Motivation

Ok so i got motivation. I was up at 5.30am this morning and went and did combat in at the gym, mowed my lawns and whipper snipped, had a massage, cleaned my house a lil and even had time to shave my legs. It was so good to have a day to myself to do what i wanted. Its been ages since i have done this. I feel really good.

I was suppose to go out for breakfast with my brother, but i came back home after combat and feel asleep and my phone rang about 9.30am and it was my brother asking where i was.. hehehe i had slept through the alarm.. i needed the sleep..


Well going to cook spag bowl for tea. Mmmm my favourite

Untitled

I don't know what to title this blog.... I just want to make it clear to people that read my blogs, that the reason i write my blog is so that i can get off my chest what i am feeling and to let the people who read my blog know whats happening in my life right now. You might not agree with what I do, and that the whole world can read about my life, but so be it, i choose to do it. Its also about getting support from other people who have been through the similar situations, its about supporting each other through hard times, through the weight loss through what ever. So if you want to go running back to people, about what i have written in my blog then so be it, because i really don't care and i don't have to justify myself, or what i write. If you have a problem with what i write then don't read it, also usually when i write about certain people in my blog i usually have spoken to them about it anyways. My feelings are my feelings and I choose to express them however i want. And this is the way i am choosing to express them.

Scattered Thoughts

I have just been reading becks blog, and how upset she is with herself about the way she looks etc. I have not known someone with the kindest heart, senerity and affection as she has, and to read about her being down on herself has touched me. The point i am getting at is that i posted a message to her. I have been reading a book by an inspirational man called Dr John Demartini. The book is called " How to make one Hell of a profit and still get to heaven". It is absolutely fav book and not only has it made me learn about money finance etc, it has also taught me about positive quotes, sayings etc and how the mind is so powerful. A quote i wrote to beck was " Whatever you think about, thank about, you bring about" This really gels with me, and hopefully it does to others, and hopefully people can see the meaning behind it. So i contridict myself when i said in my last blog that i felt like a fat hefalump in that photo. because if i think that i look like a fat hefalump then i am a fat hefalump. Does that make sense.

I have also learnt about stability and control, and self control, and how the universe won't let you expand if you can't control what you have at the moment, so for me, when i learn how to discipline myself with money and learn to save, then i will get more money, payrise etc. Please don't worry if none of this makes sense to you, and please know that i have not joined a cult or anything, i have just been doing alot of reading and watching dvd's with work and have learnt alot and how it applies in my life.

So for me to have stability and control in my life, i need order. I need order in my house, finance, emotions, physically, love life. So my first step was opening up a saving accounts that earns me interest to help me save.

I have laid down the ground rules with adam. I have said to him that i am sick of being in limbo land so you either want to be with me or you don't simple. I know where I want my life to head and I know what i need to fulfill it, so we both stop playing games and we sort out our problems and we be together or we part, and just be there for Sebastyn. I need happiness and love and support. He eithers gives it to me or he doesn't. and i move on.

I have a job that gives me stability and I love my job and i have so much room to grow and expand, and im determined to take my career as far as i can go now.

I am determined to get the lingerie business up and going with Beck, and make it happen and make it successful.

I want the best for my son and for myself, and to know that i am comfortable in my life.

I am determined to drop this last 10kgs that i have to go. for 5 weeks now i have been at plato. I have been lazy with eating, exercising, i need to get off my arse and do something about it! Be healthy, energetic, feel sexy, have self worth, confidence, not only for myself, but to be able to play with my son and my nephew. I want to be an active mother, Im young...

Wow my head feels lighter after spitting all this out!

The Ball, Geelong and My week

Hey Guys, glad you all had a good time at the bloggers meet, im sorry i could not be there but i ended up having to look after sebastyn. But next one ill be there for sure.

So the ball was great... i got plastered and ended up home at 2.30am. I was drinking vodka Freezes 7% alcohol so i wasn't surprised that i woke up feeling like crap and that i needed to have a spit :)

We had a beautiful two course meal i had chicken stuffed with rice and a cheeseeee sauce. And pumpkin soup it was soooo yumm..

I got up and had a dance and a mingled with the footy boyz and girls. They had a live band who must of been big fans of cat stevens because they played sooooo many of his songs... Overall it was a good nite and it was good to go out with Adam, even though i didn't see much of him. hehehe

Below are some photos from the ball! I felt like a hefalump next the girls cause they so little but i still felt great.

So its me on the left Beck and Kaz who are cousins.

I had some hollywood tape happening to keep my boobs in. If you want to look at the photo closer click on it.

So this is adam and I

So there is some pictures for you.

On wednesday i took sebastyn to Geelong i needed some R & R and it was the first time he had been at that beach and he loved it. He chased the sea gulls for ages and picked the sand up in his hands and would chuck it everywhere. Anyways back in our room where we were staying was a desk and chair. And Lil one has no fear whats so ever. We went shopping and i brought him some tic toc biscuits. anyways i said to him that he had, had enough but he was determined to get more. So below i took some photos of his determination.

