My patience bubble burst

So i have gone the last 3 nights without sleep.. and last nite my patience bubble burst! I know lil man can't help it that he is teething but to cry for 2 hours straight was the last straw for me! I broke down. There is nothing I could do and it was killing me that he was in so much pain. He is not a very good sleepa to start with, and not being well or teething just makes it worse. My poor brother he has been so patient with me and i felt so sorry for him last nite, because the poor bugger had to get up to go to work today! He said to me this morning that he was ready to grab his doona and go and sleep in his car!! :(

So im on a mission this week to speak to my Maternal Nurse and see what options I have to help him sleep well and for me also to get a good nite sleep.... Even to have a 5 hour straight sleep will be a bonus!! If anyone has tips im open for suggestions :)

So all my family is coming up tomorrow and we are going to a park down the road from my bros flat and having a little get together for sebbie for his birthday! It will be exciting to see what everyone has got him!

Well My lil one is having a nap so i might have a snooze meself!

Weigh in - Week 9

I NO LONGER WEIGH 80!! Yes you read correctly. I lost 1.8 kilo this week, which takes me to 78.5 kgs!!! Good work Nessie :) My body fat went up a little, just gotta drink more water!! I am now so close to my first major goal of losing 10 kilos!!! I have to work that little harder to get my body fat down but i will get there! I just feel so good that I am achieving this! Its good motivation for me that I am losing weight nearly everyweek, because I know that I am doing what I am suppose to. But I need to focus more on my body fat and reducing it!

Im still feeling a little stiff after my PT session, not only do i have sore muscles but i have very nice war wounds on my elbows from carpet burn from commando crawling!!! Mmm never again!!!

I message sheree yesterday and told her that i felt like i had been hit by a truck, i could not move, i could not pick seb up from the cot!! and she said something to me that i wanted to share with you because i think it makes a lot of sense. She message me back saying "Remember pain is just the weakness leaving the body" and I so believe that! It can mean so many things! Your working yourself so hard to be that stronger person!

Everyone on weight lose challenges, be proud of your achievements and be positive and stay positive and know that you have my support! Goals can be achieved and there is more to losing than weight than just how much you weigh! and I have come to realise that! As long as your feeling better about yourself, feeling stronger, fitter, healthier than you are on the road to success!

Pushed to my Limits

Hi!!! i can just write.. im still shaking actually!!! Well what a busy afternoon one has had.. at 2pm i had a PT with Sheree!! Mmmmmm well as you are aware i did my ankle so we did upper body work!!! and I was Pushed to limits...Pushed that hard i had to stop because i was going to be sick!! That feeling is so horrible..it has now been two hours since then and im still not feeling well!!! I have never ever ever felt like that ever from excerising!! I said to her i feel like the biggest losers!! I now know how hard they are training!!! I know that it is worth it all in the long run!! and I have the best Personal Trainer, who knows what I am capable of (even when i feel like i can't do something) and pushes me to my limits!! and for that I am greatful!! She really knows when to put on her hard hat :) But i have war wounds today!! she made me crawl along the floor with my arse in the air and i now have burns on my elbows!! :( Try it, its hard work!!!

Soo my PT finished and I had a quick shower and it was off to my 2nd job interview for the same job! Will find out friday if I have it. Would be a good job.. I would enjoy it.. something new and something challenging and I like a challenge!!

Well think i might go and skull a glass of water and go pick my baby up from creche!! Hopefully me might sleep tonite!!! His eye teeth are coming through!!!

Thoughts

I am angry at this blog at the moment. my brother went and seen the sand sculptures in Rye on the weekend and I have been trying to upload the pictures so you can all see how beautiful they are! But its not letting me!

