So im feeling flat at the moment with that time of the month and i tell ya! i so didn't miss it when i was pregnant :) I so preffered the buldging belly even though at times it was uncomfortable.
I am waiting for these thunder storms to happen..... if they happen!!! we had lightening and thunder last nite with a lil shower of rain but that was it!! It would be nice to have some rain here in Bendigo!! We surely need it!!
I had a date with beck and bradman yesterday and we went to kid city i wish i had the camera... but that place rocks... you take your kid they run free or like seb get out and go and play in the beach volley ball pit :) but it wears them out like nothing else.. even though seb still faught his sleep and wanted me to lay with him, he slept for 3 hours :) arrrgghhh 3 hours of bliss!!! i tried to have a sleep myself but ummm that didn't happen!!!!
i was going to go away this weekend and spend the weekend with my big bro in melbs but decided against it! i decided a weekend at home having a tidy up is on the hands... i have lots of paper work filed( well not filed) that i need to sort out and what a way to spend my weekend.. :) doing that!!! Get it over and done with and then i don't have to worry about it again :)
I have bursts of energy and go on a rampage and clean and clean i don't know where the energy comes from but it comes from somewhere and then all of a sudden you just hit a rock and its gone.. Like me and the gym i have a burst of energy i hit the gym and then Blaaahhhh i don't see the place for a month :) I am looking forward to having the next couple of weeks with less work hours even though i will miss the money but i will have some time to me... i will be able to go to the gym in the morning before i go to work in the afternoon or vice versa it will be nice and i will be able to pick my son up from creche which i can't even remember the last time i did that so i am looking forward to spending some precious time with my son!! He has been very clinging lately and i think he misses me.. i complained about adam not spending enough time with his son when we were together and look im doing the same thing, i hardly see him anymore because of work! so when i do see him he doesn't want to sleep in his own bed he wants to sleep with mum and has to make sure he is touching my face or one of his feet is touching me somewhere.. arrgghhh the joys of children :)
Well i dont' have to start work until a bit later tomorrow morning so i get a lil sleep in :)
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Fluid Retention
Dr Milne is in the house...
i had a comment about fluid retention so i do a lil research and found the following. I hope you find it uselful
Fluid retention
Fluid regularly leaks into body tissues from the blood. The lymphatic system is a network of tubes throughout the body that drains this fluid (called lymph) from tissues and empties it back into the bloodstream.
Fluid retention (oedema) occurs when the fluid isn’t removed from the tissues. The two broad categories of fluid retention include generalised oedema, when swelling occurs throughout the body, and localised oedema when particular parts of the body are affected. The wide range of causes includes the body’s reaction to hot weather, a high salt intake, and the hormones associated with the menstrual cycle.
However, it’s recommended that you see your doctor rather than self-treat, because oedema can be symptomatic of serious medical conditions such as heart, kidney or liver disease. SymptomsSymptoms of fluid retention can include:
A wide range of common causesSome of the many common causes of fluid retention include:
Gravity - standing up for long periods of time allows fluid to ‘pool’ in the tissues of the lower leg.
Hot weather - the body tends to be less efficient at removing fluid from tissues during the summer months.
Burns - including sunburn. The skin retains fluid and swells in response to burn injuries.
Menstrual cycle - some women experience oedema in the two weeks prior to menstruation.
Pregnancy - hormones encourage the body to hold onto excess fluid.
The Pill - oral contraceptives that include oestrogen can trigger fluid retention.
Dietary deficiency - such as insufficient protein or vitamin B1 (thiamine) in the diet.
Medications - certain drugs, including high blood pressure medication (antihypertensives), corticosteroids and nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs) are known to cause fluid retention.
Chronic venous insufficiency - weakened valves in the veins of the legs fail to efficiently return blood to the heart. The pooling of blood can result in varicose veins.
Treatment optionsDepending on the cause, treatment may include:
A low salt diet
Diuretics (water pills)
Treatment for the underlying medical condition: for example, hormone replacement (thyroxine) in the case of hypothyroidism
Lifestyle changes in response to the underlying medical condition: for example, avoidance of alcohol if liver disease is the cause
Changes to medication or dosage, if drugs are the cause
Dietary adjustments, if malnutrition is the cause
Ongoing medical supervision
Aids such as support stockings.
Self-care options
Mild fluid retention can be helped in the following ways:
Reduce the amount of salt in your diet; for instance, don’t add salt during the cooking process and stop salting your meals at the table. Avoid foods like potato chips and salted peanuts. Be wary of processed foods such as manufactured meats, which tend to contain ‘hidden’ salt.
Vitamin B6 (pyridoxine) is thought to help in cases of mild fluid retention. Good sources of vitamin B6 include brown rice and red meat.
Vitamin B5 (pantothenic acid), calcium and vitamin D help the body to excrete excess fluids.
Include fresh fruits and low fat dairy foods in your daily diet.
Supplements may help in the case of fluid retention caused by the menstrual cycle: for example calcium, magnesium, manganese, evening primrose oil and chaste tree.
Herbal diuretics include dandelion leaf, corn silk and horsetail.
Make sure to discuss the use of supplements with your doctor or health care professional, particularly if you are on any type of medication.
Drink plenty of water. It may sound contradictory, but a well-hydrated body is less likely to retain fluid.
Cut back on dehydrating drinks such as tea, coffee and alcohol.
Cranberry juice has a mild diuretic action.
Lie down with your legs higher than your head, when possible.
Exercise regularly.
Wear support stockings.
i had a comment about fluid retention so i do a lil research and found the following. I hope you find it uselful
Fluid retention
Fluid regularly leaks into body tissues from the blood. The lymphatic system is a network of tubes throughout the body that drains this fluid (called lymph) from tissues and empties it back into the bloodstream.
Fluid retention (oedema) occurs when the fluid isn’t removed from the tissues. The two broad categories of fluid retention include generalised oedema, when swelling occurs throughout the body, and localised oedema when particular parts of the body are affected. The wide range of causes includes the body’s reaction to hot weather, a high salt intake, and the hormones associated with the menstrual cycle.
However, it’s recommended that you see your doctor rather than self-treat, because oedema can be symptomatic of serious medical conditions such as heart, kidney or liver disease. SymptomsSymptoms of fluid retention can include:
Swelling of affected body parts
Feet, ankles and hands are commonly affected
The affected body parts may ache
The joints may feel stiff
Rapid weight gain over a few days or weeks
Unexplained weight fluctuations
When pressed, the skin may hold the indent for a few seconds (pitting oedema)
In other cases, the skin may not indent when pressed (non-pitting oedema).A wide range of common causes
A wide range of common causesSome of the many common causes of fluid retention include:
Gravity - standing up for long periods of time allows fluid to ‘pool’ in the tissues of the lower leg.
Hot weather - the body tends to be less efficient at removing fluid from tissues during the summer months.
Burns - including sunburn. The skin retains fluid and swells in response to burn injuries.
Menstrual cycle - some women experience oedema in the two weeks prior to menstruation.
Pregnancy - hormones encourage the body to hold onto excess fluid.
The Pill - oral contraceptives that include oestrogen can trigger fluid retention.
Dietary deficiency - such as insufficient protein or vitamin B1 (thiamine) in the diet.
Medications - certain drugs, including high blood pressure medication (antihypertensives), corticosteroids and nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs (NSAIDs) are known to cause fluid retention.
Chronic venous insufficiency - weakened valves in the veins of the legs fail to efficiently return blood to the heart. The pooling of blood can result in varicose veins.
Treatment optionsDepending on the cause, treatment may include:
A low salt diet
Diuretics (water pills)
Treatment for the underlying medical condition: for example, hormone replacement (thyroxine) in the case of hypothyroidism
Lifestyle changes in response to the underlying medical condition: for example, avoidance of alcohol if liver disease is the cause
Changes to medication or dosage, if drugs are the cause
Dietary adjustments, if malnutrition is the cause
Ongoing medical supervision
Aids such as support stockings.
Self-care options
Mild fluid retention can be helped in the following ways:
Reduce the amount of salt in your diet; for instance, don’t add salt during the cooking process and stop salting your meals at the table. Avoid foods like potato chips and salted peanuts. Be wary of processed foods such as manufactured meats, which tend to contain ‘hidden’ salt.
Vitamin B6 (pyridoxine) is thought to help in cases of mild fluid retention. Good sources of vitamin B6 include brown rice and red meat.
Vitamin B5 (pantothenic acid), calcium and vitamin D help the body to excrete excess fluids.
Include fresh fruits and low fat dairy foods in your daily diet.
Supplements may help in the case of fluid retention caused by the menstrual cycle: for example calcium, magnesium, manganese, evening primrose oil and chaste tree.
Herbal diuretics include dandelion leaf, corn silk and horsetail.
Make sure to discuss the use of supplements with your doctor or health care professional, particularly if you are on any type of medication.
Drink plenty of water. It may sound contradictory, but a well-hydrated body is less likely to retain fluid.
Cut back on dehydrating drinks such as tea, coffee and alcohol.
Cranberry juice has a mild diuretic action.
Lie down with your legs higher than your head, when possible.
Exercise regularly.
Wear support stockings.
Monday, February 19, 2007
Soft Drink
The other day Beck and I were talking about coffee and soft drink, and why it is not good for us.
I had done some research and found this site which explains a little. But also from my knowledge since starting my job i learnt that every cup of coffee and tea that we have we dehydrate our body half a litre of water! to every 30kgs you are you should have 1 ltr of water...
Check this site out its vert interest
ttp://www.mindconnection.com/library/health/softdrinks.htm
I had done some research and found this site which explains a little. But also from my knowledge since starting my job i learnt that every cup of coffee and tea that we have we dehydrate our body half a litre of water! to every 30kgs you are you should have 1 ltr of water...
Check this site out its vert interest
ttp://www.mindconnection.com/library/health/softdrinks.htm
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Happy Valentine's Day EveryBody
Happy Valentines Day everybody. I hope everyone has had a fantastic day, and has been spoilt rotten by their partners.
As being a single, i have had a great day too! I spent a couple of hours with Beck and Bradman at her beautiul unit! I love the energy in that place and it suits Becks to a Tee :) Bradman and Seb had lots of fun making a mess with Lunch and also playing around the house.
Well its been bloody hot here and im off for a walk tonite when it gets a bit cooler :) Off to the gym tomorrow morning as i don't have to work! which is great :) well everyone enjoy the rest of your day and make the most of being spoilt :)
Ness
As being a single, i have had a great day too! I spent a couple of hours with Beck and Bradman at her beautiul unit! I love the energy in that place and it suits Becks to a Tee :) Bradman and Seb had lots of fun making a mess with Lunch and also playing around the house.
Well its been bloody hot here and im off for a walk tonite when it gets a bit cooler :) Off to the gym tomorrow morning as i don't have to work! which is great :) well everyone enjoy the rest of your day and make the most of being spoilt :)
Ness
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Im Proud
I just got back from the gym :) 45 minute cardio work out and I feel good! Can tick that off
I didn't have to work this morning which was great! Im looking forward to the new girl starting work as that means my hours will get cut back which means more time for me.
I now just have to endure my PT session on sunday but i am looking forward to that as my brother will be joining me.
I hope everyone has a good weekend and everyone keep up the good work!
I didn't have to work this morning which was great! Im looking forward to the new girl starting work as that means my hours will get cut back which means more time for me.
I now just have to endure my PT session on sunday but i am looking forward to that as my brother will be joining me.
I hope everyone has a good weekend and everyone keep up the good work!
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Pump
Ok so i went into the gym tonite.. Yes Yes i did for the first time in about 4 weeks or maybe longer! :) And i got told to do pump umm yes so i did and well i think i will be paying for it.. not only has it been the first real work out i have done, i was doing really lite weights and no weights in the lung track as i hate lunges and i nearly threw up!! My god how unfit am I???? I had my massage afterwards and it killed me, but i am feeling sorry for myself right now.. im sore all over and i thought that massage mite of helped me :) ummm NOT!!!
I feel good though i got on the scales today at the gym and have gone back to 77 kgs so i am now determined more than ever to get rid of this weight and get my arse into the gym!!! i have to make time for it no matter what i have to make time to exercise!!! and get myself fit.. so my gym bag is packed and im going tomorrow lunch time also!! i hate doing things during my lunch break but for the sake of my body and my quiet time at home im going... im going, im going im going to force myself!
I have the house to myself tonite which has been nice, Prison Break has just finished and i should actually be going to bed for work tomorrow, but for some reason i am not tired at all... not one yawn not even itchy eyes :)
So my goal this week at work was to go the gym i have achieved that :)
Gym - 45 minutes of Body PUMP
I am going to set myself lil goals every sunday and im going to achieve them!
Im so proud of myself for going to the gym today its a start in the right direction i now have to stay focused!!
I feel good though i got on the scales today at the gym and have gone back to 77 kgs so i am now determined more than ever to get rid of this weight and get my arse into the gym!!! i have to make time for it no matter what i have to make time to exercise!!! and get myself fit.. so my gym bag is packed and im going tomorrow lunch time also!! i hate doing things during my lunch break but for the sake of my body and my quiet time at home im going... im going, im going im going to force myself!
I have the house to myself tonite which has been nice, Prison Break has just finished and i should actually be going to bed for work tomorrow, but for some reason i am not tired at all... not one yawn not even itchy eyes :)
So my goal this week at work was to go the gym i have achieved that :)
Gym - 45 minutes of Body PUMP
I am going to set myself lil goals every sunday and im going to achieve them!
Im so proud of myself for going to the gym today its a start in the right direction i now have to stay focused!!
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Motivation
Well, today was the first time i actually done any sort of exercise in ummmmm i can't remember! Alli and Seb and I went for a walk tonite, it was actually nice :) i felt good!!! Also on Sunday my brother and I are having a PT down at the lake which i am looking forward too! Its a few baby steps to help me get back on track! I am going to the gym tomorrow too which i am looking forward to as i have not been there for so long, and thought since i am getting a massage tomorrow i will go to gym first then get a rub down!! i shouldn't be so sore the next day. well i will wait and see :)
Well just a quick post OC on
Bye
Well just a quick post OC on
Bye
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
40 Minutes until Prison Break
40 Minutes until Prison Break starts.......... Mmm update....
I have been reading so many blogs lately and not commenting, and have not even wanted to step foot on my own blog site!! Why!!! i find myself boring at the moment!! Actually i think i am a little lost!
I have no balance in my life right now and i think that is making my mind unbalanced well of course it is!!!