Climbing on the chair getting the packet of biscuits

and standing

He has no fear and that scares me sometimes. He is always walking to strangers, waving good bye to people he doesn't know, i suppose its just part of him learning and growing up! He is saying lots of words now which is great and he is trying so hard to have a conversation with you but it won't be long.

My week has been good, i have actually been to the gym more than once this week. I have put my foot down and have got some extra motivation from somewhere so hopefully now i can get my arse into gear and lose this last 10 kgs i need to lose and hopefully get my body fat down.

Well im off to do some reading and have some quiet time since i have no child.

Ciao

My week of eating

I said the other day that i post what i have been eating, hoping that it will make me have some restraint on what junk i eat.. Well i think this week has been ok. I have not updated my weight in ages due to that i have not had a weigh in but i did on tuesday and it has stayed the same.

I have gone back on having slim shakes for brekfast now, to try and help with my weight lose as i was not eating breakfast and as you all know we need to have breakfast to kick of our day.

Wed

B/Fast
Slim shake
Lunch
Baked potato and hot chocolate
tea
chicken stir fry with hokiin noodles honey and garlic sauce

Thurs
B/Fast
slim shake
Snack
apple
Lunch
Left over stir fry
snack
dry fruit and nuts

Fri
B/Fast
slim shake
snack
dried fruit and nuts
lunch
chicken roll with lettuce
tea
maccas

So i think overall i have been ok...

Tonite i have to footy ball and i am so excited. i can't wait.... i will hae updates of pictures for you.

have a good weekend everyone
xxx

ONE dead mouse and my 100th Post

Sooo for my 100th post ill be talking dead mice :) I woke up this morning to give seb a bottle and low and behold there was a mouse in the middle of my kitchen floor. Its scrared the absolute shittaaaasss outta me!!! I took one step down and it didn't move. It was sitting there with its tail curled around. and i thought ohh my god its got friendly!!! So i got a ice cream container and put it over the top of it and it still didn't move and then put a huge container of water on top of that so it could go anywhere... I texted adam and said please come around and remove the mouse from my kitchen... and he did thank god otherwise it would still be sitting there dead....

Pest control will be around this week to bait my house and get rid of the rest hopefully!!!!

So hopefully there will be some peace and quiet in my house without mice :)


I have my first inspection for my house next month and I asked them today if i could put a sand pit in the back yard for sebastyn and they said yes so i think thats great.. gives him something to play with outside instead of going and hiding in the outside toilet all the time...

Well my day off today has been productive and lil man is having a sleep at the moment, and my dad and his wife are coming to baby sit this weekend, so im trying to get the house all cleaned :) hehehehe.... knowing mazza i will come home from my ball and the house will be spotless :)

Toodles for now!!

& House Keys Locked inside

Mmmm well as if my weekend wasn't an entertaining one, last night i locked my keys in the house. I actually think it was Karma!!! I had a fight with adam on sunday nite and told him to give me the spare key back so of course he did, and my luck my brother came around last nite so take me to get some tea and what did i do. walked straight out the bloody door without my keys!!!! I tell ya my head not screwed on lately!!!

Im enjoying walking everywhere. i was up and out of the house by 7am this morning! and the stars where still out!! Its a nice walk to and from work!! I have sebastyn this week so don't know how i will be taking him to creche on friday!! might be going by taxi!!!

Well i better go clean my house up before adam brings seb over!!!

Got the footy ball on saturday so will have to make sure i get some photos for you all

ill actually be in a dress, wearing make up and have my hair done.. so very rare for me, so make sure you treasure the photos :)

Chow

"Loose", Broken Car , Human Pooh

Mmmmmm what a fun filled weekend i have endured! I went to my sisters on Friday nite after work, to chill and enjoy some family company! It was a fantastic weekend until coming home today!

Firsty i learnt the new slang. just shows how much i get out. "Loose" is a word they use alot of there. "Oh my god shes is in "loose" form tonite".........

We went to the footy yesterday and that was, caught up with some people that i hadn't seen in a long time! then last nite we went out to the pub for a few drinks and a boogy! that was fun....

Lee drove my car down the street and parked it in a public car park. When we went to pick it up this morning some disgusting person decided to stand on my bonnet and do there numbers 2!! I was so disgusted... who the F&*%$ would do that???

Then driving home today just coming into Bendigo my car decided to die!!! Yeah great fucking car.. thank god my sister was following behind me.... i got out and gave it the biggest kick!!! Im over it!!!!! so now i am without a car for gods knows how long!!!! will be getting my exercise this week that is for sure.. So my great weekend ended in shit!!!

But on a good note my bro was in Bendigo playing footy today and my uncle so was good to catch up with the family, and my uncle finally got to meet sebasty because he has never met him.. so yeah..

well im outta here i can't be bothered writing anymore....