Remember Me!

Wow april was my last post.. how sad... really..... wot the hell has happened... *bitch slaps self*

Well im writing this post at 2am on wednesday morning. Insomnia is a great thing to have.. :)) Few nites of good sleep and then 100 bad ones :)) how life is bliss :)) and we all know that i need my beauty sleep.

So im still alive, i am no longer working at the chiropractors, and i have started at the office of a liquer company here in Bgo two nites a week.. Yeah great place to work wen u look over a whole warehouse full of grog :)) Thinking Mmmmm i could so drink all of this, minus the red wine and the jeam beam and anything else that tastes like crap :) sowwi all u drinkers of that out there :)

So school is school flat out like a lizard drinking with assignments after assignments... that keeps 50% of my time occupied.. My clothes parties are plodding along, my social life has deminished... My child is growing and is now toilet trained... which is great..... except he wants to do everything on his own :) Mr Independent .... just like is Mummy :)

eating and exercise has gone to shit... oh u wouldn't have guessed....... :) But i have still managed to lose some weight... i just need to go on a big shopping spree now :)...... with all my millions that i have LMAO...

Mmmmm what else........ My brother is moving out at the end of june so that will be sad to see him go....... i will miss his cooking and his lil antics...... and the rent money of course LOL.. but will be nice at the same time to have some me and seb time..... but that lil boy will miss his uncle that is for sure...

Off to melbs this weekend.. which will be nice... got a hot date with Bri Bri and ails on friday nite and then the food and wine festival on the saturday.. woot woot that will be fun.. im gunna do lots of wine tasting :))


Well i suppose i should really try and get some sleep if my brain will let me-.

Take care everyone

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Relay for life

Hey everyone..

Im off to do relay for life tonite.. i am really exccited... im going to see if i can 100 laps :) i think that should be pretty easy!!!

still working still at school have been sick which has been shitfull got this chest thing happening..

all is good in the world of ness at the moment....

take care all

Dear Blog

Dear Blog

I am very sorry for abandoning you of late. My life has been very hectic of late and i seem to have no time for writing at the present.

I am hoping to be finished work in a few weeks which will create more time for me and i shall get back on track to the things that are important to me. Especially my health! :) The lack of gym time the lack of eating properly and hopefully even might get a sleep routine back. Insomnia has kicked in for the past 6 weeks or so and the lack of sleep is taking its toll on my old body!

Alot of emotional baggage is hanging on my shoulders at the moment, and i also need to sit down and take the time to work out where i am in life. I thought i had come to the straight road but for some reason a cross road has been plonked in the middle and now i have to decide on my direction...

My darling boy turned 3 last week, my assignment for school has been handed in thank god, and my social life has come to a stand still of late.

I have started my wikidz parties and i have loved the ones i have done. It wasn't as daunting as what i thought it would be.

This weekend brings me a trip to the werribee zoo which i am looking forward to (weather permitted).

Next weekend brings me relay for life and a sleep over which i am looking forward to.. Lots of walking lots of talking and lots of fun for a good cause. We had a very successful trivia nite last saturday, and my god did i get drunk :) hehehehe...

I also vow to update on everyones blogs and catch up on everyones lives of late. Wow i will put aside a few hours to catch up because no doubt there will be lots of news.

I have found some really good quotes that i wanted to share with you blog so i will leave you on that note.

I hope you enjoy them and take something from them.


Beauty lies in the specific looks of a person, rather than the object, because different people feel beauty in differnt things.

Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart.

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walk out.

Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.

To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.

Most people live and die with their music still unplayed. They never dare to try.

Every individual has a place to fill in the world, and is important, in some respect, whether he chooses to be so or not.

Go as far as you can see, and when you get there you will see farther.

Everyday is a gift, thats why they call it the present

Find something you love to do and you’ll never have to work a day in your life.


There are three words I like to repeat to myself: glass half full. Just to remind myself to be grateful for everything I have.

Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes…just be an illusion.

The definition of a beautiful woman is one who loves me.

Love is like the sun coming out of the clouds and warming your soul.

Quick Update

Hey everybody

so for the absentees of late but my life has been consumed with school and work and child and being sick, and i really have not really felt like updating.

I have to say that things have been going well with my weight loss and the challenge. Like Ms Ails there has been a few hicuups on the on way.. but all in all its great!! My brother who does most of the cooking for us both has even been buying wholemeal pasta and eating it. He is such a gem.

