My First PT

Well i had my first PT this morning :) Ohhhh i am so damn sore i tell you but its all worth it. Sheree pushes me which is what i need and I know that i can do it! So i went for a walk after picking my little darling boy up from creche today! Thinking that it would make me feel better! It surely made my legs hurt more!! Looking forward to tomorrow morning :)

I am feeling a little better within myself at the moment!! Im having a happy week :)

Seb started creche on monday and he loves it!! I dropped him off and he didn't care, i went to pick him and he didn't want to come home :(
This photo was taken just before we left for creche.. He is just so beautiful!! I love his smile!!!!

Right at the moment seb is cracking me up!! He is lying on the floor doing the humping action. *If only you could see*

A Day on the Green - part 2

So Saturday finally came and it was hot. We went to the pool for a dip to cool us down, then came back about 1pm and started to drink for our big afternoon at day on the green!

We got the bus out to all saints estate a winery just out of rutherglen. Its so funny you turn up to the middle of no where for a concert! Gates didn't open till 4pm so we had to wait inline for about 1/2 an hour! Thats us waiting inline in the picture on your left. Megs, My sis Lee and I. Glad we rocked up when we did thought because the cue got longer.

Attendance was 6000 people! It was amazing.. We saw a few people before Missy Higgins came on but the only one i can remember was Lior! It was such an awesome day. I got into the Angelina this sweet wine! It was really nice!! But ended up having a cap nap for about 1/2 hour, to much wine and sun :)

It was so good to sit back relax, listen to cruisey music and enjoy it! The atmosphere was great, except please tell me why you would pay $70 to go and read a book? Yeah i didn't understand that either! Ill be there next year with bells on and well prepared! With the eski full of snacks!

A Day On The Green - Part One

What an awesome weekend! My weekend of day on the green started on the Thursday nite. I went over to Kyabram and stayed with my sister! My little nephew Taj was just so beautiful! He calls me "messy" heheheh this is a picture of him eating tea with one of his cheeky grins..... "Cheese" he says as he looks at the camera. He is just so beautiful and cheeky!! He is nearly 2 years old!

We hit the road to rutherglen which was about 2 hours away from Ky, at about 11.30 Friday morning! Girls weekend. My sister, Megs (a friend) and I. The Car packed to the brim! You would of thought that we were going away for a week. Well we had 3 swags, 2 eski's full of alcohol :) they took up most of the room!

I slept some of the way since i was woken at 6.30 that morning from Taj coming into my room saying "messy" "messy"!! Not use to being up that early!!

We finally arrived and went to an awesome bakery for lunch! Then went and had a quick drive around the town! Oh my god Rutherglen has 4 pubs *well cant really remember if it was 3 or 4* but we were like awesome!!! We went and found the caravan park where we were staying! They put us between two permanent residence which was really nice of them! And thank god because we had a thunder storm at one stage and it pelted down rain and Bob lent us his car port so we could stay dry!!

It was stinky hot!!! Here is a couple of pictures of our camp!
It was a a great little set up!

So we had a few cans and decided to head down the pub for a meal and to watch a live band called "The Fads" Young and awesome!!! Our night ended at about 1am. Lee was pretty gone!! Way past her bed time :) I must say that i didn't enjoy sleeping in a swag! I was terrified that a snake would crawl over me!! and the fact that it was so bloody hot but i wasn't sleeping without my flyernet on!!!

Week 3 - Weigh In

Im a little disappointed this week as I had no lose and a little gain in my body fat. I feel like i worked my arse off this week! But i suppose it doesn't help when you have your monthlys.

There is always next week though!

I overdone it

I think i overdone it in the excercise department today!!! I rode my bike into the gym which took me about 15 minutes then i did Pump for an hour and then i rode the bike home!! Well half way anyways! I came to a big hill and my poor legs and lungs couldn't handle it!!! Legs sore from pushing myself in pump and Lungs sore because im so unfit!!!

Then i came home and cleaned the flat!!! I have all this energy today and I don't know why.. It will hit me later on im sure!! Might sleep well tonite.

I have weigh in tomorrow! Can't wait to see what the results are!

Well aussie day tomorrow!!! Hot Hot Hot!! everyone stay cool and *slip slop slap* if you go out and about.

Massage

Im feeling sore at the moment. I went and got a massage today at Silk day spa.. Awwww its so good there!! I have very tight upper back so they gave it a good work out! But think i will pay for it tomorrow!

Last couple of days have been boring!! Seb is with his father this week so very quiet at the Flat.
I went into the gym this morning and had a work out!! Always feel much better once i done some exercise :)

Well only a couple of more sleeps now until Day on the Green!! My sister message me today and said lets get 3 slabs of UDL's. Think we in for a big weekend :) *hehehehehe*

Here is a couple of pictures of Seb. One was on my birthday. My dad decided to give him some chocolate and of course he made a mess. Love the cheeky look. The other was Yesterday!! My camera has these cool frames.... It didn't turn out very well but you can still see it... Make a good rapper???
I love looking at photos, and how quickly they change and how quickly they grow up! How quickly bubs get personalities!! Im missing him right now!! Big hugs and kisses to you seb.