It is so god damn hard to get into a rountine!! I really really want to start going back to the gym as i have not been in so damn long and im trying to think when????? when will i go??? most mornings i start work at 7.3o in the morning and work until well our latest night is 7.30. i get an hour and half lunch break but thats when i come home and relax and do my washing etc!!! i don't want to be going and working my arse off in my lunch break to then go back to work tired.. does that make sense??
Arrrghghghghhghghghghghghghghghghhghghghghgggg Mmmmmm if only i could actually do that in real life and my neightbours think im not being murdered!!
I went to my sisters on the weekend , and spend the weekend with her!! that was really nice, i need to be close to her at the moment, and know that she is ok and coping with everything, i won't delve in to deep at the moment, but just needed to get that off my chest!
Rinda i just want to send out a big huge thank you to you babe! Our long phone conversations have been very helpful and i love you to bits girl!!!!!
For you who read me I meet rinda when i firsted moved to Bendigo and she was my saviour!! :) we use to wag classes together and it was heaps of fun, at the end of my year 12 i ran away and didn't tell her so we lost contact! One day i was walking in the market place and she was walking towards me, it was great, the universe brought her to me again!! and since then she has been a sister to me through all our troubled times and our good times i appreciate that! babe big hugs and kisses...
Im finding it really hard to live with my brother at the moment and i think alot of that has to do with me! He has a girlfriend and i feel like the 3rd wheel really!!! I think im jealous that he has found happiness and here i am moping around with noone about to enrol in the school of NUNS!!! I think i have already been accepted, just have to go to confession and ill be there :)
My darling lil sebbie is so wonderful.. i have brought him his bike and he loves it, except that he has realised if he stands on the seat he can change the channel on the TV.. Cheeky he is!! He started in his new room at creche at the start of the week they grow up so quickly.. he is being a real parrot, and the other day his dad said Oh shit and he copied it!! so i really have to tone down on using the F word i tell you!!!
Sheree thank you for you gift voucher and yes i did use it on myself i went and brought myself some new tops from Target today! :) one of them i really love its off the shoulder white with red dots on it!! for you know me well I LOVE RED!!! its just beautiful i will have to get a photo of it and put it on the blog!!! I did some retail therapy today, i know i will pay for it, but i got some new shoes for work also Hush Puppies awww they are devine so damn comfortable and brought myself a whole new stock of Bonds Jocks!! Bonds is all i will wear, for those who don't have a pair go buy some you will fall inlove i surely have!!!
Well better go and get my popcorn LOL and get ready for prison break!
I will try and update more frequently maybe i need reminders on my phone :) LOL can't wait until i can tell my phone to cook me tea and it will :)
I have been reading so many blogs lately and not commenting, and have not even wanted to step foot on my own blog site!! Why!!! i find myself boring at the moment!! Actually i think i am a little lost!
I have no balance in my life right now and i think that is making my mind unbalanced well of course it is!!!
It is so god damn hard to get into a rountine!! I really really want to start going back to the gym as i have not been in so damn long and im trying to think when????? when will i go??? most mornings i start work at 7.3o in the morning and work until well our latest night is 7.30. i get an hour and half lunch break but thats when i come home and relax and do my washing etc!!! i don't want to be going and working my arse off in my lunch break to then go back to work tired.. does that make sense??
Arrrghghghghhghghghghghghghghghghhghghghghgggg Mmmmmm if only i could actually do that in real life and my neightbours think im not being murdered!!
I went to my sisters on the weekend , and spend the weekend with her!! that was really nice, i need to be close to her at the moment, and know that she is ok and coping with everything, i won't delve in to deep at the moment, but just needed to get that off my chest!
Rinda i just want to send out a big huge thank you to you babe! Our long phone conversations have been very helpful and i love you to bits girl!!!!!
For you who read me I meet rinda when i firsted moved to Bendigo and she was my saviour!! :) we use to wag classes together and it was heaps of fun, at the end of my year 12 i ran away and didn't tell her so we lost contact! One day i was walking in the market place and she was walking towards me, it was great, the universe brought her to me again!! and since then she has been a sister to me through all our troubled times and our good times i appreciate that! babe big hugs and kisses...
Im finding it really hard to live with my brother at the moment and i think alot of that has to do with me! He has a girlfriend and i feel like the 3rd wheel really!!! I think im jealous that he has found happiness and here i am moping around with noone about to enrol in the school of NUNS!!! I think i have already been accepted, just have to go to confession and ill be there :)
My darling lil sebbie is so wonderful.. i have brought him his bike and he loves it, except that he has realised if he stands on the seat he can change the channel on the TV.. Cheeky he is!! He started in his new room at creche at the start of the week they grow up so quickly.. he is being a real parrot, and the other day his dad said Oh shit and he copied it!! so i really have to tone down on using the F word i tell you!!!
Sheree thank you for you gift voucher and yes i did use it on myself i went and brought myself some new tops from Target today! :) one of them i really love its off the shoulder white with red dots on it!! for you know me well I LOVE RED!!! its just beautiful i will have to get a photo of it and put it on the blog!!! I did some retail therapy today, i know i will pay for it, but i got some new shoes for work also Hush Puppies awww they are devine so damn comfortable and brought myself a whole new stock of Bonds Jocks!! Bonds is all i will wear, for those who don't have a pair go buy some you will fall inlove i surely have!!!
Well better go and get my popcorn LOL and get ready for prison break!
I will try and update more frequently maybe i need reminders on my phone :) LOL can't wait until i can tell my phone to cook me tea and it will :)
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Shoes that Squeak !!
Tell me what you think!!
I have a found a site that sells shoes that squeak when a child walks! The squeak can be turned off, but i just wanted you to have a look at some pictures of a couple pair of the shoes and tell me if you would considering buying them!!! Or if you know anyone that would buy them show your friends show whoever I NEED LOTS OF FEEDBACK PLEASE!!!
They are made of geniun leather
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Blurr describes my mood
I have had a blur weekend!! I coming down with conjunctivtis and god damn my eye is itching. i feel sorry for lil bubbas who get, i can't even stand it! i am such a sook!!
I had an awesome weekend with my sebastyn catching with friends and just chilling out at home. He even slept in for me this morning and layed on the couch with me until 10.30 snuggling up to me which was good. maybe he knew he was going to his daddies tonite.. I am finding it really hard at the moment saying good bye once my week is over! Think its because he is talking so much more even though he doesn't listen to you, but he has so much more personality and i love it!!!
Im cooking a roast at the moment.. Mmmmm yum i can smell on the yummy flavours can't wait to eat it!!!
The rain has been awesome.... and the smell of rain is one of my favourite smells.....
Its funny i have been thinking lately about stuff i do and wonder if there is anything WEIRD that you do. So if you do let me know.... I have three things i do that i think are silly..
1. i rub my feet together when i go to sleep think its a comfort thing.
2. at every sink in my house i have hand wash... ever since seb was born i must have clean hands.. don't they call that obssessive compulsive Disorder????
3. every time i go to the toilet i must put toilet paper in the bowl.. no matter if its No 1's or 2's..
Im a freak i think :) hehehehe...
Would love to hear from you all
I had an awesome weekend with my sebastyn catching with friends and just chilling out at home. He even slept in for me this morning and layed on the couch with me until 10.30 snuggling up to me which was good. maybe he knew he was going to his daddies tonite.. I am finding it really hard at the moment saying good bye once my week is over! Think its because he is talking so much more even though he doesn't listen to you, but he has so much more personality and i love it!!!
Im cooking a roast at the moment.. Mmmmm yum i can smell on the yummy flavours can't wait to eat it!!!
The rain has been awesome.... and the smell of rain is one of my favourite smells.....
Its funny i have been thinking lately about stuff i do and wonder if there is anything WEIRD that you do. So if you do let me know.... I have three things i do that i think are silly..
1. i rub my feet together when i go to sleep think its a comfort thing.
2. at every sink in my house i have hand wash... ever since seb was born i must have clean hands.. don't they call that obssessive compulsive Disorder????
3. every time i go to the toilet i must put toilet paper in the bowl.. no matter if its No 1's or 2's..
Im a freak i think :) hehehehe...
Would love to hear from you all
Friday, January 19, 2007
Am i a tennis Junky?
The black bags under my eyes have increasingly got larger as this week has worn on! Not only because i have worked 40 hour shifts at work for the past 3 weeks, but because the tennis has been on... Yes i love my tennis! and because the men play at nite they have not been finishing until 12 - 1 in the morning, so it has all caught up on me!!
I have taught seb to do the "come on" and it is sooo cute!!!! I went to the aussie open last year and lined up in the garnier line in 45 degree heat for an hour... just to get a free garnier show bag but it was worth it :) and my hair done :)
I am catching up with a friend of mine tomorrow Kristen and her sone Malik :) named after a cricketer...... he was born on the same day as seb and we shared a room together in hospital :) i have not seen them for about 6 months so i am looking forward to it :)
I need to get out and socialise more often outside the club scene :) Im to old :) hehehehe and so over it i have decided !!!!
Well must get back to the game as there was a break to close the roof.. enjoy the weekend everyone stay cold and behave LOL
Beckie and Ails hope you enjoyed your salsa tonite would love to join your girls one nite :)
I have taught seb to do the "come on" and it is sooo cute!!!! I went to the aussie open last year and lined up in the garnier line in 45 degree heat for an hour... just to get a free garnier show bag but it was worth it :) and my hair done :)
I am catching up with a friend of mine tomorrow Kristen and her sone Malik :) named after a cricketer...... he was born on the same day as seb and we shared a room together in hospital :) i have not seen them for about 6 months so i am looking forward to it :)
I need to get out and socialise more often outside the club scene :) Im to old :) hehehehe and so over it i have decided !!!!
Well must get back to the game as there was a break to close the roof.. enjoy the weekend everyone stay cold and behave LOL
Beckie and Ails hope you enjoyed your salsa tonite would love to join your girls one nite :)
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Relaxed to the max
I just want to give a huge thank you to my darling brother chris and g/friend Awwwiiii for there beautiful birthday present to me.. I got a 75 min stone massage and facial at silk and have just got home complety relaxed and smelling beautiful. It was devine....... what a great way to start my day ..
Thanks heaps guys
xxxxxx
Thanks heaps guys
xxxxxx
Monday, January 15, 2007
I can Flirt :)
What a weekend of ups and downs i have had!! Friday nite was awesome. went out with a few friends ( so wished you could of come beckie ) and had an absolute ball!!! Didn't get home until 4.30 in the morning and had to drive to melbs on sat so was pretty rat shit on sat i tell you!! Anyways one of the girls i was out with is friends with a bouncer who decided to come and play with us once we knocked off work and wow he is sooo hot and i had the best time flirting with him. i honestly didnt know i had it in me, but i do and god damn did it feel good to have someone flirt back. Pity he has a girlfriend though!!! I enjoyed my flirt and i think i have the confidence to do it some more!!
Saturday after 5 hours sleep it was time to go to melbs for my step sisters 21st i so wanted to stay home and should have!!! after driving all the way to melbs we hit the eastern freeway and everything was brought to a stand still as they are doing road works down there there was only one fffinnnn lane!! i tell you i was not happy and then finally after 1 hour of driving which usually only takes 15 mins we got to my dads and once we turned up everyone decided to leave.. Do i smell???? but anyways i got back on the drink and had a good time with my sis and stuff!!!
What else has been happening, i need to get my arse into gear and start doing some exercise thats what i need to do other wise all my hard work will be worth nothing!!! Im just torn between two minds at the moment and exercise is not a priority at the moment.
Well guys the tennis is on and i love it so im going to go and chill out with a drink and watch the tennis...... i get my lil man tomorrow nite and i can't wait......
Saturday after 5 hours sleep it was time to go to melbs for my step sisters 21st i so wanted to stay home and should have!!! after driving all the way to melbs we hit the eastern freeway and everything was brought to a stand still as they are doing road works down there there was only one fffinnnn lane!! i tell you i was not happy and then finally after 1 hour of driving which usually only takes 15 mins we got to my dads and once we turned up everyone decided to leave.. Do i smell???? but anyways i got back on the drink and had a good time with my sis and stuff!!!
What else has been happening, i need to get my arse into gear and start doing some exercise thats what i need to do other wise all my hard work will be worth nothing!!! Im just torn between two minds at the moment and exercise is not a priority at the moment.
Well guys the tennis is on and i love it so im going to go and chill out with a drink and watch the tennis...... i get my lil man tomorrow nite and i can't wait......
this is me and my best friend rinda on friday nite
this is me and rinda and brooke on friday nite
seb fell asleep with his hands over his eyes on the way to melbs on saturday it was so cute
This is my cheeky newphew taj.. xx 
taj and i being silly
Monday, January 08, 2007
Happy Birthday to Me
Well im 25 today!! Mmmmm how am i feeling old. not a young 20 year old anymore!!! But I must admit i have been very spoilt today!!!
Where do i start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Firstly i woke up to a text msg from Sebastyn and Sperm donor which was nice, then i opened up a card from my dad which has a pleasant surprise of some money because i really need some new bras and knickers. My sis and Taj called me and sang me happy birthday it was really cute...
My darling friend Sheree sent me some beautiful flowers to work and also gave me a voucher which i must spend on myself heheheh as i always have the habbit of spending them on seb..
Beautiful Becks made me this necklace which i can't wait to wear :) i have to buy myself something green to wear it with :)
My darling brother brought me a 7o min stone package at Silk day spa which i have booked in for next week i can't wait it is going to be so relaxing and also him and alli cooked my a roast lamb and it was sensational :) Best damn roast ever i tell you
My dearest friend Rinda brought me a ticket to John Mayer in April which i bloody can't wait for :) I am so damn excited i love john mayer its going to be awesome...
Work was wonderful they got me a cake and also got to knock off work early so spent some time with seb and he got me some scratchies and a tattslotto ticket so hopefully its a winner :)
I thank everyone for all there kind words and it was such a beautiful day i got so spoilt and it was worth turning 25 even though i cringe at the thought of being that age :)
Where do i start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Firstly i woke up to a text msg from Sebastyn and Sperm donor which was nice, then i opened up a card from my dad which has a pleasant surprise of some money because i really need some new bras and knickers. My sis and Taj called me and sang me happy birthday it was really cute...
My darling friend Sheree sent me some beautiful flowers to work and also gave me a voucher which i must spend on myself heheheh as i always have the habbit of spending them on seb..
Beautiful Becks made me this necklace which i can't wait to wear :) i have to buy myself something green to wear it with :)
My darling brother brought me a 7o min stone package at Silk day spa which i have booked in for next week i can't wait it is going to be so relaxing and also him and alli cooked my a roast lamb and it was sensational :) Best damn roast ever i tell you
My dearest friend Rinda brought me a ticket to John Mayer in April which i bloody can't wait for :) I am so damn excited i love john mayer its going to be awesome...