I am on holidays from school now for two weeks but i tell you i have got some much i need to do.. I have an assignment due when i get back and also need to catch up on the work that i have missed out on while i was sick. But i will get their.. next week when i don't have any interuptions of a child going mum mum mum..

I have my first wikidz party with beks on Friday nite which i am looking forward to it will be great.

I just have to do some last minute shopping and all will be fine.

The lack of tennis lately has been a sucker.... i am missing it, but its hard when im working of nite time and now that daylight savings has nearly come to an end it gets dark quicker. We just have to go and play more in doors hey ails??

Not much really else to report on. I have dropped a couple of kilos over the last couple of weeks.. Mainly probably not being able to eat properly while sick but all in all i am feeling good.

I am looking foward to finishing up work which hopefully will be soon.. just need to get someone to fill in my spot. i don't mind at the moment because the money is handy.

Wel nite all and see u real soon.

Linda i will be in contact i will be in Melbs sometime in the next couple of weeks with my lil darling if your not busy mite be nice to catch up for a coffee and joshy and sebbie can have a play.

Hope everyone is well and i promise to catch up on everyones blogs real soon

My bed is calling me.. My insomnia must stop soon

Weigh in This Week

Im not doing weigh in this week due to ails scales being broken but also the fact that i am unwell and have not been to toilet in the past 3 days...... yes yes its an excuse but i would prefer to be accurate with my weigh in results than not!

Sooo i had today off work as i am not 100% well. didn't really do much caught up on some school work, sat on the couch and felt sorry for myself as you do when your sick

Thanks to everyone who voted on our ails and Ness challenge. Im really not looking forward to it but anyways!! it will be interesting to see how we both go!!

The next challenge im picking!!! You got that ails!! :) hehehehehehhe, i better getting thinking.. if anyone has any ideas let me know.....

GroinNess

Mmm ok how do i write this blog without giving to much information away?? LOL

Played netball last nite which was the game that we had to win to make into the grandfinal and play the maldon moles! But we lost by one bloody goal... anyways in the process of going for a ball i did some serious damage to the right hand side of my groin!! My god!! I thought giving birth was painful but right now this is seriously painful..

But bloody stupid Blonde me, dedicated friend and dedicated addicted tennis player that i am played tennis tonite with ails!! Yeah stupid me!!! so right now i am struggling with walking, changing the gears in my car, and well probably won't be able to spread those legs!! Opppss was that too much information ??? LOL!!! I don't do that these days anyways!!

It doesn't help when im not 100% healthy at the moment. Seb has not been well for the last couple of days, and i have not been enjoying wiping the green snot from his nose.. and as you are all aware i don't like sniffers and he is good at doing that!! trying to teach him to blow but he decides to sniff instead!! my stomach can not handle it!! sooo i have a sore throat and the start of the cough! But anyways i will get through it... Ohh and i nearly forgot the 3 day headache!! As ails would say why don't you take a panadol! im not much of a big medicine person.. probably because of where i work but also because i was such a sick child and lived on medicine i feel that my body would come immune to things and someday i may really need it and my body won't accept it!!

anyways im off to have a shower now and to bed, i really need a good nite sleep!!!

Exercise Ness

So im going to do a bit of boasting and say how bloody good i have been this week. Sinc Sunday ails and I have played four games of tennis (obssessiveness ) and i have been to the gym twice.
I got my first compliment today from a chick in the gym who has not seen me for a couple of weeks and she said "Vanessa have you lost weight?" and i proudly said back Yes but still got a long way to go!!!

Im pretty bloody proud of myself i tell you!

Im starting to notice it i suppos especially with my work clothes, my boobs don't feel like they are going to pop out my top anymore and also i feel like its not clinging to my donut! awwww watch out boys when im at goal :) LOL shouldn't matter about looks anyways

I hope that everyone has an awesome weekend this weekend and enjoys the extra day off and that you use it wisely!! Me im doing some cleaning up around the house, sitting in a hot tub, and visiting a friend and no doubt will be painting at her house!!

Everyone take care if your travelling on the roads

So Close Ness

Wow! i have been blown away i lost 1.2 kgs this week! yes yes you have read correctly, which means i am now 200 grams off losing my first 5 kgs!! Wow that is huge for me! Do you know how proud i am?? I have to start looking at the positives of what i have achieved....

