Sleep Deprivation

This is how i look at the moment, my eyes popping outta ma head.can someone please give me some good sleeping pills that will put me to sleep for the next 48 hours and then i can wake up and my house has been moved and everything unpacked, and the old house cleaned... I would appreciate it and i would be very grateful!!

it is 9.47 at nite and im just eating tea!! yeah thats got t be good going to sleep on a full belly!!

have had no car the last couple of days so been walking everywhere, even walked to work yesterday morning.. LOL freezing cold!!!

Well might transfer my little man from his lightening couch to his bed for one last sleep in it in this house.. Can't wait for this to all be over.. By the way im car shopping too :)

Lazy Babe!

Just got onto becks blog and saw here audition for singing bee. You rock!

anyways i a feeling like this seal at the moment with my blogging. Been very lazy! not catching up on what people have been up to and most of all not writing anything!

I am moving house this weekend which will be exciting, i am looking forward to that something new and also something modern. im going to be in the house for the first week on my own which will be interesting, as Cj is going to qld for a mini holiday....

this weather has been awesome.. i am sooo looking forward to summer... i love the heat!!

I have been going to the gym heaps and running heaps too.. my weight has been up and down but i am getting back on track of it and have re evaluated my goals now and back on track

i have heaps to say but not enough time.. as im scoffing down my lunch now and have to have a shower and get ready for work

im still alive and still kicking it! well my lillte cherubs take care and i will be back in full swing soo

xxxxx

Accident Prone

Up at the hospital again last nite with a child who may hae a broken nose, not much the doctors can do as long as he can breathe ok. all they said was it would heal in 5 - 7days and that they only we have to worry about is cosmetic look.. anyways he is like is father in that aspect. adam was verty clumsey as a child!!

On another note, my house looks like a bomb has hit it with all the packing that is going on. i have so much shit!! i didn't realise! im having a huge clean out that is for sure!

Well i will have a new email address soon also which will be nesr@bigpond.com as i am changing provider so i have have wifi at the new house :)

so only 5 more sleeps until i start moving i can't wait!!

Our New House

This is how i am feeling at the moment, like a cheeky happy monkey.... Got a house, feel great in myself, getting our holiday under control for January, i got a long weekend coming up soon, and i am staying humble otherwise something will come along and bring me back down to earth..

Chris and I got a new house.... its 3 years old and i can't wait to move in next weekend. Here are some pictures of it... My favourite part of this house is the oven,... and when you see the picture you will understand why.... I love to cook and so does my brother and its one huge oven.. and also a huge back yard!! lots of room for sebastyn and co to run around in and lots of room for us to do what we want to do!!

So this is our huge back yard :)

This morning i have killed my phone as i have been on it all morning making phone calls to arrange connections for everything and disconnections for this house.

My god moving house is a tendious process... i am looking forward to packing though as we have to down size, as it only has three bedrooms which means i get to do some spring cleaning :) i can't wait!! Ails has actaully inspired me as she has been cleaning and was telling me about christmas cards that she has kept from over the years, and i was like i keep them too and now it is time to get rid of them.

Well i think its about time that seb and I head into the shower and go and get some stuff from the supermarket.

My dad is coming up to see me tomorrow so that will be nice.

see ya

The Goat

To Start off i thought i would start with my star sign. The goat..

I thought i would do some research about my star sign and find out all about me and compare it with THE GOAT......






THE CAPRICORN

Capricorn Positive Traits
Practical and prudent Ambitious and disciplined Patient and careful Humorous and reserved
Capricorn Negative Traits
Pessimistic and fatalistic Miserly and grudging

The practical and prudent Capricorn sun sign will be the first to tell you if your new idea just does not make common sense. They are great refiners, taking people creative ideas and fine tuning them, adding direction and practical application.
These people are very ambitious and disciplined. They will climb the corporate ladder steadily, and with honor. You can count on them to get the job done and to go well above and beyond the call of duty.
The show extreme patience when dealing with short tempered people, they can listen to a long winded rant and still stay cool and calm.
They have a very good personality, and have a great sense of humor. Capricorn's humor is more a sarcastic, and dead pan type humor, but works very well because they have what it takes to pull it off.