Work was wonderful they got me a cake and also got to knock off work early so spent some time with seb and he got me some scratchies and a tattslotto ticket so hopefully its a winner :)
I thank everyone for all there kind words and it was such a beautiful day i got so spoilt and it was worth turning 25 even though i cringe at the thought of being that age :)
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Thoughts of the Moment
Oh my god im having a Posting obssession :) I just been doing lots of thinking since my last post and thought i would write it all down! Its been a year since me and "sperm donor" split, and what a battle that has been. I can't control my feelings anymore, my anger, my hurt and pain the happiness that the relationship brought me! (excuse the change of topic but i wish the possums would get off the damn roof )
Its so hard to believe that the happiness that we once had was gone in an instant! I know i had my faults too, and i know i shouldn't think what if but i do think wot if??? Where would i be today if we were still together, what would i be doing if we were still together, what if we were still together???
But then i think i should be grateful of what we had, because i have learnt alot about myself and i have a beautiful son that i treasure with all my heart. If i was with him today would i have the job that i have now? would i still be in Bendigo? would i be happy? would i have found out new things about myself? and for this i should be grateful for us breaking up, because i would be who i am today and i would have the things that i have today!!
I have finally stood up for myself and making a life for myself and not living out of someone elses pocket. Im not relying on someone to make the money and put the food on the table. Its me that is doing all of that, and knowing that i am doing this to the best of my ability, i am proud. Its hard being a single mum working and raising a child and trying to have a social life, having time to myself, all at once, but im doing it and i reconise now how much of a fantastic job i am doing. I shouldn't doubt myself, i don't have someone telling me everyday "God Vanessa your doing such a fantastic job"... and i do doubt myself but being here today and seeing what i achieved last year i shouldn't doubt myself anymore.
To have lost the weight that i have lost to date, even though i have a long way to go, to be coping with working full time and raising a child to having a roof over my head, late nites and sleepless nites, if i can cope with this i can achieve anything that i want to achieve!
I can do it attitude needs to be planted in my head. every morning when i wake up and look at myself in the mirror and know that i am going to do my job today to the best of my ability and know i have tried i should be proud. and im not just talking about my job, im talking my everything with my son, myself, my family, my friends, my day to day chores.
This year is going to bring bew begginings for me and new paths and new attitudes! I don't want to be a single mum for the rest of my life, i want to be a person who has achieved everything i set out to achieve, i want to be a somebody! I can be a somebody!!
If i wake up in the morning saying today is going to be a shit day well of course its going to be a shit day!! Im going to wake up with a smile every morning going what a lovely day it is today hail rain or shine!!!! Lifes to short to be sad and down on the world to feel sorry for ourselves. Things happen for a reason, people come and go in our lives for a reason, we learn from all of that!!
I have learnt a great deal, about my self confidence, my abilities and i thank you "sperm donor" for that because i wouldn't be the person i am today if we weren't together and i wouldn't have the beautiful son that i do today! Because all the challenges, the roller coaster road that we took i learnt from.
Nite
Its so hard to believe that the happiness that we once had was gone in an instant! I know i had my faults too, and i know i shouldn't think what if but i do think wot if??? Where would i be today if we were still together, what would i be doing if we were still together, what if we were still together???
But then i think i should be grateful of what we had, because i have learnt alot about myself and i have a beautiful son that i treasure with all my heart. If i was with him today would i have the job that i have now? would i still be in Bendigo? would i be happy? would i have found out new things about myself? and for this i should be grateful for us breaking up, because i would be who i am today and i would have the things that i have today!!
I have finally stood up for myself and making a life for myself and not living out of someone elses pocket. Im not relying on someone to make the money and put the food on the table. Its me that is doing all of that, and knowing that i am doing this to the best of my ability, i am proud. Its hard being a single mum working and raising a child and trying to have a social life, having time to myself, all at once, but im doing it and i reconise now how much of a fantastic job i am doing. I shouldn't doubt myself, i don't have someone telling me everyday "God Vanessa your doing such a fantastic job"... and i do doubt myself but being here today and seeing what i achieved last year i shouldn't doubt myself anymore.
To have lost the weight that i have lost to date, even though i have a long way to go, to be coping with working full time and raising a child to having a roof over my head, late nites and sleepless nites, if i can cope with this i can achieve anything that i want to achieve!
I can do it attitude needs to be planted in my head. every morning when i wake up and look at myself in the mirror and know that i am going to do my job today to the best of my ability and know i have tried i should be proud. and im not just talking about my job, im talking my everything with my son, myself, my family, my friends, my day to day chores.
This year is going to bring bew begginings for me and new paths and new attitudes! I don't want to be a single mum for the rest of my life, i want to be a person who has achieved everything i set out to achieve, i want to be a somebody! I can be a somebody!!
If i wake up in the morning saying today is going to be a shit day well of course its going to be a shit day!! Im going to wake up with a smile every morning going what a lovely day it is today hail rain or shine!!!! Lifes to short to be sad and down on the world to feel sorry for ourselves. Things happen for a reason, people come and go in our lives for a reason, we learn from all of that!!
I have learnt a great deal, about my self confidence, my abilities and i thank you "sperm donor" for that because i wouldn't be the person i am today if we weren't together and i wouldn't have the beautiful son that i do today! Because all the challenges, the roller coaster road that we took i learnt from.
Nite
Friday, January 05, 2007
Off the Rails, and woffling on
Well only two more sleeps until i am quarter of a centuary old!! I am actually not looking forward to it at all!!! Why??? because i feel im getting old. Where did my child years go and early 20's??? mmmm I can't remember!!! Being a party goer, having a baby, working, Ohhh everything else in between!! what ever everything else is!!! To think back and look at photos of my life so far it is so amazing what your brain keeps in your head and the things that you don't remember or should i say don't want to remember!!
I only have a few baby photos of me from when i was little and to see how we change and grow into the person that we are today. Our bodies are so amazing!!
People have all these new years resolutions and i have been thinking about mine, and i really don't know what to say! firstly what i write i want to do, but at the moment i have no motivation so i will just keep thinking until i really know what i want to do and know that i will be able to do it. Its easier said then done for me at the moment, and i know if i put my mind to it i will do it!! but i don't know if my mind is ready to do it yet !! oh does that make sense??
Today my sister came and seen me on her way back from their holiday and we went out for lunch. I had the pleasant company of beckie and Bradman also!! Beckie you looked so devine today!! and your lil boy is just such a doll!!! if only my child would sit like yours :) LOL Please note that my child has been on red cordial all day :) hehehehe its only been since about 5 that he decided to pass out on the couch!!! i don't know where he gets his energy from i tell you!! My sister has a lil boy taj which i always talk about, anyways we all went in seperate cars and the whole way to lunch and the whole way back to my house seb was saying "taj taj taj" and taj was saying "where sebbie wheres sebbie". They are just so close and are so attached to each other it is just so cute but once they are apart they miss each other!! Funny lil buggers. Lee we should be so proud to have these two as our sons and nephews :) Its times like these that i wish our family was all in the same town and not so far away. My dad had been up for the last 2 days looking at seb and he loves hims "grumpy" my dads name to the child and when he left last nite he was so cranky that he had gone!!! I know we all grow up and we all have our own lives, but i love my family so much and i hate us all being apart!! So if you read this guys i miss yas all :)
It was nice having dad here and coming home to a clean kitchen etc especially after working!! i need a maid i think someone to clean and cook for me!! then i can come home relax and not have to worry!!!
My head is in 100 places at the moment and sometimes i don't know if i am coming or going! I don't know what direction in life i want to take!! i have come to a cross roads. I love my job very much and i love the people that i work with, but life is so short and i so feel like i am missing out on something, my heart is missing something, i don't know what it is though?????? It could be a mixture of things!! I hope soon that i can un jumble it all, or something happens that makes the decisions for me!! So many things that i want to do and so limited time and resources does make it hard!!! I would really love to back to school but when is the right time? I would love to travel the world but when is the right time? I would love to leave Bendigo, but when is the right time? I love my son very much but sometimes i think if i didn't have him things would be so much easier!!! I know that is horrible to say but having a son and shared care makes my decisions so much harder. Because i can't just up and leave, i can't just go to school, i can't just travel the world. I need to support him and myself and i need to be here for him!!!!!
When the timing is right i suppose i will know!!! maybe i won't go to school until im 50 who knows who knows what tomorrow will bring for me!!!
Well i think i have bored you all enough for the moment!!!
Time to go and read some blogs i think
Signing out
Ness
I only have a few baby photos of me from when i was little and to see how we change and grow into the person that we are today. Our bodies are so amazing!!
People have all these new years resolutions and i have been thinking about mine, and i really don't know what to say! firstly what i write i want to do, but at the moment i have no motivation so i will just keep thinking until i really know what i want to do and know that i will be able to do it. Its easier said then done for me at the moment, and i know if i put my mind to it i will do it!! but i don't know if my mind is ready to do it yet !! oh does that make sense??
Today my sister came and seen me on her way back from their holiday and we went out for lunch. I had the pleasant company of beckie and Bradman also!! Beckie you looked so devine today!! and your lil boy is just such a doll!!! if only my child would sit like yours :) LOL Please note that my child has been on red cordial all day :) hehehehe its only been since about 5 that he decided to pass out on the couch!!! i don't know where he gets his energy from i tell you!! My sister has a lil boy taj which i always talk about, anyways we all went in seperate cars and the whole way to lunch and the whole way back to my house seb was saying "taj taj taj" and taj was saying "where sebbie wheres sebbie". They are just so close and are so attached to each other it is just so cute but once they are apart they miss each other!! Funny lil buggers. Lee we should be so proud to have these two as our sons and nephews :) Its times like these that i wish our family was all in the same town and not so far away. My dad had been up for the last 2 days looking at seb and he loves hims "grumpy" my dads name to the child and when he left last nite he was so cranky that he had gone!!! I know we all grow up and we all have our own lives, but i love my family so much and i hate us all being apart!! So if you read this guys i miss yas all :)
It was nice having dad here and coming home to a clean kitchen etc especially after working!! i need a maid i think someone to clean and cook for me!! then i can come home relax and not have to worry!!!
My head is in 100 places at the moment and sometimes i don't know if i am coming or going! I don't know what direction in life i want to take!! i have come to a cross roads. I love my job very much and i love the people that i work with, but life is so short and i so feel like i am missing out on something, my heart is missing something, i don't know what it is though?????? It could be a mixture of things!! I hope soon that i can un jumble it all, or something happens that makes the decisions for me!! So many things that i want to do and so limited time and resources does make it hard!!! I would really love to back to school but when is the right time? I would love to travel the world but when is the right time? I would love to leave Bendigo, but when is the right time? I love my son very much but sometimes i think if i didn't have him things would be so much easier!!! I know that is horrible to say but having a son and shared care makes my decisions so much harder. Because i can't just up and leave, i can't just go to school, i can't just travel the world. I need to support him and myself and i need to be here for him!!!!!
When the timing is right i suppose i will know!!! maybe i won't go to school until im 50 who knows who knows what tomorrow will bring for me!!!
Well i think i have bored you all enough for the moment!!!
Time to go and read some blogs i think
Signing out
Ness
Friday, December 29, 2006
Christmas, New Year and in Between
Wow!! What a huge week it has been!!! I won't go into full detail but Christmas was so not xmas this year!!
Santa came to seb from me on Christmas Eve as i didn't see him on Xmas day which was very upsetting for me but we won't go there at this stage!!! We had a good time together opening all his present. I will have to update photos at another stage as i dont know what my bro has done with the camera.. Santa brought him a guitar and the lil bugger because the way it was wrapped he knew exactly what it was.. he was saying "gutiar guitar" and was so excited when he opened it.. lots of wiggles and thomas stuff and a play swing from my family on its way!! just have to get it from Melbs to Bendigo...
Soooooo after i handed seb over i went back to Ky with my sister having a pit stop on the way to see my friend Glenn!! we rocked up and his mum offered us to stay for tea which was nice!!! we ate and off we went for a journey back to Ky..
6.30am xmas morning my lil nephew was awake... all i could here was neerrrr bang nerrr bang nerrrr bang... he got a remote control car from santa and doesn't know how to control it yet.... heheheh but very cute.. i was drifting in and out of sleep!!!!! then about 8tish my sister said go say merry xmas to aunty Nessie.. so he came into bed with me and waking me by making anoying noises in ear.. iwasn't really in the mood as i was missing seb terribly and just wanted the two of them to be together.....
So my day consisted of reading the Joanna Lees book that my sister got me for xmas!! I had it finished my boxing day and good way to drown out xmas!!! But a bloody fantastic book and what an eye opener..
Sooo lots of reading is on my agenda that the moment my sis also brought me Schpalle Corby for my birthday which is coming up, and also gave me the trisha Broadbridge book and another from Jennifer Rowe and her mother..... I love reading about crime, and real life stories!!!!
Xmas day was over about 9.30pm and what a big boxing day we had... travelling 2 and a half hours to melbs to have xmas with my dad!!!! it was cold, raining and bloody shit weather.... I was really upset that seb wouldn't be with me also to spend it with my family so opening the presents was very hard!!! but when i get him tomorrow he will have a few more presents to open :) It was good to catch up with all my bro who lives in Melbs as we don't see each other very often and just have a cruising day of relaxing and reading :)
Was back at work on thursday after having a week and bit off and my god we had the busiest two days ever since trying to get everyone in for adjustments over the xmas newyear break...
My sis came over last nite so we went out for a few drinks and where home in bed by 12.30 as she was drunk, and spent most of this morning with her head in the toilet.. Love your work Lee Pea :)
I get sebbie tomorrow and i can't wait. i have not seen him for a whole week and i not going to let him go for a while :)
Sooo won't be doing much at all for new years, visiting a few people will all that will be on my agenda..
Everyone i hope you have a safe New Years and all enjoy yourself what ever you are doing.. remember to leave your keys at home if your drinking.
I hope 2007 brings everyone happiness and lets all be grateful for what we have in our lives!
Love you all
Ness
Santa came to seb from me on Christmas Eve as i didn't see him on Xmas day which was very upsetting for me but we won't go there at this stage!!! We had a good time together opening all his present. I will have to update photos at another stage as i dont know what my bro has done with the camera.. Santa brought him a guitar and the lil bugger because the way it was wrapped he knew exactly what it was.. he was saying "gutiar guitar" and was so excited when he opened it.. lots of wiggles and thomas stuff and a play swing from my family on its way!! just have to get it from Melbs to Bendigo...