Im not sure what i have done differently this week! And the fact that i ate two small blocks of chocolate. maybe i will pay the price next week!!

I have decided that this weekend is going to be a weekend of stay home and de clutter some more!!!! not that the house will stay clean for very long with sebastyn..... My god he is soo messy today he decided to take all the boards off his bed!! yeah i know!!!

Im going to try and get some structure in my house hold and get on top of things! im sick of chasing my tail at the moment.

My emotions have been a little bit better this week, but for some reason some things are getting to me. My chiropractor does NET which is neuro emotional technique, so we find out what is bothering me and release it from my system! which was good because after she done it i was sweating..... as she said to me its the way your body is realsing the emotion.

I slept a little bit better last nite, but still didn't go to sleep until late!! I think i need to stop with turning the TV on and just get into bed and hit my head on the pillow..

Well everybody have a good rest of the week and will keep you updated with my de clutter weekend

ObsessiveNess

OCD! Thats me, i now know where seb gets it from! I have hit my first big hurdle!!!! Mmmm its called self confidence! I have an obsession with my Donut belly! thats its new name "donut". would Anyone like to donate me some money so i can got and get donut liposucked :) Please im begging you! I know things take time and that i need patients.. PATIENTS!! WHAT THE??? that word is not in my dictionary! But i have now got to a point where im hating myself because of my donut!! Yes it has shrunk but not to my liking!

There is alot of weight on my shoulders at the moment and maybe because of that im having some self hatred and not looking at the positives. Maybe i need to sit down and think what have i achieved in the last 2 months since i started this weight loss where am i noticing the changes? But right now my head space and my donut keep bringing forth the negatives!

Its hard to have that control 24/7. I keep saying to myself i really should do this i really should do that but do i get off my arse and do it?? NO BLOODY WAY!! WHY?? because im obviously not 100% committed...

After another bash of tennis tonite, i was telling ails that i just want to stay in my room for a weekend watch TV, play FRAC on my computer and have no contact with the outside world! Thats how i am feeling at the moment. Im feeling smoothered! Has anyone felt like doing that before? How good would it be just to sit in your PJ's all day and not having to worry about anything and not do anything??

My motivation has gone out the window a bit, my lack of sleep is not helping that is for sure! Please give me some tips on how to shut down ones brain before going to bed? sleeping pills would be fantastic!! Maybe i could take a few and sleep a few days straight! Awwwww that would be so nice!! I went to the VIC markets a few weeks back now and brought some pure lavender for seb maybe i need to try it on me!!!

Im not feeling confident with my weigh in this week! I wouldn't be surprised if i put some more weight on this week with it being the end of TTOM, and eating two little blocks of chocolate, ohh don't you love emotional eating???? Ones self control has not been that controlled when it comes to food of late i can tell you that. And yes there is only one person to blame for that and that is me, and yes i take full responsibility for all the shite i have been eating. What good is it going to do to me? NONE i know that, but sometimes you need a bad day, you need to realise that you are only human and everyone slips up every now and then!! i recall reading somewhere that its a 70/30 rule. 70% healthy food and 30% bad food!!! I would say that i have been averaging that, otherwise i wouldnt be getting the results but over the weekend i would say i was more 70% bad food 30% good food. Time will tell what impact this has on my weight loss/gain this week, but really ill get over it!

It was nice to get into a bottle of booze over the weekend. Im glad the drought has ended... Not that i was really craving alcohol, some days after work i was i can tell you that! But knowing that i gave my liver a break makes me feel good!! Im not saying im going to be going out every weekend and getting myself smashed, i think those days have gone for me! I think im over that stage in life but every now and then would be ok, because it would be a cheap nite.... a few sips on the weekend did prove to me just how much your body changes and adapts to not having something!!

Im going to leave you with this quote that i found and has gelled with me today!

There are two things to aim at in life; first to get what you want, and after that to enjoy it. Only the wisest of mankind has achieved the second.

Logan Pearsall Smith

News Ness!

As my heart was pounding and my palms were sweating i knew it was the right decision. I walked into work yesterday at 1.30pm and sat down with the bosses and told them i was resigning! Handed over my letter that ails helped me wrote and told them that my priorities right now are with my schooling and my child!