Anyways I couldn't sleep last nite, and its really getting to me! Im trying to stay so positive about everything, but you just get to a point where your like well fuck it!! And im at the point right now! My brain is so clouded with trying to find a job and trying to find a house, having no money, and adam and sebsastyn and trying to lose weight and get health and fit, I wonder where I actually are in all of this? I know im there somewhere :) And i know that the light is at the end of the tunnel but by god the tunnel is getting really long for me at the moment! It feels like it is never ending! And I know that once I hear that I have a house or that I have a job that my view and thoughts on everything will change again!

I can hear my lil man stirring, which means he just woke from one big longggg sleep!! So on that note i am going to leave you with this quote:

Andy Warhol:
They say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.

One Week To Go.........

.................Until my precious lil boy turns one.

Here is a photo of him not long after he was born!!! You might notice the little bruise on his eye, it was from the forcepts!!!

He has grown up so fast! this year has gone so fast!! I still remember the first time he was put in my arms!! still makes me cry! Its such a precious moment that i will remember for ever!

Interview No 2

So I have a second interview on Wednesday with a company called Building solutions! Ohh so exciting!!!

I didn't get the flat i wanted, which i am really disappointed about because it was perfect location but to make me feel better "i was second in line" Awww dagger in the heart!!! Ill move on and keep going i suppose. i just feel like i will be stuck here forever!!

I have had mixed emotions the last couple of days! I have been spending lots of quality time with adam and seb which has been really nice, and yesterday after lunch with Becki, Bradman, Phillipa and David, i went and met adam and seb at the lake, but I got really upset when it was time to go!! The feeling of us all not going home together as a family and me not having my baby with me after such a lovely afternoon was really heart breaking. I thought this was suppose to get easier??? When Bloody When??? Opppss i used that word bloody!!!!! i might be on the front page of the paper tomorrow...

Well I have had a really huge day today. it started at 7.15am when my alarm went off for me to get up and get ready to go to Melbourne with Sheree. It was a very long day, but it was good to get out of Bendigo for the day!!! Thanks Sheree!!!

Well my lil boy is fast asleep in Bed, and not very well today, think hes got more teeth coming through so im going to go and lounge on the couch and watch commander in chief!!

Nite nite

xxx

Ohh so quiet

Soo im sitting in the loungeroom and its just me, the air con and my fingers typing this post that are making noise!!! Just thinking what to do for tea tonite actually! I thawed out some steak and wondering if to cut it up to make a stir -fry! I might do that actually something simple!!

Well this is a big week for me. I had my three job interviews last week and they all said that they would get back to me this week ( two of them for second interviews), and also will hear about this unit! Soooo please please some good news come out of it! I really need a job, i got my centrelink payment today and its gone already!! My clothes are getting big on me and I need to buy some new ones, but can't really do that without a job! It really sucks not having any money! And i really need a place of my own! I miss all my stuff that is packed away in boxes!! After talking about photos today, I miss all of them too!!

Well im off to go and clean my room! Ohh should i say put all my washing away

Random Quotes

I found these quotes and I really liked them so I thought that I would share them with you

Start by doing what’s necessary, then what’s possible,and suddenly you are doing the impossible.

Saint Francis
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Hard work doesn't guarantee success, but improves its chances.

Author: B. J. Gupta
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Never give up, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.

Author: Harriet Beecher Stowe (1811-1886), author
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Nobody ever drowned in his own sweat.

Author: Ann Landers

I Wish................

To have someone snuggle me at night

Weigh in - Week 8 plus measurements

Soooo my weight and body fat was the same this week but i got my measurements done.. I lost 15cms this month.. how exciting 6cms on my bum!! LOL no wonder I have no bum.. So knowing that in 2 months i have lost 30cms i am on cloud 9!! I feel so damn good!!! A whole ruler length!!! Sooo i know that im on the right track!!!

Well had my interview today with FRH it went good!! will find out next week.

Im having my lil boy tonite as adam has hockey tomorrow 4 comm games!! Can't wait!!

Its Karma

My ankle is feeling pretty good today! it has a little bruise on the ankle bone...