Soooooo after i handed seb over i went back to Ky with my sister having a pit stop on the way to see my friend Glenn!! we rocked up and his mum offered us to stay for tea which was nice!!! we ate and off we went for a journey back to Ky..
6.30am xmas morning my lil nephew was awake... all i could here was neerrrr bang nerrr bang nerrrr bang... he got a remote control car from santa and doesn't know how to control it yet.... heheheh but very cute.. i was drifting in and out of sleep!!!!! then about 8tish my sister said go say merry xmas to aunty Nessie.. so he came into bed with me and waking me by making anoying noises in ear.. iwasn't really in the mood as i was missing seb terribly and just wanted the two of them to be together.....
So my day consisted of reading the Joanna Lees book that my sister got me for xmas!! I had it finished my boxing day and good way to drown out xmas!!! But a bloody fantastic book and what an eye opener..
Sooo lots of reading is on my agenda that the moment my sis also brought me Schpalle Corby for my birthday which is coming up, and also gave me the trisha Broadbridge book and another from Jennifer Rowe and her mother..... I love reading about crime, and real life stories!!!!
Xmas day was over about 9.30pm and what a big boxing day we had... travelling 2 and a half hours to melbs to have xmas with my dad!!!! it was cold, raining and bloody shit weather.... I was really upset that seb wouldn't be with me also to spend it with my family so opening the presents was very hard!!! but when i get him tomorrow he will have a few more presents to open :) It was good to catch up with all my bro who lives in Melbs as we don't see each other very often and just have a cruising day of relaxing and reading :)
Was back at work on thursday after having a week and bit off and my god we had the busiest two days ever since trying to get everyone in for adjustments over the xmas newyear break...
My sis came over last nite so we went out for a few drinks and where home in bed by 12.30 as she was drunk, and spent most of this morning with her head in the toilet.. Love your work Lee Pea :)
I get sebbie tomorrow and i can't wait. i have not seen him for a whole week and i not going to let him go for a while :)
Sooo won't be doing much at all for new years, visiting a few people will all that will be on my agenda..
Everyone i hope you have a safe New Years and all enjoy yourself what ever you are doing.. remember to leave your keys at home if your drinking.
I hope 2007 brings everyone happiness and lets all be grateful for what we have in our lives!
Love you all
Ness
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Week of Holidays
So im on my week of holidays!!! Not that i have stopped i have spent a couple of days in Melbourne with my dad.... Seb had a great old time, and has started pretending. It was so cute!! i was lying on the couch watching TV and for about 2 minutes he was going to my bag rubbing his hands together then coming up to me and with his hands rubbing my face. then dad and i clicked on he was going to my bag pretending to put cream on his hands was saying clean then coming up to me and doing it to my face!! it was so cute!!!!!
He also loved it outside my dad has this cute little yard with some fruit trees in it and seb and i were playing chasing around them but he would bend down and look under the trees to see where i was cheeky lil sod!! : )
Well i have a cute photo of him in my dads boots!! :)
He also loved it outside my dad has this cute little yard with some fruit trees in it and seb and i were playing chasing around them but he would bend down and look under the trees to see where i was cheeky lil sod!! : )
Well i have a cute photo of him in my dads boots!! :)
Lil poser of the camera isn't he...
My sister came on and stayed with me on monday nite which was really nice, and we stayed up until 2am.. my brother went to the robbie concert in Melbs so we waited up for him to come home but he was to tired. A friend of mine pony who is moving away came over with another friend and they stayed and had some drinks with us.... Pony stayed on my couch and said he wanted something to cuddle.. this was the outcome :) 
a teddy of mine that i received.. heheheh it was close to life size as possible :)
So im not really looking forward to xmas this year!! the first xmas i will be having without my dad.. i had a cry to him before i let today!!! :) i won't be getting seb till after lunch!! then we heading over to my sisters place..... this is my dad and seb watching the wiggles today!! first time since we got down there that he watched the wiggles..
Well i suppose i better go and think about what i want for tea!!!! its too hot to eat but i suppose i better eat something!!!!
Have a merry merry xmas everyone if i don't post before then!! travel safely if you are travelling and have a fun day with all your family and hope santa brings you that special gift.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Im Missing
Im missing so much right now!!!
I wish i could have a nite sleep without my head exploding! I have not had a decent nite sleep in two weeks. Its driving me crazy!!
I missing lots of things really... My motivation has gone up north somewhere and i don't know when its going to come back!! I have none whats so ever.
Im missing my family especially my sister, there is some stuff going on at the moment with her and i just wish i could be there with her every day and make everything better! So if u read this sis i love you..
A friend of mine is leaving to go to Perth in three weeks so thats got me down a bit too, but ill cope just gives me somewhere else to go and visit.
But on the good news one of my friends is pregnant and i can't wait :) Seb have another play mate :)
And Sheree if your reading only 11 months until you get married so get planning :) hehehehe
My brother has got a girlfriend so i haven't been seeing much of him lately!!! He in honey mood period at the moment, but they are both like 2 peas in a pod :)
Maybe thats why im not sleeping, because i don't have anyone to talk to of a night time anymore because we never have 5 minutes together alone...
My child has just decided to squash his sandwich in the lino :) oh lovely!!
Well im over this smoke that is hanging around it makes me feel grose and smell yuck!!
Im off to the gym tonite for the first time in 3 weeks, don't know what i will do something lite and easy :) LOL
C- Ya
I wish i could have a nite sleep without my head exploding! I have not had a decent nite sleep in two weeks. Its driving me crazy!!
I missing lots of things really... My motivation has gone up north somewhere and i don't know when its going to come back!! I have none whats so ever.
Im missing my family especially my sister, there is some stuff going on at the moment with her and i just wish i could be there with her every day and make everything better! So if u read this sis i love you..
A friend of mine is leaving to go to Perth in three weeks so thats got me down a bit too, but ill cope just gives me somewhere else to go and visit.
But on the good news one of my friends is pregnant and i can't wait :) Seb have another play mate :)
And Sheree if your reading only 11 months until you get married so get planning :) hehehehe
My brother has got a girlfriend so i haven't been seeing much of him lately!!! He in honey mood period at the moment, but they are both like 2 peas in a pod :)
Maybe thats why im not sleeping, because i don't have anyone to talk to of a night time anymore because we never have 5 minutes together alone...
My child has just decided to squash his sandwich in the lino :) oh lovely!!
Well im over this smoke that is hanging around it makes me feel grose and smell yuck!!
Im off to the gym tonite for the first time in 3 weeks, don't know what i will do something lite and easy :) LOL
C- Ya
Friday, December 08, 2006
My sisters 30th
Wow i am so looking forward to my week off before christmas to try and catch up on some things. I feel like i am on energiser batteries and wondering when i am going to crash!! Between my family work and seb its been hectic.
Last weekend was my sister 30th and what a blast that was. I was dissapointed that i could not come to the bloggers xmas party but family comes first!!
Me and my sis started the night of with a yaga bomb and went from there, sharing 3 bottles of champs between 3 of us and then drinking the udls we were pretty happy by the time the night was over..
Here are some photos of my family to share with you from our day. This is a photo of all us kids, my younger brother chris and my sister Lee-Anna, me and my older Brother Harry at the front...This is the first time we have been together since Sebs 1st birthday in April, its very rare that you can get us all in the one spot at once and also still be alive :)
The middle photo is my nephew taj he the next morning he thought he would get in Allis bag ( my bros girlfriend) and put gloss all over his face..
Last weekend was my sister 30th and what a blast that was. I was dissapointed that i could not come to the bloggers xmas party but family comes first!!
Me and my sis started the night of with a yaga bomb and went from there, sharing 3 bottles of champs between 3 of us and then drinking the udls we were pretty happy by the time the night was over..
Here are some photos of my family to share with you from our day. This is a photo of all us kids, my younger brother chris and my sister Lee-Anna, me and my older Brother Harry at the front...This is the first time we have been together since Sebs 1st birthday in April, its very rare that you can get us all in the one spot at once and also still be alive :)
The middle photo is my nephew taj he the next morning he thought he would get in Allis bag ( my bros girlfriend) and put gloss all over his face..
Monday, November 27, 2006
Sunday, November 19, 2006
BRENDA FEVOLA
Just letting everyone know that Brendan Fevola is coming to our practice on the 30th November to sign autographs and take pictures etc all welcome prizes and a signed jumper by all the players to win in a raffle!!!!! Money is going to a childrens charity. We just not sure which one yet!!! so if anyone has any ideas let me know
I need sleep
Wot a huge week i have had..
the cup was shitful i was very devastated, it rained it was cold and it rained and it was cold!!! i very put off!!! but a huge day, did lots of drinking, and lots of yaga bombs!!! never had them before and my god was i drunk drunk drunk...
I think it has all caught up with me, since i have worked this week plus the cup plus a seminar in Melbourne for work on this weekend, im bloody pooped!!! It was crazy in melbourne with the U2 concert and the g20 seminar!!!! never seen sooooo many people and sooo much traffic
Well our hot water service bursted so we were without water for three days!! That was lots of fun not!!!! I ended up getting up nice and early before work on friday and going to the gym for a work out and having a shower because i was so sick of boiling water on the stove!! :) Lucky it wasn't my week to have seb otherwise i wouldn't been going off my head!!
My sister and her lil boy are coming over next weekend which i can't wait for because its been ages since i seen them both then the following weekend its her 30th which i ammm sooooo looking forward to !!!!
heya Beckie i did that age thing and it was pretty spot on with me :) hehehe you find all these wonderful fun things to do!! I love it!!!
I can't believe this weather i so wish that it would make up its mind if it was to be hot, cold rain hail or shine!!!!!! Rain be good if your listening up there..
Its been a real struggle for me this week. I haven't seen seb much which is partly my fault because im trying to have as minimal contact with adam as possible but that is whole different post!! im missing him like crazy and can't wait to have him and snuggle and kiss him and kiss him some more this week and going swimming and do lots of fu stuff with him!!! i have missed him terribly... ( tears in my eyes) You would think that after a year that i would be use to it by now, but i don't think i will ever get use to it!! I think now that things are clearer in my head about adam etc it will get harder going week without seeing his beautiful face and hear him say bickie bickie and bike bike, and giggles (wiggles)....
I have possums at my house and there is a dog that lives next door and it is going crazy they must be out the back.. they walk along my fence to the next door neighbours house and play in the trees, just as i wrote that bang bang across my roof!!!
Well think its time for me to go slump my arse on the couch in front of the TV and get myself chilled for sleep.. i have not been sleeping much this week, keep waking up hundred times during the night which is pissing me off so hopefully i get some zzzz tonite.
Nite everyone
xxxx
the cup was shitful i was very devastated, it rained it was cold and it rained and it was cold!!! i very put off!!! but a huge day, did lots of drinking, and lots of yaga bombs!!! never had them before and my god was i drunk drunk drunk...
I think it has all caught up with me, since i have worked this week plus the cup plus a seminar in Melbourne for work on this weekend, im bloody pooped!!! It was crazy in melbourne with the U2 concert and the g20 seminar!!!! never seen sooooo many people and sooo much traffic
Well our hot water service bursted so we were without water for three days!! That was lots of fun not!!!! I ended up getting up nice and early before work on friday and going to the gym for a work out and having a shower because i was so sick of boiling water on the stove!! :) Lucky it wasn't my week to have seb otherwise i wouldn't been going off my head!!
My sister and her lil boy are coming over next weekend which i can't wait for because its been ages since i seen them both then the following weekend its her 30th which i ammm sooooo looking forward to !!!!
heya Beckie i did that age thing and it was pretty spot on with me :) hehehe you find all these wonderful fun things to do!! I love it!!!
I can't believe this weather i so wish that it would make up its mind if it was to be hot, cold rain hail or shine!!!!!! Rain be good if your listening up there..
Its been a real struggle for me this week. I haven't seen seb much which is partly my fault because im trying to have as minimal contact with adam as possible but that is whole different post!! im missing him like crazy and can't wait to have him and snuggle and kiss him and kiss him some more this week and going swimming and do lots of fu stuff with him!!! i have missed him terribly... ( tears in my eyes) You would think that after a year that i would be use to it by now, but i don't think i will ever get use to it!! I think now that things are clearer in my head about adam etc it will get harder going week without seeing his beautiful face and hear him say bickie bickie and bike bike, and giggles (wiggles)....
I have possums at my house and there is a dog that lives next door and it is going crazy they must be out the back.. they walk along my fence to the next door neighbours house and play in the trees, just as i wrote that bang bang across my roof!!!
Well think its time for me to go slump my arse on the couch in front of the TV and get myself chilled for sleep.. i have not been sleeping much this week, keep waking up hundred times during the night which is pissing me off so hopefully i get some zzzz tonite.
Nite everyone
xxxx
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Cup Morning
Wow what a morning it has been. Our pilot light went out on the hot water service last night so i had to boil water this morning to have a bath! :( i tell you not a good start to the day. besides the weather being freezing im still looking forward to the cup today! i went out last night and feeling very seedy this morning but all good have a few drinks and i will be right again
Here are some photos of me :)
Friday, November 10, 2006
Photos to share
So its been ages since i have put photos on here so i thought i would update you all from what i have been doing over the last couple of months.
This was seb sitting on me trying to make me be a horse but i had no energy. This photo was taken not long ago and since then i have had all my hair chopped off.. Short and spikey :)
These photos are of my night out with Beck at karoke!!! Had such a blast :)
Sebs crazy hair 
doo!! he looked so damn cute
My trip to the fairy park last weekend!! it was so much fun i will be taking seb there
So there you go!! hope you enjoyed
Stranger to this
Hello!! yes i am still alive, i feel like a stranger to this....
Its been ages i know!! very slack not enough hours in the day, and the fact that i have not set up my broadband!!!
I just opened my emails for the first time in two weeks 135 emails, and all junk mail!! yes thats right all junk mail.
Wow whats been happening. My job i am still inlove with just been working flat out there and that takes up 90% of my week!!! And then there is my beautiful lil treasure.. which i will have to undate some photos with of both of us..
On the weight loss, im getting there im down to 72 kilo now.... only another 7 to go until i reach goal..
I have been very slack with the gym and stuff though i had my first pt today in over 2 months and i tell you i cried my eyes out, i am so weak, and all my strength is gone and i was kicking myself for it!!!
I hope that everyone is doing well and i hope to catch up on your blogs over the weekend while seb is having his sleeps!!
I am off to the bendigo cup this wednesday so i will sure take some photos and put them on the site, and i might even get my broadband back up and running.