Wow i did it! And i feel relieved but also sad because im leaving behind the clients that i love seeing every day and the babies that i have watched grow from concievement! Its going to be really hard but at the end of the day i know that i have made the right choice because now i can concentrate on sebastyn and my accounting course and my Party plan and get it all happening.

I am loving school and its really stimulating my mind, and making me think. I have now passed two parts of MYOB so i can do purchases and sales.!! fun stuff!!

Im looking forward to getting home at a decent time and having tea with sebastyn! Its going to be great!

Have an awesome weekend guys and be safe. tell the ones close to you that you love them!

Thank Ness

There is a few personal issue happening in my life right now, a lot of changes will be happening and for the good may i add but one thing i have not done in a long time is thank all my friends and family for all there support and putting up with all my bull shit!

The last 6 months have been a real eye opener for me and certain things have been brought to my attention!! I am very grateful for the life i live and the people that are in my life right now. I have great support from many of you that read this blog and that put up with my text messages and phone calls! and my forearm shot on the tennis court!! Hehehehe!

All my friends are from different cirlces of life and have all taught me different values and how to stay true to myself! and for that i thank you. I wouldn't be the person that I am today if wasn't for all of you!

Sebastyn brings something out of me that i didn't even knew existed! The first time i heard him cry which felt like a bloody long time i knew then that my whole world would change. And it has, its brought me joy, sadness, frustration but most of all unconditional love no matter how much of a rat bag he has been! He has taught me lessons that no one else could teach me! He has taught me how to be strong, and be weak, but most of all appreciation, inspiration and determination to do what i want in life because i want him to grow up knowing that his mother worked her damn arse off to get where she is today and to provide for him and to show him the values in life.

My family is very supportive to me and probably put up with me the most. Living with my younger brother he probably gets the full brunt of me!! I don't think he really understands fully the appreciation that i have for him and how i look up to him in so many ways! He supports me with everything that i do, and he is such a doll with sebastyn! That kid just adores and treasure him like nothing else!! They are very cute when they are together. and seb is very lucky to have an uncle like chris.. He is such a patient person! NOT LIKE ME!!!!!
He is moving out in July which is fantastic for him as he heads in a new direction in his life, but he will be sadly missed in this house hold and im sure for many weeks on end i will get "where is uncle Cwissy"

So to everyone else thanks heaps and ill keep you all updated on my big news!!!

Ill end on my favourite quote in this universe

"DARE TO DREAM THE IMPOSSIBLE"

Tired Ness

My body clock is all F&*^ed up at dot com at the moment!! Why?? Maybe because i have to much on my plate? Being back at school and working and having sebastyn isnt as easy as 123.. I thought it would be!! Well its proven me wrong!

I am physically and emotionally tired and it really hit me on sunday playing tennis with the girls!! i was exhausted that is why there is photos of me on the side lines!! It wasn't because i was getting my arse kicked LOL!!! by the way it was tops!!

So as i sit here writing this post at quarter to eleven on tuesday nite, im not tired and wondering why i am not fast asleep after school both mornings working yesterday after noon and playing netball tonite!! and entertaining seb this afternoon.. which isn't hard.... wiggles dvd was on and it was mum on the dance floor in the loungeroom acting like a monkey.. Yes it probably would of been a funny site... and ails i have not even had a sip of coke zero today!

It really hit me today i woke up in a head spin and all day i felt really light headed and like i was going to faint! it was not good!! had my massage this afternoon aidan asking have i drank enough water today "YES dad" had my adjustment my neck was out a little!! maybe that is why, but im putting it down to brain overload or should i say fried!!!

I have excercised pretty hard the past 4 days.... 3 games of tennis, two nites of walking, and a game of netball!! but i don't see that having anything to do with it really.. My feet are hurting from it!! i have Blisters! Yeah sore, i now know what tennis pros feel like when i see them gettting all taped up from blisters!!

This week weigh in is measurements and photos! im looking forward to comparing my results! I am feeling happy with how things are going with my body but getting inpatient that my tyre hasn't gone yet! I know it will happen but i have an obsession with it! Don't i Ails?????

Im doing relay for life this year im looking forward to it, im sleeping over this year! i can't wait.. also I think ails and I are doing run for the kids (but walking) i have to confirm that with her but im looking forward to that too if we do it!!! don't know how i will go with the distance but at the end of the day if i cross that finish line ill be proud!

