I didn't know what to call this post so i called it blank.... Im feeling a little down today which is the first time in a long time. I got a thinking about life, and where i want to go, and i suppose what really got me thinking was that aidan and de went to a conference on the weekend to the man who appears in the movie what the bleep, and where talking about the brain and how it works and how our thinking works.. it was very interesting.. anyway the think that go me thinking was that by about 35 years old our brain has experienced everything.. so for our brain to experience new things and make new path ways in our brain we need to get out of our comfort zone.....our brain plays very safe and our body likes to play out of its comfort zone!! example.. if your crossing a river and the river gets deeper as you go along your brain would like to play it safe and turn back around, where as the body would like to keep going... because we know where we have just come from and we know that the river in the direction that we come from is safe we want to turn around.. anyway i hope you are following if not well im sorry..
the point i am getting at is that we do this in our lives.. Me i am like that with men.. i have not slept or kissed another person in the last 4 years except adam.. Im to scared to step out of my comfort zone.. I know adam and i know what i am going to experiencing and expect.... Im scared of getting hurt and scared of experiencing that hurt i suppose... anyway i just thought that was very interesting, because i had my chance to take the pick on 72 hot men hehehe this weekend and didn't go there... My brain was playing safe...
I have my two weeks holidays coming up next week and i cant wait, im gong to be working my arse off in the gym, relaxing, do the things i want to do in the first week as i don't have sebastyn.. in the second week im going to spend a few days with my dad in melbs which will be nice, he will be at work during the day but that doesn't matter cause seb and I will keep ourselves entertained.
Well better be off as my eyes are getting tired... Mmmm i s feel like ice cream right now..
2 comments:
I have seen for ages how stuck you are on Adam. Or perhaps the vision of what he 'should' be to you.
I have seen that you are all bravado and front when it comes to men but chicken out if they genuinely show you affection. It's like you cant break the ties with Adam to move forward and take positive steps towards a healthy relationship.
No-one got anything by sitting back in their comfort zone so Im thrilled you had this experience with De and Aid.
Sounds like its time to get out of that comfort zone... try it.. you might actually like it...
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