I have decided that its karma that i have done my ankle! After last week with all shit that i ate i decided that i did my ankle so that i couldn't work out this week, so my results would be shit!!

Thats my theory!!

Soo my busy week has calmed down thank god!!! I have put two applications in for to units so hopefully something comes of it.. if it doesn't i just keep trying!!! Gotta stay positive!!

I have got another job interview tomorrow!! Im kinda over them i tell you repeating myself over and over again!! Someone just give me a job PLEASE!!!

Soooo I caught up with my friend Rinda today!!! she is so beautiful!!! All of my friends keep me grounded in so many different ways!

Well just about to have some lunch!! so better go rescue it before i burn it!!

Will let you know how i go with weigh in and interview tomorrow

xxx

I have an injury

So i was eager this morning i went into the gym and was doing combat, my i say i was up at 5.45am for a 6.15am start, we were on the last track, and bang my left ankle went!!Yup im out of action, of all bloody days!! I have two job interviews today so aren't I going to be remembered!

Well better get this ice pack off 4 twenty minutes!! :(

Busy Busy Beaver

What a day and week i have ahead of me

Today i have lived at the gym. This morning I did Body Pump and a little bit of cardio then i went back into the gym tonite and did TTT and Body Combat!! Man i am buggered but i feel good.

The rest of my week consists of the following

WED

10.30 Job Interview
11.30 Job Interview
2.00 Personal Training Session
3.45 Looking at a house

Thursday

11.00 Looking at a house

Friday

11.00 Weigh in week 8 and measurements

11.45 Job Interview

So I figure that my resume must be doing some good!

Well im off to get some tea!! Mmmm im hungry!!!

Just a photo

My dad just sent me this photo of seb.... i went and stayed with my dad last week and we were outside.. i think this is beautiful photo of him !!

Productive Day

Well after my shit start to the day i have actually had a very productive day.

I wrote a list of all the things that I needed to do today and I have completed everything except 3 things, and there was 10 things on my list.

• I did our Bas Statement
• I paid some money to china
• I applied for some jobs
• I asked sheree what time my PT is on Wednesday as i forgot
• I contacted a real estate agent
• I went and had a drive by a unit, i was interested in but not anymore after seeing it!! (they always make them look so pretty in photos)
• Printed off some photos.

So I went into the gym and sweated out some frustration for 40 minutes, and I was going to go into the gym tonite to do pilates, but i remember that Desperate housewives is on so i will just go for a walk around the res instead.

Not a good start to Monday

Real Estate agents!!! Im not a happy Jam right now!!! I rang a real estate agent this morning, to tell them that I rang them 2 weeks ago about a property that i was interested looking through. Anyway the girl told me that my application wasn't successful and i said hang on a minute, i haven't even looked through the place yet. You told me that you would ring me. She said sorry we have approved a person who didn't look through it!! Im like ohh thanks for that!!!

Im just really pissed off that they didn't contact me, when they said they would! It was in the ideal location for me, and i didn't even have the opportunity!

Anyways so im now applying for a couple of jobs and then heading into the gym to sweat my anger out!!!

Have a wonderful day people

xx

"Have you got a one dollar note"

LOL!! Sheree and I were getting tea tonite and she asked me for a one dollar note!!! Think her brain was back a few years!! Did anyone keep one dollar notes by the way??

On that note does anyone collect anything interesting??? Hehehehe!! I collect 20 and 50cent pieces, but the ones that have all the different pictures on them :) Why i have no idea, but i just like it!! They might be worth something one day!! hahahaha!!!

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I ended up going into the gym yesterday and doing a 60 minutes cardio work out, and 30 minutes of that was the easy step class... I woke up this morning with sore calves :( So lots of stretching to try and get them better again.

I got a dining set today which i'm pleased about, now i just need the house/unit to put it in. I applied for one flat this week and they told me that i will find out middle of next week if i get it, but i have found a couple of others that interest me so have to wait until monday to see if i can have a look through them!