Well i think that is enough rambling for now! ill be back shortly with a weigh in result!! which i don't think will be anything to get excited about this week as im feeling really bloated!!! Don't know why

Before i go i want to leave you with this. My sister sent it through to me and i really liked it


WORRY

Is there a magic cutoff period when offspring become accountable for their own actions?

Is there a wonderful moment when parents can become detached spectators in the lives of their children and shrug, "It's their life," and feel nothing?

When I was in my twenties, I stood in a hospital corridor waiting for doctors to put a few stitches in my daughter's head. I asked, "When do You stop worrying?" The nurse said,” When they get out of the accident stage." My Dad just smiled faintly and said nothing.


When I was in my thirties, I sat on a little chair in a classroom and heard how one of my children talked incessantly, disrupted the class, and was headed for a career making license plates. As if to read my mind, a teacher said, "Don't worry, they all go through this stage and then you can sit back, relax and enjoy them." My dad just smiled faintly and said nothing.


When I was in my forties, I spent a lifetime waiting for the phone to ring, the cars to come home, the front door to open. A friend said, "They're trying to find themselves. Don't worry, in a few years, you can stop worrying. They'll be adults." My dad just smiled faintly And said nothing.


By the time I was 50, I was sick & tired of being vulnerable. I was still worrying over my children, but there was a new wrinkle.... There was nothing I could do about it. I continued to anguish over their failures, be tormented by their frustrations and absorbed in their disappointments. My Dad just smiled faintly and said nothing.


My friends said that when my kids got married I could stop worrying and lead my own life. I wanted to believe that, but I was haunted by my dad's warm smile and his occasional, "You look pale. Are you all right? Call me the minute you get home. Are You depressed about something?"

Can it be that parents are sentenced to a lifetime of worry? Is concern for one another handed down like a torch to blaze the trail of human frailties and the fears of the unknown? Is concern a curse or is it a virtue that elevates us to the highest form of life?

One of my children became quite irritable recently, saying to me, "Where were you? I've been calling for 3 days, and no one answered I was worried."
I smiled a warm smile. The torch has been passed.


PASS IT ON TO OTHER WONDERFUL PARENTS(And also to your children. That's the fun part)

Wikidz

Hey Guys.

Have you may have read on becks blog am i starting Wikidz party plan.

I got an email from them today with the new winter range.

Check it OUT HERE

If you are interested in having a party drop me a line... Also if you are out bush and can't have a party drop me a line with your address details or email details and i will send you a catalogue and you can order through me! I won't be able to start that until im up and going!

Less Ness

Im surprised with my loss this week. Due to a lack of excercise and lots of cakes this week. One very delightful date with Miss Beck which ended with on delicious sticky date pudding with ice cream and Strawberries.. MMMm yummo!!!

School is going awesome and i love it so very much!! i said this year was going to be about me and its happening...

This weekend is going to be a full on weekend of tennis. Friday nite, saturday morning and sunday with the girlz!! i can't wait!!

Weight In

Sooo another loss this week.. 600 grams which im pretty pleased with considering i didn't stuff all excercise...

soo down to 79.1kgs :) Yippie!! i set myself a target this week to see i can lose 1kg. If i don't do it i won't be disappointed.... Its just to see if i can or not!!

I am enjoying tennis heaps its awesome heaps of fun, school is heaps of fun im loving it and enjoying accounting..

Well i better get myself some tea and go get the lil man

A New Journey and I need Your Help

Hey Guys

I have decided to start Party Plan.. I am going to be doing children clothing sizes Newborn to 8... And i Need your help :) If you are in the Bendigo and surrounding areas and are interested in hosting a party for me can you let me know :) To start with i need a certain amount of bookings within 6 weeks to get me started, soo please please if you are interested let me know.

This is the website so go check out the products www.wikidz.com.au
Cute clothes

Hear from ya soon

Back To School

My head hurts after the weekend events! And the lack of sleep doesn't help really. I had my first day at school today and already i have homework! It was heaps fun its a class mostly of woman and the 3 men that are in the class are old!! They seem like a good bunch of people though! I was nervous about starting but i got over that!! i turned up with 5 minutes to go, and also got a parking fine since there is no where to park around there! But anyways!

have a good week guys

Who Needs Alcohol!!!!

