from tissues during the summer months.
Burns - including sunburn. The skin retains fluid and swells in response to burn injuries.
Menstrual cycle - some women experience oedema in the two weeks prior to menstruation.
Pregnancy - hormones encourage the body to hold onto excess fluid.
The Pill - oral contraceptives that include oestrogen can trigger fluid retention.
Dietary deficiency - such as insufficient protein or vitamin B1 (thiamine) in the diet.
Medications - certain drugs, including high blood pressure medication (antihypertensives), corticosteroids and nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs) are known to cause fluid retention.
Chronic venous insufficiency - weakened valves in the veins of the legs fail to efficiently return blood to the heart. The pooling of blood can result in varicose veins.
Treatment optionsDepending on the cause, treatment may include:
A low salt diet
Diuretics (water pills)
Treatment for the underlying medical condition: for example, hormone replacement (thyroxine) in the case of hypothyroidism
Lifestyle changes in response to the underlying medical condition: for example, avoidance of alcohol if liver disease is the cause
Changes to medication or dosage, if drugs are the cause
Dietary adjustments, if malnutrition is the cause
Ongoing medical supervision
Aids such as support stockings.
Self-care options
Mild fluid retention can be helped in the following ways:
Reduce the amount of salt in your diet; for instance, don’t add salt during the cooking process and stop salting your meals at the table. Avoid foods like potato chips and salted peanuts. Be wary of processed foods such as manufactured meats, which tend to contain ‘hidden’ salt.
Vitamin B6 (pyridoxine) is thought to help in cases of mild fluid retention. Good sources of vitamin B6 include brown rice and red meat.
Vitamin B5 (pantothenic acid), calcium and vitamin D help the body to excrete excess fluids.
Include fresh fruits and low fat dairy foods in your daily diet.
Supplements may help in the case of fluid retention caused by the menstrual cycle: for example calcium, magnesium, manganese, evening primrose oil and chaste tree.
Herbal diuretics include dandelion leaf, corn silk and horsetail.
Make sure to discuss the use of supplements with your doctor or health care professional, particularly if you are on any type of medication.
Drink plenty of water. It may sound contradictory, but a well-hydrated body is less likely to retain fluid.
Cut back on dehydrating drinks such as tea, coffee and alcohol.
Cranberry juice has a mild diuretic action.
Lie down with your legs higher than your head, when possible.
Exercise regularly.
Wear support stockings.