Hopefully I will hear something on Monday about the job interview that i had yesterday! Fingers crossed.... But im not getting my hopes up! what happens, happens!

Im just writing random stuff so that is why this is all over the place, im writing what is coming to my head.

Which reminds me i have a biter in my family at the moment, and i don't know what to do about it, because everytime i tell him off about it he laughs straight back at me, and i have tried biting him back not hard of course and he laughs at me and when i tell him no, he is back chatting me with gibber!! He doesn't know his own strengths and it really concerns me because i don't want him biting children at creche! But last night he was biting my tummy, my boobs, my nose, and it was just really frustrating me! I just hope that he grows out of it really quickly!!! otherwise!! Ill have to pull his teeth out :) hehehehe!!

I was not at all surprised by biggest loser weigh in on friday. Bye Bye Tracie and Artie!!!!

Well my eyes are feeling heavy, so might go put my head on the pillow and hopefully pass out for a couple of hours before lil one wants a bottle!! Ohhh wish he would grow out of that too and sleep through the nite!!!!!! When i get 6 -8 hours sleep straight i will be one happy Mum and the whole world will know about it I tell you!

Night night my readers!!

Weigh in - Week 7

Ok so after all my chocolate eating and after feeling like crap for doing it i still lost a kilo this week! So i have to work my arse off this week to make sure that it doesn't affect my weigh in next week! I really didn't deserve a loss this week! So it will be punishment for me next week.

Sheree ask me so how you feel after eating all that chocolate? Like shit!! I don't like eating shit because i'm having a bad day!! I shouldn't do it!

So now im nearly out of the 80's!! Ohhhhh i will feel so much better once my weight doesn't say 80 anymore :) That will be a good result for me.

So im still on track to lose my 10 kilo my six months. Which my the way will be June!

So i had my interview today and i think it went really well. I will find out by the end of day if i get a second interview! At second interview they will be putting my on the computer to see how I go with excel and just ask more questions!

I was really honest with them, and they asked me what my weaknesses are and I told them my patiences and my tend to rush things at times. But i also backed that up with, saying that i have improved in these areas over time... I didn't think that interview would go for long but i was there for 45 minutes.....

Well im signing off now, going to watch the games...

And by the way i so hope tracie and artie go!!

My Bad Week

Well where do i start??? I have weigh in tomorrow.. i am expecting to put on weight as i have had a really really bad week.

I have walked once and that was nothing serious and i have eaten a whole lot of shit!

So this is what I have eaten

• A big block of chocolate
• A bowl of ice cream with milo
• A bag of caramel frogs
• A bowl of stewed peaches with ice cream
• Lots of pasta
• Lots of cheese
• McDonalds
• Mmmm sure there is more

So on that note I have a job interview tomorrow afternoon, I have a PT tomorrow and ummm thats about it!! Might go to the gym and do some exercise. Hahahhaahhahaha we will see!

I really Hate my emotions Right Now

My eyes feel like balloons! Ever since being pregnant my emotions have changed. Every little thing makes me cry! I thought that once having sebastyn that that would change.. BooommmBoommm wrong!! Nothing has changed.

Today I have cried and cried and cried.. Why!!! I have no fucking idea. The smallest things have made me cry! Sorry excuse the french!!

I know there is a lot going on in my life right now, but for god sake you would think the waterfall would stop for a rest at some stage.

Soo on a happy note my lil man is walking walking walking. So taj watch out cause there is no stopping him now.... He looks so funny waddling from side to side and he gets so excited he tries to run but it just doesn't happen!! He needs to sllooowwww down!