What an eventful weekend I have had, full on fun, excersise, lack of sleep, the law enforcement and even a bitch fight with the woman from Hell!!

It was a weekend with Ails and I where do I start?????

Dot point Blog coming your way....

Friday

• Worked all day and finished about 6.45pm messaged ails to see if she was up for a game of tennis... Tennis it was!!! An hour of working those bicept muscles and also i have just noticed i now have a wankers muscle starting to happen :) LOL and not from wanking...
• Decided about 11.30pm even though i was terribly tired to see what was happening in the world of Benders since we have not been out in ages... Went for a drive and guess where we ended up.... 50kms out of Benders and to a closed road.... which means we had to venture to eppalock to get home.
• Lots of Frac that was being a complete mole!! Grrr that game is addictive but frustrating. for those who do not know what frac is it is 3D tetris....
• Had a sleep over at ails as there was no way i could drive home, only to find myself waking up with a beautiful cat at my feet and my black pants covered in cat hair... i was coughing up fur balls i tell you.
• Ails and Me being idiots outside... if you have ever looked at yourself in a car door you will notice that you are really short and fat... Its very funny!!!!

Saturday

• Got my hair cut
• Started to de clutter some old shit im sick of feeling like my draws are full of crap
• Played another game of tennis and ails was whipping my arse with her serve.... but i got some good shots back :)
• Ails cooked us a beautiful chicken honey mustard and rice dish for tea... awww it was bliss..
• Put up with teenage girls playing shitful music next door.. so we thought to drown them out that we would put our music up loud. only to have The police knock on our door at 10.30pm to say that they had had complaints about the noise coming from the houses...... All was good.....
• Another knock on the door from the barbie girls next door to ask if we could hear their music, please note that music was not on 10 minutes later it started again....
• Moonlightening eposides where watched and then after the party died down next door and the spewing noises stopped i started to venture home.
• As i was coming out the driveway of ails place the police where doing a drive by. so i stopped rang ails to let her know and knew that they would be waiting for me around the corner since there was party..
• so im driving and about two minutes into my journey their lights were on and pulled me over. police "hello where are you heading" me "home" police "did you just come from the party that was around the corner" me "no i was the next door neightbour" police "have you been drinking tonite" me "no" police " promise" me "yes you can breathe test me if you like" police "no we just saw you drive out of the driveway and wondered where you were going that is all since there was party there tonite" "me "thanks have a good nite"

Today

• after 4 hours of sleep kids birthday party at the fun factory was on order this morning.... picked up seb and went and listened to screaming kids for a couple of hours.
• then went for a drive to see my beautiful darling friend rinda in maldon and sat at her house for 3 hours listening to the birds and looking at old photos and having a good old bloody catch up..
• then my favourite point of the this whole weekend.... i won't mention what happened because certain people read this blog, but i had a big fight with adam's mother tonite.. It was fantastic, and to put it bluntly i am never ever going to speak to her again..... and she wonders why none of her children's parents/wives want to have anything to do with her, maybe if she kept her fucking big mouth closed ... anyways thats all i am going to say about that.

So my point is that i had an evenful weekend a fun weekend being crazy and not one drop of alcohol was consumed.

Sooo if anyways is up for a game of tennis go and check out ails blog ...

EDIT

My weekend has not finished.... seb and i have just been watching the end of Greys anatomy and while i was on the phone to ails, he just came up and pashed me full on eyes closed and all.. My god he is 3 years old!! LOL it was very cute and very funny!!

No Reprimand

Sooo after such a shit week last week i am back on track this week. Weigh in with a 400gram loss. If i had put on anything from half a kilo i was going to get reprimanded by ails, but i think i have done that with myself with all the shit that i ate last week. Im back on track again. and thanks to everyone who commented. I would have never done it!! no way!! i know its wrong it was just something that was going through my head! crazy shit i know.

Sorry i have not read or commented on anyones blogs of late, i have been working full time so its been a bit hard to do anything lately.

well take care all and see ya all soon, or should i say read ya all soon

hahahah

Don't know what to call this title

I really don't know what to call this title and i really don't feel comfortable writing this post but ails told me to post this so im posting it because i know that deep down it will make me feel better.