My new house with my brother is great not that we get to see much of each other, as hour working hours are completely opposite to each other.
I have been going out, i took bek out to karoke the other week and she one an eski with a radio in it, you deserved that Beks... besides that, i don't really have time for much else... i hope to get my life back into some routine soon...
well take care guys and talk soon
xxxx
Its been ages i know!! very slack not enough hours in the day, and the fact that i have not set up my broadband!!!
I just opened my emails for the first time in two weeks 135 emails, and all junk mail!! yes thats right all junk mail.
Wow whats been happening. My job i am still inlove with just been working flat out there and that takes up 90% of my week!!! And then there is my beautiful lil treasure.. which i will have to undate some photos with of both of us..
On the weight loss, im getting there im down to 72 kilo now.... only another 7 to go until i reach goal..
I have been very slack with the gym and stuff though i had my first pt today in over 2 months and i tell you i cried my eyes out, i am so weak, and all my strength is gone and i was kicking myself for it!!!
I hope that everyone is doing well and i hope to catch up on your blogs over the weekend while seb is having his sleeps!!
I am off to the bendigo cup this wednesday so i will sure take some photos and put them on the site, and i might even get my broadband back up and running.
My new house with my brother is great not that we get to see much of each other, as hour working hours are completely opposite to each other.
I have been going out, i took bek out to karoke the other week and she one an eski with a radio in it, you deserved that Beks... besides that, i don't really have time for much else... i hope to get my life back into some routine soon...
well take care guys and talk soon
xxxx
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Welcome from the New Pad
Heya Everyone
Well first i would like to welcome you all to my new place :) hehehe i will have to take some photos and put them on here. I am nearly settled in.. still have a few boxes to unpack, but besides that i am loving the new place.
I don't have broadband here yet but using dial up which is really slow and i am so not use to it.
I have been really good, enjoying myself and spending time with all my friends and fam.
I have been motivated this week as i have not been to the gym in ages and ages and so far have been every day this week. I think now that i have the new place and feel safe and have my bro here with me, i am starting a new chapter in my life. I really want to lose this extra weight that i have before xmas which means i have to knuckle down and put in the hard yards
I am going out to tea with Beck tonite, which i am looking forward to, as we have not had much one on one time together lately. Lil bradman will be with us which i am also looking forward to .
well gang just wanted to update and hopefully over the weekend i will catch up on everysone blogs
Well first i would like to welcome you all to my new place :) hehehe i will have to take some photos and put them on here. I am nearly settled in.. still have a few boxes to unpack, but besides that i am loving the new place.
I don't have broadband here yet but using dial up which is really slow and i am so not use to it.
I have been really good, enjoying myself and spending time with all my friends and fam.
I have been motivated this week as i have not been to the gym in ages and ages and so far have been every day this week. I think now that i have the new place and feel safe and have my bro here with me, i am starting a new chapter in my life. I really want to lose this extra weight that i have before xmas which means i have to knuckle down and put in the hard yards
I am going out to tea with Beck tonite, which i am looking forward to, as we have not had much one on one time together lately. Lil bradman will be with us which i am also looking forward to .
well gang just wanted to update and hopefully over the weekend i will catch up on everysone blogs
Friday, September 15, 2006
If we were meant to be
I had some stuff i needed to get off my chest so i wrote this poem
If we were meant to be my eyes would glitter with happiness
If we were meant to be my heart would be fulfilled
If we were meant to be i would feel love
If we were meant to be i would miss you when we are apart
If we were meant to be i would smile with joy
If we were meant to be i would melt with every touch
If we were meant to be i would be content
If we were meant to be i would know what true love is.
If we were meant to be my eyes would glitter with happiness
If we were meant to be my heart would be fulfilled
If we were meant to be i would feel love
If we were meant to be i would miss you when we are apart
If we were meant to be i would smile with joy
If we were meant to be i would melt with every touch
If we were meant to be i would be content
If we were meant to be i would know what true love is.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Please explain
I am a bit dumb founded at the moment. I had weigh in yesterday. After 3 days of drinking and partying and eating crap i managed to lose a kilo and a half and my body fat went down. I just don't understand how!!!! So i think i have to work extra hard this week to make sure i keep it off!!!
My weekend is going to be a cruiseee one!! i am going to Rindas house for a bbq tea tonite, as they haven't seen seb in ages, and rinda's lil brother Jem is a music buff and seb loves that.. Tomorrow im going over to see my nan and parsie who have been away travelling north for the past 3 months, so it will be good to see them and then off to Stay with Lee for the nite, and let the lil ones run wild :) I spoke to my sis on the phone last nite and her lil boy taj has been saying when sebbie come to stay, and he going to sleep with me :) So im really excited because i want them to be close cousins :) It was actually really funny because when i got on the phone he said wheres sebbie and i said hes asleep, and he said aunty nessie go and wake him up!!! I just thought that was so cute!!
well i better get going as its such a beautiful day out ther i thought i might walk back to work!!
See Ya
My weekend is going to be a cruiseee one!! i am going to Rindas house for a bbq tea tonite, as they haven't seen seb in ages, and rinda's lil brother Jem is a music buff and seb loves that.. Tomorrow im going over to see my nan and parsie who have been away travelling north for the past 3 months, so it will be good to see them and then off to Stay with Lee for the nite, and let the lil ones run wild :) I spoke to my sis on the phone last nite and her lil boy taj has been saying when sebbie come to stay, and he going to sleep with me :) So im really excited because i want them to be close cousins :) It was actually really funny because when i got on the phone he said wheres sebbie and i said hes asleep, and he said aunty nessie go and wake him up!!! I just thought that was so cute!!
well i better get going as its such a beautiful day out ther i thought i might walk back to work!!
See Ya
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
XMas List
Hey guys
I have started my dream xmas list at the side of my blog which when i think of something i need i am going to add too. Its not too far away so i thought i would get my ideas out there!!
Happy reading my family and friends
I have started my dream xmas list at the side of my blog which when i think of something i need i am going to add too. Its not too far away so i thought i would get my ideas out there!!
Happy reading my family and friends
Monday, September 11, 2006
Its time to say Good-Bye
before i start this has some offensive langauge!!
So my head is a bit of a scramble at the moment, so much going on, but trying to keep positive about it all!
I have not had much sleep in the last 4 days, nor have i stopped drinking, and eating shit, which really hasn't helped my mood at all!!
Today i am at home with seb as he is not allowed at creche as he has been sick. Also over the weekend my relationship with adam came to a new stage. That its over!!! And even though its hard, i feel good about it!! Its the right decision... A few things happened over the weekend that made me realise that i don't have to put up with him anymore, his actions anything!
Friday nite i went out on the town with my friend Karen it was way heaps fun until i lost my brand new phone, but anyways i got home and i get this knock on the door about 4.30 in the morning, and it was adam, he came around because he thought i picked up and brought someone home, then on saturday night i went out with another friend of mine rinda, and just as we were pulling up in the taxi he was doing a drive by my house. so i rang him and asked what he was doing and he said seeing if i was home!! Like hello, stalker..... i was so mad at him!!! and then he tells me that i don't deserve seb as my son.. For fuck sake, it was my weekend off, i wasn't the one out driving while my son was at home in bed, and he tells me i don't deserve my son... (just let me make it clear that he lives with his sister who was home but thats not the point!!!) So that was kind of the last straw for me!!!
As much as i want my son to have his father and mother under the same roof it would all be for the wrong reasons!! Adam keeps saying what about seb, we need to do this for seb. But what about ourselves!! What about my feelings, my heart, my life???? Why should i be in a realtionship that makes me unhappy for the sake of my son??? I think the biggest thing that really sank in, was that i looked at like i love adam, but im not "in love" with adam and that makes all the difference to me!!!
it so emotionally draining and i know things will get better over time, i have a beautiful son, a loving family, fantastic group of friends, a fantastic job, and a new place, i just need to keep thinking of the positive and everything will be fine.
Well i might go and have a nap while seb is sleeping!!
Ciao
So my head is a bit of a scramble at the moment, so much going on, but trying to keep positive about it all!
I have not had much sleep in the last 4 days, nor have i stopped drinking, and eating shit, which really hasn't helped my mood at all!!
Today i am at home with seb as he is not allowed at creche as he has been sick. Also over the weekend my relationship with adam came to a new stage. That its over!!! And even though its hard, i feel good about it!! Its the right decision... A few things happened over the weekend that made me realise that i don't have to put up with him anymore, his actions anything!
Friday nite i went out on the town with my friend Karen it was way heaps fun until i lost my brand new phone, but anyways i got home and i get this knock on the door about 4.30 in the morning, and it was adam, he came around because he thought i picked up and brought someone home, then on saturday night i went out with another friend of mine rinda, and just as we were pulling up in the taxi he was doing a drive by my house. so i rang him and asked what he was doing and he said seeing if i was home!! Like hello, stalker..... i was so mad at him!!! and then he tells me that i don't deserve seb as my son.. For fuck sake, it was my weekend off, i wasn't the one out driving while my son was at home in bed, and he tells me i don't deserve my son... (just let me make it clear that he lives with his sister who was home but thats not the point!!!) So that was kind of the last straw for me!!!
As much as i want my son to have his father and mother under the same roof it would all be for the wrong reasons!! Adam keeps saying what about seb, we need to do this for seb. But what about ourselves!! What about my feelings, my heart, my life???? Why should i be in a realtionship that makes me unhappy for the sake of my son??? I think the biggest thing that really sank in, was that i looked at like i love adam, but im not "in love" with adam and that makes all the difference to me!!!
it so emotionally draining and i know things will get better over time, i have a beautiful son, a loving family, fantastic group of friends, a fantastic job, and a new place, i just need to keep thinking of the positive and everything will be fine.
Well i might go and have a nap while seb is sleeping!!
Ciao
Friday, September 08, 2006
Ouch
My head hurts, im hung over, and dizzy but still managing to write this blog on this windy day!! so if it doesn't make sense that is why!!
Ouch because i lost my brand new F*%$ing phone last nite while out! :( i am guttered.... rang telstra the other day to renew my plan they said hey we will pay off your old phone and give you a new one for free. One of those Video phones i was like sweet!!! anyways got it and learnt how to use it and bang its gone!!! so now i have all these accessories and no flamin phone.... Anyways i might just go into telstra and get a phone on a plan :(
Ok well now ive had a sook i feel better!
have a good one everybody!!
Ouch because i lost my brand new F*%$ing phone last nite while out! :( i am guttered.... rang telstra the other day to renew my plan they said hey we will pay off your old phone and give you a new one for free. One of those Video phones i was like sweet!!! anyways got it and learnt how to use it and bang its gone!!! so now i have all these accessories and no flamin phone.... Anyways i might just go into telstra and get a phone on a plan :(
Ok well now ive had a sook i feel better!
have a good one everybody!!
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
The Lady In Red
Well i had an absolute blast in Ballarat on the weekend. I felt sexy and i loved my red dress!!! and i didn't break an ankle in my shoes!!! We left on saturday and where we stayed was beautiful. I drank beer all night!! and actually thought i would wake up worse for wear but i didn't.
Here are some photos of our night!!
this is me
So there is so pics... i had a ball dancing!!!!
On two good notes, i have just been on the phone with Telstra... to renew my plan and welll, i won lottery today!!! they are paying out my old phone $413 to go for free and i am getting a new c3 video phone for free!!! i am getting 2 months of music downloads for free and my 1st month for free which is $79.00!!! i also get 450 worth of free calls a month so im excited...
Allllssoooo today i got a phone call from the real estate agent and i have a new house to move into!! there has been so issues with this house, i am scared living here and i don't like my neighbours so me and my brother are going to move in together again, this time in a bigger house with more space for the 3 of us.. Im very excited!!!! Its a great opportunity for us both to save some money!!!! As i am heading overseas next year for 2 weeks!!
Well i better get my arse into gear and organise some things now!!
Talk to you all soon
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Hello
I am such a slack arse lately!!! Ummm where do i start!!! Well lots has happened over the last week.. I went to Kyabram on the weekend to spend some time with my sister and we went to a ball that was awesome. Photos to come!!!! I got absolutely plastered and didn't get home until 5.30am in the morning!! Ohhh god i felt so old!!!!!! i don't know how people can do that every weekend!!!!!
I am very proud of myself! I ran on the treadmill at the gym last week for 20 minutes. First time i have ever done it!! i was so proud of myself!! I couldn't kept going but i didn't want to kill myself!!
Ummmmmm what else!! I caught up with Miss Beckie Boo on wednesday... Ohh what a blast of day we had today!!! I have another ball to go to this weekend in ballarat so we went shopping fo some shoes and had so much fun. thanks so much for your help.
so here are some photos and sneek peeks of what i will be wearing. The rest you will have to wait for!!! so as you can see the bottom of my dress and the shoes! stayed tuned
Saturday, August 19, 2006
The Melbourne Zoo
What an awesome day! Adam and I took seb to the zoo for the first time. It was good to have a family day together :) Seb loved seeing all the animals especially the lions. They were going off tap. walking right past us roaring, it literally sent shivers down my spine, to have them so close....
I got a movie of the lions and once i figure out how to put it on i will upload it, unless anyone can tell me!!
This is seb with a baby baboon he was saying hello :)
I got a movie of the lions and once i figure out how to put it on i will upload it, unless anyone can tell me!!
This is seb with a baby baboon he was saying hello :)
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Catch up
Well hello everybody!! What a busy time it has been for me! i have finally caught up with everyones blogs and how fantastic everyone is doing with weight losses.. Its fantastic.
I have had a dreaded sinus infection that has finally gone.. i felt like i had a migrane 24/7 in my forhead it was horrible!!!
Sydney was awesome, except that it rained the whole time i was up there, which sucked because back in good old Bendigo it was sunshine!!! I learnt lots more about being a chiropractic CA and becoming my confident in myself and in my work!!
Mmm what else, seb has just become so independent. as you will see from the photos, he likes to feed himself now!! Mmmmmm what a fun clean up job it is.
I have had a dreaded sinus infection that has finally gone.. i felt like i had a migrane 24/7 in my forhead it was horrible!!!
Sydney was awesome, except that it rained the whole time i was up there, which sucked because back in good old Bendigo it was sunshine!!! I learnt lots more about being a chiropractic CA and becoming my confident in myself and in my work!!
Mmm what else, seb has just become so independent. as you will see from the photos, he likes to feed himself now!! Mmmmmm what a fun clean up job it is.
Cheeky lil bugger. I am getting him weighed and measured next wednesday its been ages since i have had it done, so it will be interesting to see!!! He is learning more words every day and it won't be long before he starts putting sentences together.