It really frustrates me when he is with his dad and i hear all these stories from his family about what seb did this week, blaah blaah and you think that i should be happy.But im not, it irritates me to pieces because i feel that i am missing out on so much, and i feel like they are rubbing it into my face that "I saw him do this, this week" blaah blaah... And i know they probably aren't rubbing it in to me, but thats just how I feel.
The other thing that irritates me is when someone will say something about how we should be looking after seb or how we should raise him. That gets right down into my bones... I hate it. He is my son and I will raise him how I please. I couldn't give a rats arse if you got kids or not!!

The other thing that frustrates me, is that adam is so damn protective of him. Fusses over every little fall or knock that he has!!! Why don't you buy a bubble for him and put him in it??? And every time he cries or should I say crocodile tears he picks him up!! Grrrrr how many times do i have to tell you not to do that!!! But after seeing Seb today with adam he really has him under the thumb. He knows how to play his daddy that is for sure! and here i bring up the point again of us both raising him differently and disciplining him differently. He has started to bite i tell him off for it where adam doesn't! And Adam when you get a phone call from creche because seb has bitten another child what you going to tell them? Oh sorry I let him do that at home!! Well HELLOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Anyways on that note, it was bloody hot today, and i went for a walk... LOL silly Ness :)

Oh and I went and seen brokeback mountain last nite!!! mmmmm ill do a post on that i think!! And I cried!!!!! But it was not what i expected that is for sure.

Nite all hope you enjoying your lonnnnggg weekend

Week 6 - Weigh In

So i just got back from being to the gym. another half a kilo gone gone gone!! But no body fat losethis week!

I have my PT this afternoon and we going to do some cardio work out! since I am doing pump tonite!! So im looking forward to that!

Werll nothing else really to say except im proud of my little lose because it all counts at the end.

Job Interview

So today was a good day! I had my meeting this morning which went fantastic, to know that I have support in finding a house is fantastic!!

So i went into the gym this morning and did 40 minutes on the bike and 5 minutes on the rower, then i walked home which was a bad idea as it was stinking hot!!

Then this afternoon I had a job interview with a stock feed company. I actually got an interview so exciting!! so I find out Tuesday how I go!!! But im easy which ever way it goes!

So tomorrow I have weigh in and then i have a pt session..So its been a pretty big week of exercise for me!!

I saw my lil man today! he is just so devine and checky and happy happy happy!!!

Well going to watch some TV

The Power of Body Pump

So tonite i did the lauch of Body Pump! I pushed myself and now feel really sore. especially after doing combat last nite. But i know in the end its all worth and it, and its worth pushing myself that extra mile :)

My head has not been clear the last couple of days, well week i should say. I have had alot of emotional issues to deal with! I don't know how that has affected my exercise this week, but i found that there is so much support for single mothers out there that i didn't even knew exsisted! Which from my point of view i think is really poor of the government. People need to be aware of what support they have out there from government agencies and i think more needs to be done to let people know about the support not just for single mums, but people in need in all sorts.

Im feeling a little bit better today about things, knowing that i have these people to help me,but i will feel 100% better once i have a job and have a place to live!

Ive really been craving chocolate the last couple of days, and have been so good not to have any!!! Its good not to have any money. because i think if i did have money then i would have had a whole block by now!

Well my cadio has been restricted to just bike riding because of my calves!! which means im going to have a nice sore arse :) But i need my calves to get better!! so i will do anything to be able to start running again!!

Im really missing my lil boy i haven't seen him since monday! Its so F*%$^ hard i tell you!! But im being strong.. I know he is well! When i feel down i just imagine his big beautiful smile looking at me! It makes me feel so much better!!

Well im off to have a shower and get in PJ's. Put on OC Second series and relax.

Nite All

Body Combat

I feel so damn good right now!! I just did the new launch of Body Combat at the gym. Its the first time i have done it!! And i feel so damn good!!! It was so much fun!!

I walked into the gym and i did body combat and walked home from the gym :) Now im about to sit back watch OC and eat some tea!!

Launch for Body Pump tomorrow nite :)

Going to look at a house tomorrow, i really like it, so fingers crossed!!! I have applied for about 7 jobs in the last 2 days... So i bloody better get some sort of interview for a least one!!