Im going to start with that i have maintained my weight this week, i weighed in 100 grams heavier woopeee doooo darrrr.... i also didn't my measurement this week and in 4 weeks i have lost a total of 27.6 cm all over my body which i am pretty impressed with!!

i have had a terrible today.. with my eating.... and the consequence of that no doubt one huge weight gain next week unless and i burn lots of calories... But from this my brain has gone into sick mode!! Crazy loopy mode! I have felt like making myself sick all day today! I message ails today after work saying i feel like making myself sick!! My brain is thinking crazy thoughts? Why am i thinking like this? i know its not going to make anything better by doing it! but i seriously feel like sticking my fingers down the throat and vomiting.. i had to promise ails i wouldnt do it!

my emotions are running wild at the moment so im going to put it down to that!!

anyways i don't really feel like talking about it at the moment. my energy levels are depleting very fast tonite... suppose it is nearly 10pm and i have had a nite of none sleep thanks to a child i really want to sell.. hehehe!

Have a good weekend everyone. Im going to melbs to look after my dads dog mya.. she is soo cute and take sebastyn to see the sand sculputures so that will be good..

hope everyone has a good weekend

Another Loss This week

My heart is still in a state of shock over Heath Ledger!! My god i can't stop thinking about his family and daughter!

anyways just letting you know that another .5kg loss this week.. Yippie :) Im proud of how i am doing..

anyways just getting ready to go to work... see ya all soon

Total Shock

I am in total shock right now that Heath Ledger is dead.. My god i love that man!! anyways just had to let you know!!!! a life gone and waisted and his daugther left behind!!

anyways update soon about another loss!!!

Tennis is my worst enemy

I am a tennis fan and a big andy roddick fan..... Sooo for me last nite staying up until 2.30am not only has made me tired today but has also seen andy being knocked out the aussie open!! I would so love to meet him!! He is just such a wonderful sports person!!!

Last nite i dreamt that i was married but in reality was thinking of all the things i want to do before i pass away! Yeah i know one extreme to another!!! But i thought i would love to go to all the major tennis tournaments!! It would be awesome!!!

Sooo as i sit here getting ready to watch the big game with hewitt i know i am going to be in for another big nite of cheering with myself!

Another Classic From Sebastyn

I have had seb all this week, and it has been awesome, spending lots of time with him reading and playing. While we were away i started to right down words and got him to read them. He was very good and he remember i don't know if thats because he remember or if he could actually read them..

Anyways this morning he was playing with his wiggles things there is a stop sign and a give way sign and they are colours green and red.... Anyways he thinks they are teenage mutan ninja turtles... but anyways he calls one of them ninjanardo instead of leonardo... It has my belly hurting with laughter when he says it!!

anyways off to a lunch thing with work!! yippie

Hungry After exercise?

Some of you may be like me and get hungry after you exercise..... Well if your like me i feel like eating a truck load of food.. anyways i have just been for a two hour walk and got home and again feeling hungry so i thought i would do some research. i found a website called ask the Dietitian and got this little bit of information from it which could explain why i am feeling hungry after i excercise and also you... Hope this helps

Moderate exercise by itself does not increase your appetite unless you have exercised too hard or are on a quick weight loss diet and your glycogen stores are depleted. Glycogen is the stored form of glucose in your muscles and liver. You only have about 1500 to 1800 calories of stored glycogen. When glycogen is depleted, your body has to turn to protein in muscles and organs to supply glucose. Depending on the time of your last meal before exercising, your blood sugar may be low. In which case, your body is telling you to eat.Moderate exercise helps in suppressing appetite and increasing your metabolic rate for up to 15 hours after exercise. A gland in your brain called the hypothalamus is responsible for secreting a hormone, which inhibits hunger. Exercise helps stimulate this gland to produce more of this hormone. Moderate exercise that would produce this beneficial effect would be 60 minutes of exercise, three to five times per week. Possibly, by the time you complete your exercising the suppression of your appetite has started. I thought this was very interesting.

Also on another note...


I have very tight muscles and it doesn't matter how much stretching i do if you i do more weights as weights helps loosen muscles my muscles are still tight!! Well while i was away in QLD i went and had a massage as my calf muscles were killing me because i had done so much walking and running.. anyways the lady said to me usually when your muscles are tight you are lacking magnesium!! sooo i went and brought some tables and have taken them after my excercise and have found that it is relaxing my muscles. I also did some research into why you can lack magnesium and was very interesting..... One of the things i found was that if you drink alcohol you are at high risk for magnesium deficiency because alcohol increases urinary excretion of magnesium.. I was drinking nearly every day so it might explain a few things.. Anyways i should be getting the magnesium in the food im eating, but just incase im not im taking a supplement anyways!! Soo there you go i hope that i have educated you a little bit!