I got myself weighed today. Its been ages since i have updated you i have been oh so very slack. i weighed in at 74.2 and my body fat is at 41.1% !!!! i have lost 10.5kgs since i started.
Im feeling good within myself but i just want to reach goal and feel that extra good about myself. Beckie everytime you come into work you always complementing me, thanks so much, it makes you feel good....
I got a F&*%ing $290 gas bill in the mail the other day i was sooooo shattered.... os upset and so grrrrrrrr... when i don't have seb i am going to freeze as i don't need another one of those coming my way!!!!
I start extra shift this week at work which will be good money wise but will have to get my butt into gear and get organised.
Well its my day off today and i got all my washing done thank god, its such a beautiful day, i walked into town with seb which was good cause he had a sleep, and now he is having another sleep... I got a PT tonite :( arrggghh oh so not looking forward to it!!!
Well i might go and read a book and chill for a bit while lil is sleeping.
Take care everyone and ill try and post a lil more regular
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Luv You
My god i didn't realise how long it has been since i posted last and so much has happened.
Right now i feel like someone has hit my over the forhead with a metal pole. I don't know what is going on with my head so this post won't be a long one as i really can't think straight at the moment
Firstly seb started saying love you last week. It sure brought a tear to my eye and just hearing those words come from his mouth makes my day.
I went to sydney on the weekend for work which was once again awesome! I love sydney.. i think i could live there.
I have been really naughty with my eating and excercising has been slack, but i have now set my personal goals each week with work which now is motivating me to move my arse into gear.
4 now that is it
Right now i feel like someone has hit my over the forhead with a metal pole. I don't know what is going on with my head so this post won't be a long one as i really can't think straight at the moment
Firstly seb started saying love you last week. It sure brought a tear to my eye and just hearing those words come from his mouth makes my day.
I went to sydney on the weekend for work which was once again awesome! I love sydney.. i think i could live there.
I have been really naughty with my eating and excercising has been slack, but i have now set my personal goals each week with work which now is motivating me to move my arse into gear.
4 now that is it
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Motivation
Ok so i got motivation. I was up at 5.30am this morning and went and did combat in at the gym, mowed my lawns and whipper snipped, had a massage, cleaned my house a lil and even had time to shave my legs. It was so good to have a day to myself to do what i wanted. Its been ages since i have done this. I feel really good.
I was suppose to go out for breakfast with my brother, but i came back home after combat and feel asleep and my phone rang about 9.30am and it was my brother asking where i was.. hehehe i had slept through the alarm.. i needed the sleep..
Well going to cook spag bowl for tea. Mmmm my favourite
I was suppose to go out for breakfast with my brother, but i came back home after combat and feel asleep and my phone rang about 9.30am and it was my brother asking where i was.. hehehe i had slept through the alarm.. i needed the sleep..
Well going to cook spag bowl for tea. Mmmm my favourite
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Untitled
I don't know what to title this blog.... I just want to make it clear to people that read my blogs, that the reason i write my blog is so that i can get off my chest what i am feeling and to let the people who read my blog know whats happening in my life right now. You might not agree with what I do, and that the whole world can read about my life, but so be it, i choose to do it. Its also about getting support from other people who have been through the similar situations, its about supporting each other through hard times, through the weight loss through what ever. So if you want to go running back to people, about what i have written in my blog then so be it, because i really don't care and i don't have to justify myself, or what i write. If you have a problem with what i write then don't read it, also usually when i write about certain people in my blog i usually have spoken to them about it anyways. My feelings are my feelings and I choose to express them however i want. And this is the way i am choosing to express them.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Scattered Thoughts
I have just been reading becks blog, and how upset she is with herself about the way she looks etc. I have not known someone with the kindest heart, senerity and affection as she has, and to read about her being down on herself has touched me. The point i am getting at is that i posted a message to her. I have been reading a book by an inspirational man called Dr John Demartini. The book is called " How to make one Hell of a profit and still get to heaven". It is absolutely fav book and not only has it made me learn about money finance etc, it has also taught me about positive quotes, sayings etc and how the mind is so powerful. A quote i wrote to beck was " Whatever you think about, thank about, you bring about" This really gels with me, and hopefully it does to others, and hopefully people can see the meaning behind it. So i contridict myself when i said in my last blog that i felt like a fat hefalump in that photo. because if i think that i look like a fat hefalump then i am a fat hefalump. Does that make sense.
I have also learnt about stability and control, and self control, and how the universe won't let you expand if you can't control what you have at the moment, so for me, when i learn how to discipline myself with money and learn to save, then i will get more money, payrise etc. Please don't worry if none of this makes sense to you, and please know that i have not joined a cult or anything, i have just been doing alot of reading and watching dvd's with work and have learnt alot and how it applies in my life.
So for me to have stability and control in my life, i need order. I need order in my house, finance, emotions, physically, love life. So my first step was opening up a saving accounts that earns me interest to help me save.
I have laid down the ground rules with adam. I have said to him that i am sick of being in limbo land so you either want to be with me or you don't simple. I know where I want my life to head and I know what i need to fulfill it, so we both stop playing games and we sort out our problems and we be together or we part, and just be there for Sebastyn. I need happiness and love and support. He eithers gives it to me or he doesn't. and i move on.
I have a job that gives me stability and I love my job and i have so much room to grow and expand, and im determined to take my career as far as i can go now.
I am determined to get the lingerie business up and going with Beck, and make it happen and make it successful.
I want the best for my son and for myself, and to know that i am comfortable in my life.
I am determined to drop this last 10kgs that i have to go. for 5 weeks now i have been at plato. I have been lazy with eating, exercising, i need to get off my arse and do something about it! Be healthy, energetic, feel sexy, have self worth, confidence, not only for myself, but to be able to play with my son and my nephew. I want to be an active mother, Im young...
Wow my head feels lighter after spitting all this out!
I have also learnt about stability and control, and self control, and how the universe won't let you expand if you can't control what you have at the moment, so for me, when i learn how to discipline myself with money and learn to save, then i will get more money, payrise etc. Please don't worry if none of this makes sense to you, and please know that i have not joined a cult or anything, i have just been doing alot of reading and watching dvd's with work and have learnt alot and how it applies in my life.
So for me to have stability and control in my life, i need order. I need order in my house, finance, emotions, physically, love life. So my first step was opening up a saving accounts that earns me interest to help me save.
I have laid down the ground rules with adam. I have said to him that i am sick of being in limbo land so you either want to be with me or you don't simple. I know where I want my life to head and I know what i need to fulfill it, so we both stop playing games and we sort out our problems and we be together or we part, and just be there for Sebastyn. I need happiness and love and support. He eithers gives it to me or he doesn't. and i move on.
I have a job that gives me stability and I love my job and i have so much room to grow and expand, and im determined to take my career as far as i can go now.
I am determined to get the lingerie business up and going with Beck, and make it happen and make it successful.
I want the best for my son and for myself, and to know that i am comfortable in my life.
I am determined to drop this last 10kgs that i have to go. for 5 weeks now i have been at plato. I have been lazy with eating, exercising, i need to get off my arse and do something about it! Be healthy, energetic, feel sexy, have self worth, confidence, not only for myself, but to be able to play with my son and my nephew. I want to be an active mother, Im young...
Wow my head feels lighter after spitting all this out!
Saturday, July 15, 2006
The Ball, Geelong and My week
Hey Guys, glad you all had a good time at the bloggers meet, im sorry i could not be there but i ended up having to look after sebastyn. But next one ill be there for sure.
So the ball was great... i got plastered and ended up home at 2.30am. I was drinking vodka Freezes 7% alcohol so i wasn't surprised that i woke up feeling like crap and that i needed to have a spit :)
We had a beautiful two course meal i had chicken stuffed with rice and a cheeseeee sauce. And pumpkin soup it was soooo yumm..
I got up and had a dance and a mingled with the footy boyz and girls. They had a live band who must of been big fans of cat stevens because they played sooooo many of his songs... Overall it was a good nite and it was good to go out with Adam, even though i didn't see much of him. hehehe
Below are some photos from the ball! I felt like a hefalump next the girls cause they so little but i still felt great.
So its me on the left Beck and Kaz who are cousins.
I had some hollywood tape happening to keep my boobs in. If you want to look at the photo closer click on it.
So this is adam and I
So there is some pictures for you.
On wednesday i took sebastyn to Geelong i needed some R & R and it was the first time he had been at that beach and he loved it. He chased the sea gulls for ages and picked the sand up in his hands and would chuck it everywhere. Anyways back in our room where we were staying was a desk and chair. And Lil one has no fear whats so ever. We went shopping and i brought him some tic toc biscuits. anyways i said to him that he had, had enough but he was determined to get more. So below i took some photos of his determination.
Climbing on the chair getting the packet of biscuits
and standing
He has no fear and that scares me sometimes. He is always walking to strangers, waving good bye to people he doesn't know, i suppose its just part of him learning and growing up! He is saying lots of words now which is great and he is trying so hard to have a conversation with you but it won't be long.
My week has been good, i have actually been to the gym more than once this week. I have put my foot down and have got some extra motivation from somewhere so hopefully now i can get my arse into gear and lose this last 10 kgs i need to lose and hopefully get my body fat down.
Well im off to do some reading and have some quiet time since i have no child.
Ciao
Friday, July 07, 2006
My week of eating
I said the other day that i post what i have been eating, hoping that it will make me have some restraint on what junk i eat.. Well i think this week has been ok. I have not updated my weight in ages due to that i have not had a weigh in but i did on tuesday and it has stayed the same.
I have gone back on having slim shakes for brekfast now, to try and help with my weight lose as i was not eating breakfast and as you all know we need to have breakfast to kick of our day.
Wed
B/Fast
Slim shake
Lunch
Baked potato and hot chocolate
tea
chicken stir fry with hokiin noodles honey and garlic sauce
Thurs
B/Fast
slim shake
Snack
apple
Lunch
Left over stir fry
snack
dry fruit and nuts
Fri
B/Fast
slim shake
snack
dried fruit and nuts
lunch
chicken roll with lettuce
tea
maccas
So i think overall i have been ok...
Tonite i have to footy ball and i am so excited. i can't wait.... i will hae updates of pictures for you.
have a good weekend everyone
xxx
I have gone back on having slim shakes for brekfast now, to try and help with my weight lose as i was not eating breakfast and as you all know we need to have breakfast to kick of our day.
Wed
B/Fast
Slim shake
Lunch
Baked potato and hot chocolate
tea
chicken stir fry with hokiin noodles honey and garlic sauce
Thurs
B/Fast
slim shake
Snack
apple
Lunch
Left over stir fry
snack
dry fruit and nuts
Fri
B/Fast
slim shake
snack
dried fruit and nuts
lunch
chicken roll with lettuce
tea
maccas
So i think overall i have been ok...
Tonite i have to footy ball and i am so excited. i can't wait.... i will hae updates of pictures for you.
have a good weekend everyone
xxx
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
ONE dead mouse and my 100th Post
Sooo for my 100th post ill be talking dead mice :) I woke up this morning to give seb a bottle and low and behold there was a mouse in the middle of my kitchen floor. Its scrared the absolute shittaaaasss outta me!!! I took one step down and it didn't move. It was sitting there with its tail curled around. and i thought ohh my god its got friendly!!! So i got a ice cream container and put it over the top of it and it still didn't move and then put a huge container of water on top of that so it could go anywhere... I texted adam and said please come around and remove the mouse from my kitchen... and he did thank god otherwise it would still be sitting there dead....
Pest control will be around this week to bait my house and get rid of the rest hopefully!!!!
So hopefully there will be some peace and quiet in my house without mice :)
I have my first inspection for my house next month and I asked them today if i could put a sand pit in the back yard for sebastyn and they said yes so i think thats great.. gives him something to play with outside instead of going and hiding in the outside toilet all the time...
Well my day off today has been productive and lil man is having a sleep at the moment, and my dad and his wife are coming to baby sit this weekend, so im trying to get the house all cleaned :) hehehehe.... knowing mazza i will come home from my ball and the house will be spotless :)
Toodles for now!!
Pest control will be around this week to bait my house and get rid of the rest hopefully!!!!
So hopefully there will be some peace and quiet in my house without mice :)
I have my first inspection for my house next month and I asked them today if i could put a sand pit in the back yard for sebastyn and they said yes so i think thats great.. gives him something to play with outside instead of going and hiding in the outside toilet all the time...
Well my day off today has been productive and lil man is having a sleep at the moment, and my dad and his wife are coming to baby sit this weekend, so im trying to get the house all cleaned :) hehehehe.... knowing mazza i will come home from my ball and the house will be spotless :)
Toodles for now!!
& House Keys Locked inside
Mmmm well as if my weekend wasn't an entertaining one, last night i locked my keys in the house. I actually think it was Karma!!! I had a fight with adam on sunday nite and told him to give me the spare key back so of course he did, and my luck my brother came around last nite so take me to get some tea and what did i do. walked straight out the bloody door without my keys!!!! I tell ya my head not screwed on lately!!!
Im enjoying walking everywhere. i was up and out of the house by 7am this morning! and the stars where still out!! Its a nice walk to and from work!! I have sebastyn this week so don't know how i will be taking him to creche on friday!! might be going by taxi!!!
Well i better go clean my house up before adam brings seb over!!!
Got the footy ball on saturday so will have to make sure i get some photos for you all
ill actually be in a dress, wearing make up and have my hair done.. so very rare for me, so make sure you treasure the photos :)
Chow
Im enjoying walking everywhere. i was up and out of the house by 7am this morning! and the stars where still out!! Its a nice walk to and from work!! I have sebastyn this week so don't know how i will be taking him to creche on friday!! might be going by taxi!!!
Well i better go clean my house up before adam brings seb over!!!
Got the footy ball on saturday so will have to make sure i get some photos for you all
ill actually be in a dress, wearing make up and have my hair done.. so very rare for me, so make sure you treasure the photos :)
Chow
Sunday, July 02, 2006
"Loose", Broken Car , Human Pooh
Mmmmmm what a fun filled weekend i have endured! I went to my sisters on Friday nite after work, to chill and enjoy some family company! It was a fantastic weekend until coming home today!
Firsty i learnt the new slang. just shows how much i get out. "Loose" is a word they use alot of there. "Oh my god shes is in "loose" form tonite".........
We went to the footy yesterday and that was, caught up with some people that i hadn't seen in a long time! then last nite we went out to the pub for a few drinks and a boogy! that was fun....
Lee drove my car down the street and parked it in a public car park. When we went to pick it up this morning some disgusting person decided to stand on my bonnet and do there numbers 2!! I was so disgusted... who the F&*%$ would do that???