Why do I feel Cheated?

Im trying to get my head around the fact that my ex boyfriend, very shy doesn't like to talk went out with a mate on Thursday nite and picked up. Yes thats right he PICKED UP!! for all of you who know him, thats not like him at all!!

After first telling me that he didn't pick up and i was like please stop lieing to me i have a gut feeling that something happened, so you should just tell me because eventually it will get the better of you anyway! So don't Lie!!! So then i got the whole story!! (By the way this is from a man who is still inlove with me thats wants to work things out with me)

"My mate went up to this chick and said hey see that guy over there he wants to kiss you" *as a joke* Next minute she was in my face and we kissed. I didn't want to, it meant nothing to me" by this stage blaah blaah blaah had set into my head..

Why was i feeling mad? Why was i feeling hurt? Why was i feeling Cheated? Hello if you didn't want to kiss her you didn't have to ! You have choices you know!!!

Its so funny because this whole time that we have been seperated, i have said this time is about me and getting to know me, and getting myself right because i have lost who I am!!! Not once was it ever on my mind that us seperating meant that i could go out and pick up!! It doesn't interest me! Men don't interest me right now!!! and i told him that over and over again, because he thought this seperation was about me getting my freedom and going out clubbing. Well i kinda rubbed that back in his face on Friday and said, just to let you know here you have been saying to me "you broke up with me because you want to go out and pick up blaah blaah", Ha what you just go do mate? If you cared about me and you wanted to try and work things out if you loved me, you wouldn't have picked up some unknown female! If she was in your face or not!

And the funny thing was that beck and I went out the other weekend and I had the opportunity to pick up, but I was like thanks but no thanks!!! It felt good to be wanted I tell you that!!! After so long of being with someone who rejected me and my needs every day, to know that I still have that *Mmmm* about me was good to know.

One thing that scares me is that I fell out of love with adam so long ago, but right now i feel hurt and cheated? Im questioning myself. Do I still love him? or is it just my feelings and emotions playing havic on me?

I swear we had a mini Cyclone

Oh my god how scarey and cool! Bendigo had this cool strom thing happen about 7.30pm last nite!! Not cool that the power in my area had been out from then until 2.30am this morning! So it was off to the Apco Service station for me at 12.30am this morning in my PJ's to heat up Seb's bottles and put them in a thermo bag to keep warm. Yes everything at our house is electric so i had no way to heat up the bottles! Seb was a little freaked out by the thunder and lightening and wouldn't sleep but eventually got him to sleep!!! On my way to the servo we have a park near our house and my god i so hope no one was sitting there as all these massive branches off the trees had come down. I was trying to take pictures with my brothers camera but the stupid thing wouldn't change from black and white to Color. Out the front of our unit the guttering must of rotted away and we had a mini water fall it looked really funny, but funny not that our laundry was a little flooded with water!!

The neighbours TV aerial is still connected but i don't know how as it was getting a good bashing with the wind. I was watching it from our kitchen window, i so thought it was going flying!

God damn must attend to the child who is being restless!! *brb* K where was I

My brother got home an hour later than usual. He works at coles and said that they were so flat out!! Safeway had closed down due to floody and a couple of the other supermarkets didn't have power and they had to close down so coles was the only one open. he said so many people came in asking for candles and they got sick of telling people which isle they were in they made a mini display at the front of the store!! He said that just as the storm hit they were getting a delivery into the store!! He said the wind and rain was coming into the store room and then had emergency calls from Front end as the roof was leaking in 5 different places and there bakery started to flood due to the rain coming through some doors!!! So he had a very busy nite!!

The rain was good i must admit, but i had never seen anything like it. From clear skies to thunder and lightening, then a dust strom then strong winds and rain!! Can't wait to see the news to see how much damage had been done! and for the rising of the sun so i can get in my car and go for a drive around town and see how lucky we were really where!

Week 2 - Weigh In

WoW! I am surprised. I walked into the gym today (hot hot hot) and got weighed. I weighed in at 83.9 kg (loss of .8 kg) and my body fat was 44.9% (loss of 1.1%). I was really happy as I really didn't think I would of lost anything this week. But my slim coach told me I had to eat more. When do you ever get told to eat more :) hehehe

I have been keeping a food diary and im not eating enough food! I have a food plan that i am suppose to be following but haven't really been following it, so i might start doing that this week. Well what a great end of the week! Off to do pump (weights class)in at the gym tonite so no doubt ill be waking up sore tomorrow morning!!!

4.11AM Wide Awake

Why? Don't know!! But im sitting here in the quiet and all i can hear is our toilet door going errrrrrr! its annoying the shit out of me but i can't be bothered getting up and going to close it!

Had an awesome afternoon yesterday! I Slept :) Seb didn't have a very good sleep the night before or didnt want to have his morning nap. So he decided to sleep from 12.30 - 5.00pm. Ohhhh it was devine. So I plonked myself on the couch to watch the tennis and next thing i know i was passed out!