I don't agree with being prudent!!! I am so not a prude!!!!! far from it!!!

THE MOUNTAIN GOAT

For the mountain goat is a loner. An edgy, introverted soul. who abhors crowds and puts is nimble legs to work in the great outdoors.

Mountain goats are not risk takers and need to feel solid ground beneath their feet before making any major decision.

The mountain goat's desire to find a mate can lure it from its solitary hideout, and it seeks partners with strong personalities that promise protection in an unfriendly world. However, when choosing a mate, it will quickly withdraws if it fails to get a commitment. This behavior is often interpreted as desperation and some relationships are doomed before they get off the ground.
A relationship with a mountain goat is an exercise in ups and downs. Even though its emotional fragility causes the premature death of many love affairs, provide its partner remains faithful, the mountain goat will honor it with commitment and fidelity. For mountain goats are unconditional with their love and try hard to make their relationships work.

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Interesting!! I can see many of these traits in me especially with the ups and downs in relationships because it was a rollercoaster with adam and I that is for sure!!

I am always putting people first in my life that is for sure before i think of myself! I think alot of people do that though! its in our nature i believe!

Patience is another thing i don't agree with because my patience level is very limited. I must admit it has got better with sebastyn being born as you need patience with a child, but my temper easily comes when patience level has bursted..

For those who know me i am determined person when i put my mind to it! I am easily side tracked also!!

TODAYS QUOTE

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful. -Joshua J. Marine

New Direction

Ok so im going to do something a bit different and fun with my blog ... my post are going to be based on animals!! Mmmmmmm are you intregued? Good stay tuned!!

I should never say Never

I should never say never but i am saying that i am never going out drinking again!! I remembered saturday morning ummm afternoon why i stopped drinking and going out!! having not being drinking in about 8 weeks and then hittin the 8% alcohol drinks i was trashed on friday nite!! hehehehe, maybe not as bad as beckie :) hehehehe thats the first time i think i have seen becks like that :) you are such a doll and i had so much fun!! I felt fine until my phone started bipping at me and ringing at me!! then my stomach was telling me it needed something to eat and drink!! yeah well the water i drank didn't last long!! back up it came!!

Besides being in Bed all day saturday and being a sook, adam and I took seb down to Melbourne on the train on sunday!! and to the zoo!! it was so much fun!! i think we need to organise a bloggers day at the zoo... pack our own lunches or something as there is a big grass area to sit or otherewise they have sleep overs.... hehehe dont you think that would be fun??

I have heaps of photos of our day which i will post up!!

Well ladies and gentleman I leave you with this quote

There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.
- William Shakespeare

Humble

I have been trying to say humble but, this week!! well i have been in an awesome mood and great spirits even thought my exercise and eating has been crap and then too top it all off we get evicted from our house! Yeah i know! poor ness and chris, but guess what!! i don't care anymore im over the anger and i am really going to miss this house, but there is a reason for it!! Its time for cj and I to find somewhere else!!!

i suppose i am a little bit hurt because i feel like all i do is pack and move, i have a job that i am stable in and thought we had a house that we are stable in and then this! bammmmmmm!! hits ya!!! it reminds me as a kid!!! moving here to there been taking here to there, no stability!!! and now its happening all over again.. Why am i attracting this?? what is the universe trying to tell me!!! That i am suppose to be a gypsie??? LOL!!!! maybe thats it!!

I hope everyone has an awesome weekend.. i sure will be.. hitting the town tonite, after going to the gym and doing pump, and guess what i am going to run into the gym.. thats right!! RUN!! im loving running even though its kills me and my legs i love it!!

