I was talking about motivation in my last post, and yesterday I had lots of energy. After going to the gym yesterday, I ended up going for a run/walk around the res last night. I actually did two laps.I felt really good! Just hope i can keep these energy levels up!
Its weigh in day tomorrow, I haven't been weighed in two weeks, so im not expecting anything really because i haven't really been doing anything!
I had an interview thing with a job agency today, im so over them i tell you, someone just give me a damn job. I have never had to go through the process of looking for work, as all my jobs that i have had have been handed to me, so im finding this really frustrating!!! As much as i don't want to go back to work, as I really want to get the lingerie business up and going, I need money right now, and i need to stand on my own two feet and have my own place and my own space. Im missing my own space right now.... I love living with my brother, but sometimes this little flat seems over crowded. I don't understand how single mums living on centrelink afford to live on their own without working.There is no way I could afford to live on my own on the payments that I am getting!!!
I will get there I suppose!
I caught up with my dad briefly last night he was in town for a meeting. I miss him very much even though he is only in Melbourne, and i was telling him, how im not handling the whole shared care with Seb. He said that it will get easier, but will it?? Right now it doesn't seem like it will get easier. I miss him terribly. My heart really aches for him at the moment!! He changes every time I see him, he is doing something new every time I see him!
On a good note, the lingerie has been selling. So please please please get on and have a look!! All of it must go!! and im willing to bargain with you :)
SO Hope to hear from you soon!!
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Hi Ness. Well I have just caught up on your ENTIRE blog. You are an amazing girl with some real challenges in your life. All of which you will be able to handle and make work for you.
As a Mum I can understand the feelings of loss, pain, anger and frustration that you must feel each time you need to let the Dad have your beautiful boy for a week. But at the moment if that is the way it is to be then make the most of the week that you are by yourself. Get that sleep in, workout like crazy, go to interviews - the things that are maybe just a little bit more difficult to do with a little one in tow. It still won't be easy but the more you can look after yourself during those weeks, the easier it will be to look after him on the other week.
Babies grow up so fast don't they. My DS2 is now 18 months and he is a little angle/hurricane. The babbling, the running, the arguing with me as he is trying to assert his personality - it is all gorgeous and you have it all to come :)
Have a great day Vanessa. I will come back and keep up to date with how you are going at the gym and in life in general.
You CAN do this :D
Well done Ness, You seem to be doing a great job.
As a parent with shared custody, I feel your pain, but I am guessing the dad goes through the same thing. Also, I have learnt to deal with it like this, I know my son is getting great care when he is with his dad (otherwise he wouldn't e allowed over there!!) So just think how much love your child is getting. Not only from you and your family, but I am guessing from him and his faimly too. It will get easier, I promise.
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