Ok its got the better of me! Im going to close this door!! Done:) Maybe thats why i can't sleep!

*Yawns* I applied for some jobs! One is a part time pharmacy technican trainee. I think that would be awesome, another is a book keeper casual and the other a casual position working in a health shop! So just see how i go i suppose.

Poor Krys im surprised he hasn't chucked seb and I out on the street! With Seb not sleeping well the other nite, poor krys was awake. Seb wasn't in the mood to sleep he was in the mood to play!! My I add at 2.30am in the morning!!! And he decided about an hour later ok, im tired!! God it was frustrating! Im so looking forward to sleeping a whole nite through. Even when hes not with me i still can't sleep through!

Well im counting down the days until "Day on the Green". Im really looking forward to it. Its been ages since I have done anything with Just Lee and I love sister time. But most of all to get out of Bendigo will be great!! Missy Higgins is playing and im looking forward to seeing her play live!

Well think i might go and get back into my little bed. I am sleeping up the opposite end of the bed than i usually do so i can see seb in his cot. I love watching him sleep And love watching him get himself comfortable with his arse up in the air!! hehehehe so cute!!

Nite Nite xxxx

Melbourne Aquarium!

Adam & I took Seb to the Melbourne Aquarium today. It was awesome. We saw the giant squid.. ohhh it was creepy!! It was 7m long and was found in New Zealand!!! Would hate to face one of them face to face!!

Seb had a ball! loved looking at all the fish and even held a star fish. He was a little unsure though! If you get the chance to go there go!! Its so interesting and you have as much fun as what the kids do. I love when your walking through the glass domes and the big sting rays go right over the top of you. They are HUGE!!!

Well its weigh in day tomorrow! Cant wait to see the outcome. I won't be surprised if i don't lose anything since i have had a naughty and lazy week!

Investigated!!

Phone call at 5.50pm tonite. Centerlink. Investigating me that my ex partner lives with me.
SOMEONE rang them anonymously.

I would like to see us all squeeze into a small flat, and a single bed by the way. I know I know there only doing their job, but come on! Why would you go through all the shit with centerlink for it to shit back in your face? Why would you risk it?? Why lie?? I live over the other side of town from my ex.

Im so mad right now that someone would do that!

Im sorry am I suppose to not speak to my ex at all? are we suppose to not get along and be cranky arses at each other? Will that make you happy dobber? Wish people would get the facts straight. Im so against this whole going behind peoples back. If you got something to say, say it to my face!!

Anyways im starving. Had me bitch time to eat!!

Go HEWITT!!!! just playing the 5th set now!!!

The Longest Day In My Life

Today felt like it went for ever. My lil boy was having an operation today and due to some emeregencies his operation was delayed to later this afternoon. Anyways he is fine, but my god I felt sick all day! I hate my feelings and hormones since having a child. They are so much more sensitive.

Anyways like everyone else im on mission to lose weight, but really not doing myself any favours at the moment. Haven't really been sticking to my food and exercise plan.

I go to Fernwood gym here in Bendigo Gym just for women. Anyways before i got pregnant i was doing there weight loss program Slimplicity. I lost 5 kilo which i was stoked about and then well put on about 20 kilos during my pregnancy. My goal was to get down to 65 kilos. Which is my goal this time around.

I started back up on Slimplicy on Thursday 12th of Jan. I was weighed at 84.7 kilos and my body fat was 47%. So goal weight is 65 kilos and my body fat needs to get down to about 26%.

My short term goal is to lose 10 kilos in 6 months, which is a very do-able goal. Slimplicy works on losing .5 kilo a week.

Here is a photo of me from saturday nite. I looked at it and went yuck that is horrible. But my friend beck said no what a good before shot of you. So here I am using it.

Welcome

Boo!

I've always written but never thought of posting on the net. But a really good friend of mine has a blog http://beckschallenge.blogs.com/. and I love it so i thought why not!

A little bit about me for those of you who don't know me. I am 1 of 4 children. I have an older Brother Jason(33), an Older Sister Lee-Anna(29), and a younger brother Krys (22). And of course me im 24.

I also have a 9 month old son Sebastyn. He is adorable.
This photo was taken about a month ago. He has the biggest smile. It lights up a room.

He is not far off walking, and talks heaps, hes a little chatter box. Babies grow up so quickly.

I also have a newphew Taj. He is my sisters son. he is nearly 2.

I've not long become a single mum which im finding really hard as i have shared care of sebastyn so not seeing him everyday is killing me. From having him in my care 24/7 7 days a week to having one week on one week off. Its hard to try and keep your mind occupied and not to think about it.

Well there is just a little bit about me. Would love you to post comments at anytime or drop me a line.

i'll welcome all comments and if you have a blog let me know about it. I would love to read it.

I have one saying that I want to share with everyone. I have a book mark with these words on it.

"Dare to dream the impossible"