I love that donkey

The words that come out of your children's mouth is incredible! Sebastyn is talking heaps now.... i put him into bed tonite and i brought him a shrek and donkey doona cover... anyways he turned his pillow over so that donkey could be sleeping next to him, and he said "mummy i love that donkey.... he keeps me warm" it was very adorable!!

And the winning weight loss is???

After two weeks i have lost 1.5 kgs!! Yes yes you have read right!! ails came around with the scales and i am now 80.5 kgs!! How awesome is that! Now it begins!! seeing that number go down down down!! Im happy!!!

Im feeling great after a game of netball last nite waking up with sore abs and then having a pt tonite.. im feeling on top of the world! im pushing myself to my limits.. Its great

Nite
xxx

My Year

I know i have to update you all about my holiday but it an't be done until i have the pictures!!! Ails is my photo guru at the moment while i don't have the cord so when i catch up with her i will be updating you.

I have come back refreshed, energised, feeling great and tanned also :)

This year is about me and getting me healthy and doing things i want to do! :) So as ails and I go down the road of looking more beautiful than we already are it was time to make some changes in my work life. So today i signed up to do my Diploma in Accounting :) I start on Feb 11th and i can't wait. i will be doing it part time so i can balance work and also still have my time with sebastyn..

I had my tarot cards read and she told me it was about time that i start doing things for me so that is what i am doing.

Ails and I are on a high and we both looking forward to this challenge and i love having someone push me and support me through this!!!! Im not blaming ails for me weight gain because i only have one person to blame and that is me, but we did bring out the worst in each other, and we really are bad influences on each other, and on the other hand we are both good influences on each other!!!

Im proud that i am doing this for me and getting myself right!!! its time to stop the excuses and stop the blame game and just get my arse into gear!!

I can't wait to see the finshed me :) Its only going to get better and i can't wait.

Sooo tonite im playint netball!! yippie!!! just filling in!! its tooo hot!

Soo to everyone out there life is to short and follow your dreams and do what you truely want to do because some day you might regret it!!

xxx

Quick Update

Hello everyone.. I made it back safely from qld to land in Melbourne and have realised that it was cold. My body has climatised to QLD weather humid weather!! so was not use to the cold nite last nite!

I have so much to say and so many photos that i want to show you all about our trip which i must admit i didn't want to come back from because the beach was right there the weather was nice, and it was good to get up every morning and go for a walk and not have to worry what time i have to go to work.

I have another week off work so this week is going to be cleaning out clothes week, setting my goals, and spending time with sebastyn and maybe even going to the tennis :)

I am looking forward to getting weighed on tuesday as i have not done so in 2 weeks so that wil be interesting to see how i have done over the last two weeks.

I will be back real soon to tell you all about my holiday!!! until then i assure everyone who i read that i will be updating on all your news :)

xx

Hello from QLD

Hello everyone

this is just going to be really quick. Just wanted to let you all know that the weather is beautiful and that we are having a great time.

We are hiring a car today and going to go do a day trip to the rain forests today which i am looking forward to! we have been to dream world and have done heaps of shopping.

My birthday was a good day!! :) thanks to everyone who messaged me and rang me... it didn't really feel like my birthday cause i had no cards or presents to open... But my cherubs got me diamond earrings :) Yeah i know spoilt hey??? maybe they making up for being sooks... Seb is getting tired really quickly and not sleeping and well adam, be done his ankle on monday nite :) so its been fun fun.


Well im just about to go for my morning walk its only 7am here..... its hot already and I love it!!


Missing you all
xx

Good Bye Victoria Hello Gold Coast

Just a really quick note, i am into day 3 of the new me and im feeling ok i suppose really tired and looking forward to my holiday. We fly out tomorrow morning as in saturday so i won't be blogging for a bit!!! so just think of me enjoying the sunny gold coast enjoying myself and getting a tan.. hehehe and swimming in the beach, having a massage, and enjoying my morning and evening walks!!


Take care everyone