Then driving home today just coming into Bendigo my car decided to die!!! Yeah great fucking car.. thank god my sister was following behind me.... i got out and gave it the biggest kick!!! Im over it!!!!! so now i am without a car for gods knows how long!!!! will be getting my exercise this week that is for sure.. So my great weekend ended in shit!!!
But on a good note my bro was in Bendigo playing footy today and my uncle so was good to catch up with the family, and my uncle finally got to meet sebasty because he has never met him.. so yeah..
well im outta here i can't be bothered writing anymore....
Firsty i learnt the new slang. just shows how much i get out. "Loose" is a word they use alot of there. "Oh my god shes is in "loose" form tonite".........
We went to the footy yesterday and that was, caught up with some people that i hadn't seen in a long time! then last nite we went out to the pub for a few drinks and a boogy! that was fun....
Lee drove my car down the street and parked it in a public car park. When we went to pick it up this morning some disgusting person decided to stand on my bonnet and do there numbers 2!! I was so disgusted... who the F&*%$ would do that???
Then driving home today just coming into Bendigo my car decided to die!!! Yeah great fucking car.. thank god my sister was following behind me.... i got out and gave it the biggest kick!!! Im over it!!!!! so now i am without a car for gods knows how long!!!! will be getting my exercise this week that is for sure.. So my great weekend ended in shit!!!
But on a good note my bro was in Bendigo playing footy today and my uncle so was good to catch up with the family, and my uncle finally got to meet sebasty because he has never met him.. so yeah..
well im outta here i can't be bothered writing anymore....
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
News has sickened me!
I have cried and I have been sickened by the death of an innocent 8 year old girl in Perth who was raped and strangled in a shopping centre yesterday! You sick bastered! How could any human being be so cruel and vial? When something like this happens to a child it really hits home and makes you think that that could have been your child!!! Male or Female.
Cherish every moment with your children family and friends because you don't know when it could be your last!
ok must go i have a teething screaming child sitting on my lap making it very difficult for me 2 write.
my thoughts are with the family in perth!
xxxx
Cherish every moment with your children family and friends because you don't know when it could be your last!
ok must go i have a teething screaming child sitting on my lap making it very difficult for me 2 write.
my thoughts are with the family in perth!
xxxx
Monday, June 26, 2006
Menopause?
Help me im starting menopause already!!! Well im home sick from work today as i woke up at 2am this morning wet from having hot and cold flushes all night!! My bodys way of getting rid of what ever bug i have in my system. I have gone through half a box of tissues already and have slept nearly all day today! thought i better wake myself up otherwise i won't sleep tonite.
Congratulations to Nic & Keith but i was really disappointed in her dress! with all the money that she has you would think that she would of had something modern. Puff Puff arms come one!! Anyways every taste is different i suppose.
Congratulations to Nic & Keith but i was really disappointed in her dress! with all the money that she has you would think that she would of had something modern. Puff Puff arms come one!! Anyways every taste is different i suppose.
Friday, June 23, 2006
Mice are not Nice
Firstly Beck came overon wednesday and visisted with Bradman. It was so much fun and it was good to catch up. The boys where so funny.. so go check out Becks blog for some update pics of Seb and also Bradman.
Secondly, I have super mice in my house!! they are eating my lino they are leaving there droppings everywhere and its making me sick.. So over the last couple of weeks of i have been trying to get rid of them!! Mmm with mice traps but they have been to smart and getting their food and running away, so now i am trying the bait. they are throw bags that the mice eat and are SUPPOSE to die.. well i have gone through 4 packets of this stuff and the mice are still living!!! MMMMMM so now comes the hard stuff.
Pest control are coming in to get rid of my stinky furring yucky ugly friends that have been living in the bottom of my oven..
........ So while seb has been having his sleep this morning I have been in my kitchen with the pino clean and have cleaned all the walls my table my benches, my cupboards the floor everywhere they have been to get rid of the smell and to kinda feel clean!!! But the smell is still on my nose. and i still don't feel clean!!!
I have decided that i am going to keep a food log in my blog now!! It thinking it might straighten me out with not eating so much junk.
Well my lil precious has decided to rise so im going to meet a friend for lunch..
catch ya's all
Secondly, I have super mice in my house!! they are eating my lino they are leaving there droppings everywhere and its making me sick.. So over the last couple of weeks of i have been trying to get rid of them!! Mmm with mice traps but they have been to smart and getting their food and running away, so now i am trying the bait. they are throw bags that the mice eat and are SUPPOSE to die.. well i have gone through 4 packets of this stuff and the mice are still living!!! MMMMMM so now comes the hard stuff.
Pest control are coming in to get rid of my stinky furring yucky ugly friends that have been living in the bottom of my oven..
........ So while seb has been having his sleep this morning I have been in my kitchen with the pino clean and have cleaned all the walls my table my benches, my cupboards the floor everywhere they have been to get rid of the smell and to kinda feel clean!!! But the smell is still on my nose. and i still don't feel clean!!!
I have decided that i am going to keep a food log in my blog now!! It thinking it might straighten me out with not eating so much junk.
Well my lil precious has decided to rise so im going to meet a friend for lunch..
catch ya's all
Monday, June 19, 2006
Vanessa where are you?
My god, how busy can one person be. right now i don't really know where is vanessa is!! I have been that flat out that i have not really had any time to myself! I do hope that things will slow down soon!
I had my sister up last week and that was fun it was good to spend a couple of days with her. We are organising to go on a contiki tour in September next year so i am looking forward to that :) 15 days travelling around europe :) Its something i have wanted to do for ages and I would really love to do it with my sister and some other people that we know. So i have a goal set for myself now :)
What else has happened. so much so muc.. i went to melbourne on the weekend to look for a dress for the ball that i have coming up but do you think i could find anything?? NOPE.. nothing fitted.. my boobs where to big for everything :(
Sooo i have now opted for a skirt and dress, least i will be a little bit girly :)
I have been not 100% this week, as i have not been looking after myself i have got run down and have had a chest thing happening!! Im getting there though.
Sebastyn is doing really well, learning lots of words.. they have been weaning him to the bigs kids room at creche when i say big kids i mean the 1 - 3 yrs and after the holidays he will be going up there full time... Apparently he was getting bored and there is more to do in that room so as long as it is good for his development i am happy. But i went to creche the other day and spoke to them about it as i was being the worrying mother and they told me that sticks up for himself, and that he has been fitting in good!!
Work is still good i still love it, and it keeps me busy!!
Im going to borrow my bros camera one of these days and take some photos.....
My weight has stablised at the moment.. but im content at where i am at the moment as live has just been so busy for me, but i am plodding along and will reach goal weight at some stage.
Well i think thats about it for now!!!
I had my sister up last week and that was fun it was good to spend a couple of days with her. We are organising to go on a contiki tour in September next year so i am looking forward to that :) 15 days travelling around europe :) Its something i have wanted to do for ages and I would really love to do it with my sister and some other people that we know. So i have a goal set for myself now :)
What else has happened. so much so muc.. i went to melbourne on the weekend to look for a dress for the ball that i have coming up but do you think i could find anything?? NOPE.. nothing fitted.. my boobs where to big for everything :(
Sooo i have now opted for a skirt and dress, least i will be a little bit girly :)
I have been not 100% this week, as i have not been looking after myself i have got run down and have had a chest thing happening!! Im getting there though.
Sebastyn is doing really well, learning lots of words.. they have been weaning him to the bigs kids room at creche when i say big kids i mean the 1 - 3 yrs and after the holidays he will be going up there full time... Apparently he was getting bored and there is more to do in that room so as long as it is good for his development i am happy. But i went to creche the other day and spoke to them about it as i was being the worrying mother and they told me that sticks up for himself, and that he has been fitting in good!!
Work is still good i still love it, and it keeps me busy!!
Im going to borrow my bros camera one of these days and take some photos.....
My weight has stablised at the moment.. but im content at where i am at the moment as live has just been so busy for me, but i am plodding along and will reach goal weight at some stage.
Well i think thats about it for now!!!
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Lazy
I have become so lazy with my blogging lately! I think its more a need to find time to blog with such a busy life. Work takes up so much time and i seriously need to get myself organised and prepare for my weeks.
The long weekend was a busy weekend for me! I went and stayed with my dad for one nite. I feel that things have changed. Its weird i feel when i go and see dad now im not going home. Does that make sense. I just feel that i have to tred on egg shells when im at dads. Its not like a home its more like a palace that has everything in place and things can't get messy or you can't make a mess! But besides that i caught up with my aunty who i haven't seen in ages and it was really nice to see her. She has a labradoodle dog and its huge and seb had sooo much with him..... its was funny... Coby could of eaten seb all up!! :)
I am really spewing that i have not found my digital camera as there have been so many photograph moments of seb that i have not been able to catch. I am going to have to borrow my brothers camera and take some photos and update you all on how much he has grown. He is very cheeky and copying everything. I must go and get him weighed and see how he is going.
The exercise and eating has been really crap lately, but on a good note i ran for the first time at the gym on tuesday for 15 minutes and my shins didn't hurt, so im pretty proud about that!!
I have to balls coming up at the start of July so next weekend im off to melbourne to go dress shopping. Im looking foward to getting dressed up and having my hair and make up done, as most of you who know me well im not a girly girl!!!! So i will have to put a photo of me in a dress on here because it will be one a million :)
I hope that everyone had a good break over the weekend.... I actually did get my house clean, but that didn't last long with seb getting into everything and making a mess :)
Well im off to Bed its been a big day. My sister has come to stay for a couple of days.
The long weekend was a busy weekend for me! I went and stayed with my dad for one nite. I feel that things have changed. Its weird i feel when i go and see dad now im not going home. Does that make sense. I just feel that i have to tred on egg shells when im at dads. Its not like a home its more like a palace that has everything in place and things can't get messy or you can't make a mess! But besides that i caught up with my aunty who i haven't seen in ages and it was really nice to see her. She has a labradoodle dog and its huge and seb had sooo much with him..... its was funny... Coby could of eaten seb all up!! :)
I am really spewing that i have not found my digital camera as there have been so many photograph moments of seb that i have not been able to catch. I am going to have to borrow my brothers camera and take some photos and update you all on how much he has grown. He is very cheeky and copying everything. I must go and get him weighed and see how he is going.
The exercise and eating has been really crap lately, but on a good note i ran for the first time at the gym on tuesday for 15 minutes and my shins didn't hurt, so im pretty proud about that!!
I have to balls coming up at the start of July so next weekend im off to melbourne to go dress shopping. Im looking foward to getting dressed up and having my hair and make up done, as most of you who know me well im not a girly girl!!!! So i will have to put a photo of me in a dress on here because it will be one a million :)
I hope that everyone had a good break over the weekend.... I actually did get my house clean, but that didn't last long with seb getting into everything and making a mess :)
Well im off to Bed its been a big day. My sister has come to stay for a couple of days.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
I had a friend visit
Well its been a while since i updated... Firstly i was thinking about paying out my gym membership because im sick of it coming out fortnightly but i dont really have 2 grand spare.. i was so shocked when i found out.. but thats what im paying for my gym and my PT sessions and my slim meetings...
Im really driving myself to try and save money as i really want a new car and i really want to get my own house..
I had a friend visit me on monday morning just i was about to jump in the shower... A fucking huge mouse i nearly broke my toilet seat as i jumped up onto it!! I was so mad!!!
Also i have been in this house for 5 weeks now not only have i still got 5 boxes to unpack i had my first bath on satruday nite.. but it wasn't without being interrupted :( but anyways i got it and thats all that matters.
My lil man is getting his molers at the moment :( so he has not been well but he is still cheeky as ever!!! he is saying more words his latest is "bath"!!!
I think im ready for a holiday!!! i have not stopped since i started work and its really draining me!!! I have my sis coming up next week so that will be good.. im looking foward to that.
Night everyone.. got to get myself ready as its my week to have lil one!
xx
Im really driving myself to try and save money as i really want a new car and i really want to get my own house..
I had a friend visit me on monday morning just i was about to jump in the shower... A fucking huge mouse i nearly broke my toilet seat as i jumped up onto it!! I was so mad!!!
Also i have been in this house for 5 weeks now not only have i still got 5 boxes to unpack i had my first bath on satruday nite.. but it wasn't without being interrupted :( but anyways i got it and thats all that matters.
My lil man is getting his molers at the moment :( so he has not been well but he is still cheeky as ever!!! he is saying more words his latest is "bath"!!!
I think im ready for a holiday!!! i have not stopped since i started work and its really draining me!!! I have my sis coming up next week so that will be good.. im looking foward to that.
Night everyone.. got to get myself ready as its my week to have lil one!
xx
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
I forgot about how much Pain.......
There is when your getting a PT!! Awwww my god.. its been about 8 weeks since i had a PT at the gym and im feeling sorry for myself today. Not only is my butt sore my thighs and hamstrings i can't hardly sit down and get up!!! I had a massage this morning thinking it might help but i don't think it has, i must keep stretching today and moving to help release this soreness from my body.
Im glad im back doing them though because now im pushing myself and building my strength back up.
Im really excited my sister is coming to stay with me in two weeks time... Its been ages since just me and her hanged out so im looking forward to doing some sister things together!!
Well my lil man is having a sleep so i might get some house work done while i can.
Im glad im back doing them though because now im pushing myself and building my strength back up.
Im really excited my sister is coming to stay with me in two weeks time... Its been ages since just me and her hanged out so im looking forward to doing some sister things together!!
Well my lil man is having a sleep so i might get some house work done while i can.
Sunday, May 28, 2006
I feel Lost!
It has really hit me today about me being a single working mum! I use to go off my head that adam didn't see his son enough and now the tables have turned!
Not only is seb a lil daddy's boy and everything is daddy and him wanting to spend time with daddy, but I feel lost. friday morning i started work at 7.45am. I was up at 6.30 had a shower and got ready for work. Woke seb up at 7.00 changed his bum packed the car and off to creche it was. Mmmmm i spent a whole 10 minutes with him. When i dropped him off at creche he screamed his head off, because he didn't want me to go! Im really missing the time that we had together and I feel because i work late nights and he is spending all his time with his dad that im losing the connection we had. Its hitting my heart and it hurts. Like today. Adam was around to help me with my student desk and he had to go home for a bit, and he picked seb up to give him a kiss good bye and i put my arms out to get seb off him, and he didn't want to come to me, he kept turning his back to me... over and over again... Adam said to me to stop being silly and not to take it to heart but how could i not, when my own son didn't want to be with me. Its just been a few lil things this week that have happened with seb that make me realise am i being to strict on him? should i loosen the string a bit?? But then there is the nasty side of me that is saying no, you don't want a spoilt child who gets away with everything. I think seb has realised who lets him do stuff and who doesn't. he may only be 14 months old but he knows. Children are smarter than we give them credit for!