Take care all love you all and be good.. and by the way i will be catching up on blogs this weekend sorry everyone who i read :)

Ness

Naughty and Nice

Naughty i feel like being and nice, well i am :) hehehe

Thanks for the comments guys!!! i just needed to vent and Becks no you have not made me feel that way so get that outta ya head!!

Hope you don't mind me writing this mum :)

My mum reads my blog and keeps updated about sebastyn not that i have done alot of updating about him lately so that is coming!! but here title in her email back was

smile.. it makes the darkest of days bright!!! I really liked that so thank you!!! There is alot of history between us and alot of things that will never be forgiven but you get to a point in your life where enoughs enoughs move on, things happen!!! I had not spoken to my mum in many years and i found out i was pregnant and one of the first things that went through my head was, oh my god what happened if mum died tomorrow and never got to see her grandson!! I would have had so much regret and anger about it.....I stewed over this for ages but i really wanted to let her know that i was pregnant and that she was going to be a grannie again!! I suppose the point i am getting at here is that life is so short!! we all do things for a reason, and so many people REGRET so many things... but you should never regret anything you do you should learn from everything you do!! we all make bad choices in life but we make our choices for a reason..

anyways i have been feeling a little better about the whole "back burner" situation and i have come to a point now where i am like so be it move on, get on with life! no point dwelling about it there is nothing you can do you just be there for who ever needs you... and then i was like hang on am minute what about me!! i seem to always bloody put everyone else first!! what about bloody me!!! Soooo one of the exercises i had to do for butterfly program was write down how much time i have to myself and the things i do for me.. Well that was a very interesting exercise for the whole week i did about 5 things for me which took me about 3 hours!! out of a whole week.. kinda shows nessy needs some more pampering..

Well this is a really long post so i might get to the picture part then.. there is some pictures from our xmas in july party and my darling lil man and family

enjoy

love your boobies brooke :) i had such an awesome time!! and i was really silly just ask the girls i love being about to be silly and really let my hair down.. and that is what i did!!

This was our bloggers party!! was sooo yummmm.... ,my favourite photo is coming right up!!

This is ails at koko black.. she helped me break my cherry.. we got all of that for $20 it was awesome who needs men for orgasms when your got koko black!!!

This is my darling brother and seb giving him a kiss.. He loves Uncle Krys!!! they could play and play for hours these too..

This is I and terror!!!!! i like this photo because our eyes are both so wide open..... we look crazy!!

and last but not least our new lounge suite.. its bliss its leather its awesome.. it smells awesome, and we put our old lounge suite out the front, for the summer to come!! i can't wait!!

Pushed to the back burner

Its not a nice feeling but im feeling very distant from some people very close to me as of late! family and friends....

I have tried to say that it is ok we go through these patterns and that everything will work out, and that there is a reason for this but it just not gelling with me!

Yes i have become a non smoker, and a non drinker and i have not been out in ages which means i have not really socialised with my friends alot, so that would explain why i have not really had anything to do with them at the moment, but when it comes to family i don't know!! I just feel like i have been pushed to the back burner!! my job is done and im not needed anymore! I don't like that feeling, that feeling of not being wanted.. Its really eating at me, and i don't really want to push the issue either....

anyways on a good note i had my monthly measurements at the gym this week! and i want to share with you all my results. In a month i have lost 2% body fat, 2kgs and 8cm!! i was bloody rapted with that i tell you! so I just have to keep up the good work and i will get my achievements!!

So im in the middle of cooking tea and just wanted a vent!!

Nite all hope your weekends were peaceful!!

How sad is this!!

Soo i have had a really shit day today but anyways you know how we all eat something unhealthy when we are down.. well the only thing i could find in my house was a bloody banana or an apple so i had a banana.. that is just soooo sad..

well going out to tea tonite with becks and ails as it is ails birthday on friday but she won't be around!! just looked at the time.. suppose i should get ready!