Ok my lil tummy is rumbling :)

xxxx

Just What the doctor ordered!

Just want to say thanks for today Beckie!! I really missed you, so going away for long periods of time again!

Just what the doctor ordered. Can't wait to see the pictures!!!

Questions

Stolen From Jadey

These are supposedly 26 questions that no one would EVER think to ask.Answer them, and then REPOST the bulletin!

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? Awww my eyes

2. How much cash do you have on you?$2.10

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR? Core

4. Favourite planet? Earth

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile? Adam

6. Who was the 4th text message from? Beckie

7. What shirt are you wearing?A brown one

8. Do you "label" yourself as anything? Mother, Friend, Sister, Daughter

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing? K Mart thongs

10. Bright or Dark room? Day time like bright night time like dark

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey? Jadey just been reading her blog over the last month and i think she is great!! Keep up the good work girl

13. What were you doing at midnight last night? Sleeping like a baby

14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?YES

15. Where is your letter box? Near the foot path

16. What's a word that you say a lot? F*^%$

17. Who told you he/she loved you last? Ummm my ex

18. Last furry thing you touched? Ummmm the bathroom mat

19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? ZERO

20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?None

21. Favourite age you have been so far? Ummm probably would have to be 23 because i was pregnant..

22. Your worst enemy?Chocolate

23. What is your current desktop picture? A picture of a beach at Philip Island that my brother took

24. What was the last thing you said to someone? What channel is the oscars on tonite

25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly? Ohhh i would take the money.. and fly overseas :)

26. Do you like someone? Yup - Exercise


Hahhahha hope you learnt something about me !!

A Case of needing to Stretch More

Awwww Sheree gave my calf muscles a massage today!! Or should i say a bashing. I bruised straight away!! I need to stretch more.. how much can one stretch????? Lots of bike riding over the next couple of days :) Lots of heat!!!

I have to confess.. I went snooping and found something I should not have come across until it is given to me!! A letter my brother has written me!! I tried to talk to him yesterday about it and try to get him to open up to me about it but he kept telling me that everything was fine!! Even though i now know that everything is not fine. I moved in here as a temp arrangement and now he needs his own space back!! Sooooooo Yeaaahhhhh i understand everything that he is saying and he is not a bad person, but i feel really really alone right now and feel like i got no one!! So off to centrelink tomorrow to see how they can help me!! Probably send me off to St Lukes or something!! I just feel like my whole world is turning upside down!!

On a good note im catching up with Beckie for Lunch tomorrow.. Yaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh its been ages and i missed her :)

Well Ive confessed my sins for the day..

CHALLENGE FOR THE WEEK - To lose a KILO!!! Im nearly out of the 80's and i want to be out of the 80s

xxxx

Money, Job, Seb, Future, & Me

Last night I didn't sleep very well. Everything was going over and over in my head! Not having any money, not being able to find a job, what the future holds me for, and what effect all of this is having on my little boy!

Do children this young remember things? What mental effects has this seperation had on Seb, going back and forwards ,back and forwards from Mum to Dad?? Even though we are seperated why do i still feel like im powered by the ex? Why do I feel like im stuck here? I don't feel like I can move on because of the shared care that we have. I just feel stuck!

I still feel really lonely. I feel like even though adam and I are not together, that I am still doing this all alone. I still have no one to help me!

Im really down on myself at the moment..But why?? I just feel that with Seb that he is not getting everything that he should be. He doesn't have both his parents living with him 24/7, and a child needs that, he needs the support of both his parents at such a young age!! Im scared of what could come of this later on in his life. Maybe its just knowing how I feel and what I went through having been raised by my dad. I just feel that its like a competition with adam and I on who can do better with him. I don't want that!! Who cares really!! The way we both want him raised, we both do differently now, what will that do to him the future, knowing that one parent lets him do this and one doesnt let him do that!! Will he rebel? What happens if he hates me in the future, what happens if he is told a whole lot of shit and lies by people to make him hate me? It all scares me!!