Can someone make some sense of what im going through here? or am i worrying about nothing and if that is the case someone tell me to pull my head in!!
Not only is seb a lil daddy's boy and everything is daddy and him wanting to spend time with daddy, but I feel lost. friday morning i started work at 7.45am. I was up at 6.30 had a shower and got ready for work. Woke seb up at 7.00 changed his bum packed the car and off to creche it was. Mmmmm i spent a whole 10 minutes with him. When i dropped him off at creche he screamed his head off, because he didn't want me to go! Im really missing the time that we had together and I feel because i work late nights and he is spending all his time with his dad that im losing the connection we had. Its hitting my heart and it hurts. Like today. Adam was around to help me with my student desk and he had to go home for a bit, and he picked seb up to give him a kiss good bye and i put my arms out to get seb off him, and he didn't want to come to me, he kept turning his back to me... over and over again... Adam said to me to stop being silly and not to take it to heart but how could i not, when my own son didn't want to be with me. Its just been a few lil things this week that have happened with seb that make me realise am i being to strict on him? should i loosen the string a bit?? But then there is the nasty side of me that is saying no, you don't want a spoilt child who gets away with everything. I think seb has realised who lets him do stuff and who doesn't. he may only be 14 months old but he knows. Children are smarter than we give them credit for!
Can someone make some sense of what im going through here? or am i worrying about nothing and if that is the case someone tell me to pull my head in!!
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Sydney
Well i spent the weekend in sydney at a conference for work, and met some more chiropractors and their CA's ( chiropractors assistance) and it was overall and very exciting weekend. I learnt lots not only about myself but how my bosses now want their business to run and what they want to achieve..
I learnt alot about universal laws and headspace, and how powerful your mind and concsious is and how it can affect your day to day routines, thinking etc..
One tip that i really liked and will start doing more of is journelling more, and writing appointments and day to day activities in a diary.. WHY.. well look at it this way, when we say that we are going to go for a walk today, most of generally won't do it. But when we actaully write it down in the diary and give it a time and a place we generally more incline to keep that appointment.. so if i say im going to go for a walk today from 9.30am - 10.30am around the lake, i know i will do it.. Does that make sense??
mindset is very strong.... Synergy is very strong!! And having personal goals is important for everyone.. If you wake up in the morning going i hate going to work, i hate my life blaah blaah of course your going to have a shit day.. but if you wake up in the morning knowing you have purpose you have something that you want to achieve then your day is going to be fantastic because you know you are that one step closer to achieving your goal. So for me im going to work not only because it is fulfiling for me, but i have to support my son, and im saving for a new car, so i look forward to working every day!! Looking at things as positives instead of negatives all the time.
When i first started my bosses said to me that it is so important to concentrate on your patients that are coming in for the day, that the appointment book is full, etc and i was like ohh right,, then what i klearnt on the weekend, made it all make more sense to me.... If your thinking about what is going on in your life, what you have to do after work, etc your patients are more likely to ring up and reschedule or cancel to give you more time to think about yourself.. where as if your thinking about your patients and how they are coming in today to help get their spine aligned so they can function to their full potiential, they are more likely to make their appointment.
They energy in the office on monday was fantastic.... and not only was it one of the busiest days that i have had since being their, we had 3 new clients ring in and book in for that monday.. so it was good...
THIS WEEK IS CHIROPRACTIC WEEK so please look after yourself and go and see a chiropractor.. try something alternative before turning to medicine. Not only have i seen the benefits that it is doing to me, and sebastyn, i want other people to understand the importance of being healthy. Its not only about your spine correct, and your nerves functioning properly and allowing your organs to function, but its also about what your putting into your body. So many processed foods are so bad for you. When Beck first told me that Matt made all food fresh and from stratch i was like hell i don't have time for that.. But now i see the importance. If you can eat only one thing organic try and make it your meat. Processed meat is very high in chemicals and fat...
On that note, im going to have a shower and get myself ready for work while seb is sleeping.
I learnt alot about universal laws and headspace, and how powerful your mind and concsious is and how it can affect your day to day routines, thinking etc..
One tip that i really liked and will start doing more of is journelling more, and writing appointments and day to day activities in a diary.. WHY.. well look at it this way, when we say that we are going to go for a walk today, most of generally won't do it. But when we actaully write it down in the diary and give it a time and a place we generally more incline to keep that appointment.. so if i say im going to go for a walk today from 9.30am - 10.30am around the lake, i know i will do it.. Does that make sense??
mindset is very strong.... Synergy is very strong!! And having personal goals is important for everyone.. If you wake up in the morning going i hate going to work, i hate my life blaah blaah of course your going to have a shit day.. but if you wake up in the morning knowing you have purpose you have something that you want to achieve then your day is going to be fantastic because you know you are that one step closer to achieving your goal. So for me im going to work not only because it is fulfiling for me, but i have to support my son, and im saving for a new car, so i look forward to working every day!! Looking at things as positives instead of negatives all the time.
When i first started my bosses said to me that it is so important to concentrate on your patients that are coming in for the day, that the appointment book is full, etc and i was like ohh right,, then what i klearnt on the weekend, made it all make more sense to me.... If your thinking about what is going on in your life, what you have to do after work, etc your patients are more likely to ring up and reschedule or cancel to give you more time to think about yourself.. where as if your thinking about your patients and how they are coming in today to help get their spine aligned so they can function to their full potiential, they are more likely to make their appointment.
They energy in the office on monday was fantastic.... and not only was it one of the busiest days that i have had since being their, we had 3 new clients ring in and book in for that monday.. so it was good...
THIS WEEK IS CHIROPRACTIC WEEK so please look after yourself and go and see a chiropractor.. try something alternative before turning to medicine. Not only have i seen the benefits that it is doing to me, and sebastyn, i want other people to understand the importance of being healthy. Its not only about your spine correct, and your nerves functioning properly and allowing your organs to function, but its also about what your putting into your body. So many processed foods are so bad for you. When Beck first told me that Matt made all food fresh and from stratch i was like hell i don't have time for that.. But now i see the importance. If you can eat only one thing organic try and make it your meat. Processed meat is very high in chemicals and fat...
On that note, im going to have a shower and get myself ready for work while seb is sleeping.
Week 16 - Weigh in and 11CMS less Arse
Wow what a week i have had... Sydney was awesome exciting and beautiful!! learnt lots and can't wait to see what my future holds for me.
I got Measured this week and sheree was giving me my overall lost of cms.. and i have lost 11cms off my butt!!! Weight went down but body fat hasn't so i have to work on that... so back to food diary.
Well i have a lil one trying to steal my computer so i must be off.. i will update more when i have a moment of peace.
Ness
I got Measured this week and sheree was giving me my overall lost of cms.. and i have lost 11cms off my butt!!! Weight went down but body fat hasn't so i have to work on that... so back to food diary.
Well i have a lil one trying to steal my computer so i must be off.. i will update more when i have a moment of peace.
Ness
Thursday, May 18, 2006
Weigh in Week 14 & 15
Ok first update i will do is i love my job... the people i work with are great and the clients are great and i feel great..
Weigh in Week 14 I weighed in at 76.4 and this week I weighed in at 75.5 kgs.. So guess what I have 9.5 kgs to go to goal weight. How exciting is that?? Im excited i tell you.
Im feeling good about myself and feeling healthy even though im not eating enough. im eating lots of soup the last couple of days because i finish work late its something easy to cook and eat.
Well thats, that out of the way..
Okkkk i don't really know where to start....
MY HOUSE!! i will have to borrow my bros camera and take some photos. i have been here nearly 3 weeks and im so not settled in yet.. hahaha funny that when you work and have a child.... maybe sometime soon i might have some stability in my life... LOL
MY JOB- Well i am what they call a chiropractic assistant, and i love my job i really do.... i am off to sydney this weekend for a conference which i am looking forward to. Weekend away with my bosses, get to learn a little more about them :) I have just started learning rooms as i have been on front desk for the last 2 weeks and i tell you when u are in rooms you have no concept of time.. Its amazing seeing the chiropractor at work and how she does things. I have been getting adjustments the last few weeks and i have been taking seb also and it does wonders. my body is changing slowly, but i can feel the changes... and in the long run it will be better for my health and well being.
MY SON - Seb is a little terror and i love him to bits.. he is growing up to this lil young man so quickly.. good first impressions he made on saturday nite out for Becks tea though. Spewed everywhere didn't he beckie???? Was lovely!!!! Sorry Brock and Michelle :) hehehehe hopefully next time you see him he might be happier.
MY EXCERCISE - LOL hahahaha what exercise... i have been so slack, but i am tyring to get myself into a routine.. but im starting back PTing next week which i am looking foward to as i have been losing weight but not the body fat and i need to get that down. Aiden who is one of my bosses is so good full of information. i could talk to him all day about eating and exercise etc, but one thing that i am trying to do is eat organic. so seb and i have been having organic milk and veggies as i am trying to cut down on the chemicals that we put into our body.Also a tip that he gave me... You should drink 1 ltr of water to every 30kgs you weigh every day. so there is something useful for you. I am going through a lot of changes in my life right now, but its all for the good, and its about me having the energy levels i need to keep me going every day and to be able to play with my lil boy and be able to do the things that i want to do.
MY FRIEND BRON - Well my friend bron has been overseas since october has fallen in love with a aussie bloke and now is back for a few weeks. but we can't catch up which is a bummer and i miss her... and so we talking on the phone the other day and she won't be back again until march next year.... think i might have to save my pennies and go and visit her in canada... Can be a goal that i can aim for :)
Well i have to start work nice and early in the morning so i should get some shut eye.. hope this is an update to keep you all going.... i can' wait to read everyones blogs and see how you are all going and what you been up too!!!
Until next time, which won't be that long away... Take care and smile at a stranger!! you will make their day
xxxx
Weigh in Week 14 I weighed in at 76.4 and this week I weighed in at 75.5 kgs.. So guess what I have 9.5 kgs to go to goal weight. How exciting is that?? Im excited i tell you.
Im feeling good about myself and feeling healthy even though im not eating enough. im eating lots of soup the last couple of days because i finish work late its something easy to cook and eat.
Well thats, that out of the way..
Okkkk i don't really know where to start....
MY HOUSE!! i will have to borrow my bros camera and take some photos. i have been here nearly 3 weeks and im so not settled in yet.. hahaha funny that when you work and have a child.... maybe sometime soon i might have some stability in my life... LOL
MY JOB- Well i am what they call a chiropractic assistant, and i love my job i really do.... i am off to sydney this weekend for a conference which i am looking forward to. Weekend away with my bosses, get to learn a little more about them :) I have just started learning rooms as i have been on front desk for the last 2 weeks and i tell you when u are in rooms you have no concept of time.. Its amazing seeing the chiropractor at work and how she does things. I have been getting adjustments the last few weeks and i have been taking seb also and it does wonders. my body is changing slowly, but i can feel the changes... and in the long run it will be better for my health and well being.
MY SON - Seb is a little terror and i love him to bits.. he is growing up to this lil young man so quickly.. good first impressions he made on saturday nite out for Becks tea though. Spewed everywhere didn't he beckie???? Was lovely!!!! Sorry Brock and Michelle :) hehehehe hopefully next time you see him he might be happier.
MY EXCERCISE - LOL hahahaha what exercise... i have been so slack, but i am tyring to get myself into a routine.. but im starting back PTing next week which i am looking foward to as i have been losing weight but not the body fat and i need to get that down. Aiden who is one of my bosses is so good full of information. i could talk to him all day about eating and exercise etc, but one thing that i am trying to do is eat organic. so seb and i have been having organic milk and veggies as i am trying to cut down on the chemicals that we put into our body.Also a tip that he gave me... You should drink 1 ltr of water to every 30kgs you weigh every day. so there is something useful for you. I am going through a lot of changes in my life right now, but its all for the good, and its about me having the energy levels i need to keep me going every day and to be able to play with my lil boy and be able to do the things that i want to do.
MY FRIEND BRON - Well my friend bron has been overseas since october has fallen in love with a aussie bloke and now is back for a few weeks. but we can't catch up which is a bummer and i miss her... and so we talking on the phone the other day and she won't be back again until march next year.... think i might have to save my pennies and go and visit her in canada... Can be a goal that i can aim for :)
Well i have to start work nice and early in the morning so i should get some shut eye.. hope this is an update to keep you all going.... i can' wait to read everyones blogs and see how you are all going and what you been up too!!!
Until next time, which won't be that long away... Take care and smile at a stranger!! you will make their day
xxxx
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Howdy!
Just quick note, the net has finally been connected at my new house.. Yippie.. just about to go to work for the afternoon, but tonite will be a hugggeee catch up night so be prepared for lots and lots of reading... and i can't wait to catch up on everyone else... i miss you all
Ness
xxx
Ness
xxx
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Weigh in - Week 13 & and a House Finally
So its been two weeks since i have been weighed. but i weighed in at 77.1 and body fat the same. the last two weeks have been very draining on me with work and trying to get into a routine. I have not exercised i have not eaten properly so i need to get some order in my life.
On a positive note i am loving my job, I love the environment, I love the people I work with, and im learning lots about the body and health.
I am having adjustments done to my back, and yesterday I had x-rays done to see what areas of my spine need work! I am also taking sebastyn in today to have his first visit and determine if chiropractic can help him.
On another positive note, i finally got a house. which i move into on saturday. I am so excited and so happy that everything is finally working out for me! Its 3 bedroom has a huge backyard and has a bath. so the first thing i am going to do is have a bloody bath since its been s long.
Well i can smell a nasty smell coming from sebastyns lil bottom so i must go change it and get on with my day.
Hope everyones week has been good and i hope to catch up with everyones blogs soon.
Ness
xxxx
On a positive note i am loving my job, I love the environment, I love the people I work with, and im learning lots about the body and health.
I am having adjustments done to my back, and yesterday I had x-rays done to see what areas of my spine need work! I am also taking sebastyn in today to have his first visit and determine if chiropractic can help him.
On another positive note, i finally got a house. which i move into on saturday. I am so excited and so happy that everything is finally working out for me! Its 3 bedroom has a huge backyard and has a bath. so the first thing i am going to do is have a bloody bath since its been s long.
Well i can smell a nasty smell coming from sebastyns lil bottom so i must go change it and get on with my day.
Hope everyones week has been good and i hope to catch up with everyones blogs soon.
Ness
xxxx
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