Just to be told once " your doing such a great job with Seb" wouldn't go astray! But am I? How am I to know? By his constant smile, and energy and hapiness that he has. Or is that just an act that he puts on for us all? Is he really a happy child?? Is he doing it to make us feel better to make us believe that he is? Children are smart!!

When Adam and I were having all our problems i wrote him a poem to tell him how i was feeling. And right now I feel like this! And i want to share it with you! Im lonely and im craving love right now.

The pain that weeps from my eyes
Weeps with every broken heartbeat.
Every heart beat gets weaker and weaker
The pain is making me die inside.

Am I being selfish for craving your love?
Craving a desire I long for!
Something so rare.

To feel how i once felt
To have the passion we once shared
To know who i am again
Come save my dieing heart.

Someday that pain that weeps from my eyes
Shall turn to happy weeps.

Until that day, my pain will stay
And my heart beats weaker and weaker.

Night all
xxxx

A Birdy Told Me

That someone gets kicked of Biggest Loser for cheating?? Anyone have any ideas who it may be???

Weigh in - Week 5

So i had another lose this week, both weight .6kgs and body fat .5% :) So least its something!!

Im very proud of myself!!

Thursday - Swimming Day

Is anyone else home when Moonlighting is on prime with bruce willis?? Hahahahahaa so funny so funny!!

Anyways went swimming with Seb this morning! My god that child loves the water!! Maybe he is going to be the next Ian Thorpe.( minus the illnesses he has at the moment. Hope he can make it to the commonwealth games). Anyways i really love Thursday because its my kinda catch up on sleep when i have seb week! Since swimming wears him out he sleep most of the day!! So i have nanna naps too!! Im not handling the whole Seb getting up at 6.30- 7.00 in the morning. He use to sleep in until like 10am what happened????? We would snuggle up in Bed together and sleep sleep sleep. Now he just wants to play play play!!!!

Off to the gym tonite to do a cardio work out. I have weigh in tomorrow morning :) I have been keeping my food diary just like sheree asked. I think i have been pretty good but will see what she says tomorrow!!

I have a photo i want to share. I don't like this photo but it was when adam and Iwent to China last year! I actually weighed 89.9 kilos here. So i lost some Just excuse the date on the photo as its wrong :) My brother didn't have it set on his camera properly..


Well better get ready for gym, and little man has just risen!!

Clinging Child

I have a clinging child today! He went to creche today as normal and has himself a little girlfriend:) Today him and another girl hanged around all day. They wouldn't leave each others sides all day! The ladies said it was so cute. they also had a music group come in and sing to them today. Seb loves music and the ladies said that he danced and loved it!!

Anyway since we got home he has been "mummy mummy mummy mummy" and just wanting to be held!!! Its not like him, maybe he missed me today :)

I went to the gym this morning and did weights and a cardio work out! 2 hours :) im proud of myself :) Im feeling really good actually but we will see how i am in the morning! I feel I am getting a little fitter... im doing more running and my breathe isn't running out as quickly!! I just need to have patience, as i just feel you do all this hard work and sometimes for a little result or no result at all and it can be really depressing!!

Change of subject!! Might talk about my feelings today!! I have been feeling a bit down over the last couple of days!! Im really hating Bendigo, and feel like im getting no where here.. Im applying for jobs left, right and center and hearing nothing.... I went to an interview thing last week with a job agency and the lady told me my resume was good, so whats the problem people??? Give us a chance...

So i have been thinking i might go back to school and pass some time!! Im not sure what i will do yet but something with accounting or something like that!!

M if you read this thank you so much for your comments about the lingerie. You and hubby enjoy :) heheh what does it look like with the CFM boots on???? LOL !!!